Inspirational Snippet: Epiphany

Today is known as the Feast Day of Epiphany which means the day in which Christians recognize Jesus Christ as God incarnate.

Seven years ago today, I left on a flight to a destination that changed my life forever. I went to Egypt and reclaimed parts of my soul that had been lost and I became more fully who I am today. In some ways, that trip to Egypt was my own self discovery that is God incarnate within me (as God is in every living being upon this planet).

Several years prior to that, I would often go to Our Lady of Lourdes Shrine, in Litchfield, CT for peace and sanctuary particularly when I lived in Bristol.  I preferred to go there alone I got more out of it for me.  So one day, I was walking down the "Stations of the Cross" (for those of you who do not know what that is, to put it as simply as possible it is a path that resembles the story of Jesus from death to resurrection).  Near the end of the "Stations", Yeshua (Jesus prefers to be called his Hebrew name) greeted me and walked with me.  "I am the way."  He must have repeated it three times before I stopped to listen to him and understood, really understood for the first time ever!

He said:
"I am the way.  I am (not me the person), but the "I AM" is the way. This is the divinity of God within you and it is your power to create in this earthly realm. Whatever words, thoughts, feelings you place after the words "I AM" creates your reality in the physical world you live in."   ~Yeshua
This was by far one of the most profound experiences I had with Yeshua at that point.  It taught me so much, I remember crying and being really excited with this information, but I had no one to share it with.  Back then, I was still transitioning out of my old life and burgeoning on birthing my new life. The message above is just as significant today as it was back then.   Yeshua is here with me now with another message for humanity. And today, Yeshua stood beside me to fill in the gaps and to add more information for me, for us. 
"It will take you many years to fully comprehend and embody this truth for you will have to undergo deconstruction of a program that has been deeply embedded in your DNA and cellular memory, for when you have incarnated into human form on this planet, you have taken on the prevailing consciousness and your job is to rise above that consciousness to help humanity change the very consciousness that is holding them back.  I will assist you dear one, to reclaim your divinity and essence of light that you are, and have been taught to believe you are not.  You are not a sinner from birth, for you are the light and love of God, the creator of all. As humanity begins to awaken and question what they have been told to believe the more quickly the energy will move upon the planet and the more quickly consciousness will begin to resemble the light that you are.  Your powers of creation are more magnificent than you can imagine from your limited human perspective. Look into your heart and begin to see the transformation of your very being." –Yeshua
Something to truly ponder, what words do you put after your “I am”?   This is journal worthy—take a gander and make a list.  I know one of mine is “I am tired".  I have to find a new way to convey my feelings,perhaps I can reprogram a tired body to feel energized rather than tired.

As many of you know, several years ago, I began studying Judaism and have longed to study Hebrew.  Recently, I have begun to study Hebrew and the gates/doorways of my soul lineage have been opening.  The "I AM" that I am referring to above is not limited to Christianity.  If you study the old testament with Moses when he asked God, what God's name was, the answer was "I am that I am".  This is clearly an earlier teaching of the power of  the "I AM".    I would venture to guess that in every major religion in this world, there is a a teaching about the "I AM". I, of course, have not had the opportunity to study other religions, but I believe this is the most important concept that needs to be taught.  This opens me to so much more that I'd like to share, but perhaps another day because this has already become longer than anticipated.

My suggestion to all of you is to ponder and celebrate the Day of Epiphany, but not as the religious holiday, rather as the celebration of the "I AM" within you, simply because we are all God incarnate. We create the life we live every day in every way.  Blessings to you my soul friend.   

Love to you,
EstaRa

Energy Thoughts: Egyptian Energy Rolling In

Good Monday Morning Everyone. 

Just coming off a weekend of magical energies with the 8-8 Lion's Gate Energy rolling into my awareness clearly on the 7th and welcoming this full moon.  Friday, I spent time with friends outside in nature for connection and meditation.  Just a reminder that when "big" energy comes to the planet, the best place to be is in nature preferably sitting on grass to help anchor and balance the vibrational shifting that is taking place in your body as the energy pours in.  (A beautiful little fairy friend, Win-Kel came by for a brief visit on Friday to remind me of such.)  

I have to admit that after the intense meditative afternoon, I was a bit exhausted, but I knew I could not let the Lion's Gate get away without Smudging my space and utilizing this energy to clear my space and re-charge my portal of light in my home.  Before the clearing began, The Goddess Sekhmet appeared to me to provide assistance as I cleansed.  My friend and I did an amazingly deep clearing and then lay within the portal for the purpose of absorbing the new energies.  During my receptive mode, I allowed myself to receive downloads/transmissions from Egypt.  I got amazing visions of the light beaming into the Great Pyramid in Giza and transferring over to the Sphinx and spreading through the planet through the eyes of the Sphinx. It was quite a miraculous vision and quite the physical body sensations as the energy made its way sweeping across the planet.  Oh, how I love the Egyptian Energies and how grateful I am to have been there and always able to access them.  Just before coming out of meditation, the Beloved Egyptian Goddess Sekhmet appeared before me once again.  She reminded me of our agreement made in Egypt back in January of 2011.  (If you have been following my blog for sometime you will remember my blog posts from my Egypt trip with lots of information on Sekhmet. If you haven't been reading it that long or have not read my Egypt posts, I highly recommend you take some time to read about the magical experience I had and why it is still so profound this much time later and it is a great way to get to know me.) Back to Sekhment, her name is from the word Sekhem which means power and might. She is a powerful goddess in Egypt depicted with the a lion head and female body. She appeared to me and said, "I gift you now with courage, will power and determination. I bring to you and all within your sphere of influence the majestic light of the Lion's Gate and assist them on their journey with courage, will power and determination."  Needless to say, I felt completely honored and in awe of this beautiful being.  Then the evening was done and I barely got a wink of sleep with all the energy pulsing through me and the downloads into my field. 

Now, this morning  I was sitting here at the computer getting ready to type today's message on my Soul Star Healing fan page and I was hijacked by my guides, the Arcturian Masters of Light, and they brought forth a mini message for you for today. Please read it below and "bask" in the energy of it. (the energy holds immense emanations of love and light!) So it shall be. 

Today's Message: Bask in the energy that surrounds you today. It is your power coming back to you. Reclaim your place in humanity as the majestic being of love that you are. Your light is so bright, you are an eternal sun unto yourself. You are what you have been waiting for--each of you sparkles with the divine and simply being present in your life will create all the miracles that you have long desired. The time has come dear ones, for the new earth is and will unfold exactly as it is meant to. We tell you this on this day for you to begin to take action upon the things you value most in life. That will set the stage for what is to come into reality for you. It is with deep love, honor and respect that we bring this message to you today through EstaRa. We are the Masters of Light.

I share all of this experience with you for you to know that Ancient Egyptian energy is here at this time to assist us all.  I believe clearly that my guides are asking you to discover; that is, if you have not already found what it is you value most in this life because that is what will remain/grow/expand/become your focus. With all the energy of the Lion's Gate, you are "roaring" to go. (Yes, my humor Lion's Gate, lion's roar. hahaha)  The energy is ready for you to take action in your life, but  where do you begin?  So much information coming in on overload, perhaps for some of us as a result of the Lion's Gate, for others they are just all over the place and haven't tapered down to what they value most yet.  This full moon energy is kicking with manifestation power, but it is begging you to balance your energy/thoughts/beliefs/truths.  This is what my guides were referring to when they said, "begin to take action upon the things you value most in life." For example: if you want to feel well, then focus on your well-being not your unwell being and begin to take steps in that direction.  Start learning about how you can better care for yourself, pay attention to the signs the universe is showing you and by all means realize that the power lies in your hands, not the doctors, not other people, not family, not friends, but YOU!  Once you clearly decide what it is you want to "heal", then the universe will provide what you need to move you from "unwell to well".  It sounds easy, I know, but the truth remains that each of you/us has the power to change everything and anything in this new earth reality that we are moving into (have been moving into).  Finally,  our earth will become the place that each of us has been holding inside as the truth for so long. (I will speak for me---YES FINALLY!)  It will be easy for some of us who have been living it for sometime now, while others may have to play a little catch up.  Be kind to your fellow human, they may be playing catch up.  Think twice before getting angry or short with the human you are dealing with on the phone/in person/in a car/etc--they may be playing catch up!  It would benefit you far more to be kind and try to understand before putting out the angry/short/frustrated energy  because those feelings put out a lower vibration, whereas being kind puts out more heart energy and a higher vibration. 

Our realities are changing if you are not already living it, then it is time for you to begin to see the magic that the earth holds for you.  The changes will begin to pick up pace now, with the advent of the September Equinox, things will really begin to move to a place where it feels like everything is different and yet the same.  Some of us have experienced glimpses of it already, and whoa, it was a little confusing, if not unbalancing at first.  It is all good from where I stand on this journey.  Unbalancing isn't always a negative thing; rather it is a good reminder to be present.   

Well that is all I will explore with you for today, but might I make a few suggestions that my guides are providing me with. 

• Remain grounded--it is so necessary at this time  to anchor the energies.  During this time of rapid change on the planet, our very beings (auras and physical bodies) have become receptacles of some of the negative energies we encounter day to day, place to place, experience to experience and grounding into Gaia is how the light pushes it through us out into the earth for Mother Earth to transmute it all to Love energy.  (HUGE reminder to all my clients/students that I sound like a broken record to--Ground everyday at least once if not more than once a day!)   
• Remain hydrated--it is really important to drink plenty of fresh, filtered or spring water.  It is a way we can keep our physical vehicle (body) clean and healthy while we work as transmuters of energy. It is a job that we each took on when we remembered we are the light to heal ourselves and the earth.
• Remain in your heart--for all decisions look to your heart for the answers. It is not a time for going into our heads--we've been there and done that and look where it took humanity?  Look to your heart when you are confronted with decisions from what you should buy at the grocery store to how to speak your truth to someone who may have hurt you.  
• Remain CALM-- I like this one that came in just now.  C is for remembering to find calm and at peace daily.  A is for align with your truth and balance daily.  L is for Live your life in the present moment.  M is for Manifest from your heart.

Enjoy your day, dear beautiful souls and expand yourself into a higher consciousness every chance you get. 

In love and service,
EstaRa 

Breakfast Appointment

It's breakfast time! Just finished actually. At least there were some eggs and cheese and other stuff that became all too familiar for breakfast in Egypt like bread. ick!

It was another moment of saying goodbye so many people were leaving earlier than the New York group. We are all going home on the same flight tonight...that is DebRa, Solara, Crealo, Abbi and me. I don't think I am forgetting anyone.

DebRa asked if I wanted to do the Museum in Cairo. Some people have opted to go to the museum again, but I have my session with Crealo and that seems like the most appropriate choice for me to stay and work on me since my whole trip has been internally focused. I have cried so much on this trip...I have a feeling that I may be just about to cry again. DebRa just found out about a great little place to eat falafel really cheap; DebRa and I are going there for lunch. We are going to go to a grocery store across the way to buy some snacks for the plane trip home.

I told DebRa I should be back in an hour. Off to my session I go.


1.17.2011

Good bye to Ebron Ra

Morning has woken and I am up it is only 4:30 a.m. Guess my angels wanted to make sure I didn't oversleep and now here I am awake and waiting before I can go upstairs to say good bye to Carole, Ebron Ra. I am sad to see her go. She has become such a part of me. I love her and she will always be a part of me even if I never see her again, but something tells me that I will.

Okay, back now, I went up to say goodbye and she left me with a little Egyptian change purse and a beautiful note of friendship. By the way, I am truly the only other soul awake at this hour besides Carole. hahaha It is a beautifully peaceful time to be awake, but oy! I am so grateful and I cry a little knowing that she is leaving; she has been my partner in crime so to speak on this trip. We bonded from the first day. I'm sad to see her go, but it is time and I will be leaving too at 11:30 tonight. I can't believe that it is time for our trip to end. I believe I am ready. I really miss my twin. I hope he is really missing me too. I wish to go to him when I arrive in NY, but not sure if that is appropriate because back in November(I may have mentioned or may not have) we said goodbye again. You know, in May it will have been 6 years that I have known him and we have said good bye to each other now: at least 12 times which if you divide it on average is twice per year, but the truth is goodbye could have been one week and two weeks later we talked and said goodbye two weeks later. He is responsible for the most goodbyes due to his freaking out. I have to admit that I am responsible for some too. Perhaps I will share the true story of my twin and me someday.

Anyway, I don't know where I stand with regard to him...I just know I love him and miss him deeply. Okay, I am going to go catch a few more z's before I have to officially get up to eat.
1.17.2011

Went back to bed for a little bit.

The Last Supper

Tonight was our last dinner and gathering together as a group in the King's Hotel. And, yes you guessed it more tomato sauce and rice. I am so ready to go home for real food. I am going to buy gluten free bagels, donuts, etc. hahaha . Some of us are leaving really early in the morning so it really is our last dinner together. We celebrated the trip and laughed a little. I also broke down. Really broke down when dinner was rice and tomato sauce again for me. I need real food and I need to stop having so many acidic foods: tomatoes oranges everyday--OY VEY!!!

My mini meltdown was because my mouth had developed sores from all the food, but I think the meltdown is more than that. A lot of emotions have been whirling around me this entire trip. IT has been incredibly healing and I think that is why I am so reflective. I know there is much more healing to happen for me so I made an appointment for a session with Crealo Ra for tomorrow morning after breakfast. I feel I need to work with him on some of the emotions that I am feeling. Hopefully, this will jumpstart me to feel better when I get home.

We did our last gathering this evening too. We sat in circle for closing out our group. It was incredible that it has been such a short time together, but I really feel my family is here with these amazing souls who have done this journey with me. Ironically, I haven't been the April that I know or that many of you. I am sure you are saying, well of course, because you called yourself "Ra'chel. I believe the reason I needed to be called Ra'chel this entire trip was to emit the vibration of Ra'chel. Emitting that I have received the appropriate healing necessary for Ra'chel. I realize there will be more discoveries as I go on with my days, but for now, Ra'chel is healing.

As we went around the circle, I didn't know what name to call me. I wanted to say EstaRa since it was so clearly the name I heard in the temple yesterday, but boy this would confuse everyone--some know me as April, some know me as Ra'chel (actually most know me on this trip as Ra'chel so throwing in another name right now would not be a good thing to do.) I stayed with Ra'chel.

I am leaving tomorrow and I am going to bed early tonight because Ebron Ra, my dearest friend, Carol is leaving at 5 a.m. and I want to wake up to say good bye to her. Please Angels make sure I wake up ...she is such a very dear and loving soul.

1.16.2011

The Citadel

Our final stop on the tour of the Old City of Cairo was the Citadel. It was really beautiful, but the truth is that after the Synagogue Experience I was still whirling around in my head with all kinds of emotion, not to mention still reeling from emotion over the last several days of the trip. The Citadel Complex was really quite beautiful and ornate.

In this picture if you look closely you will see the Tourism police standing at his station and yes ...gun on shoulder. Imagine that. If we had tourism police, would they have guns? It is really kind of scary. I guess we don't realize how free the US really is.

It was really quite beautiful and ornate.

When we walked into this courtyard of the complex, we had to remove our shoes so that we could walk into the mosque to see it. It was so large and I can only imagine how energetic this place would be with prayer happening. We were there at an off time, but just as we were getting ready to leave there was more that was to happen.

As we walked out of the mosque, there was a little market on the other side. Always ready to make some money even on the other side of a "holy building". Carole (Ebron Ra) and I looked at the scarves. I purchased an orange one and so did Carole. We figured if we bought the same one, we would never forget each other. It would be a great reminder that of our newly found friendship. This is me wrapped in my orange scarf.

I know I look mysterious...okay so some of my friends think I look really scary....I think I look mysterious...let's choose that...




1.16.2011

Been Here Before...Almost 600 Years Ago.

We left the church and started heading down what looked like an alley, but no it wasn't dark and dreary like and old time movie. But it was old. And, the doors on the buildings were really interesting as we made our way down toward the Ben Ezra Synagogue. This one door just called to me so I had to take a picture of it.

(Even now as I type up this blog for you all to experience the trip with me the door still calls out to me. Can you feel it too?)
I lingered in front of the door for a little too long that I had to catch up with the rest of the group.

We were told that the religious population in Cairo is 90% Muslim, 10% Christian and 15 Jewish families...no I did not fail math class---that is 15 Jewish families. Amazing isn't it? For those of you who know me know that I have studied Judaism over the last few years and that I am called to go to Israel(another trip that hopefully the universe provides to me because I can't imagine how I would be going there.). I have reconnected with many of my past lives as many of you know and there were a few lifetimes that I was Jewish...often a Jewish male.

When I step foot in a Synagogue at home, I immediately take on a new energy--my energy seems to get bigger--I embrace the Hebrew as if it were a language I speak. I don't speak Hebrew at all except about 20 words or so that a guy that I dated a few years back taught me....I thank him immensely for the gift of teaching me. I am not one to do well learning on my own from books. I am someone who enjoys being in a school setting and learning form humans not computers or books---perhaps that has a lot to do with my guides. They don't teach me by reading they teach me by experiencing many things. (We won't go there for the sake of time and my hand would hurt writing the many dramatic at times experiences. But feel free to ask me sometime.) So I have many books on learning Hebrew, but I am not disciplined enough to learn it that way and quite honestly, I think I need to hear someone pronounce the sound of the words. Going back for a moment to the words I do know, apparently I speak them so well that I sound like I am Israeli. Now the first moment, I stepped into Synagogue I sang those prayers like I was an expert--I don't know where that came from other than my spirit channeled them right through me. Incredible experiences, but I digress! PS didn't think of blog my experiences with Hebrew, Judaism and Synagogues, but they too were amazing in and of themselves.

Anyway, we make our way to Ben Ezra and we are told we can't take pictures inside which is quite disappointing to me, but it is what it is. This is the entrance gate to get to the grounds of the Synagogue.

Oh ya, I failed to tell you that it started to rain when we left the Church. Yes, it rained in the desert in Cairo---I was surprised too!!

The security to get into the Synagogue was probably the best and most realistic security we went through the whole time we were there. As I mentioned in my earlier blogs, they didn't really look at our stuff in line, but just made us put our stuff up there like for appearances or something. This I felt secure in their checking things out. We walked into an area where we could sit while our tour guide, Setep en Ra started to talk about the history of the synagogue.

As I sat there trying to listen, my energy got pulled back in time. The voice of Setep en Ra began to fade out. I began to see everything change; the building in which I was sitting transformed to a Temple that was used and I was sitting in this temple as a member attending a Shabbat service. I saw people as they arrived in the building to pray and get prepared for Shabbat. I saw that I was a man and that I had a son who was there with me. There were no women in there; only men. It was incredible. I could hear the prayers being recited and I could see the men as they performed the Shabbat Service. This experience showed me one life that I lived as a Jewish male. I feel like I was one of the original founders of this Temple.

Then I started to hear our tour guide's voice again and he was telling something about Jewish tradition and I asked him if I could correct him based on the knowdledge that I had just experienced. He asked if I was Jewish and I said no, but that I had studied Judaism. He said that he had few friends that were Jewish and emphasized how the religions really got along here in Cairo. He asked me to share what I knew with the rest of the people there. I started to tell them what I saw, but also what the meaning of traditions were from my own knowledge.

Then as we were leaving, there was a place to purchase memorabilia from here and I really wanted to have something from here, but nothing resonated. I felt that I didn't need it the experience in the Temple was enough to help me to hold this memory. (Even as I type this to you now I am experiencing the sounds of the Temple and the visions of it too!)

A few days earlier, Sokehelia said that she felt there was something there at the synagogue for me. I felt it too. I couldn't wait to go there and now I know. Everything was so familiar and I felt like I could stay there for longer, but it was time to move on. So I left with a part of my energy (me) returned to me. Thank you Ben Ezra for still being there for my journey 600 years later.

1.16.2011

The Streets of Cairo

The streets in Cairo are so busy and packed with vehicles---it is like a dusty NYC street. Here is a picture to show you just that.

This is a picture of the bus as we are about to board to go downtown to the Old City of Cairo.

The ride to the church was eventful. While we were driving in the bus, I looked out the window and really saw the chaos of the streets. There was really no lane. People and animals were on the local buses. It reminds me of the scene in the movie Romancing the Stone where Kathleen Turner boards the bus in Colombia. Not a bus I would want to travel on. Not because of the crammed in animals and humans, but because of the bus stops. There aren't any. I mean literally the bus stops in traffic; people board on and off in the middle of the road no real bus stops. The people boarding on and off must navigate through traffic because the traffic is not likely to stop for them. It was a scary sight I must say.

We are here. I took a picture of a sign across the way. I swear if I was here alone I would be totally.

Everything is written in Arabic. It really is quite the beatitful language though.

1.16.2011

Waiting in the King Hotel

Here we are in the lobby of the King Hotel--waiting for the "Nasty Train" to arrive. And waiting. And waiting. The plane people look so refreshed and our group, the sleeper train people, don't look so bad either. The nasty train people, well you know we won't know for some time. It sounds like there is no ETA on their arrival.

The plan is that when they arrive, we will have one hour to get together and do our last scheduled optional tour of the Old Cairo and the Citadel. Unfortunately, I just found out some bad news that only two other people want to do Alexandria and we won't be going. I am so disappointed, but that tells me that I will be heading back to Egypt again. I have to say that I am really disappointed because now I would have gone on the hot air balloon ride. Oh well--I'm in Egypt...seriously, can I really be disappointed? hahaha

Being back in Cairo is so different than the rest of the places we went to. It is so metropolitan and crazy --don't like it so much.

Saw our room and just so you know the King Hotel is not the name I would have given it. It is not likely to house Kings--not so clean once again. But still better than that hotel in Aswan. We have our last group gathering tonight and not everyone is doing the city tour. I hope I make it to the group gathering since I haven't recently been to the last two.

They are here--the nasty train peeps arrived. They don't look so bad apparently the right people traveled on that train knowing they could still find some sleep. There trip took a lot longer because they had some train trouble and were stopped for some time.

Okay, got to run--well walk to the bus for our journey to the Coptic Church.

1.16.11

Hanging Church in Old Cairo

The tour of the old city began at the Hanging Church in Cairo.

It is a magnificent church as are most old churches. It is called the Hanging Church because it is suspended above the gatehouse of a Babylon fortress.

I am not sure if you can even tell by the following pictures that it is, in fact, hanging. The first picture is the entrance to go up the steps to get to the church and the second picture is looking down.

I could feel the energy of this church, but no real experiences for me here. I almost wonder if I am just burnt out because it is the end of the trip. But here are some more pictures of the church. I love stained glass windows and this one is so deeply in color.

This piece is real ivory and wood. It is magnificent to look at. Everything is so ornate and detailed in this church. It is really quite beauiful.

1.16.2011

Morning Has Broken

I see light shining out through my window. I am awake. I lie here in the bed and think to myself I slept on a train. It wasn't bad at all and honestly the movement was really comforting. I think I can travel across country by train or perhaps Europe? Anyway, back to my experience this morning. We've been traveling 10 hours now and ready to get off the train, but here comes breakfast delivered to us.

Oh goody--an orange! And, yep you guessed it--a box of bread again! There is the tiniest piece of cheese you ever did see. Imagine it--make a triangle with your thumb and pointer finger--that is about the size and actually that may even be a bit bigger--thank heavens for the chocolate bar. At least the nuts have some protein.

Our train just stopped, but it is not our stop at least I don't think. I hope someone remembers to tell us it is our stop, we don't have a guide with us. Truthfully, this could be the stop but who would know we don't speak Arabic. hahaha

I just looked out the window and look at this tree--not the best picture, but you can see monkey heads in it. If you look closely, you will see what I mean.

Isn't that interesting?


We got the sign that we are almost there. I have to admit taking the luggage I did was way too much. I think I need to learn to travel lighter or get comfortable in dirty clothes. It is too heavy and yet it isn't heavy at all (not compared to other trips I went on in my past when there wasn't a luggage weight limit!), but after lugging it on a train twice now it is just not something you want to carry with you. Maybe a backpack instead of a suitcase? hahaha Ya right, who am I kidding. If you know me that seems near impossible.

Okay we are deboarding and heading to our hotel in Cairo. Let's see if we really did beat the Nasty Train. My guess is that we did, but who knows our train took longer than they thought. I'll write more later.

1.16.2011

Planes, Trains and Automobiles ( I mean Sleeper Train, I mean Heaven )

We just boarded the train. I am with a third of our group of Lightworkers. Our group did split up. A portion of our group took the plane back to Cairo and will be sleeping soundly in a hotel bed tonight. Another part of the group took the "nasty train"--yes some people did opt to go back the way they came. I don't want to think about it so I am going to suggest if you are not sure what the Nasty train is like, I would recommend going back in my blog for that entry. You will then be able to get the picture. I was still surprised that people went back on that train.

And here I am sitting on the sleeper train as we prepare to leave. I just did a shopping spree out on the platform---well no not really. I went grocery shopping so to speak that included 2 chocolate bars, potato chips and water. This is just in case I get a box of bread again for breakfast. I was so worried that the likelihood of me having food in the morning based on the past trip is grim. Bought a ton of water.

Ebron Ra and I are sharing this cabin. And it really is quite the cute cubby hole.

It is tremendously clean in comparison to the Nasty Train. This is more of what I think of as average in America--but it would be considered first class here, perhaps? They have pillows blankets and beds...haven't checked out the potty yet. Will keep you posted. If I could sleep for at least a few hours I will be grateful.

Okay, checked out the bathroom and it is still not what I would consider clean, but it is sooooo much better than the other train. At least when I lifted the toilet seat, it did not fall off and well there was running water. Oh and imagine this we have a sink in out cabin too!! I don't have any complaints really...just looking forward to hitting the pillow...will write you more in the morning.

1.15.11

Official Good bye to Scarab Tours

We just finished up our dinner and we are off to get to our train. We crammed our luggage in the center of the hotel lobby before going off to dinner. Not something we would feel comfortable doing in America, I mean we would be concerned that a our luggage may match someone else's and they may just have to take it home too! :) (okay so that was my poor attempt at a joke--I really mean to say someone may steal it!) We all met at the restaurant that we went to the day we arrived at Luxor. I was happy to be able to order from the menu because that meant no tomato sauce and rice. Woo hoo!!

It was such a pleasant gathering, but really sad at the same time. I know that most of us will see each other tomorrow, but it is sad to know that we are leaving Egypt and each other even though we are deeply connected at a Soul level. I love everyone that I have met so far and it is incredible to know that our connection happened so quickly over the last couple of weeks. I know that in my heart I will know them forever, but I also know that human life gets in the way and I certainly would hope not, but then again one never knows. We exchanged emails, phone numbers and addresses.

It was getting time to leave to catch up our bus to our transportation. I just found out that we do not have a tour guide that will travel with us. Oh my!! We don't? That freaks me out a bit no one speaks Arabic. Okay let's not get panicked. But, what if we miss our stop, who is going to come claim us? hahaha ...back to breathing I trust our guides (the etheric beings that have guided me along my way) to get us there--they have gotten us this far.

We had an opportunity to say good bye to Setep en ra and Wassim. It was really funny, I thanked them both. They really were tremendous light beings. They were helpful and so open to what we were doing. Who else would put themselves in the possibility of getting thrown into jail for their tour people? That alone should win them awards.

Funny story, when I went up to say good bye to Setep an Ra. I thanked him and gave him a hug. He told me that I was a beautiful soul and to realize that while all the men were trying to buy me with camels--that was real. (I had told him about my experience of the many offers to purchase me with camels since I entered the country.) He said when the Egyptian men are flirting with travelers they say beautiful eyes and flirt, but when they offer camels for you that is a serious offer. He said I should be honored. I laughed because inside of me I felt like I was horrified that they followed me everywhere, but I guess I am honored that some men want to buy me! hahaha

If we are doing the optional trips, we will see Scarab Tours again, but if not this was the last opportunity to say good bye.

I wish to tell my twinflame when I get back that even the men in Egypt find me to be a good catch. I wonder what he would think if he knew. I wonder if it would matter to him ? I wonder if he misses me. I can't help, but feel these questions inside of me. It is getting close to the end of the trip and I have to make a decision if I will call him. I want so badly to get off the plane and go directly to where he works and tell him that I love him and I miss him, but not sure if I should do that. I mean I know on an etheric level that he feels the same way, but 3D I don't know what he is thinking--we haven't spoken now in over two months.

Okay now, we got to go and catch the sleeper train..see you on there.

1.15.2011

Heading back to Luxor for Our Last Supper

We are on the bus ride back toward the hotel. We just saw our last temple and that would finish our temple hopping—that is what I call this experience. It really was like we hopped from one temple to the next and the next. It was late in the day when we arrived and I was tired. Tired from the emotions, tired from the physical aches and tired from not sleeping well…I am just overall tired.

We are now heading back to the hotel for our last group dinner together in Luxor at the same restaurant we went to the afternoon we arrived in Luxor. Originally, we had additional time at the hotel to shower, relax and pack before we went to dinner, but surprise we don’t have that time. Well, it didn’t surprise me and honestly at some moments, I think it is best that we keep moving otherwise I may just get sucked into a crying jag and not overcome it. We have about 45 minutes to pack up, freshen up and meet at the restaurant for our last dinner together and officially we would separate into the three groups. Those of us on the sleeper train, those of us on the airplane and those of us on the “nasty train”. It turns out that we are divided evenly as a group for those three modes of transportation, but we are all to arrive at different times. Okay, off I go to pack my stuff…see you on the sleeper train.

1.15.2011

Eternal Quest for the Bathroom at Denderah

It was late day on our way back from the Temple to the bus and a few of us really needed to use the bathroom. I have to admit that while on this trip I have established that the bathrooms here in Egypt are quite disgusting and my threshold to dirty has become relative to the place I am in which allowed me to pee in places that were lesser than I would ever consider in America. That being said, I really don’t like having to pee on transportation things like bus, train, etc. And, just a preview for tonight—we take the “sleeper train” back to Cairo. So , I thought here are Denderah there is a little extra time for me to find the potty that wasn’t moving. I made my way with a small group of Jeanne, Meg and Carole to find the bathroom. We walked through the little village that is established outside of the Temple building itself so it would be considered part of the “park” at one of our monuments in the US. And, there were shops that were closing and shops that were opened trying to get our business and public bathrooms. However, to use the public bathroom there was a man at the door trying to collect money. Really? I couldn’t believe it. We attempted to go to a few before we finally found one. They were really gross, but then we found one that was lesser than the others. We finally made our way into one that they were only charging if we wanted toilet paper and well me the tissue queen (thanks Angels for making me sick with the flu before I left for my trip because that is what prompted me to bring so many tissues!!) had enough in her bag for each person with me. Of course, one tissue each, but it worked and we didn’t have to pay—though the man followed us out the door trying to collect money from us for just using the potty. I have to admit I won’t miss this. I feel really dehydrated on this trip I surely do not drink as much I do when I am at home---but I warn you…it is a good thing!!

1.15.2011

Arriving at Denderah

We arrived at the Temple at Denderah with barely enough time to see it. We had maybe an hour to visit the temple and do all that we needed to do here before it closed. This temple was built dedicated to Hathor and I could definitely feel the Hathor energy here at Denderah. It was so much lighter than Abydos and so much lighter than many of the other temples. As the Goddess of love, joy and music you could tell the difference in the feeling of this temple upon arrival at Denderah. Each step we took it was softer than any of the other temples that was the first thing I noticed here. It was quite a walk from the entrance gate to the temple itself and you could see it was becoming late afternoon at this point.

While I was still feeling really raw from the whole experience of this trip and the healings that were happening to me each night with past life memories, healing old wounds of this lifetime and many previous lifetimes, surprisingly because this energy was so light, I was able to hold back my tears for this whole time.

As we approached the entrance of this grand temple, there were six columns and an opening in the middle where it felt like there were these grand doors, but as you can see there is only this large opening to what felt like a courtyard. I feel like dancing or something took place here. We made our way through and to the back where there rooms were very tall and large and there was some amazing pictures etched into the stone that I was not able to capture because I didn’t take my camera out as it was getting dark.

We walked in groups up to the top of the temple which was like the roof with no roof on it. That is the only way I could describe it. Solara was looking for a place for us to come together in a circle where we wouldn’t get into trouble. The thing is we have been dodging guards at all these places because they do not like anyone coming together in a circle and it could cause our “Tour Guides” to get into some trouble not to mention us too. I didn’t even bother to take out my camera up here because it was getting dark and the lighting would affect what came out and truly we didn’t have the time.
To find our place to gather, we climbed many steps, but they were not steep like steps we know. They were flat and each step was like only a couple of inches high. When they created this they did like 12 steps and then it became a flat and then you turned a corner and up another set. I felt like in this temple there were more stairs than any other with the exception of the Great Pyramid. It was incredible how steps we climbed and on some levels we would see rooms off the side. I saw in one of the rooms we stopped to look in that the rocks had faces in them. It was really quite an amazing journey.

As we made our way up to this open top, it was like the top floor without a roof---It was all open to the sky with the exception of one room we made our way to. This room was enclosed and on the floor was a giant circle with the signs of the zodiac. It was definitely a magical room and we chose this to gather at first, but then the space was really not large enough for our group of 33 to fit around this room and the guards came and moved us. So we made our way out to this area that was almost like a room with a column on each of the four corners. There were no walls and no roof, but it seemed just perfect for our group even if just out in the open. So we gathered together in our last circle in a temple as a group on this trip. We held hands and called light into this time and space. As I stood there, I still felt quite raw from all that has been transpiring, but I was able to hold back the tears. It was interesting because as soon as we gathered here and called in the light, it was as if there was no one else around. I felt like we had become invisible into a new dimension. It was very incredible. I had still remained very much the quiet one on the trip which is by no means who many of you know me to be.

We were then left to visit the rest of the temple on our own for the next 20 minutes and then we were to make our way back out to the bus.

Love this little person so I had my picture taken with him, it made me feel tall considering these temples in size were huge. Okay so it really was a pillar that was broken and he was the top of the pillar, but right now he is on the ground so it made me look tall. hahaha

1.15.2011

The Call of the Crystal at Abydos

We are now back on the bus. Lunch as usual was not very eventful or exciting; however, it was something to eat and there was some cool parts too!! Being Italian and loving tomato sauce am quite amazed how much I am disliking tomato sauce on rice. That is all I seem to be able to get here and oranges. How much acid can one endure in their diet? I know they have bread (you all know by now just how much bread they have there), but I can't eat it to help balance the acidic foods...I am gluten sensitive and believe me I do not want to do anything on this trip that would make me feel physically in pain and hence that is what gluten has done to me.

Tears have been coming and going still, but not the flood gates like yesterday; though I think you can tell if you look at my eyes that I had been crying enough tears to flood the Nile here.

So anyway, we have eaten, I have used the bus bathroom which is by far the cleanest bathroom I have encountered on this trip with the exception of the hotels we have been staying at. Yes, imagine that I have developed a new standard in bathrooms...look out America cause here I come and McDonald's will not be my only "pee stop" I am no longer afraid to brave the less than perfect bathrooms. I guess that is the lesson Egypt is teaching me that and not to drink so much water. hahaha

I digress, we are on our way to Denderah now. But I have to tell you the story of my crystal. When lunch was over, the restaurant people had placed a bunch of quartz crystals over on another table for us to purchase. The mountain at Abydos is made of Quartz Crystals. Everyone on this trip had brought with them large crystals and really I didn't bring too many. Just a few that I had carried in my pouch including the one I had gifted to Sekhmet. Right after lunch we all walked over to the table to look at the crystals to see if we wanted to purchase one from the mountain. I saw many on the table of all different sizes. I saw large crystals and I wanted a large ornate looking one that I could use when I channeled like Solara An Ra had. She held these amazing crystals and it helped her connection to her guides. I was thinking maybe the larger the crystal the more connection I would have. So I walked over to the table and picked up all these crystals and felt nothing.

Then, there was this one. I immediately felt a vibration in my hand. I put it down and I really felt like it called me. I picked it up again. It wasn't the pretty one, but it was one that could be held in my hand and it picked me really. It was the only crystal on the table of many that called out to me and that I felt a vibration with. It was truly amazing.

I am holding the crystal now and I can't wait to go to sleep with it tonight.

1.15.2011

Whisperings of EstaRa

We are now sitting outside the Temple at Abydos waiting for the others to arrive. We are getting ready to have lunch at this little hut--yes that is what it looks like I have to say. It is an outdoor restaurant. We are sitting having some "boiled mint". No more mint tea here because we have found that mint tea is black tea with a few pieces of mint thrown in there so we have learned to ask for "boiled mint".

I am still in awe at the experience in the Temple. Our mission in this temple was to go where we felt we needed to be to bring light. We were told by the P's "Some may go in groups and some may go by themselves to different chambers to bring light." We were also guided to sing our name in the frequency there. Solara An Ra channeled that 22 of us had been in this Temple before and I feel like I was definitely one of them. Well, I know I was, but I wasn't there as April or as Ra'chel. BUT I was there as someone else.

About 6 months ago in July of 2010, I had done a meditation and spoke to my highest self and was given the star name of "EstaRa". It didn't resonate with me then, but today it did! We were asked to sing our name to activate our energy with the frequency of Abydos. I was walking through the temple, I was humming love, love, love and then I felt ready to sing my name. I started to sing "Ra'chel" and it didn't come out very well, but I kept hearing "EstaRa" in my head. Someone was calling out to me and they were calling me my name...I began to sing "EstaRa". My whole body began to tingle and cover with the energy. It enveloped my body. Oh my goodness. At this point, I was alone singing "EstaRa" it felt so right. What did not resonate with me last summer was somehow transforming my very being at the moment I was singing "EstaRa".

I haven't told anyone as of yet--it would be too confusing for me. I mean they are calling me Ra'chel and I am already April and to add a third name, really?? Oh my goodness. Anyway, there is a lot for me to digest today. I am EstaRa. I have to see how that feels and try it on at some point. It feels really good inside.

1.15.11

Abydos--the Cool Picture Part

I don't know what else to label this entry as yet other than Abydos. Such a small name for such a big experience. Wow!! So when we get off the bus after a bit of a ride from Luxor, I see up ahead the entrance to the temple. And yes, if you guessed stairs again, you are correct? I am going to have a great butt and legs after this trip with all the climbing and walking. hahaha They sure ache at the end of the long day.

We had our mission to ground light from Core Crystal to Great Central Sun and then the opposite 3 times each.

We first were given the guided tour from Setep En Ra. He really has been a marvelous tour guide and so helpful to our group. Here are pictures depicted on the ceiling. Can you see the helicopter? Can you see the submarine?

It really is incredible when you think about it that these depictions are of things we can recognize? Amazing and so intact still too! This is a great pic from DebRa...if you look closely enough the ball of light(the sun coming in) looks like an angelic being...I see wings, do you??

This is the cool picture part, but stay tuned for the really cool part and a glimpse of EstaRa that is up next...

1.15.11

Magic Magic Are We The 33

The Temple at Abydos is one of Solara An Ra's favorites. She talked to us about it and told us that depicted on the outside wall is the FLower of Life. She also told us that there are some great wall depictings. I have to say as we drive there on our way I am getting a little overcooked on temples. This is the second to the last one. I hope when this trip is over that I will remember what is what, but who knows after awhile sand and temple are beginning to look a lot alike.

Solara just channeled her guides and they let us know that we are not alone. Her guides informed us that not only are her guides with us, but our guides (each one of us) are with us. They said we are not just 33 on this trip, but we are 33 times more powerful than just one on this trip. It is interesting to think about us as this powerful, but each of us alone is extremely powerful and if you put us all together well you got it all then! The P's say we are 1000's of time more powerful...Magic--Magic--Magic.

Our mission is three-fold: 1. to ground light from the Great Central Sun to the Core crystal here three times and then three times up from the Core Crystal up to the Great Central Sun. 2: sing our name in this place (using sound as a mechanism to tap into our soul. 3. Well not really three--I just add it...get pictures of the depictions of a helicopter and submarine. These were created in ancient times, could they have known then? Was it a vision of the future? Or did they have them and humanity just lost that technology? hmmm

Did I tell you that I have since decided to take the sleeper train back to Cairo? hahaha Yes, of course I did! But just making sure you were paying attention. Besides I'm not worried about it, can you tell? hahaha Of course, I am worried, but all is as it should be as my guides so kindly, not so gently remind me from time to time.

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