I was channeling my Energy Thoughts today and during my channel, I wrote the following, which prompted me to create this post:
"Well, if you notice we are in a completely different place than where we
were last summer. Stop for a moment and think about what life was
like 3, 6, 9, 12 months ago. Life is different, eh? Far different or
just subtly different? I know for myself, the energy has opened up more
to new possibilities, but boy was it a bumpy ride over the last year at
times. That ride was courtesy of all the healing/clearing work I have
done on myself, waves of emotions that reverberate back and forth
between me and my twinflame and just learning to navigate this new energy and new light body. (Sidenote: Yes, I have done more
twinflame work in the past year than I ever dreamed I would be
doing--that is where my journey took me. Think about where your journey
took you through the last year.)
So, I did just that! I thought for a moment through the last several months and brought myself to last July and realized in that instant something powerful happened; I had consciously closed down one timeline. Today as I am writing to you, I recognize what I healed and closed was a subconscious block/obstruction between me and my twin. Let me explain. Before meeting our twin, we are have likely been in intimate love relationships with others. Each time we interact with someone a cord is created, but when we are in romantic relationship with someone and share intimacy that not only the thickens the cord, but creates an energetic exchange where you receive a part of them and they receive a part of you. This bond stays in tact until it is severed/broken consciously. We travel with the same souls for many lifetimes so it makes that soul connection stronger and the bond tighter. Many times it is done through a grieving process, consciously releasing the other person or by natural separation if done in a healthy exchange. Other times, even long after the ending of a relationship, the connection is not completely released; either because an aspect of one or the other doesn't let go or and aspect of both of you don't want to let go. This is a very simplified explanation to help you understand how the subconscious energy works.
Before meeting my twinflame, I had three relationships where I truly felt a connection on the soul level and experienced what I consider real love for them. Looking back now, none of them compare to my connection with my twinflame, (whom I just smile about as I write this), but it doesn't mean I didn't feel the love and feel a connection on the soul level that was beyond most of my other relationships. Last year I was visiting a friend that was away and staying about four hours from where one of those men lived; I will refer to him as J. I didn't realize that we still had a strong connection, yes I had fond memories of being with him, but I didn't realize what that meant. I hadn't spoken to J in nearly 10 years, but as soon as I crossed the line into the state he lived in, my antenna were up and I could feel him. As I continued to drive through the state, I got the sense that he felt me there too. My entire trip I had this awareness of J and it really superseded me feeling my twinflame, in other words, the connection literally blocked me from feeling my twin. I started to remember all the times I spent with him and would even dream of him at night. I remember I could feel him come into my room at night. Yes, this was all energetically. (and if you think this is crazy--believe me have I got stories for you!) I was puzzled, and yet a bit intrigued, it got me a little giddy and curious. His energy was all around me, and his name kept showing up everywhere and all the "good" memories were pouring in. Finally, on the last day of my trip I couldn't take it anymore and decided to call him. I didn't have his phone number because it has been so many years, but voila, his phone number came pouring back in to me and I called him. We chatted for about 15 minutes and he recognized my voice right away. While we were talking, I realized that it was easy to talk with him again, as if time hadn't passed. I also knew that if we were closer geographically, we would definitely have met somewhere. Thinking back now, it still surprises me the connection I still had with him; there was still a place in each of us that was familiar. That familiar place was home to our soul connection which is why it was so comfortable, you can always get a glimmer of home with a soul mate, but until you meet your twin you aren't quite sure what home is.
I hadn't realized at the time what was
happening--or did I? I think I may have had a thought of it , but as I
After that time, I don't have J run through my mind, not even occasionally, except for the writing of this post. I acknowledge now that I feel free and I have set J free too. As I was typing this, it occurred to me that there may be one more person that I need to clear from--this is the frustration and beauty of healing, it seems to never be done, but it is possible to do! I am getting ready to go home from this life with my
twinflame and I want to clear out anything that can obstruct that. I digress and can continue to talk about my journey and how I
know one of my greatest missions is to come here to find twinflame,
reunite and take him home with me to another land, place, reality.
The reason I wrote this post is so that you can look at your life and experiences to clean up anything/anyone that may still be connected to you that could be causing a block or interference between you and your twin unknowingly. How will you know, you ask? I encourage you to make a list particularly of the people you have had an intimate, romantic relationship with. Find a quiet place where you will not be interrupted and perform a grounding and breathing exercise so that your energy is at its optimum and as clear as you can get it. Now read the first name and be still with it. What comes to mind for you? What thoughts come in? Do you feel anything in your body? These are few steps to determine if you have an emotional/mental/spiritual/physical charge with them. The charge doesn't have to be loving like it was with mine, it could also be anger or any one of the emotions we feel. If you experience something, then you likely may have a cord/tie to that individual or they have a tie to you; and subconsciously they are still there. This is not always easy to discover on your own and may need assistance. Ask your favorite healer to help you with this exercise or feel free to schedule some time with me if you think this may be a block you are experiencing.