I begin a new journey of healing...here starts my story.
Dear Friends,
It has been a few months since I sent out an email to you all. As you know I
have been going through a lot of health issues in the last few years and
unfortunately, that has not changed.
At about age 28, I remember walking out of a doctor's office and hearing a
voice say, "if you don't change your life now, you will not live to be
40." I was working at the State Capitol in Hartford, CT and running
campaigns on the side, both political and labor related. I worked way too
many hours and was under way too much stress for my sensitive soul and was sick
all the time. I heard those words and immediately I changed. I quit my
job, left my Masters program, and created a new world for me; focused on my
self-healing that led me to opening my business and experiencing adventures in
learning, growing, helping and healing myself and so many others. It has
been a journey of discovery and love, and I've loved every minute of it.
As some of you know, I have never completely recovered from injuries and
exhaustion since my car accident. I kept feeling something was wrong, and
did everything I could holistically to function, continue my work and bring
love to the earth. If you have known me and followed me for some
time, I have suffered severe fatigue the last several years and was told
by doctors that it was simply because I was in pain.
I turned 49 on March 1st, and on March 31st I underwent another surgery for the
removal of a lymph node in my neck for a biopsy.
I was diagnosed with Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia.
I was shocked, but not totally surprised since I knew something was not
right. This surprised my doctors, as well, as I've been told
over-and-over again that I look healthy and so young for my age. I have
to say that one doesn't just wake up one day having Advanced anything; no I
believe I have had this at least the last 20 years, if not my entire
life. I credit my healing and holistic lifestyle for the years I believe
I have been in and out of remission. Why do I think I have had it for many
years? Well, I have experienced the particular symptoms since my 20's and
the crazy thing is that this dis-ease is usually diagnosed through blood work
20 years before symptoms show, and it is usually diagnosed in 70 year
olds. When I was a child, we lived in an area where chemicals were being
dumped in the nearby river and we drank the well water. Yes, a story
similar to Erin Brockovich; and my parents tried to fight the chemical
company--they worked hard to get the Freedom of Information Act passed in the
State of Connecticut back in the late 1970's, but it wasn't enough - the
company still dumped enough to affect families in two towns. I was sick the
majority of my life--if you grew up with me, you know I missed ridiculous
amounts of school--it appeared I didn't have a good immune system, but I
disagree. I have an amazing immune system because I am still here at 49
years old even after all that I have been through physically.
I share this news with you for many reasons. I have to. You are the
people in my life that have brought such love and light into my world; and
supported me through all my challenges. I have always been transparent
with you and I don't want to stop that. I also want you to understand why
it has been so hard for me, particularly in the last several years, to maintain
my business fully. I just haven't been feeling 100%.
And yes, I am scared, but I am also hopeful. I find myself wavering
between paralyzing fear, a realization of relief that I know what is wrong with
me and optimism that if I can keep myself in and out of remission over the last
many years, without the assistance of doctors, then I can do this now
with the help of the right healing team.
With all that being said, I am taking some time off from my business, not
taking on new clients and not teaching any classes at the present time. However, I still want to work and will
continue to pick up sessions in a few weeks with my current clients, through
shorter, sessions because it is really good for my mental health and it is what
I love to do, helping people. I ask for understanding if I have to cancel, reschedule appointments as I have really worked a very limited schedule and it is has become more and more limited in the last year.
If you are wondering how you can help? Here
are some ideas:
1. Check out my new website, it has options for you to buy my prerecorded
meditations, light language activations, my books, sprays and more. These
will help you to heal too!
Click here: www.soulstarhealing.com
2, If you are a healer please send healing to me, or better yet join a Healing
Circle that my dearest friend Marcia is putting together to help me heal. It
will be a weekly opportunity to connect at the same time. You can contact
me and I will add you to the group.
3. Want to cheer me up? I need that too! Please send cards, inspirational
thoughts, whatever you feel to me at April D'Amato, PO Box 465, Groton, CT
06340.
I thank you all for listening and supporting and loving me throughout the
years. While this is a difficult diagnosis, I really need your inspiration,
love, healing and continued support of me and my business.
In love, light and service of humanity,
EstaRa April
