On Turning 40

I started this blog post, a couple of weeks ago when I turned 40 so forgive the reference to me turning 40, but it will give you perspective. I started writing this as a twinflame post, but it turned out to be more of a Masculine and Feminine Energy Message, but then I decided to split the message in two because my guides had their input as well...hopefully you will read this one and the one entitled: Channeled Message: Dance of Life, Balance & Twinflames

Yeesterday, I turned 40. Hard to believe that is my age. When I was in my 20's I looked so much older than I do now. I remember when I was 25 I went to the casino with my friends who were in their 30's at the time; they were carded, but I wasn't. I couldn't believe it. Apparently, I looked pretty old and when I look back at those pictures during that time period, I looked really unhappy. So much has changed for me in the last 15 years. To even say, fifteen years is weird for me because it sounds so long ago, but it feels more like a blink of the eye.

I went through a lot of emotion yesterday morning not because I was turning 40. I had a few people say it is only a number, but they really didn't get it. It isn't that I am 40 that I cried. I cried because at 26 to 28, I knew that if I didn't change my life I was living that I would be dead before I was 40. It had more to do with me not living my life and just doing my daily routine that I was "supposed to do". Since when did living become a chore? Anyway, those of you who have known me a long time know my story of how sick I was on a daily basis. I truly believe that if I didn’t change my life I would be here now so I am so grateful to be alive in 2012. I am so grateful for the opportunities life has given to me; even if I don’t appreciate them as they come until much later when the dust has settled.