Thursday, May 31, 2018

Energy Thoughts: Achieving Boundless Empowerment

Wow, Memorial Day Weekend has come and gone already.  It is hard to believe that summer is on the horizon--half of this year is almost over already.  I don't know about all of you, but since Mercury Retrograde has moved direct and Saturn moved Retrograde my life has gotten dramatically busier and more stress-filled.  

The energy has really amped up with massive outpourings of light from Spirit; which in and of itself is exactly what is needed for all of humanity and our planet, but with it comes the responsibility of embodying more light.   As the energy continues to pour in, it has no choice, but to reveal where the obstacles are in your body, life, relationships and work, to name a few.  Not to forget it does the same thing on a global level too, with regard to the political, financial, healthcare systems in your community, state, country, planet too.  I am sure there are many of you, if not all, that can I identify with those obstacles being revealed whether they are personal or more of global, but I am willing to bet you are experiencing/feeling it in both places.   When I say the light has no choice, I simply mean that its job is to uncover the darkness that has been hidden away, reveal the core obstructions you have been carrying in your life preventing you from being the magnificent light that you are.   

In this time on the planet, it is often said by many new age teachers to pay attention to your thoughts, focus on making them positive, they even go as far as to not talk about anything, but positive things.  I find this to be one of great disservice to everyone and a new way to create distractions.  Have you had a brief encounter with someone who responded with "I'm doing great" when asked how they are, and you didn't believe them?   Why do think that is?  It is because their energy is vibrating at the lower vibration not the one that feels "great".  The philosophy is that you project what you want to be and you are that; that is the problem with focusing on saying/doing only positive things, even when that is not what you are feeling.  That philosophy is a misconception because what you are truly feeling underneath is what goes out to the universe and becomes a self sabotaging answer to what you are wanting to do.   Spirit asks you to "be" with your real feelings so that you can clear/heal/understand them more fully.  This process is how you will truly raise your vibration to the place in which you want to be. 

The empowerment that comes with processing and clearing these old blocks will be boundless and you will experience a massive shift in not only your energy body, but in your manifesting abilities/relationships/careers etc.    Spirit asks you to trust this path that you are on, even if it is uncomfortable.  This is what you have been waiting for all this time, this is the time we have all been waiting for. It is possible to achieve all that you have longed for, don't give up hope when you are so close.

If you follow me on Facebook, you will know a bit about what has been coming up in my life over the last few weeks and understand that this energy is not leaving anyone untouched.  I have been dealing with some serious health concerns for several members of my family; including friends around me.  For me personally, I've been dealing with the trauma of the car accident and the care, or lack thereof, that I had after my car accident. Some of you may remember that I had the car accident over 5 years ago and still suffer with physical issues and financial issues as a result.  I started working part time again just about 2 years ago and haven't been able to move past part time work (only when I am physically able to) due to continuous issues with my neck and back.  However, I've never given up on pursuing ways in which to heal me and recently I have something to feel optimistic about.  I had a consultation with a Functional Neurologist who told me that the situation I am in has been beyond my control.  He affirmed for me that the doctor's really have dismissed some serious issues to my brain as a result of the trauma and concussion due to the accident. I am feeling that this doctor will help me to get out of this horrible situation and help resolve the neck and back issues permanently.  My only concern now is being able to pay him and travel to him--he is in NYC, not covered by insurance, and I am struggling to afford my basic needs on my part time work.   
I am sharing my medical fundraiser that I created to help me. HOWEVER, if you would prefer to pay my doc directly (which is what I prefer) or send money to me, please message me privately and I will be happy to provide the additional information. 

If every person reading this Energy Thoughts were to donate, it would make more of a difference than you can imagine, even if it just $5-$10.

Thank you truly from the deepest part of my soul.

Monday, April 30, 2018

Energy Thoughts: Is it a Bleep or a Leap?

Hello Beautiful People,

I know it has been a long time since I wrote a full Energy Thoughts Update. I have been offering Quick Updates here and there, and a message each day on social media, but I haven't done one of these in awhile.  This morning I had the time to sit down and write what is happening now.  I want to express my gratitude to everyone who shares my work and likes what I am doing, I truly appreciate you.  I love writing these because quite honestly there is always information available, I just don't always have time.  I hope to make more time for writing in my future.   Onto the update.....

We are just coming off a weekend of the Scorpio Full Moon.  This energy coming in pushes us forward to embrace the gifts of renewal of strength and courage as we are ready to move toward our dreams and goals. 

Mercury Retrograde's shadow period is finally letting go of its grip on our life, I don't know about you, but the last two weeks during the Mercury Retrograde period so much schedule shifting/changes happened for me and I feel now we are on the tail end of it with some bumps and bruises to show for it.  I actually have to say that I have been excessively more tired than normal and feel like I have battle scars to prove that I have done the spiritual, emotional, mental and physical work the last few months. Of course, I am still in the recovery times after the Flu Virus wreaked havoc in my life; and the virus has lingered on.   But I don't think it is the Flu Virus that is making me tired, I think it is the constant healing/light infusion that I have been downloading that is creating opportunities for rest as my body works to catch up to my spiritual, emotional and mental shifts taking place within my DNA.  By the way, that is true for all of you too--the only difference may be that some are more aware of what is happening while others may not be.

We entered 2018 with this vast amount of energy shift toward the light.  The light continues to build on our planet, increasingly the light quotient daily  and will continue until we reach mass consciousness shift.  When will that be, you ask. I was hoping yesterday. hahaha  Seriously though, Spirit is certainly trying to move us forward into the direction of our soul's path.  It is like we came into incarnation this lifetime with a blueprint of what role we are supposed to play in the ascension of Gaia (Earth's Spiritual Name), and then coffee, or some other comforting drink, got poured all over it; and now we are arriving at the point where we are just about finished soaking it up carefully with towels, hanging the blueprint on the proverbial clothesline to dry so we can see it our blueprint more clearly.  And if you have been living in the Northeastern part of the United States and other parts of the world that have been getting pummeled with ridiculous weather extremes, you are probably just about now, if not sooner, asking, where's the sun?  I mean this quite literally, and figuratively.  Where is the light?  We need to have the light come out (read: come together).  The light is needed and it needs to be more visible (read: needs to be easier to find one another, and no I am not accepting those that pretend on the surface when it is comfortable to be the light, I am talking about the warriors, the ones that stand in their truth despite all that is happening).  Then, Spirit reminds me of what we may be forgetting is that perhaps we need those special glasses that come with age and wisdom, meaning we need to be at the right age and point in our journey for our awakening.  This thought alone makes me a little crazy because our Timelines have been shaken up, trampled upon, revamped and new ones have appeared; and yet, we are still asking when.   

I feel the last three weeks have reflected a massive change within myself not only on how I view the energy going forward, but on how I have been experiencing it and using it.  As Mercury prepared to go direct, the planet Saturn decided it was time to show and begin its Retrograde motion.  What does that mean for all of us?  Is it over some of you may be hoping.  Well, Saturn is here to help you explore the core parts of yourself that bring up discomfort, fear, and more importantly, require you to heal/clear/release them to get to the next place. (Read: Core lessons you have no choice, but to face and deal with. It is kind of like in the game of Monopoly, when the card says: Do Not Pass and do not collect $200.)  Oh yes, Saturn is the mixer of the pot of thoughts/feelings/emotions/dramas/traumas that make a not-so-happy-meal, but sets you up to know when something is good; like your empowerment to use all the tools in your spiritual toolbox that you have garnered over this journey to create the life you want to be living.  With that being said,  Saturn will kindly give you plenty of opportunities, especially if you miss any, as it will be in retrograde for the next 6 months.

Yes, there are other planetary influences happening too, but I am not an astrologer these are just some insights into what is happening.  I know you all think this is crazy, when will it ever end?   I hear you.  Sometimes, I sit here and twiddling my thumbs, thinking to myself, will it be today?  Will my family get it?  Will my twinflame follow his truth, the good news is, he does know what it is, but when and what will he do with it?  Will our world ever stop fighting about stupid things and look at the bigger picture of what we need to do to relieve the old regime to replace it with light?   Then out of nowhere, I meet someone, speak to someone and in conversation I get to experience their awakening/knowing,  I realize that, "woah, this denotes huge change; and not only with regard to the person I am speaking to--with regard to everything I am wondering about.  The surprises on this journey are endless, but even more than that the twists and turns, could be enjoyable, if we could remember that is all part of the plan.  How do we remember? 

Our mission now is to simply be present in our journey and one way is through surrender.  In the last few weeks, I have found that the  word surrender has taken on a new meaning for me.   No, the definition has not changed, it is still what it says in a dictionary, but I have applied it differently than I have learned or have been taught it means.  Often, the energy of defeat or giving up is worrisome to say the least, but in the Spiritual sense, I think it has a different intention.   (This is particularly important for twinflames to hear.)

Recently, I kept getting the message to surrender, so have several of my fellow spiritual friends; and we did, or so we thought.  We assumed it was to surrender to our journey and it turns out it was and it wasn't.    I discovered that Spirit meant let go.  Let of what you ask? (okay, so maybe you didn't ask, but I'm gonna tell you anyway.)  We are in ta time of great change, and along with it is a time of great power to manifest that which we want to create.  Remember dear hearts, in order to create, things need to come down--do you see the world around you, perhaps within you and those around you coming down?  That is how we begin to rebuild/recreate/manifest anew.  So what does all this have to do with surrendering?   When we want to manifest something, we attach not only to the outcome, but to the way(s) in which we get there or not and that attachment is what causing a great deal of interference.  Spirit is saying to surrender to the journey of manifestation.  This is where the real work comes in, learning how to let go of the how, the why, the when, the where, and even sometimes the what of what it is we are trying to create. When the word surrender comes in to play, many of us subconsciously try to take more control of the things in our life, rather than loosen our grips/hopes/attachments.    It is in learning to let go, that you surrender to complete trust not only with yourself, but in the universe to hear your wish and command it as so.   I have always done this with simple things like my trip to Hawaii, my dining room table,  and pretty much every other thing I have manifested on my journey; but I also recognize, that for me there was very little to no attachment to these things and they just showed up; almost miraculously, but my guides like to remind me that it is simply that I am remember that I am a master at manifesting. This is why I am preparing to teach Manifestation more and more, stay on the lookout for my upcoming classes in May and June where I will offer an opportunity to learn this wisdom more fully.  Yes, it will require work, but not the work you think you must do. 

The one message Spirit keeps conveying is: "Stop taking yourselves so seriously."  It is meant to be a joyous ride through the blueprint, which allowed alternate routes to get where we need to be.  Just like in the game Monopoly there are other ways to get where you are going, sometimes there are bleeps in the path and other times there are leaps in your path.  Ask yourself, am I ready to jump?  This astrological set up is the universe helping you take a deep breath and leap forward.    The karmic clearing Saturn is providing can be viewed a bleep for some and for others as that opportunity to leap.  Either way, my words of wisdom are just BE; be you in the moment, be present in the moment always and in all ways; above all, have fun and find your joy.


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Saturday, January 6, 2018

Inspirational Snippet: Epiphany

Today is known as the Feast Day of Epiphany which means the day in which Christians recognize Jesus Christ as God incarnate.

Seven years ago today, I left on a flight to a destination that changed my life forever. I went to Egypt and reclaimed parts of my soul that had been lost and I became more fully who I am today. In some ways, that trip to Egypt was my own self discovery that is God incarnate within me (as God is in every living being upon this planet).
Several years prior to that, I would often go to Our Lady of Lourdes Shrine, in Litchfield, CT for peace and sanctuary particularly when I lived in Bristol.  I preferred to go there alone I got more out of it for me.  So one day, I was walking down the "Stations of the Cross" (for those of you who do not know what that is, to put it as simply as possible it is a path that resembles the story of Jesus from death to resurrection).  Near the end of the "Stations", Yeshua (Jesus prefers to be called his Hebrew name) greeted me and walked with me.  "I am the way."  He must have repeated it three times before I stopped to listen to him and understood, really understood for the first time ever!

He said:
"I am the way.  I am (not me the person), but the "I AM" is the way. This is the divinity of God within you and it is your power to create in this earthly realm. Whatever words, thoughts, feelings you place after the words "I AM" creates your reality in the physical world you live in."   ~Yeshua
This was by far one of the most profound experiences I had with Yeshua at that point.  It taught me so much, I remember crying and being really excited with this information, but I had no one to share it with.  Back then, I was still transitioning out of my old life and burgeoning on birthing my new life. The message above is just as significant today as it was back then.   Yeshua is here with me now with another message for humanity. And today, Yeshua stood beside me to fill in the gaps and to add more information for me, for us. 
"It will take you many years to fully comprehend and embody this truth for you will have to undergo deconstruction of a program that has been deeply embedded in your DNA and cellular memory, for when you have incarnated into human form on this planet, you have taken on the prevailing consciousness and your job is to rise above that consciousness to help humanity change the very consciousness that is holding them back.  I will assist you dear one, to reclaim your divinity and essence of light that you are, and have been taught to believe you are not.  You are not a sinner from birth, for you are the light and love of God, the creator of all. As humanity begins to awaken and question what they have been told to believe the more quickly the energy will move upon the planet and the more quickly consciousness will begin to resemble the light that you are.  Your powers of creation are more magnificent than you can imagine from your limited human perspective. Look into your heart and begin to see the transformation of your very being." –Yeshua
Something to truly ponder, what words do you put after your “I am”?   This is journal worthy—take a gander and make a list.  I know one of mine is “I am tired".  I have to find a new way to convey my feelings,perhaps I can reprogram a tired body to feel energized rather than tired.

As many of you know, several years ago, I began studying Judaism and have longed to study Hebrew.  Recently, I have begun to study Hebrew and the gates/doorways of my soul lineage have been opening.  The "I AM" that I am referring to above is not limited to Christianity.  If you study the old testament with Moses when he asked God, what God's name was, the answer was "I am that I am".  This is clearly an earlier teaching of the power of  the "I AM".    I would venture to guess that in every major religion in this world, there is a a teaching about the "I AM". I, of course, have not had the opportunity to study other religions, but I believe this is the most important concept that needs to be taught.  This opens me to so much more that I'd like to share, but perhaps another day because this has already become longer than anticipated.

My suggestion to all of you is to ponder and celebrate the Day of Epiphany, but not as the religious holiday, rather as the celebration of the "I AM" within you, simply because we are all God incarnate. We create the life we live every day in every way.  Blessings to you my soul friend.   
Love to you,