Happy December! Happy Holidays!
May your Holidays be full of peace that you find within, memories that can be shared, faith that all is well and hope that all your dreams will come true in the New Year.
December marks the end of 2009, I don't know about you, but I am looking at my life and evaluating it just like we all do. There are some things that I am liking and there are some things that I'd like to change.
I think we need to remember to look at our life with love. Rather than thinking of all the things we want to change. The only way we can change our life is to accept the life we are living now. The only way to move forward with the changes in our life is to find a more positive vibration empowering us to make those changes.
Love your life as it is at this moment by taking this month to look at all the things in your life that you do love. They could be simple things like I love that I have a car that works. Or I love that I have a place to live that is safe and warm. We take those things for granted, but they are important to our life. You will find if you look that there are as many things to love about your life as there are snowflakes falling from the sky....
So this brings me to this month's affirmation....I love my life.
Last evening I had a conversation with an old friend. She reminded me that I am human too! Sometimes I forget that I am human too and feel that I have to solve all the problems of the world and my life too! Sometimes I forget that I could simply ask for help or for a hug from a friend. I know I am very good at offering encouragement, words of love and hope for the people in my life. I am also good about always being the strong one. Last night made me realize that I do deserve to not always be the strong one that I am human.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
My Thoughts on 2012
This is a brief thought about 2012. I often get asked the question of, “what do you think about 2012?” My simple answer is that it is just another year. People are all talking about preparing for 2012 and the big shift, but I believe we are in the shift already--the real changes are being experienced now. Do you notice life pushes at you to make changes and decisions that you have been able to keep at bay for some time? Do you find yourself looking for happiness in a place within yourself rather than outside of you? Do you find that you want to live more simply and peacefully? Do you notice time seems to be speeding by faster than ever? Do you notice family and friends making choices that you never dreamed they would make? Do you notice that the pull to look within is greater and that veering off that path seems to make life changes a bit more difficult? That is the shift that is occurring now. 2012 will be the grandest and most notable shift towards peace in human consciousness.
Over the last several years people are being called in to change their life and leave behind that which no longer serves them. If you have been awakened whether your light is on or flickering on and off, it is evidenced by the things going on around the planet: money, power, distractions, individuality to name a few. Change is always hard and often pushes people to their limits to make that change before they are able to see or feel that peace. That is what is happening right now to humanity and has been happening. The thing is we can have PEACE ON EARTH. It begins with us individually and each one of us is on our way to achieving it. Yes, appearances may not seem as such if you only read the news and listen to the drama that people tend to like to get caught up in (we are humans we love drama—or their wouldn’t be movies, theater and amazing actors in our world).
2012 just means that the necessary percentage of people needed to shift the planet and its inhabitants to a more loving, peace filled consciousness will be achieved and bring about the "new earth" as it is so called. So I guess you can say it is the end of the world as we know it? I don’t know about you---but I have been ready and I look to the future of our world with joy and anticipation!
I hope this helps you to better understand my thoughts on 2012. I could talk more, but you all know I can go on for days about the things I feel passionate about so I will end here for now.
Over the last several years people are being called in to change their life and leave behind that which no longer serves them. If you have been awakened whether your light is on or flickering on and off, it is evidenced by the things going on around the planet: money, power, distractions, individuality to name a few. Change is always hard and often pushes people to their limits to make that change before they are able to see or feel that peace. That is what is happening right now to humanity and has been happening. The thing is we can have PEACE ON EARTH. It begins with us individually and each one of us is on our way to achieving it. Yes, appearances may not seem as such if you only read the news and listen to the drama that people tend to like to get caught up in (we are humans we love drama—or their wouldn’t be movies, theater and amazing actors in our world).
2012 just means that the necessary percentage of people needed to shift the planet and its inhabitants to a more loving, peace filled consciousness will be achieved and bring about the "new earth" as it is so called. So I guess you can say it is the end of the world as we know it? I don’t know about you---but I have been ready and I look to the future of our world with joy and anticipation!
I hope this helps you to better understand my thoughts on 2012. I could talk more, but you all know I can go on for days about the things I feel passionate about so I will end here for now.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Less Drama
So here it is a beautiful Sunday afternoon in Connecticut, by far the best day of the weekend, but to me the best in a week. I can’t believe it! I sit here in the house writing this to you all instead of enjoying the beauty of the day. I wish I could say as I sit here I am doing this because I chose to sit in all day to write, but I didn’t. In fact, there has been no choice to stay home today. Instead, my car broke down keeping me home today. Literally–broke down—yes a 2007 Honda Civic went kaput. How is that possible you ask? I asked the exact same question. And I noticed my reaction is one of humor I laugh because what are the chances, I mean seriously, what are the chances of a Honda not working? I mean I chose this car simply due to the fact that it doesn’t do that—well that is what everyone told me and still tells me even today when so clearly, my car did break down! Oh well, I changed my plans and I am sitting here writing a note.
The other day I came across the following quote by Myrlie Evers , “I have reached a point in my life where I understand the pain and the challenges; and my attitude is one of standing up with open arms to meet them all!”
Isn’t that an amazing attitude to have? What a beautiful life it would be if we all could do that. I have to honestly say that I discovered that I there is much truth and peace in that statement. A few years ago, I easily found that choosing to live life that way made me more present in my day and life was a lot less complicated. It was absolutely incredible.
However, what I found was that some things happened in my life that caused me to become out of balance in my life and my energy. Being human and having so many human experiences happen all at once, it made me overwhelmed which in essence made me want to deal with life’s challenges less and less. As a result, I lost my way a little bit and was reminded to put me first. So often, I forget and jump off the path of healing and so often I am blessed to have my angels, my guides and my life experiences remind me. And, if I am paying enough attention to them I will quickly get back together and if I am not it may take a little longer.
The quote above reminded me to look at my life again. A few things came to my attention this past week ending with the car stuff. I choose to greet the challenges as they come rather than running to avoid them. What I notice though is that I meet a lot of people who choose to run from life and life’s challenges by way of distractions or literally, by way of creating more drama in their life to distract people from what the original situation is. I choose to be happy in this moment by embracing life’s challenges and pain. I choose to take things one day at a time rather than jumping forward or getting angry from the get go. View the world differently and make less drama in my life. What about you?
The other day I came across the following quote by Myrlie Evers , “I have reached a point in my life where I understand the pain and the challenges; and my attitude is one of standing up with open arms to meet them all!”
Isn’t that an amazing attitude to have? What a beautiful life it would be if we all could do that. I have to honestly say that I discovered that I there is much truth and peace in that statement. A few years ago, I easily found that choosing to live life that way made me more present in my day and life was a lot less complicated. It was absolutely incredible.
However, what I found was that some things happened in my life that caused me to become out of balance in my life and my energy. Being human and having so many human experiences happen all at once, it made me overwhelmed which in essence made me want to deal with life’s challenges less and less. As a result, I lost my way a little bit and was reminded to put me first. So often, I forget and jump off the path of healing and so often I am blessed to have my angels, my guides and my life experiences remind me. And, if I am paying enough attention to them I will quickly get back together and if I am not it may take a little longer.
The quote above reminded me to look at my life again. A few things came to my attention this past week ending with the car stuff. I choose to greet the challenges as they come rather than running to avoid them. What I notice though is that I meet a lot of people who choose to run from life and life’s challenges by way of distractions or literally, by way of creating more drama in their life to distract people from what the original situation is. I choose to be happy in this moment by embracing life’s challenges and pain. I choose to take things one day at a time rather than jumping forward or getting angry from the get go. View the world differently and make less drama in my life. What about you?
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Simple Sources of Love
I have been spending the last couple of days looking for examples of love. I have been seeing it everywhere I go. Here are just a few examples of what I noted:
I saw it when I went to visit my family. My father and I were talking and he has been making copies of my vhs videos (yes I still have those) and converting them onto DVD's. It is his way of showing me love. I am so grateful. He takes so much care and effort to make them perfect. It is so loving and warm. Or when my mom buys me a blouse (ok so it is not the color I would ever pick out, but it always turns out looking good). I am so grateful for those little signs of love.
I saw it yesterday when I was taking a drive to my Chiropractor's office. I driving down a beautiful back road to get there. You know with the fall colors you would think that would be enough for me to say ahhh how beautiful. Well, I was thinking of my twin flame (that is for another entry at another point on my journey, but I did spit the word out so you all now know I have one), and as I thought of my twin I looked up and on this beautiful tree lined street I saw to trees across from one another reaching over the street to connect. It was like I saw love reaching out and grabbing ahold of more love...it created this incredible arch over the road....ahhh the beauty of love in nature I thought.
Then last evening I experienced love with family and friends. I was a hospital for a friend who has a friend that is going through some medical stuff and the support was beautiful. Even when we may not be able to communicate with words in love, it is evidenced in how we treat one another or how we interact. It was really beautiful---it helped me sleep soundly once again and wake up in a glory filled mood.
Find your sources of love...look around I have a sneaking suspicion you will find some too...
I saw it when I went to visit my family. My father and I were talking and he has been making copies of my vhs videos (yes I still have those) and converting them onto DVD's. It is his way of showing me love. I am so grateful. He takes so much care and effort to make them perfect. It is so loving and warm. Or when my mom buys me a blouse (ok so it is not the color I would ever pick out, but it always turns out looking good). I am so grateful for those little signs of love.
I saw it yesterday when I was taking a drive to my Chiropractor's office. I driving down a beautiful back road to get there. You know with the fall colors you would think that would be enough for me to say ahhh how beautiful. Well, I was thinking of my twin flame (that is for another entry at another point on my journey, but I did spit the word out so you all now know I have one), and as I thought of my twin I looked up and on this beautiful tree lined street I saw to trees across from one another reaching over the street to connect. It was like I saw love reaching out and grabbing ahold of more love...it created this incredible arch over the road....ahhh the beauty of love in nature I thought.
Then last evening I experienced love with family and friends. I was a hospital for a friend who has a friend that is going through some medical stuff and the support was beautiful. Even when we may not be able to communicate with words in love, it is evidenced in how we treat one another or how we interact. It was really beautiful---it helped me sleep soundly once again and wake up in a glory filled mood.
Find your sources of love...look around I have a sneaking suspicion you will find some too...
Sunday, October 18, 2009
All You Need is Love
Does anyone remember that song? The Beatles sang it and the lyrics are:
Those words just so make me feel good. It reminds me loud and clear that everything and anything is possible. The chant I seem to say and shout out to the world everyday. The Beatles really rock my soul in a way I have never known until the last few years.
Then I got this beautiful quote in my inbox from Esther & Jerry Hicks and Abraham:
I take all these little messages as signs for me to fall in love with love. Not just with someone in the romantic way, but in every way that love can be expressed or received. This may perhaps be one way we learn to open to receive love in our lives.
Last night I was heading out to meet up with girlfriends, but stopped at a store first. On my way from the store to the car, I saw a couple in the parking lot. The girlfriend ran to the boyfriend (assuming bf/gf could be husband/wife, but it doesn't really matter). It was a wonderful sight for me! It was like they hadn't seen each other in months, when it was probably a much shorter length of time. She jumped in his arms and he lifted her up and kissed her. How loving and welcoming! In the past, my first impression would have been a bit cynical; thinking about how I long for that and if I can't have it why should anyone have it or even worse I often ignored the sight of someone else being in love because it was too painful to see someone happy when I wasn't....but last night instead of wishing that were me...I looked at them thinking--look how the love they are sharing, that is what I want and that is what I will have.
How cool that my perception has changed to that! So I guess now I am thinking how can I feel more of that?? I felt love and it wasn't something I had to do...just something I got to feel. That will be my quest for next week to see love when it is there and to experience what it feels like over and over again.
There's nothing you can do that can't be done.
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game.
It's easy.
Nothing you can make that can't be made.
No one you can save that can't be saved.
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you in time.
It's easy.
All you need is love.
All you need is love.
Those words just so make me feel good. It reminds me loud and clear that everything and anything is possible. The chant I seem to say and shout out to the world everyday. The Beatles really rock my soul in a way I have never known until the last few years.
Then I got this beautiful quote in my inbox from Esther & Jerry Hicks and Abraham:
Being in love is so good for you. Often when people are newly in love, things that have been bothering them for a long time get better. Something wonderful is calling the majority of their attention, so they're holding themselves in a better vibrational place, so the stuff they've been wanting all along can now zoom in.
I take all these little messages as signs for me to fall in love with love. Not just with someone in the romantic way, but in every way that love can be expressed or received. This may perhaps be one way we learn to open to receive love in our lives.
Last night I was heading out to meet up with girlfriends, but stopped at a store first. On my way from the store to the car, I saw a couple in the parking lot. The girlfriend ran to the boyfriend (assuming bf/gf could be husband/wife, but it doesn't really matter). It was a wonderful sight for me! It was like they hadn't seen each other in months, when it was probably a much shorter length of time. She jumped in his arms and he lifted her up and kissed her. How loving and welcoming! In the past, my first impression would have been a bit cynical; thinking about how I long for that and if I can't have it why should anyone have it or even worse I often ignored the sight of someone else being in love because it was too painful to see someone happy when I wasn't....but last night instead of wishing that were me...I looked at them thinking--look how the love they are sharing, that is what I want and that is what I will have.
How cool that my perception has changed to that! So I guess now I am thinking how can I feel more of that?? I felt love and it wasn't something I had to do...just something I got to feel. That will be my quest for next week to see love when it is there and to experience what it feels like over and over again.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
...the essence of your very soul is LOVE...
Last week I had a terrible headcold and I didn't sleep for two nights in a row. The second night, I lay there thinking what the heck is wrong when you are sick you need to sleep. Instead of honoring what my spirit knows to do, I fought it the first night and tried to make me sleep with no success I must say. Even into the next day I found myself squandering my time and languishing in feeling icky rather than do what I know to do. So the second night, I found I went to bed and slept an hour and woke up; this pattern kept happening until finally at 3:30 in the morning on October 1, I decided to get the voices out of my head and sit at my laptop and channel for a period of time and then I was able to go to sleep. Imagine that? It really was that simple, stop resisting and do. So I went to sleep the rest of the morning and never read the channel until two days later.
Now many of you have read my channels--they are always beautiful and loving and signed love your angels or love a specific angel. Well, this channel is a little bit different. It was a little more harsh, to the point and signed by "The Lords of Light"; nonetheless, beautiful. You will see as I am pasted it below for your eyes to read:
October 1, 2009
Dear Children,
We love you and are here for you. Now is the time to stop sitting on the fence. So many doors are now opened. It is a new day in this place you called earth. Do you not hear our voices calling for you to see clearly? Live healthier. Make choices that are new for you. Choose differently than you once had. It is about the beauty of what is here on earth. We are the ones who are to show you the way. Listen closely as we impart the wisdom of the ages. We laugh when you think of earth as being so young when the very existence of your souls are much older. It is with light that we shine upon you a new message of hope and love and understanding. Your children are different. You question if your child is different. Yes your children are here to usher in a new age. An age where freedom of choice is just that. There are no longer the chains of the past; these children are able to see beyond the veil you humans have created over the lifetimes that you have lived and walked on this planet. For these children are what you have been waiting for. You have asked for peace on earth and you shall have it if you wish? What do you really want? Do you really want the change as you so helplessly call for? Or are you really looking for us to show you more of the same old way in a new way? Do you prefer not to make the decisions that were once a blessing and allow others of the old energy to channel for you what path you must take next? What is it that you want? Is it not clear? Have you bombarded your mind by what you see or are experiencing? Have you found a way to quiet your mind in this time and in this space? IT is about love. It is always about love and we have tried to show you a new way to love which is in fact the old way to love. That is without reason to love simply because you are love. We have brought forward the children of light to you to show you what you have done is not working. Don’t they just get in the way of what you have planned? Don’t they just stop you right in your tracks? IT isn’t to make your life difficult dear ones it is to make your life more beautiful than you have ever imagined. It is about showing you what you have dreamt of …PEACE. These children are here for you. They are going to show you that they will not take what you have planned out for human kind instead they are going to pave a new way. A way that allows each individual to be who they are. YOU HAVE BEEN ACCUSTOMED TO THE LIFE YOU HAVE BEEN LIVING, BUT IT IS NO LONGER WORKING IS IT? We have been here to teach you for many generations; some of you have heard and listened; some of you have not. The skies will show you what is next. Look up for in a blink of an eye you will see. It is time don’t you think to know that help is here with you? For now you shall find the peace you have been looking for. Just step inside yourself and see what we see when we look at you…the essence of your very soul…LOVE. You must take that step; for without it you will stay in the confusion, the fear, the pain and the frustration. The veil is being lifted we are showing you tools to navigate this new energy. You once thought sleep was for the dark nights maybe sleep is where we work and day light is when we enjoy the beauty of living. Look carefully at your choices and choose what must be; for you will know based on how you feel.
The time has come for you to be one with your spirit. Look within and you shall find all you have looked for.
Love the Lords of Light.
Now many of you have read my channels--they are always beautiful and loving and signed love your angels or love a specific angel. Well, this channel is a little bit different. It was a little more harsh, to the point and signed by "The Lords of Light"; nonetheless, beautiful. You will see as I am pasted it below for your eyes to read:
October 1, 2009
Dear Children,
We love you and are here for you. Now is the time to stop sitting on the fence. So many doors are now opened. It is a new day in this place you called earth. Do you not hear our voices calling for you to see clearly? Live healthier. Make choices that are new for you. Choose differently than you once had. It is about the beauty of what is here on earth. We are the ones who are to show you the way. Listen closely as we impart the wisdom of the ages. We laugh when you think of earth as being so young when the very existence of your souls are much older. It is with light that we shine upon you a new message of hope and love and understanding. Your children are different. You question if your child is different. Yes your children are here to usher in a new age. An age where freedom of choice is just that. There are no longer the chains of the past; these children are able to see beyond the veil you humans have created over the lifetimes that you have lived and walked on this planet. For these children are what you have been waiting for. You have asked for peace on earth and you shall have it if you wish? What do you really want? Do you really want the change as you so helplessly call for? Or are you really looking for us to show you more of the same old way in a new way? Do you prefer not to make the decisions that were once a blessing and allow others of the old energy to channel for you what path you must take next? What is it that you want? Is it not clear? Have you bombarded your mind by what you see or are experiencing? Have you found a way to quiet your mind in this time and in this space? IT is about love. It is always about love and we have tried to show you a new way to love which is in fact the old way to love. That is without reason to love simply because you are love. We have brought forward the children of light to you to show you what you have done is not working. Don’t they just get in the way of what you have planned? Don’t they just stop you right in your tracks? IT isn’t to make your life difficult dear ones it is to make your life more beautiful than you have ever imagined. It is about showing you what you have dreamt of …PEACE. These children are here for you. They are going to show you that they will not take what you have planned out for human kind instead they are going to pave a new way. A way that allows each individual to be who they are. YOU HAVE BEEN ACCUSTOMED TO THE LIFE YOU HAVE BEEN LIVING, BUT IT IS NO LONGER WORKING IS IT? We have been here to teach you for many generations; some of you have heard and listened; some of you have not. The skies will show you what is next. Look up for in a blink of an eye you will see. It is time don’t you think to know that help is here with you? For now you shall find the peace you have been looking for. Just step inside yourself and see what we see when we look at you…the essence of your very soul…LOVE. You must take that step; for without it you will stay in the confusion, the fear, the pain and the frustration. The veil is being lifted we are showing you tools to navigate this new energy. You once thought sleep was for the dark nights maybe sleep is where we work and day light is when we enjoy the beauty of living. Look carefully at your choices and choose what must be; for you will know based on how you feel.
The time has come for you to be one with your spirit. Look within and you shall find all you have looked for.
Love the Lords of Light.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Everything Changes, Love Remains
I am sitting here getting ready for my day and a song just came on the radio...the following words rang out loud...Everything will Change, Love Remains the Same.
Stripping our humanness down to our spirit, that is what we are: Love. So doesn't that just resonate? Remember when you were a child and you got angry with your parents for something you felt they did? Or with a friend who hurt your feelings? Or with your child for something they did to disappoint you? Think back to those times: once you were able to get over that initial reaction to something that may have happened, what did you feel? I know for me...the underlying feeling is always love.
Think about all the things that have happened in your life. If we take all the pain, all the blame and all the confusion out of the way, isn't that true? Love for one another always remains the same. We may feel anger, frustration and fear, but after we allow ourselves to feel that, we realize love is still there.
Everything does change. I realize that I am evolving even as I type this message out. Life always changes just as seasons pass and we grow older and yet we are still who we are inherently. Many relationships come and go in our lives and yet after the hurt of those relationships has subsided we can come back to our essence of love. So often we forget that love is who and what we are.
I think that as I listen to this song…mind you the only lyrics I hear are “Everything Changes, Love Remains”. It is what I am meant to hear today. I meant to hear those words and nothing else for in this time the message for me is solely about love. It is a concept that is easily forgotten in the midst of everyday living because quite honestly most people live their life in fear; and if we are not vigilant on remembering we are love then we get caught up in the energy of fear as well.
Often long after a relationship has ended, even years later, I find myself still thinking fondly of someone I once loved. I feel love is there for each of the people in our life no matter the hurt. We can always go back to our memory banks and find those beautiful memories where we felt love. If we allow it, love will always remain it is the one feeling that is the true essence of who we are. I know that when I feel out of balance in my life then the changes don't feel so good and I forget that I am love. These words today have been a beautiful reminder of love.
Stripping our humanness down to our spirit, that is what we are: Love. So doesn't that just resonate? Remember when you were a child and you got angry with your parents for something you felt they did? Or with a friend who hurt your feelings? Or with your child for something they did to disappoint you? Think back to those times: once you were able to get over that initial reaction to something that may have happened, what did you feel? I know for me...the underlying feeling is always love.
Think about all the things that have happened in your life. If we take all the pain, all the blame and all the confusion out of the way, isn't that true? Love for one another always remains the same. We may feel anger, frustration and fear, but after we allow ourselves to feel that, we realize love is still there.
Everything does change. I realize that I am evolving even as I type this message out. Life always changes just as seasons pass and we grow older and yet we are still who we are inherently. Many relationships come and go in our lives and yet after the hurt of those relationships has subsided we can come back to our essence of love. So often we forget that love is who and what we are.
I think that as I listen to this song…mind you the only lyrics I hear are “Everything Changes, Love Remains”. It is what I am meant to hear today. I meant to hear those words and nothing else for in this time the message for me is solely about love. It is a concept that is easily forgotten in the midst of everyday living because quite honestly most people live their life in fear; and if we are not vigilant on remembering we are love then we get caught up in the energy of fear as well.
Often long after a relationship has ended, even years later, I find myself still thinking fondly of someone I once loved. I feel love is there for each of the people in our life no matter the hurt. We can always go back to our memory banks and find those beautiful memories where we felt love. If we allow it, love will always remain it is the one feeling that is the true essence of who we are. I know that when I feel out of balance in my life then the changes don't feel so good and I forget that I am love. These words today have been a beautiful reminder of love.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Relationships: Road Map of Our Soul's Journey
Relationships are the single most important ingredient in a person’s life experience. It is impossible to live a life on this planet and not establish relationships with people or animals. A love relationship is the most prominent relationship in our mind whether we are single, married, gay or straight. The love relationship stirs up emotions, lessons and whirlwinds.
I asked my angels why are so many of our lessons tied to relationships and their answer is that every lesson we learn is tied to relationships. Our soul experience enlists other souls on this journey we call life to help us. My favorite book is The Little Soul and the Sun; it is a children’s parable adapted from the book, The Conversations with God written by Neale Donald Walsch. It is probably the most powerful children’s book I ever read and quite honestly I think every adult should read it as if it were a manual for their soul. It should be considered one of many training materials for the newly awakened souls on our planet. It provides probably the most beautiful definition as to why our relationships may be what they are for us.
Do you ever experience the same relationships over and over: Same person, same relationship, different face, and different name? That is because the lesson has not yet been learned. We have made pacts with many souls to help us learn on our life path. We have recruited people to come into our life and those pacts can’t be undone until we learn what we asked to learn.
I remember when I was younger I dated the same guy for several years. I say the same guy, but it was really a different person, different name, but the results were all the same. I hadn’t learned the greatest lesson of all which was to love me above all else.
The greatest lesson of all for each of us is that of self love and acceptance. It really isn’t about who loves us and if we are loved by another; it is about us being loved by us. Each relationship we bring into our lives is meant to show us who we are and to bring out our ability to fall in love with ourselves first.
It is also why relationships do not last forever and are not meant to last forever. We are meant to come together with one another for the time needed to learn what wisdom each of us has to impart to one another this time around. I know fairy tales depict a life where we are supposed to be with that one person forever; but the truth is that we are evolving human beings. What once worked for us may no longer work as we continue to evolve and grow on our journey. When we enter a relationship with another we make an unspoken agreement with one another about the dynamics of the relationship. That is to say that we each come into the relationship with our own baggage and at a place in the relationship that works for us. However, as we all know nothing stays the same and while each of us has a path that we are following we are changing. As we change, the dynamics of our relationship change and that is when it is time to look at the original agreement. Often times it no longer fits for both people. We become very attached to that which we know and are comfortable with; this is often why we develop fear about moving forward and resort to staying in a relationship that is not good for us or one that we know we have outgrown. The length of time of a relationship always varies on the individuals involved based on their own spiritual growth; sometimes we learn lessons a lot quicker than our partner and sometimes we learn our lessons together. This is when decisions need to be made about the relationship. A question we often fail to ask and answer sincerely is: are we both willing to work as much as needed for each of us to grow in this relationship? Sometimes we don’t ask because we don’t want to know the answer: either we are not willing or our partner is not willing to fully work on themselves in order for this relationship to continue in a healthy way. It takes both people to make it work. And other times, the answer is so clear that what once brought you together is no longer there. Regardless of what the answer is we need to ask ourselves in a very general way what do we want in a relationship and then face your relationship and see if it is what you really desire.
Many times people find themselves in a relationship that they realize is or has been over, yet they have stayed because of the financial stability aspect, they have children together or what others may think of them. The truth is that people stay only because of how they feel about themselves; the other things look acceptable and provide reasonable excuses for them not living their full potential. That is not to say that everyone should bail on a relationship that is hard---a relationship that presents difficulty allows for growth, but a relationship that has long been outlived represents someone stuck. This is when self-honesty and self love must come into play.
Often at the end of a relationship we fail to remember that it simply is okay to move forward and let go. Letting go is scary and I am not trying to minimize it as I have experienced my share of fear at the letting go of relationships, but I can promise you that it will be okay. It is always going to be okay. And most of all, we can never go back to where we were before this relationship because we are evolving beings who learn from each experience, and it puts us at the very least one step ahead of where we were before. With time and much healing, we often find our way clear to the next relationship. No matter what, relationships are our road map on our soul’s journey; each experience points us in our next direction.
I have to admit that sometimes I do need to be reminded every so often while I am in the midst of a relationship that it is something I am drawing to me based on what lessons I chose to learn in this life.
Sometimes it seems easier than others. I also tend to go back to a poem I wrote four years ago; it tends to really put my thoughts into perspective at the end of a relationship. I hope it helps you as well. Please see below:
It wasn’t until that moment you walked away that I realized how
much love means…
Yes, it is easy to think I am talking about love from you, but
in that moment, I realized it is all about love for me. If I
showed myself half the love I gave to you, I would have had a
love with you that would have lasted a lifetime. But in failing
to love me fully I failed to let you see your power within.
It wasn’t until that moment you walked away that I realized how
much you gave to me…
You leaving sparked in me what I already knew—but failed to
recognize while I was with you…I already had the peace and love
I wanted—I had found it within me. I didn’t need you to complete
me—I was already complete when I found you—but I failed to see
that as enough even more so I sought for you to give it to me.
It wasn’t until that moment you walked away that I realized how
much I found…
Giving up myself to you, I didn’t love me the way I needed to
love me. I reconnected who I was within and took back the power
I freely gave away. I found that with or without you I am whole,
complete and loved.
I asked my angels why are so many of our lessons tied to relationships and their answer is that every lesson we learn is tied to relationships. Our soul experience enlists other souls on this journey we call life to help us. My favorite book is The Little Soul and the Sun; it is a children’s parable adapted from the book, The Conversations with God written by Neale Donald Walsch. It is probably the most powerful children’s book I ever read and quite honestly I think every adult should read it as if it were a manual for their soul. It should be considered one of many training materials for the newly awakened souls on our planet. It provides probably the most beautiful definition as to why our relationships may be what they are for us.
Do you ever experience the same relationships over and over: Same person, same relationship, different face, and different name? That is because the lesson has not yet been learned. We have made pacts with many souls to help us learn on our life path. We have recruited people to come into our life and those pacts can’t be undone until we learn what we asked to learn.
I remember when I was younger I dated the same guy for several years. I say the same guy, but it was really a different person, different name, but the results were all the same. I hadn’t learned the greatest lesson of all which was to love me above all else.
The greatest lesson of all for each of us is that of self love and acceptance. It really isn’t about who loves us and if we are loved by another; it is about us being loved by us. Each relationship we bring into our lives is meant to show us who we are and to bring out our ability to fall in love with ourselves first.
It is also why relationships do not last forever and are not meant to last forever. We are meant to come together with one another for the time needed to learn what wisdom each of us has to impart to one another this time around. I know fairy tales depict a life where we are supposed to be with that one person forever; but the truth is that we are evolving human beings. What once worked for us may no longer work as we continue to evolve and grow on our journey. When we enter a relationship with another we make an unspoken agreement with one another about the dynamics of the relationship. That is to say that we each come into the relationship with our own baggage and at a place in the relationship that works for us. However, as we all know nothing stays the same and while each of us has a path that we are following we are changing. As we change, the dynamics of our relationship change and that is when it is time to look at the original agreement. Often times it no longer fits for both people. We become very attached to that which we know and are comfortable with; this is often why we develop fear about moving forward and resort to staying in a relationship that is not good for us or one that we know we have outgrown. The length of time of a relationship always varies on the individuals involved based on their own spiritual growth; sometimes we learn lessons a lot quicker than our partner and sometimes we learn our lessons together. This is when decisions need to be made about the relationship. A question we often fail to ask and answer sincerely is: are we both willing to work as much as needed for each of us to grow in this relationship? Sometimes we don’t ask because we don’t want to know the answer: either we are not willing or our partner is not willing to fully work on themselves in order for this relationship to continue in a healthy way. It takes both people to make it work. And other times, the answer is so clear that what once brought you together is no longer there. Regardless of what the answer is we need to ask ourselves in a very general way what do we want in a relationship and then face your relationship and see if it is what you really desire.
Many times people find themselves in a relationship that they realize is or has been over, yet they have stayed because of the financial stability aspect, they have children together or what others may think of them. The truth is that people stay only because of how they feel about themselves; the other things look acceptable and provide reasonable excuses for them not living their full potential. That is not to say that everyone should bail on a relationship that is hard---a relationship that presents difficulty allows for growth, but a relationship that has long been outlived represents someone stuck. This is when self-honesty and self love must come into play.
Often at the end of a relationship we fail to remember that it simply is okay to move forward and let go. Letting go is scary and I am not trying to minimize it as I have experienced my share of fear at the letting go of relationships, but I can promise you that it will be okay. It is always going to be okay. And most of all, we can never go back to where we were before this relationship because we are evolving beings who learn from each experience, and it puts us at the very least one step ahead of where we were before. With time and much healing, we often find our way clear to the next relationship. No matter what, relationships are our road map on our soul’s journey; each experience points us in our next direction.
I have to admit that sometimes I do need to be reminded every so often while I am in the midst of a relationship that it is something I am drawing to me based on what lessons I chose to learn in this life.
Sometimes it seems easier than others. I also tend to go back to a poem I wrote four years ago; it tends to really put my thoughts into perspective at the end of a relationship. I hope it helps you as well. Please see below:
It wasn’t until that moment you walked away that I realized how
much love means…
Yes, it is easy to think I am talking about love from you, but
in that moment, I realized it is all about love for me. If I
showed myself half the love I gave to you, I would have had a
love with you that would have lasted a lifetime. But in failing
to love me fully I failed to let you see your power within.
It wasn’t until that moment you walked away that I realized how
much you gave to me…
You leaving sparked in me what I already knew—but failed to
recognize while I was with you…I already had the peace and love
I wanted—I had found it within me. I didn’t need you to complete
me—I was already complete when I found you—but I failed to see
that as enough even more so I sought for you to give it to me.
It wasn’t until that moment you walked away that I realized how
much I found…
Giving up myself to you, I didn’t love me the way I needed to
love me. I reconnected who I was within and took back the power
I freely gave away. I found that with or without you I am whole,
complete and loved.
Monday, September 7, 2009
You Are So Beautiful!
The other night I walked by the mirror and caught a view of myself in it. I did a double take and I said, “wow, you are so beautiful.” That was an amazing revelation to me. The interesting thing is that I have for the last several years of my life always said I loved me and I have, but I had never said I was beautiful, but damn it I truly am.
I have always wanted to be the teacher who could and would teach people to fall in love with themselves, and yes I have been doing that; but what could be more amazing than me teaching it while knowing that I am falling in love with me all over again. It was such a wonderful feeling the other night. It was incredible really, I am a little high on all this…who needs to drink or do drugs when you can be so high on simply loving you?
I met someone and I shall call him “L” for now. When I met “L”, he forced me to look at me and come to the realization that I am beautiful. You wonder how that is possible? Honestly, I will tell you, if I was reading this I would be saying to me how is that possible that a man you love and are not with can make you see yourself as beautiful?
Well, I would have to say, “L” was the first man that I loved who looked at me when he met me and said with complete and utter sincerity, “You are so beautiful. You look like an angel”. That was four years ago. I knew that night he saw my spirit and I was very comfortable in knowing that my spirit was beautiful. When you are psychic you don’t see people the same any longer, you begin to see them as the love that they are, the potential of their growth and the true essence that is their soul so I could easily accept that he saw my spirit and thought it was beautiful. What I didn’t always allow me to know is that he saw me---April, physical, in person April with her spirit shining through her physical being. “L” is not and does not proclaim to be a spiritual person; if anything he is the opposite of me so all he could see was the physical April in front of him. I never doubted what he saw in me because he was so clearly speaking his truth in that moment, but I think perhaps I doubted my own beauty. I guess I never considered myself to be beautiful before. Yes, I loved my eyes and thought I had beautiful eyes, but my whole physical being, is it beautiful, was more of the question?
Still riding the high waves from the other night’s revelation, I decided to look a little more at me and what it is that I am working on...
Fortunately and unfortunately as you will learn, I am always working on me even when I want to run and hide which in the last few months has been quite often I can honestly say. The funny thing is that is what I love so most about me; I don’t end up giving up, rather I keep forging ahead to heal me.
I have discovered on this part of the journey I am working on feeling “good enough”. I learned a long time ago from my angels and guides that I often get the clearest messages by way of the relationships I have in my life; particularly with men. I think because the men in my life have been so unsure of themselves; I have used that to keep giving me reason to feel like I am not worthy or good enough. When, in fact, I know that their uncertainty and insecurity is not about me. When you think about it, it is like my own sick rationale for feeling unlovable or unbeautiful? (is that even a word?) Does that make sense?
The other day, I just got through saying to a friend that I wish I knew why people were in my life at the time they are there, but it appears that I end up learning the reason after the fact. I believe that I am there for people as much as I believe they are there for me. This time around I thank “L” for his love and his recognition of my beauty—it may have taken me four years to recognize what he did, but without him…I may not have.
I have always wanted to be the teacher who could and would teach people to fall in love with themselves, and yes I have been doing that; but what could be more amazing than me teaching it while knowing that I am falling in love with me all over again. It was such a wonderful feeling the other night. It was incredible really, I am a little high on all this…who needs to drink or do drugs when you can be so high on simply loving you?
I met someone and I shall call him “L” for now. When I met “L”, he forced me to look at me and come to the realization that I am beautiful. You wonder how that is possible? Honestly, I will tell you, if I was reading this I would be saying to me how is that possible that a man you love and are not with can make you see yourself as beautiful?
Well, I would have to say, “L” was the first man that I loved who looked at me when he met me and said with complete and utter sincerity, “You are so beautiful. You look like an angel”. That was four years ago. I knew that night he saw my spirit and I was very comfortable in knowing that my spirit was beautiful. When you are psychic you don’t see people the same any longer, you begin to see them as the love that they are, the potential of their growth and the true essence that is their soul so I could easily accept that he saw my spirit and thought it was beautiful. What I didn’t always allow me to know is that he saw me---April, physical, in person April with her spirit shining through her physical being. “L” is not and does not proclaim to be a spiritual person; if anything he is the opposite of me so all he could see was the physical April in front of him. I never doubted what he saw in me because he was so clearly speaking his truth in that moment, but I think perhaps I doubted my own beauty. I guess I never considered myself to be beautiful before. Yes, I loved my eyes and thought I had beautiful eyes, but my whole physical being, is it beautiful, was more of the question?
Still riding the high waves from the other night’s revelation, I decided to look a little more at me and what it is that I am working on...
Fortunately and unfortunately as you will learn, I am always working on me even when I want to run and hide which in the last few months has been quite often I can honestly say. The funny thing is that is what I love so most about me; I don’t end up giving up, rather I keep forging ahead to heal me.
I have discovered on this part of the journey I am working on feeling “good enough”. I learned a long time ago from my angels and guides that I often get the clearest messages by way of the relationships I have in my life; particularly with men. I think because the men in my life have been so unsure of themselves; I have used that to keep giving me reason to feel like I am not worthy or good enough. When, in fact, I know that their uncertainty and insecurity is not about me. When you think about it, it is like my own sick rationale for feeling unlovable or unbeautiful? (is that even a word?) Does that make sense?
The other day, I just got through saying to a friend that I wish I knew why people were in my life at the time they are there, but it appears that I end up learning the reason after the fact. I believe that I am there for people as much as I believe they are there for me. This time around I thank “L” for his love and his recognition of my beauty—it may have taken me four years to recognize what he did, but without him…I may not have.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
The Honey of Life
Seek out the honey of life or so the animal totem of Bee states. I was sitting outside today. What a fabulous day in the neighborhood, quite literally. I was typing away at my computer and a bee starting swarming around me. I didn't mind that he was there, but his buzzing was getting loud and me being allergic and all I didn't want to get stung. So I thought to myself quietly, go away. I thought a little more loudly go away. It kept getting right in my face and too close for my comfort. So I outloud said go away. It is funny--as an intuitive you have all these tools that you teach, but often forget to use for yourself. The first tool being to call on the ArchAngels as they will be there instantaneously. I did! I called on Archangel Michael who immediately came to my side with his sword and warded off the bee. I said thank you Michael and he said now you must look up why a bee has appeared to you today. And ...the honey of life was one definition while accomplishing the impossible is another.
I woke up this morning thinking I would love to have the day off. Of course, my alarm clock rang letting me know that it surely was time to rise up and go for my daily walk to start my day. Well, I got up went for a walk and enjoyed the cool morning air of a September day in Connecticut. I came home to find a message on my phone saying my 11 is cancelled and then my 1:00 cancelled too. Now when you have your own business and your appointments are your only source of income and well naturally most people tend to freak out--I used to as well. Today, I didn't! I welcomed the cancellations and decided to use the day in my way. I had a lot of things that I had been wanting to do over the last few weeks and yet I didn't have the time. I wanted so much to enjoy the beautiful weather and be outdoors; however, I needed the day to be productive so I brought the work outside to meet me in nature: brought out my laptop, extension cord, paperwork and phone. About 3:30 I thought to myself now if only I didn't have to drive to New Haven for my class, I would be even happier. So, I got up came back and found my class had been cancelled...all my wishes for the day were granted! Imagine that.
I worked all day outside and here I am writing to you from the back deck watching the sunset in the distance with the cool breeze (enough I had to get a sweater) flowing around me.
Earlier this afternoon, I sat for moments soaking in the beauty of nature and thought to myself I wish I could do this everyday. I got the clear impression that some day I will have this be my reality--writing out in nature so I get the best of every day. This day surely was the honey of life for me.
I woke up this morning thinking I would love to have the day off. Of course, my alarm clock rang letting me know that it surely was time to rise up and go for my daily walk to start my day. Well, I got up went for a walk and enjoyed the cool morning air of a September day in Connecticut. I came home to find a message on my phone saying my 11 is cancelled and then my 1:00 cancelled too. Now when you have your own business and your appointments are your only source of income and well naturally most people tend to freak out--I used to as well. Today, I didn't! I welcomed the cancellations and decided to use the day in my way. I had a lot of things that I had been wanting to do over the last few weeks and yet I didn't have the time. I wanted so much to enjoy the beautiful weather and be outdoors; however, I needed the day to be productive so I brought the work outside to meet me in nature: brought out my laptop, extension cord, paperwork and phone. About 3:30 I thought to myself now if only I didn't have to drive to New Haven for my class, I would be even happier. So, I got up came back and found my class had been cancelled...all my wishes for the day were granted! Imagine that.
I worked all day outside and here I am writing to you from the back deck watching the sunset in the distance with the cool breeze (enough I had to get a sweater) flowing around me.
Earlier this afternoon, I sat for moments soaking in the beauty of nature and thought to myself I wish I could do this everyday. I got the clear impression that some day I will have this be my reality--writing out in nature so I get the best of every day. This day surely was the honey of life for me.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Hello World
Hello World!
Welcome to this dimension of my life! I have been journeying for some time now and think the ride is about to get more thrilling. I am excited, ready and waiting for the next step…where that will be I do not know.
Life is a beautiful experience when we let it happen. Notice I say let not make? Make is too demanding and forceful…which implies a great deal of work to be involved…but I don’t think it is meant to be an uphill battle all the time though it sure has seemed that way in my life…rather I think it is all about allowing the beauty of our soul to come to the forefront of all else in this physical dimension. Please feel free to come and go and comment on a blog that touches you or resonates with your spirit or if it should not.
Remember, in my life I am trusting the journey and I am being led. So where do you think that will be?
Next stop…my spirit…
Welcome to this dimension of my life! I have been journeying for some time now and think the ride is about to get more thrilling. I am excited, ready and waiting for the next step…where that will be I do not know.
Life is a beautiful experience when we let it happen. Notice I say let not make? Make is too demanding and forceful…which implies a great deal of work to be involved…but I don’t think it is meant to be an uphill battle all the time though it sure has seemed that way in my life…rather I think it is all about allowing the beauty of our soul to come to the forefront of all else in this physical dimension. Please feel free to come and go and comment on a blog that touches you or resonates with your spirit or if it should not.
Remember, in my life I am trusting the journey and I am being led. So where do you think that will be?
Next stop…my spirit…
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)