A New Journey of Healing Begins...

 I begin a new journey of healing...here starts my story.

 

Dear Friends,

It has been a few months since I sent out an email to you all. As you know I have been going through a lot of health issues in the last few years and unfortunately, that has not changed. 

At about age 28, I remember walking out of a doctor's office and hearing a voice say, "if you don't change your life now, you will not live to be 40."  I was working at the State Capitol in Hartford, CT and running campaigns on the side, both political and labor related.  I worked way too many hours and was under way too much stress for my sensitive soul and was sick all the time.  I heard those words and immediately I changed. I quit my job, left my Masters program, and created a new world for me; focused on my self-healing that led me to opening my business and experiencing adventures in learning, growing, helping and healing myself and so many others.  It has been a journey of discovery and love, and I've loved every minute of it.  

As some of you know, I have never completely recovered from injuries and exhaustion since my car accident.  I kept feeling something was wrong, and did everything I could holistically to function, continue my work and bring love to the earth.  If you have known me and followed me for some time,  I have suffered severe fatigue the last several years and was told by doctors that it was simply because I was in pain.  

I turned 49 on March 1st, and on March 31st I underwent another surgery for the removal of a lymph node in my neck for a biopsy. 

I was diagnosed with Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia.

I was shocked, but not totally surprised since I knew something was not right.  This surprised my doctors, as well, as I've been told over-and-over again that I look healthy and so young for my age.  I have to say that one doesn't just wake up one day having Advanced anything; no I believe I have had this at least the last 20 years, if not my entire life.  I credit my healing and holistic lifestyle for the years I believe I have been in and out of remission.  Why do I think I have had it for many years?  Well, I have experienced the particular symptoms since my 20's and the crazy thing is that this dis-ease is usually diagnosed through blood work 20 years before symptoms show, and it is usually diagnosed in 70 year olds.  When I was a child, we lived in an area where chemicals were being dumped in the nearby river and we drank the well water.  Yes, a story similar to Erin Brockovich; and my parents tried to fight the chemical company--they worked hard to get the Freedom of Information Act passed in the State of Connecticut back in the late 1970's, but it wasn't enough - the company still dumped enough to affect families in two towns. I was sick the majority of my life--if you grew up with me, you know I missed ridiculous amounts of school--it appeared I didn't have a good immune system, but I disagree.  I have an amazing immune system because I am still here at 49 years old even after all that I have been through physically.

I share this news with you for many reasons.  I have to.  You are the people in my life that have brought such love and light into my world; and supported me through all my challenges.  I have always been transparent with you and I don't want to stop that.  I also want you to understand why it has been so hard for me, particularly in the last several years, to maintain my business fully.  I just haven't been feeling 100%.

And yes, I am scared, but I am also hopeful.  I find myself wavering between paralyzing fear, a realization of relief that I know what is wrong with me and optimism that if I can keep myself in and out of remission over the last many years, without the assistance of doctors,  then I can do this now with the help of the right healing team.

With all that being said, I am taking some time off from my business, not taking on new clients and not teaching any classes at the present time.  However, I still want to work  and will continue to pick up sessions in a few weeks with my current clients, through shorter, sessions because it is really good for my mental health and it is what I love to do, helping people.  I ask for understanding if I have to cancel, reschedule appointments as I have really worked a very limited schedule and it is has become more and more limited in the last year.

If you are wondering how you can help?  Here are some ideas:

1. Check out my new website, it has options for you to buy my prerecorded meditations, light language activations, my books, sprays and more.  These will help you to heal too! 
Click here:  www.soulstarhealing.com

2, If you are a healer please send healing to me, or better yet join a Healing Circle that my dearest friend Marcia is putting together to help me heal. It will be a weekly opportunity to connect at the same time.  You can contact me and I will add you to the group. 

3. Want to cheer me up? I need that too!  Please send cards, inspirational thoughts, whatever you feel to me at April D'Amato, PO Box 465, Groton, CT 06340. 

I thank you all for listening and supporting and loving me throughout the years. While this is a difficult diagnosis, I really need your inspiration, love, healing and continued support of me and my business.

In love, light and service of humanity,
EstaRa  April

Energy Thoughts: Stop, Look and Listen to Your Heart

This morning I was conversing with my guides about the energies of 2021. The words of Winnie the Pooh came into my mind loud and clear "Did you ever stop to think and forget to start again?"

The overall energy is that we are getting clear about what it is we want to create in our world, and more globally. Spirit is asking you to STOP and think about where you are going and what direction you are moving in. The past year was like no other we've experienced in recent times that did stop us from going about business as usual, but that only broke us from patterns temporarily. When the world is free to move around once again, will we go back to those previous patterns? Will we have learned anything new? Will we have discovered a new path that we are heading towards? Are we allowing fear to come into play? Are we allowing joy to lead the way? These are just a few of the questions Spirit has asked us to ponder. 

 

The past year was like no other for me as much as it was for you; however, I had the added stress of
health issues and experiencing three major surgeries in less than one year. The first surgery healed a long time issue of not being able to walk--and boy did I utilized the call of nature and the pressure to social distance as an opportunity to walk. It made it possible for me to stop and think about what it is that I am doing. Last summer, I opened my mind and heart to many potentials and different directions to go in. I was getting clearly that we as a collective are beginning again--look ahead of you and notice there is a clean slate. I chose to follow ideas that flowed to me and I am moving in that direction. Then I was faced with a surgery that I had planned, but with some complications. Then I was faced with a surgery that I had no choice to wait on--one that I knew I would likely ultimately need, but thought I could wait another year. Instead, I realized it was a matter of
urgency---not without a great deal of emotion I decided to do the surgery. I am still recovering and it may be awhile before I feel completely ok again. But it has once again asked to me to determine the direction that I am heading in and to see all alternatives. It has encouraged me to look beyond what is right in front of me and dream. It is asking me to see the possibilities laid out in front of me, there are many more than I dreamed. It has asked me to look at the road of my journey over the last twenty or so years leading me in this direction and perhaps my whole life. It is asking me to stop, look around my reality and listen to what my heart is saying. Spirit is asking you to do the same.

 

I am not quite sure just yet what will be, but what I do know is that we are on the path to becoming a united people in love. Oh yes, it doesn't look that way, but it is and can be a reality. It requires releasing the old way of being and recognizing that anger, violence, jealousy, fear, inequality and resentment have no place in an evolving society. We as a people are changing --we are entering a new paradigm. Yes, it is easy to claim that it has something to do with the changing of the people in powerful places, for example, in the US, an Inauguration took place for a new president, but that is not it. It has more to do with the changing of human consciousness which requires humans to be conscious. Weird isn't it? We think because we wake up every day and live our life acquiring the "right things", eating the right way, making ends meet and sometimes beyond that we are doing it right. Well, guess again that is what Spirit is calling you to look at and reflect on. Yes, you are living, (read: surviving), but are you a joyful, love filled being? Or are you too tired, too stressed to actually be present with your life, your decisions and yourself? 

We are creatures of habit and even more so we don't like to experience change easily. We resist it as we go, but as Star Trek's most famous saying goes "Resistance is Futile". Change is happening all the time, but now it is happening on a grander scale that is rippling throughout humanity. It is happening within you and around you. Will you partake in it to create the world you want to live in or will you just allow the world to lead you? If you are a lightworker, truly a lightworker than you know your job is to stand up in your power and be an example of light for others. 

 

Step away from what you have been going about doing --whether it is just this past year or it has been years and determine if this is who you really are. You ask how? Spirit says, the first question to answer is, no matter your circumstances, what do you feel every day? Do you even know how you feel? Step into that question and really allow yourself to go there, be honest. How do you feel? Content? Fearful? Worried? Excited?

 

Back to the energy of this new year. The first few months of this new year, is all about taking the time now for reflection because once the new earth officially gets underway around the equinox, things will happen (read: move forward faster) and you will need to know which way to go. It is not only important to recognize the direction we wish to move in, but we also must recognize the energy we are putting out into the world. If we are moving fast and we don't reflect--perhaps our energy will be haphazard (read: lots of stops and starts and misdirection) and we are not in conscious creation. If we are moving slowly, or for some, not moving at all, what is it we are stuck in (read: what fears are coming up? Afraid of failure or is it fear of success? These are the things that we ultimately get stuck in with the help of old outdated, past programming we've come to accept about ourselves.)

 

Spirit is guiding you now to take a few moments in the next several weeks to be in the present with your current world, current circumstances, current choices and the life you are currently living. Presence is key--my guides have often channeled this many times throughout the years, but now it is no longer about practicing --it is about being. Soon it will be about taking action and making things happen. Are you ready? Set go, wait, stop and think, but this time start again may mean a new direction or an improved version of the old one. Only proceed down the path you are on if it feels intuitively right for you and if it doesn't get ready to create the life you've always dreamed of the universe and all its magical energy is on your side going forward. Remember that blank slate I spoke about above? Well, what you choose will have all the support you need coming your way to fulfill your mission and your life on Gaia.

 

Quick Energy Update: 12.15.2017

Hello Everyone,
On 12:12, I performed an Energy Body Upgrade for my clients and channeled a message to them verbally from the Masters of Light, but then some other details from the Elohim and that is what I am sharing here with you today.

I am being told that all that is not in alignment with these shifts/changes will likely surface so understand that the world is not falling apart around you (well I will joke here--if you are in America--it might be lol), but seriously while things may seem glum, it is simply you letting go of an old energetic and egoic template, one that no longer is being supported, because with your guides you have selected a path that is more in alignment with your energetic frequency.  Basically, they are telling me as I type this that the old path you were on was not allowing you to fully step into your mission; it only allowed you to move through in a specific, limited 3D way keeping you from evolving past that.  Now, your path, your mission and union (union: if that is part of your mission) are the most important things and this new energy infusion will assist you in leaving behind the limitations embedded in your old path/blueprint.  We are already in a new time; yet,  still clinging to the old way, when the truth is that everything is possible, but our programming/systems have been trapped in the old. 

Imagine an older computer (I have one) and you add a new programming to it, but the old programming running on your computer does not allow the new programming to run because they are not compatible, that is the time that we are in.   We cannot implement the new without the releasing/clearing/purging of the old; that is why it seems so difficult during these times we are in.  The new programming is not compatible with what you are currently running, but because we are in the new energy, the clearing/purging/releasing are having a lasting impact as you face these things as they come up.

I know, I know many of us have been through all of this clearing/purging/healing before, and you are probably thinking, been there and done that.   What has been given to me this day clearly is that the tools/healing/clearing that we have done, was being managed within the old programming that had set limits because of the 3D reality we were born into.  Because there have been a great deal of delays along the way to ascension, many of us have been trying to navigate the two worlds, so to speak, (3D/5D) and the new was not able to flow harmoniously (read: collided/stumped our old templates) and allow for permanent shift.   Over the past year we have been downloading new templates/upgrades, but have been still clinging to the old ways as the world around us has not changed greatly.  While the world around us in the physical reality may appear that change hasn't happened, it truly has for each of us internally; it is a matter of letting go of the old beliefs that have been so embedded that many of us are trying to bring those along to the new.  Those beliefs cannot simultaneously exist.  (example: you can't hold a belief  that says "you are not good enough" from your past and expect to see/experience in this new time that you are good enough by way of holding a belief such as: "life is good to me and I get everything I need."  Instead, your energy has been invested in holding the old belief that the new one can't take hold.)Now, is the time to recognize the possibilities of having a new life and experience upon this planet.   There are vast differences/possibilities in this energy, but we must be willing to allow them in.  In doing so, we need to clear/purge/heal those beliefs permanently that have been showing up in your life.  Unfortunately, those beliefs do not coming knocking on your door and say, here I am; instead, they are shown to us through life experience. 

What will you do with this information?  The times, my dear souls, the times are a changing, will you change too?

This message was brought to you today through me with the assistance of the Elohim.   Namaste.

Quick Energy Update 11/28/2017

Quick Energy Update:

Do you remember when you were a child and your biggest concern was having your homework done for school the next day? I have been having a ton of flashbacks to those times/memories over the last weeks, but I am beginning to realize that is not the case.

Instead, I believe I/we are integrating different timelines into my new multi-dimensional lightbody. I know my guides told me I/we would start to wear that "new body suit" (multi-dimensional lightbody) last year and would experience several upgrades and shifts to make it fit over this past year. Well, I think it fits and integration of the many timelines/dimensions are finally integrating.

I see it like a patchwork coat that I/we are wearing; a patch representing different experiences over different times/spaces making us complete, but first showing us what needs tailoring so to speak. It appears some of the most difficult aspects to integrate come from childhood which is why some childhood memories are surfacing as inner child aspects to be healed/tailored to fit more comfortably within that coat. Please heed some of those memories, they are like the keys to unlock your potential/future/dreams.

As we enter this time of massive integration, you will experience several personal internal shifts as

well as external shifts in your life. We are entering Mercury Retrograde Shadow period which will allow room for this integration to take place. I have been working through a great deal of inner child healing and I am going to be sharing that with all of you in the coming weeks. I will be hosting an Inner Child Healing Workshop for my clients--stay tuned for the details in December. Meanwhile, let your inner child speak to you. Allow he/she to play as well as teach you what you have been avoiding--there is great wisdom to be had at this time.

Namaste. EstaRa

Art: Duguay

Quick Energy Update: November 1, 2017

Energy Update:
Happy November!

Happy 11-11 Day. Yes, it is an 11-11 Day. What does that mean? Prepare for the Love train to start moving forward again...it's coming...it's coming....

Meanwhile, back in your day to day life, so much energy floating around the ethers waiting and ready for you to pluck it up and put it into play. What am I supposed to do with that, you may be wondering. Well, the energy is all about transformation/shifting/embodiment. That means we are in a pretty, deep, dark place where there is only one way to go and that is through it. We are being given a massive opportunity right now to shift things that have been stuck quickly, smoothly and easily. The universe is preparing you to jump on that love train and embody the energy of union and connection.
This month provides the blueprint for your future to come alive. Are you ready to embody who you are? Are you ready to create from a place of love? Are you ready to drop and let go of old patterns/beliefs and ways of creating?

Remember, we are no longer in the old paradigm, but many of us are still trying to straddle the past with the present/future. (I am seeing and image of one person standing with their feet on two boats--one on one and the water is spreading the boats further apart. See this and realize we can only stay this way for so long before we fall.) Spirit is guiding us to take the plunge and jump into the ocean to make it easier for us to choose the new boat rather than being unprepared and falling in to the change.
Either way, spirit loves you and supports you on this journey.

Blessings for this new month....magic will happen...believe.

EstaRa April #energyupdate #soulstarhealing #estara

Full Moon Release

Hi Everyone,

Just wanted to take a moment to share a message I posted on my Soul Star Healing Page because I feel so many more people need to see this.  For more information like this, check out my Facebook Page.

Today's Message:

Happy Full Moon. Take some time today to connect with your heart and sense what it is you are truly ready to release. What are you ready to let go of? Not what what you think or have been told you should be done with nor what has been showing up for you. No, instead, I say to you to go within your heart and ask what you are ready to release. Listen quietly and feel that energy in your entire being, identify where you are holding it in your body and breathe it in fully. (To truly release we must feel it to heal it and let it go.) Now, take another deep breath in, filling up with light and expanding out through your body. Take another deep breath in, this time, bring your attention and awareness to that part of your body, exhale out fully making a sound to signify a release. Let that energy expand

over you.

Finally, allow your human awareness come into play, and ask yourself for one word to describe that experience, write it down on a piece of paper and burn it. (it may not be what you expect and it may surprise you--it doesn't matter.) Do not judge the word. Allow this moon's energy to help you transmute this one thing that no longer serves you, nor does it have a place in your body, mind or spirit any longer. Say a prayer of Forgiveness to yourself for holding onto this piece and thank yourself for the willingness to let it go.

~EstaRa

Quick Energy Update for Today

Quick Energy Update:
The mass consciousness of humanity is awakening. It is happening. How do I know? How will you know? Have you been experiencing intense waves of emotions from out of nowhere, particularly when you are interacting with people? Such as anger? Fear? Anxiety? Stress?Have you been wanting to hibernate or once you have been out, want to go to your home or sacred space? These are signs that you are experiencing the awakening of mass consciousness.

The mass consciousness is really waking up--they are beginning to see the injustices at all levels--they may not be aware or as a awake as many of the pathpavers, wayshowers, etc, but they are certainly beginning to feel what they haven't allowed through. There is no more holding back--it is coming in fast and furious to them and hitting their reality like a brick. You will see it in their response time to issues--they may respond slower if they often responded quickly, and those who used to take longer, will respond more quickly. On the surface, it appears as if the sky is falling, to

take a quote from Henny Penny. But the truth is that internal suppression is not being allowed and it comes up as outbursts of anger, breakdown of tears, fits of debilitating anxiety and more. This is the ascension. And don't forget, a simple reminder to be kind and gentle to those just awakening.

How do we get through it?

I recommend establishing a daily routine of grounding, cutting cords, and running light throughout your being and by all means put up a protective bubble around you before you leave your home. I know I have found myself getting angry for no reason and it would be often when I was on the phone or in person speaking with someone. I realized their energy was having an affect on my mood--I literally felt like I could go from zero to sixty; and when it isn't mine, the good news, I can go back down just as quickly. We will get through this together.

If you need some insight or help to get through this time, please feel free to contact me april@soulstarhealing.com ~EstaRa

Thoughts on Charlottesville, VA

Hello Everyone,

I have been having some trouble sleeping and wanted to share with you what I posted on my social media today. This past weekend a terrible tragedy occurred in the city of Charlottesville, VA; people were killed and injured, directly and indirectly as a result of racism.  Yes that word that no one likes to talk about. It is real and it is a problem in our society and has been hidden far too long.  You can read here Soul Star Healing my post this morning to my business page.

But what I feel the need to share is that I feel overwhelmed and saddened that our daily life in America has been riddled with anger/pain/suffering/racism/violence etc. The state that our country is in is shocking to so many; and yet, a wake up call to all those who have been silent or have looked the other way for far too long. I have always known that racism existed, but I didn't realize to the capacity it is showing itself now; as if permission was giving to show/act/be hate.

Last year while I was campaigning for Bernie Sanders, I saw for the first time how angry people in my state were and how clearly racism still existed here in a way that I wasn't even aware; I live in what you would call a blue state and I felt safe here. While I understand energy and the bigger picture of why people are reacting the way they are, they don't; they don't understand that there is an agenda by the powers that be to manipulate us; keep us separate from one another, keep the people apart and keep them in the blame game because who benefits?  Not the person in the battle of hate. The benefactors of the divisive rhetoric are those with money, power and control currently; and they are keeping us distracted from what they are doing to harm the earth and her inhabitants, while the rest of us suffer all kinds of fear/violence/suffering/pain etc. We must not give into their agenda, we must remember that we are all in this together to make our country, our world a better place.

While I was driving the other day,  I saw a truck in front of me with two the American Flags on it and I almost immediately felt uncomfortable.  I was taken aback by that feeling and realized it was almost the response of someone with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.   Fear ran through me in that moment and made me uncomfortable.  I recognized the feeling, I know some of you may not understand why I would refer to an illness in describing how I felt, but I do not use that phrase lightly and it is how I would explain that fear response within me. For the first time, I felt like  the racists who call themselves patriots have hijacked our American flag--they hide behind that, saying they love America and want to make it great. (By no means do I mean to imply that all people who consider themselves patriots to be racists, but in a weird, confusing way, I do believe all people who are racists, more specifically, white supremacists believe they are patriots.)  I don't want to go into what/why they want to make America great again, enough has been written on that, but  in my opinion, I think they got it all wrong.

I mean do they understand America, have they read the constitution? Do they understand that the beauty of this country we live in is that it is made up of all immigrants coming from everywhere? That without the different cultures, educational backgrounds, etc we wouldn't have a country that was/is so dynamic in many ways. That the only true natives are the Native American People? I could go on, but I won't for the sake of my time and yours.

My degree is in Political Science and Public Administration and I believed in our system of democracy. I tell you that because I believed that our flag stood for so much. To me it represented freedom, our rights, the American Dream.    I loved our flag and our country, but now with all that is transpiring and being allowed to happen in our country from the event in Charlottesville, Va to the abuse of power and violence in some of our Police Departments to the hatred that has risen to the level of acceptable---I don't feel the same. I am disappointed in our system, I am disappointed in our country and at present the flag does not represent to me what it once did; instead, the flag  makes me think of the extreme hatred/racism that the white supremacist movement stands for.  I long for it to change, and I am sure you do too.

This is not something we can do alone--it is something we all must come together to do and stand up for our beliefs; we need to drop the ego about who is doing what and focus on the world we wish to create. We need to not fight it with more anger/violence/hate, we need to fight it with love, truth and unity. Perhaps, we don't even use the word fight, perhaps we just love, show support, come together in unity celebrations rather than protests.  Let us celebrate what America really is; a place where all can come together; and share and appreciate all our differences and strive to live comfortably, compassionately together.

I fear that this event is rippling out more acts of violence, unnecessary fear and divisiveness; and that is what these people strive to do.  I certainly hope that each of us is ready to take a stand for our truth and our country.  We need to love one another now more than ever.

In light, love and unity,
EstaRa April 

Quick Energy Update for August 2017

This month's energy has come tumbling in and rolling over everything in its way--anything that is not rooted in your soul's truth or in the highest light possible will be turned upside down, trampled over and up for deep release.

What the heck does this mean? It means let it happen. It means that you are advancing forward on this journey to a new you... It means for some this is what you have been waiting for and for others it means roll up your sleeves and get to work facing what is surfacing. 

Yesterday, I had a visit with the Goddess Sekhmet and this morning, I had a visit with Sanat Kumara both are nudging me forward on my path explaining it is time to hunker down and get to work on the things I wish or desire. They imbued the same wisdom for you as well. Get those shields of courage ready to brave through the thickness of this energy and by all means--allow, allow, allow.

As I once told my beloved twinflame in person and in the etheric--resistance is futile. At this time, resistance is not only futile, but it will be painful physically, mentally and emotionally. Embrace what is being shown to you--let go and allow the energy to shift within you...your entire existence has been created for this time on the planet.

We are ready to embark on an even bigger journey than we can imagine. There is magic to be had at this time...but first you must drop away the safeguards, the falsehoods, the stories you have been telling yourself and the stories that have been told to you about you. What is you wish to create? Use this month to garner the courage, gather the support and embrace the wisdom.
Namaste
EstaRa

Energy Thoughts: Tick Tock Tick Tock

Hello Everyone,

Back with Part 2 of yesterday's blog post called Energy Thoughts: Pull Back the Curtain.   Picking up where I left off, July's energy of introspection, what does that mean for us all?   We started the month off, still reeling from the energy of Freedom. Freedom to be love, be who we are and do what we wish.  My guides said this month would require a great deal of Integration from all that has taken place over the last several months. (You think? I asked.)  It feels like I could use a year to integrate all that has transpired. They informed me kindly that I do not have a year, but I had a whole month that would feel a lot longer as I was going through it, but in the end, the month will have moved faster than it would seem.  And well, here I am on July 27th and I can honestly say, where did the month go? 

July brought massive upheavals for many, particularly the Divine Masculine. (read: dramatic awakening)  The newly open-hearted Divine Masculine is really beginning to view the world from a different perspective, the heart-centered one which takes on a different meaning than a head centered one that they/we have become accustomed to.   As the Divine Feminine began to integrate much of what she has been challenged to embody, she also began to get some backlash, pummeling to the point of her questioning her own soul truth and her new forging reality.   As the Divine Masculine began to go further inward--pulling away, it reverberated outward to the Divine Feminine in her reality and amplified the energy of confusion.  She isn't confused--she is feeling the Divine Masculine waking up from a dream.

For example:  Imagine, you have been dreaming for sometime, but in the dream it is a life you are
living, let's call it 3D reality. In this dream, you believe that the 3D reality you are living is all there is to the point of you recalling the phrase: You made your bed, now you must lie in it.   (Ok, yes now, let's imagine.  no--I am talking real human earth world of 3D--not really a dream, but for the sake of this example, bear with me.) Then, you woke up and everything you have been doing doesn't make sense: the life you are living, the job you have been in, the place you are living, the people you are living with--it all doesn't make sense.

But wait, the old beliefs start playing in your head: This is all there is. I can't have more than this life. I don't deserve to better.  This is how my family has always done it.  Yes, they were unhappy, but that is all there is in life.   But again, wait, those beliefs contradict what I am beginning to see peering over the horizon.  How do I change what I am living? I put so much time/effort/money into creating/maintaining/suffering through it?  It can't possibly be changed at least that was what had been taught in the old paradigm belief system, right?  Again, beliefs start pouring in:  No one ever gets divorced in our family.   I marry for life.  I just have to suck it up and deal with a crappy job.  I have to do the right thing. I need this job to pay the bills--it is just a paycheck.  I will do (fill in the blank) when I retire.  (Is this sounding familiar? I am sure you can add more of your own belief systems into this too. I am sure some of you reading this have been working through this, reworking through this or just beginning to explore this.)

By the way we are in the new paradigm, but some of us are still running old programs prompting us to believe in the old paradigm still existing.  The reality of the paradigms living together simultaneously will be shifting shortly come September--be prepared by looking more closely at what is going on within you--sneak peek of what is ahead.  Oh yes the reality we/they (speaking mostly of the Divine Masculine at this time) are living in appears in real time to have changed, but the beliefs/values/programs all say 3D is all there is, right?--I have to hold on tight, right? (read: cling for dear life or picture hanging onto the cliff of life.)   This is what the Divine Masculine is experiencing in his world internally, but as of July---in his reality it is no longer just internally, but iappearing physically in his world. It started happening late January of this year with the Divine Masculine opening up to love; and it hasn't let up.  (Thanks to the Divine Feminine claiming her space and holding up sacred reality.)

Spirit is saying it won't let up.  Time is running out for choices and alignments so each soul is being led (read: dragged through the mud) to awakening/shifting/change.  We are in the crunch time once again, but this time it isn't temporary--this shift will be permanent. Remember, old timelines will be disappearing more and more and new possibilities will open that have not been seen before--this is why the clock appears to be ticking, particularly with regard to the Twinflame Energies, but really for all of humanity--as you can well see it playing out on stage in the American Political System.  Oh yes, that is all about the Divine Masculine waking up and Divine Feminine coming into balance, but it appears more like a competition as we watch, but don't be fooled--it is all about learning to navigate the time we are in and the possibilities that are presenting themselves to us.   We as a collective have to learn that we have entered the new paradigm,  we have left the old paradigm behind, but so many of us are still trying to work through things/manifest stuff through the old paradigm--it is time for some changes, don't ya think? Perhaps the more each of us steps into who we

are the more quickly everyone else can or the others can step aside. I digress.

 So while the Divine Masculine is incubation, the Divine Feminine is too.  He is reclaiming his power (read: beginning to recognize there is more to life than what he has been experiencing, learning he has more power than he ever thought, looking for answers; and for some, learning to navigate this new energy); while the Divine Feminine is nurturing her dreams (read: healing/integrating/learning how to manifest in the 5D and what the consequences and rewards are for doing so, and working to balance the fallout energy of the Divine Masculine into her reality.).  This is happening for all Twinflames and for all non-Twinflames.  Get ready people the ride is on and it is going to be a thrilling one.

This brings me to today. Integration, Integration and more integration.  Enjoy this integration period because soon it will be over and the real work begins.  I know, I know --lots of questions....What?  Real work? What the heck have we been doing, if not real work? When does it end--the working phase, I mean?  See I do understand your questions as I have asked them myself quite often. 

We are now approaching quickly the 8-8 Gateway--also known as the Lion's Gate which is a kick ass time of energy--also the Galatic/Cosmic New Year is arriving and boy do we have some magic in store for us.  We are on the path to divine alignment whether you are on the twinflame journey, your own soul's path or just a soul looking to catch a ride to ascension and the higher dimensions---we are set to be there soon.   As we end July and close out a lot the old (read: limitations/blocks), we are being thrown into the lesson of learning how to best use this energy.  When you close out limitations and blocks, what does one do?  One steps into their power and jumps at opportunities and explores the number of possibilities beginning to reveal themselves. 

As the month of August opens up we are going to be walloped by the energy opening doorways/pathways/possibilities that we have not yet opened up to. Are you ready to see how this energy rocks your world with adventures?  Well--hang on the ride is about to arrive.  (And just an aside--adventures come in all ways--physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, but don't we just love the physical ones the most? )  We start August out with the beginning of Eclipse season---Eclipse sandwiches are always most potent times of evolution to which we don't often see  or make sense of the likes that transpired  during that time, but dear ones I am being told by spirit--we can use this energy to really power us forward.   We also have the planet Mercury getting ready to retrograde in August, but I am told to hold on before you make any judgments or decisions--it isn't going to be like the other ones you have endured. (well that is not if you don't want it to be? hint: we have control of our reality--not others, but the reality we live in--choose wisely because this energy will help to catapult you forward.)

August will be a month of easing back from the pushing forward, instead spirit tells me that you have been given the signs, the go ahead and now it is time to start the planning/strategizing/moving forward/lining up of what you are going to be doing, where you are heading and the like.  Really pay attention to the signs/messages/knocks on the head you receive at the Lion's Gate. Remember this gateway brings courage and power to your year ahead and sets the tone for what you will reap in the harvest of your soul come the September Equinox.  It is time for you to use this month for manifestation--learn the new way of manifesting in the 5 D reality--this new paradigm is ready and waiting for you to step in and create.  What will you create?  Do you know how?  You can check out a class I am offering in the Physical on August 19th. If you are local, click here to find out more. I know it says 3 hours, but I am feeling it may last an extra bit of time.  Get excited--I am.   It is also time to garner the support both in the physical realm and with the unseens--lots of help is just there waiting for you to pluck up and use it for your benefit.  We often talk about the dark./negative, well, there is some massive light that is cutting through space to help you and all of humanity to ascend and create the new earth.

Okay, I will stop here as I feel I can write more and more ---you know my ramblings they keep going--once spirit starts sparking itself through me clearly--I can go on. :)   Oh one last note before I go....a few sneak peeks forward....September will be the time to adjust, put things into play that you had garnered over the August transformation energy. Globally, be prepared to navigate the energy of fear that will likely ripple out in August for those that are not on this conscious path to ascension.  It will rock their world too--but perhaps not in such a balanced and good way that we intend for ourselves.   Just know come September massive change will occur.

Namaste Beautiful Ones.
EstaRa

Energy Thoughts: Pull Back the Curtain

Happy July Everyone,

So here we are after the June Solstice has arrived, do we feel different?  No, you say.  Check in again, do you feel different. Yes, now that is better.  So much has been happening over the last several months, weeks and days.  This Energy Thoughts will bring to light what has been happening, what is happening and what will be happening.  Are you ready to go down the rabbit hole and turn back the clock a bit?

So earlier this year a new  Light Energy began lighting up our planet (read: pummeling) which paved the way for some massive transformation healing and clearing of our heavier growing light bodies. We had still been enveloped in a light body of the old paradigm (3D light body) while the a new paradigm of light body (5D light body) began to come down to blend and upgrade our light body.  Did we feel it? Heck yeah, we all felt it with massive aches, pains, exhaustion and any other number of ascension problems you wish to remember. Then as was promised, we began to fully embody the new 5d Light body.  This happened around the March Equinox.  Do you remember?  Things started to change a bit?  Clarity started surfacing and then as if the curtain fell down, the energy became a little heavier and little more intense (read: as if? hahaha).

While all of that was transpiring the Divine Masculine has begun really opening up their heart. (read: universe breaking it open wide.)  This is big news for all of us on the planet--you may be wondering what the heck is going on here. How can that be?  There is so much amiss on this planet--too much chaos taking place--but that is why things seem so far out of balance?  With the Divine Masculine living in the more 3D reality (read: clinging to what they know/knew) and the 5D becoming more real and tangible, it has knocked everyone out of balance--forcing the Divine Masculine to look inward. I mean really, it can't help but break open the hearts of the Divine Masculine.  This is good news for Twinflames (in the waiting) that have long been waiting for this to occur.  Of course on the surface, no one has seen this in play except perhaps glimpses of it. It is happening--don't you worry.

Let's bring us back to what else has transpired. We must look at where we have been to look at where we are going--well that is not always necessary, but during these times it is quite helpful to keep some level of sanity on our end. So in  June, I was given a very clear message from the Arcturians that June 11th was going to be the closing of a cycle--well more specifically, the beginning of a closing of the cycle. They informed me it would be 2-3 weeks for some depending on where they were in ascension and that would bring us to the Solstice.   That brought up lots of fear, pain, suffering etc that was ready to really be released even if you thought you did it already, or even if you thought you didn't have a problem with it--it was there for you--likely in your face--we needed to put closure to some of that old.  It was an intense period! ( I know, I know when has it not been? I hear you. I feel the same way, just when I think we are on solid ground--the boat gets rocked.  But we are better for it, right? )

The weekend before the Solstice in June, boy started pouring in feelings/emotions/dreams/intense longings for some or all of us.  What was that for? The release of the old and the letting go of the past and wait...what happened?   We literally closed out the cycle and said good bye to old timelines that we shall never revisit again.  Pheww---I felt this energy of freedom come over me and for some of you too--you may or may not have recognized it, but look back over that time crunch and see what was going on for you.  I am sure you can remember feeling a sense of freedom breeze through--I am sure it was a breeze for some and then it went back to intense for others.  I remember feeling high--living off the energy of freedom and excitement because I did feel like I dropped off my baggage for good--never to be reclaimed.  Thank you cycle for ending and leaving me feeling empty.

Then, I had a day like no other on the Solstice. I usually have a big event gathering with friends, clients and doing a ritual--I was guided not to do that. Instead, I spent the evening in a conversation with a good friend; she is also a twinflame on this crazy journey to union too.  We sat at the beach engaged in conversation, catching up as we hadn't seen each other in a while.   Prior to that the whole day was different...things happened that made me excited, glad to be alive and felt the anticipation of love. Things just seemed to click.
Sitting there on the beach engaged in conversation with my friend that evening, my phone rang. (I didn't think I had the sound on.)  I exclaimed, "did you hear that? did you hear the ringtone?"  She looked at me funny and said yes with a surprised look in her eye. (She probably thought I lost it or something.  I said, "OMG  The ringtone, the ringtone. I haven't had that ringtone since September (2016). It is not possible."  So that was shocking, I went back into conversation and exclaimed again, "OMG!"  I could not let it go.  I had had a recorded ringtone I made Love is the Answer for years now, but when upgraded my phone  in September 2016, the ringtone disappeared.  But there it was that night!!  I felt something in me stir--I back in divine alignment to union with my beloved--I heard I jumped timelines.  I was like what?  (my guides had been preparing me for the solstice since the equinox, but they didn't tell me I was going to jump timelines--just that the energy was going to be big. )  Then I looked up behind me were these clouds that you can't totally tell by the picture, but they looked like fire. I heard transmutation of the past has happened and you are now on the timeline to union.   I was in awe and I began to tell my friend what was happening. She was in awe, but said she thought I was right and I looked over and saw a rainbow.  Of course, I didn't take a picture of the rainbow in time, (I didn't think about it-I was too amazed by it.) but this is the best I could do with that moment.   It started to rain and I couldn't believe what was happening--it started to rain and we decided to sit in the car and watch.

As we continued to talk, the rain moved quickly by and the clouds started to clear up. I was so happy I had jumped timelines, this was big and it started to confirm the messages that I was getting about and upcoming move.  I asked spirit is this what you really want me to do?  And there it was a ball of light being presented to me in the sky.   That was all I needed and it confirmed that I had not only jumped timelines, but many will.  We have chosen our timeline based on the choices we have been making.  See my blogpost about timelines here.  The time between the Solstice and Equinox in September will be when the Timeline Shifting will occur.  Have you jumped timelines yet?  If so, I'd love to hear from you.

From that day forward, so many clear, indisputable signs have shown up in my reality, particularly with regard to a geographic change/shift for me. It has been difficult at best to keep/maintain unwavering faith in this at times especially when I hit the introspective energy of July and the reality taking place with the Divine Masculine, but I have my handy dandy guidance system on high alert--providing me with continually messages/challenges/signs to keep me awakened and remembering I am in the new timeline. What does that mean I am being constantly prompted not to go back to old patterns/thoughts/beliefs--(read: hit over the head with truth from spirit to stay the course).  A whole week of 7's reminding me just what I need to know--I am right on target for my future and so are you!


This shift in energy has fueled a great of healing/clearing/reaffirming our past in July.  I will end here and come back with another Energy Thoughts part 2 with regard to the Energy of Introspection/Integration for July.  I know I can ramble so I am breaking this up...expect the next part to come out soon....until then.

Namaste,
EstaRa

Inspirational Snippet: I am Enough

As you may or may not be aware, I am teaching a daily online class in Transformation.  This morning I feel prompted to share what I have discovered yesterday and have shared with my class.  See, one of the things I do truly love about me is that I never give up on my journey. I keep wanting to grow, learn and expand so while I am "teaching" this class, I am also "attending" as well.  


I am prompted by my guides to share a story with you today that goes along with the theme of manifesting our dreams and the work I’ve given you over the past weeks. What did you  discover the other day on your list? Did you sit with what came up?  Fears?  It is time to relay them back to where they belong….what belief do you hold about YOU (not the situation) that you think maybe blocking you?  This is a hard step that we sometimes can’t get out of our own way with.

I had an epiphany this morning as I preparing for today’s lesson and class  that I needed to revisit worthiness for myself.  With all the work I have done on me, I do recognize that I am valuable, a necessary piece of the puzzle, worthy of all I desire and more.  Now I have always known that in my head, I even felt I understood it fully about myself.  It is easy for me to understand it for others, but what I recognize today is that I need to feel it inside of me again—I need to reconnect with that part of me often—not just when it strikes me or when I have an epiphany.  I have definitely had moments of awareness and worthiness over the last several years of my life, particularly since 2011.  I thank all my beautiful friends for helping me to feel it and assisting me on my journey to worthiness.  The clearing of my past and the unworthiness chain has followed me around for sometime…I am ready now to release another layer. I am ready and willing to release my need to feel unworthy. I am ready to accept I am good enough.  I am worthy. I am worthy of all that I desire. I am worthy because I am.  This is the underlying belief that I discovered –hidden beneath what came up for me is “feelings of not good enough, translating to worthiness.”

Back in 2012, I ran a class on Manifesting Your Dreams through using your thoughts. I had taught a similar class to this in the past, but this time I allowed my guides to teach it.   I mean I channeled everything I talked about. I even remember the second week of the class, I said to my students. I know you had homework, how was it?  What was it?  I seriously didn't remember anything I had said or taught that day, but the message that was clear to me is that there are certain core beliefs each of us developed as young children and carried them forward into our adulthood as inherent pieces of us.  And, it is time to let them go.  (Tip for you---what core belief no longer serves you?  Look at the signs, particularly messages from your homework the other day, in your life and see where that is stuck and really look into the layers of things that are stuck.  You may need assistance with this step many of us do---I’d be happy to help you, but you must be willing to do the work for when we work together the energy gets moving more rapidly. )

Back to that class, I gave my students homework to get to the core belief that was underlying the difficulty they were having in achieving what it is they were wanting.  As you all know, I don't ever give homework to clients or students that I have not done myself so I understand what it is I am giving each of you.  Now, I have noticed that so many people need to first fall in love with themselves.  They often tell me that they love themsleves, but I can feel the lack of love for themselves even with their speaking it.  Loving yourself requires you to be able to look deep within your soul by connecting with your eyes and telling you that you love you (This is the exercise I had given you previously about establishing a soul connection by looking at your eyes and speaking to the little girl or boy inside of you.  Say the following: I love and accept myself just as I am. And watch how magic happens.)

For me that part I can honestly say I got down I can truly look in the mirror and say I love me and really mean it and feel it.  However, as we all know we have layers of stuff (healing that needs to clear).  So I took notice during this class that one of the themes that kept coming up for me was worthiness.  I felt unworthy.  When the physical class ended, I had continued to work with my students in weekly 15-20 minute check in phone conferences.  During our first phone call, I asked them to hold me accountable for my homework of working on my worthiness as I was holding them accountable for their work.  Well, if you know me, you know I really do live the way I speak and off I went on my mission to reclaim my worthiness.  I remember looking in the mirror saying, I am worthy. And hearing, in the back of my mind a voice that said, Are you?  (I swear it felt like it came out of nowhere, but truly it was in the dark recesses of my mind.)  That one moment spawned a whole mess of feelings, emotions and work to do.  So like the good student, I did my work every day; honoring me for the voice  I heard was really me and what really was going on not the words that I spoke out loud.

After a few weeks of doing my mirror exercises of “I am worthy. I am willing to release unworthiness.”  I heard that voice again, but this time it said, "You Are."  Wow!! I achieved it in my thoughts.  I was no longer going against the thoughts in my head, they were now in the new alignment of feeling worthy.   I was so proud, but felt I needed to continue working it.  So I continued and things I had been manifesting, just began to show up (well really continued even into now.)

Then, about four years ago now, I had the car accident.  I began to do all I humanly knew as possible to clear up my injuries as you all know, including every available tool to me in my alternative world in addition to traditional world, but I have to be truthful—the alternative has worked so much more!  Well as you should well know, energy healing really gets things moving on all levels, spiritual, mental, emotional and physical.    It worked my wish to heal this unworthiness issue that I have carried around for so many years has manifested through back pain and feelings of unworthiness.   Without going into too much more detail, people started showing me how worthy I was.  Everything culminated the past four years when I was receiving all these beautiful gifts of love, support and friendship during this most difficult time in my life.  I mean, I am still in my apartment –sometimes I say I don’t know how, but if I step back and really own my value and worthiness—I can honestly say that I manifested it.—wow look at me owning my power.  It feels a little funny—but it is the truth.  My guides have always said I am a Master Manifestor and I have to admit they are right.  Things that were never expected or thought happened; all was extremely needed.

Truthfully, it overwhelmed the heck out of me, but in a good way, (I remember my twinflame saying that I overwhelmed him, but in a good way.  I never understood what he meant until this moment.  But I digress.)  You would think that beautiful things that people gave me or shared with me or helped me with would make me feel so loved and worthy, right?  What I discovered is that it made me feel less, I felt inferior like I couldn't give back to them the way they helped me.  I have always had that independent attitude that I can do everything; I thought I had to.  I had to work through all those feelings to discover, that these beautiful people were not making me feel inferior/unworthy; it is because I make/made me feel this way based on my belief that I am/was not worthy of being here or I am/was not good enough.   I had the assistance of friend who witnessed my emotions and my discoveries of where the beliefs of unworthiness began.  She was an Angel to me in the last year to help me understand that there are layers of it and I have to revisit and maintain my worthiness—just as I need to maintain my self-love.

After thinking about it I realize I do give back ME  and that ME IS ENOUGH. I am good enough.  I am worthy. I want to shout it out to the world so everyone knows and perhaps it will get through to me too—once and for all!  I think the truth is that I am the only one it has to get through no one else—everyone else already seems to know that I am worthy.  It needs to be my truth every moment of every day of my life.

My wish for you today is to see your own beliefs that may need to be upgraded, revisited or explored a little more. No specific journal homework for you today--instead, I would like you to ponder some of these deep questions for you.