Twinflame Message: Heal Past Relationships, Clear Subconscious Connections

I was channeling my Energy Thoughts today and during my channel, I wrote the following, which prompted me to create this post:

"Well, if you notice we are in a completely different place than where we were last summer.   Stop for a moment and think about what life was like 3, 6, 9, 12 months ago.  Life is different, eh?  Far different or just subtly different?  I know for myself, the energy has opened up more to new possibilities, but boy was it a bumpy ride over the last year at times.   That ride was courtesy of all the healing/clearing work I have done on myself, waves of emotions that reverberate back and forth between me and my twinflame and just learning to navigate this new energy and  new light body.  (Sidenote:  Yes, I have done more twinflame work in the past year than I ever dreamed I would be doing--that is where my journey took me. Think about where your journey took you through the last year.) 

So, I did just that!  I thought for a moment through the last several months and brought myself to last July and realized in that instant something powerful happened; I had consciously closed down one timeline. Today as I am writing to you, I recognize what I healed and closed was a subconscious block/obstruction between me and my twin.  Let me explain.  Before meeting our twin, we are have likely been in intimate love relationships with others.  Each time we interact with someone a cord is created, but when we are in romantic relationship with someone and share intimacy that not only the thickens the cord, but creates an energetic exchange where you receive a part of them and they receive a part of you.  This bond stays in tact until it is severed/broken consciously.  We travel with the same souls for many lifetimes so it makes that soul connection stronger and the bond tighter. Many times it is done through a grieving process, consciously releasing the other person or by natural separation if done in a healthy exchange.  Other times, even long after the ending of a relationship, the connection is not completely released; either because an aspect of one or the other doesn't let go or and aspect of both of you don't want to let go.  This is a very simplified explanation to help you understand how the subconscious energy works.

Before meeting my twinflame, I had three relationships where I truly felt a connection on the soul level and experienced what I consider real love for them.  Looking back now, none of them compare to my connection with my twinflame, (whom I just smile about as I write this), but it doesn't mean I didn't feel the love and feel a connection on the soul level that was beyond most of my other relationships.   Last year I was visiting a friend that was away and staying about four hours from where one of those men lived;  I will refer to him as J. I didn't realize that we still had a strong connection, yes I had fond memories of being with him, but I didn't realize what that meant.  I hadn't spoken to J in nearly 10 years, but as soon as I crossed the line into the state he lived in, my antenna were up and I could feel him.  As I continued to drive through the state, I got the sense that he felt me there too. My entire trip I had this awareness of J and it really superseded me feeling my twinflame, in other words, the connection literally blocked me from feeling my twin.  I started to remember all the times I spent with him and would even dream of him at night.  I remember I could feel him come into my room at night.  Yes, this was all energetically. (and if you think this is crazy--believe me have I got stories for you!)  I was puzzled, and yet a bit intrigued, it got me a little giddy and curious.  His energy was all around me, and his name kept showing up everywhere and all the "good" memories were pouring in.  Finally, on the last day of my trip I couldn't take it anymore and decided to call him. I didn't have his phone number because it has been so many years, but voila, his phone number came pouring back in to me and I called him.  We chatted for about 15 minutes and he recognized my voice right away.  While we were talking, I realized that it was easy to talk with him again, as if time hadn't passed.  I also knew that if we were closer geographically, we would definitely have met somewhere.  Thinking back now, it still surprises me the connection I still had with him;  there was still a place in each of us that was familiar.  That familiar place was home to our soul connection which is why it was so comfortable, you can always get a glimmer of home with a soul mate, but until you meet your twin you aren't quite sure what home is. 

I hadn't realized at the time what was happening--or did I? I think I may have had a thought of it , but as I

recall it now, this experience with J ultimately set me free from not only that old timeline, but set me free to unite fully with my twinflame when the time arrives.  One of the things we don't recognize enough is that our subconscious energy really does play a role in our life (and union if you are a twinflame).  Relationships are our greatest teachers in our life on this planet; that being said, we are not always aware the effect those relationships have on us long after the physical relationship has ended.  I physically had moved on and so had this person, but energetically, we still shared an energetic tie/cord to each other.  It is so evident now to me why I experienced feeling J from the moment I crossed into the state he lived in.  To break the energetic tie,  it required me to speak with J one last time and having the universe and my twinflame send me the clearest of messages.  When I say clear messages, I mean indisputable messages that my twinflame is going to do this!  Before I called J, I asked spirit to help me understand and guide me because I didn't understand why I hadn't felt my twinflame and why I was feeling J so strongly, to be honest I was questioning/doubting my twinflame. Yes, that still happens from time to time.  At the end of the conversation with J, he said, "Bye for now." I was in shock--that is how my twinflame has always ended our conversation. I walked to sit down on a bench and just cried.   I cried because my twinflame was not with me and because our contact had been far and few in between, but that message was clearly from him.  I knew in that moment I would never hear from J again and that my twinflame made it clear to J as well that I belonged to him. It was extremely powerful, but it also allowed me to grieve that part of me; the part of me that experienced love/pain/happiness/sorrow etc in various timelines with that soul known as J.  I wiped my tears, walked into a restaurant to have lunch, but first headed into the bathroom. Then I heard it, I heard our song. It was playing and I started to cry again, this was from him. Our song is "How Deep is Your Love", okay he may not know that this is our song, but it is!  And in that song are the following words; "We belong to you and me."  It confirmed that he let J know etherically that we belong to each other.  When you live multidimensionally there is no separation and etheric is just as real as physical.  Here is a blog post from the past where this song came out of nowhere while I was in Egypt at the Temple of Divine Marriage: Signs.

After that time, I don't have J run through my mind, not even occasionally, except for the writing of this post. I acknowledge now that I feel free and I have set J free too.  As I was typing this, it occurred to me that there may be one more person that I need to clear from--this is the frustration and beauty of healing, it seems to never be done, but it is possible to do!  I am getting ready to go home from this life with my twinflame and I want to clear out anything that can obstruct that.   I digress and can continue to talk about my journey and how I know one of my greatest missions is to come here to find twinflame, reunite and take him home with me to another land, place, reality. 

The reason I wrote this post is so that you can look at your life and experiences to clean up anything/anyone that may still be connected to you that could be causing a block or interference between you and your twin unknowingly.  How will you know, you ask?  I encourage you to make a list particularly of the people you have had an intimate, romantic relationship with. Find a quiet place where you will not be interrupted and perform a grounding and breathing exercise so that your energy is at its optimum and as clear as you can get it.  Now read the first name and be still with it. What comes to mind for you?  What thoughts come in?  Do you feel anything in your body? These are few steps to determine if you have an emotional/mental/spiritual/physical charge with them.   The charge doesn't have to be loving like it was with mine, it could also be anger or any one of the emotions we feel.  If you experience something, then you likely may have a cord/tie to that individual or they have a tie to you; and subconsciously they are still there.  This is not always easy to discover on your own and may need assistance.  Ask your favorite healer to help you with this exercise or feel free to schedule some time with me if you think this may be a block you are experiencing. 

Day 34 of 45 Days: Epiphany

Good Beautiful Saturday in CT.

Sun is shining after a few days of clouds and gloomy weather….I needed that when I woke up this morning—it has been a tough couple of weeks both physically, emotionally and mentally.  I’ve had very little sleep now in over a week and I am not used to this.  I am choosing to take it as a sign that I am getting better.  So onto today’s snippet.

Almost 25 years ago, I was doing some work on my spirit, but not completely in the way I do work on my spirit now. I was living at home with my parents and attended traditional therapy bi-weekly (haven't been to therapy in 22 years..now I have other tools). It was college break and I worked two part time jobs. My daily morning routine that summer (it took an hour and half to complete and I loved it!) was to wake up, ride my bike to a park in the town I lived in. I would pack with me a bottle of water, a piece of fruit, a book to read, a journal and pen. Sometimes I would take a yogurt too!  (Boy, thinking about it—some things never change—if you know me—I still take all that stuff with me, only exception is that I don’t take yogurt now!)  I'd park my bike and walk the park. After the walk, I'd make my way back to the bleachers to sit and relax. I would sit for a few minutes looking gathering in my "taste of sunshine". Then I would lie down on the bench and notice how good it felt to rise early in the morning on a summer day. After a few minutes of meditating, let’s face it that is really what it was, I’d sit up and say my prayers, eat my breakfast and decide to read or write in my journal. (As you can see I was always prepared.) It was so powerful for me-- I contemplated life...sometimes I did more writing than I did contemplating and other days I did more contemplating.  Often I would ponder bits of wisdom that would come to me; when I think back the wisdom I had as a 19 year old was far beyond my years—and quite honestly therapy wasn’t able to truly help me because I too was beyond what they could comprehend.  But I digress, I want to tell you about one particular day.  One morning I finally got it, I grasped very clearly a simple message that came to me.  It was so life changing and simple that most of us overlook this fact—believe me it was so profound that I would compare it to the message Yeshua gave me that summer day about “I am the Way”, the one I wrote you about early on in this class.  You will be amazed at how simple this is or you will be like “yes, I know”.  Well, either way stay out of your head with this one, step away from your ego that says yes I know, and open your heart  like that of the little child within you learning a new thing for the first time. The truth is—this is something we inherently know, but have forgotten and; even with the awareness, it gets forgotten at times as we get lost looking outside ourselves for the answers. You know what I mean, right?  Okay, okay onto it already:




No one can tell you they will love you forever because the only person in your forever is you. So you have to love yourself. -April Ann D’Amato

Do you we really comprehend it? Go ahead read it again.  Does it invoke in you the real meaning behind the words, not just the words?  Let your little child remember his/her first steps on the path of life when they discovered they can dress themselves, played dress up or got ready for the school play and looked in the mirror and felt true love for themselves for the first time; let me rephrase that, true “SELF-LOVE”.   It isn’t that you have to love yourself, but if you do, you will never really feel alone, you will always have love in your life, you will begin to make choices for your well-being not out of fear/patterning/loss.  There is so many doors that open when you love yourself.

To this day to read it...it pulls me back to the moment when I first discovered this all important truth. I remember I was walking on cloud nine when this came to me. So simple, so easy to comprehend or is it? So simple and real I should have known it, but I didn't feel it till that day. As much as I have felt it, reading that statement is just what I need to "remember" from time to time...I hope it sparks something in you too.   The point being you need to love yourself because you are truly the only one who will always be there for you.  Interesting thought isn’t it?  It is about ownership/responsibility/self-love and truth.   On that day, it occurred to me because my grandmother told me that she would be there for me at least until I graduated high school, but she actually died when I was 9 years old.  I was devastated and there started the fear of not being loved, the fear of abandonment and the patterns that needed to be corrected. It took me years to have this realization and I can honestly say I worked really consistently upon my self-love and there did come a time not too far off in the future after this epiphany that I had did I recognize I loved me, I value me and I am worthy and deserving of the life I desire.  It has empowered me to love me more, faith that what I feel inside of me is truth and courage to endure being single until the time is right for me.  (I say courage because my twinflame journey has taken a lot of faith and courage to keep on its path.  It would be so easy to give up and settle like most people do and not wait for real love, but that one phrase above propel me forward always.)  I hope this helps you too.

Pardon me for the wordy snippet this day, but spirit tells me to write what I feel and sometimes my feelings can be wordy....

Some thoughts for you to ponder:

What does that one sentence mean to you?  Does it change you?  Will it change how you view the “wanting/needing/expectation” of relationships and/or love from outside yourself? 

Where do you feel what I wrote in your body? Do you have a physcial, mental or emotional reaction?

Day 21 of 45 Day Journey: Channeled Message Be Present

Good Morning,

A message from my guides:  

If you are feeling sad or unhappy, what are you thinking about?  Are you in the past ? Are you worrying about the future?  Be present dear ones, it is important to stay in your center.   When we say stay in your center we mean be present in this moment now.  We mean come back to balance dear ones.  Balance simply is knowing how to come back to your center when you feel off balance.  Many people miss interpret balance to mean they have to juggle it all, but dear ones it simply means that you know how to come back to your center. The center for you dear ones is knowing that you are in the moment and living in the present.  Far too many of you think you do this already, but if you pay attention to the thoughts you allow into your human mind, you will see dear ones you will see that you are not as present as you think.  It can become a constant struggle for you to stay present or it can become a natural state of being. It is your choice—it is always your choice in how you view what is happening around you. 

It is with honor, love and respect that we bring you this message today.

We are the Masters of Light.

This message from my guides brings our awareness into paying attention, noticing your thoughts, focus and energy.   They are emphasizing true balance bringing you back to focusing on the present moment. 

My suggestion for you today is to pay attention to your thoughts, what is in them?  Where are you placing your energy and focus? Are you experiencing life as it happens? Or are you planning for it to happen, or even more are you thinking ahead and not being present in the moment you are in or present with the person you are with?   Or do you focus on life turning out the same as it always does?  It is important that you touch upon  this question in your life for that will be your answer to why things are the way they are in your life today. That will be your answer as to your question of happiness.  We can’t change the past or the future, but we have the power to change the present.  If you are living life on automatic pilot then you are not present---running from place to place—going through your day to day routine, or even if you are talking on the phone an baking/cooking that is not really living present.  Do you know how many people I speak with on the phone that do not give me their undivided attention?  You would be surprised even someone I am supposed to do a reading with is too busy doing other things at times.   Often times, I am in my car driving and talking on the phone which I doesn’t make me fully present, but so many people have expectations of my time.  Recently, I have cut back on that because I don’t want that. I enjoy being fully present, but let me tell you nothing is more frustrating to me when someone is not present with me.   And, don’t get me started on texting/cell phones while you are out with someone or visiting with someone.  Technology has taken us away from being present and has created a McDonald’s type of life—fast food, fast life that moment to moment is lost.

This kicks up all kinds of thoughts for me.  Like we are so devastated when someone dies, but did we really value the time with them when they were here?  I mean really make the time to be present with them?  This is something I think people should ponder and look at for themselves.  I do readings all the time for loved ones that have past, and often these are the people that had a truly beautiful connection to someone, but sometimes there is regret, pain and suffering because they never had the opportunity to say what they needed to say.  AND yes, I know people have fears/blocks/discomfort in sharing their feelings, but I believe if we learn to live fully in the present and from that point of reference (not the past or the future) I really do believe that saying what we feel and living how we really wish to be is that much easier. And if blocks are still there, then it is time to clear your life of those blocks.  Really look at what is keeping you from living fully. 

Several years ago, I decided I wanted to get to know my parents as people not just as mom and dad.  So back then, I would take a day trip or an overnight trip with them every year—I did this until my car accident (and hope to do that with them again now that my body is getting ready).  I have been present with my parents and I have gotten to know them as people and love them as people—they are pretty amazing. I also got to spend my time with Aunts and Uncles—sisters and brothers of my grandparents.  My mother was an only child and we were really close to her family growing up and I enjoyed spending time with them. I learned a lot and am truly grateful for all that I learned.  These are moments that I will always treasure and value--that is what memories are made of.  

I often feel sad for people who have never gotten that opportunity to really be present with one another, but you know sometimes I wonder, do they even know what they are missing?   Take some time  today to be present and aware of what it is you are thinking/feeling/focusing on by consciously breathing.  Sometimes we go about our business and never breathe.  Oh we know that it is a great tool, but it is also one of those tools that reveals for us some of what is going on; and that we sometimes have resistance to.  If you take this exercise seriously, then you will have some amazing revelations of your patterns/thoughts/behaviors etc. And, if we really hear the message from my guides, then we are really live!

Channeled Message: You are the Navigator of the Journey to Your Twinflame Union

Hello Everyone,

Just a quick brief message that I have received recently--the time for twinflames is here.  The Gateway is still open. It is a time for miracles to happen, but you know who makes them happen?  You do!  You do by way of clearing your baggage/karma/stuff that keeps you stuck, by allowing love in even when you are scared and pushing through the fear that has held you back.

I've been getting very clear messages lately and noticing it with my friends/clients that the next wave of twinflames are being awakened.  Do you know what that means?  That means that those of us, that have been on this path for some time, (myself 10 years soon to go onto 11 next year)and have struggled to maintain our truth, trust in our journey and have faith in our twinflame unions are now beginning to see the light at the end of the proverbial tunnel.  That means twinflames are coming together.  It is happening!  Don't give up when we are so close.  I've been trying to sit down and write this out for a few weeks now, but could never do it.  Today, my guides are prompting me to write a message to you because I need to remember it too!   We are so close--let's not waver.

Ok, so I didn't stick with this channel on Thanksgiving morning--quite honestly I could have stayed home all day and stayed in channel, but instead I went to my parents and came home angry, upset and ready for bed.  I spent my Friday and Saturday cleaning---so necessary and now today I am in a better place to channel and well it isn't so brief anymore. I included my comments for expansion or clarity upon what my guides channeled below.I have been working with my Galactic Team of Beings that assist both my beloved and me in our day to day life. Within the Team, I have often called on all Twinflames in Successful Union to come in and help us; that is who I am channeling below.

Onto the Channeled Message...

Greetings Dear Ones,

It is with with love, honor and respect that we bring you a message of love on this day . Your day of thanksgiving .  So much has transpired in way of love blocks being removed. All the fears you or your beloved have held onto have been raised up to the light for clearing.  Dear ones, you are experiencing the miracles in your day to day life, are you not?  See them and hold onto them for those are the things that will keep you in high vibration and ultimately pave the way for you and your beloved to come together.  We ask you to refrain from patterns and behaviors that keep you distracted or stuck. You are the light of the world and you need to remember that.  We are here to remind you of that truth.  We know how important you all are to this time on your earth. We need you and your beloved to unite to change the very fabric of the earth's consciousness.  We encourage you to embrace your fears and really look at what is that is not working in your life.  It is as simple as looking at where you are having difficulties is where your beloved mirrors you whether in the same way of you or in the opposite way.  For you are so filled with love and you bring all of that love and more right to your beloved--and your beloved is perhaps in the opposite vibration, fearful of the power that is coming toward him/her.  It isn't meant to be a push-pull situation between the twinflames, but it truly becomes one when one is consciously embracing who they are while the other is not conscious.  Oftentimes it is the masculine that is not fully embracing and the feminine typically is the one embracing who they are.  (That is not to say that the males are not doing their jobs and the females are--you carry both aspects within you.  My guides have discussed this once before in an earlier channel regarding twinflames. One half of the twinflame couple carries more masculine and the other half carries more feminine.  It doesn't matter who is physically male and who is physically female.: Breakfast with Magdalene & Yeshua.)

Dear ones, it is never one person in fear--it is both--that is what this journey is about.  While one twinflame may be further along than their divine counterpart, it doesn't mean they are free from all their fears; for only a twinflame could stir up fears in their other half even that have been dormant or layers have been cleared. (You may think you been there done that, but there are truly layers to healing and your twinflame will kick all that dust up for you to truly clear out the layers of that fear/pattern/behavior.) This dance of union between beloveds brings you to a place where all your fears are brought up so that the powerful energy between you will not cause harm when you are together.  When you first met your twinflame you or either they were in a balanced place for their life at that level.  Upon the meeting you both had tipped the scales, raised your vibration and placed you in another level of ascension where ultimately another layer/level of clearing could take place and sent you both out on your own healing journeys.  (In essence, each time you raise in vibration, the more opportunities for healing will appear.  A deeper layer of the issue will surface until you get to the core cause of it.  As twinflames we came in here to clear from humanity and its templates all that is not in alignment with the new, higher love frequency. That means each of us separately took on old templates when coming into this lifetime for the purpose of clearing and removing those things. It may appear some took on more than others, but the truth is that each of us have taken on our own set of templates/stuff/pain/trauma..it may be different, but it still looks/feels/seems like ick to me!)

We keep emphasizing that you must heal you and as a result it will heal the other half of you, your beloved.  Dependent upon where you are on your journey, some of you need to focus upon your own well being--your own fears, doubts, negativity in order for your twin's road to be paved more smoothly.  Others are further a long and need to assist their beloved in making the next step--either way your focus and priority must be you.  For if you remove the focus from your footsteps---then you stop moving forward, and essentially, your beloved stops moving forward.  We ask you to continue to move forward, trusting your mission, trusting your soul, and trusting your beloved, trust them to make their steps whether you are in contact with them or not.  If one twin is further along on their journey know that you are the keeper of the flame of that union and it is your responsibility to carry that vibration of love forward regardless of the fear that may come up.  (If you are reading this, then you are likely the Keeper of the Flame.  Yes, it may seem that you are doing all the work right now, but it isn't about what one does or the other one does--keeping score/keeping track is a worry/belief that is part of the old paradigm/old relationship energy--we have come here to clear those things so if you are in a twinflame relationship--do not allow yourself to get caught up in that trap.)  Since you are the keeper of the flame, that means you are the one on the front line facing all kinds of drama, trauma and darkness  multidimensionally; it is important for you to be vigilant because you have the awareness to assist your union simply by understanding the process of clearing that must occur.  What you may not realize dear ones, is that you are the more powerful half of your twinflame relationship because you have the awareness, the tools and ability to make the union happen in the physical reality if that is what you both have chosen in this lifetime.   Your beloved, the other half of the twinflame relationship, is in their own front line with a human template embedded deeper into the 3D drama and trauma.   The more you are okay the more your twin will be okay.  The more you are in fear the more amplified your fear will make theirs and in the reverse as well. Do you understand why we say focus should be upon you?  It is you that navigates the journey and yes from time to time you will need assistance, but know that you are the driver.  (As the Keepers of the Flame, our job is to hold for certain the space of love, our mission and our union without wavering even when it seems hopeless, hard or impossible--you are the navigator--energy follows where your focus goes. Do what you can to keep your focus on your union and mission and when you are pulled into doubt/fear/drama be sure to quickly extricate yourself from it. The things that occur day to day that I have to come in contact with cause all kinds of doubts and fears to come up and for the most part--I am getting better at navigating, but there have been some open wounds that have caused me to get caught up in it. My advice is to find a friend that is on this journey as well to help pull you through--someone who can be your faith when you are in doubt. It is always better to have someone who is a twinflame because they will continual understand what it is you are going through, but sometimes you don't have another twinflame around you and you may need to rely on a friend who doesn't fully get it--you can talk with them but realize that they may not always be able to understand or hold faith for you.  This journey can be lonely because not everyone can understand this kind of love, this kind of relationship paradigm--it isn't what it appears on the surface--our job as twins is to clear the old relationship paradigm.  To clear old relationship paradigm is far more than simply the love relationship--it means clear up cultural/traditional/religious/societal/sexual/financial etc. beliefs that have an impact on relationships--yep, you guessed it--everything does! No one on this path--not even those in union are immune to clearing/healing those parts of themselves that are up for clearing.)

Look at your patterns differently than you have in the past and choose to learn from them. It is always a choice to view obstacles and obstructions as a learning curve.  They need not be stuck too long. This full moon has released pressure that has been building up for the last few weeks now.  The feel of resistance has been pervasive in your reality.  Some of you may have been feeling sad, lonely lost or even angry. Some of you may have noticed resistance over the last few weeks particularly with regard to things you have had to do to maintain your normal everyday 3D life, that is simply because those things are not necessary in the 5D expansive energy, but unfortunately as you are shifting they are still necessary in the 3D life you are currently living.  You and your beloved have been bouncing this energy of resistance back and forth; thereby amplifying the effects.

Our Channel EstaRa has been experiencing a great deal of anger of late--in the form of short-temperedness--she has been carrying a great deal of pain and frustration from the years of work that she has performed on the earth. She has been carrying and absorbing pain and frustration from so many over the years that at some point it needs to be released.    As  her beloved faces his deepest darkest fears, his anger raises and amplifies the energy in her direction; and like a percolating coffee pot she explodes into what turns into short- temperedness; and humanity responds by giving her opportunities to feel it.  She has been resisting this channel for some time as she knew it would bring up a release on some level.  Her beloved has been holding on so tightly to that which he fears and on some agreement level she too was holding on for him, and not allowing this energy to come through her until the force of the full moon energy made it possible to release.  Ask her what her last few days have been leading up to the full moon?  What she humanly does not know is that her beloved is experiencing it too, but on a far greater internal scale than she can imagine as she has done more movement of energy than he has.   

What we are trying to show you is that humanity is very fearful of what they do not know and it builds in them until finally it needs to come out.  With all the timelines collapsing, appearing and disappearing over this earth year, things have come up over and over again for final releasing while other levels of pain, suffering, trauma have showed up for you to explore in how that template is or is not working. 

The energy from now until January is ripe with opportunities for twinflame couples to heal some serious wounding from this lifetime and other lifetimes.  There will be opportunities to come into physical union and opportunities to expand their power as a couple as well.  This is possible if one or both are willing.   Do they have to consciously be aware, you ask?  We say that only one has to be consciously aware to help nudge energetically the other along.  Energetic nudging doesn't require any communication with the other person's being or energy field--it is simply by way of doing what you must do for your own clearing/releasing/fears etc.  This imparts the clearing energies to your beloved to receive at the time that is most appropriate upon their journey.  (It is important to recognize that everything you do daily impacts your beloved.  I am not sure what you all feel--but I feel everything with my twinflame:  his body aches, when he eats bad and feel when he is thinking of me and so, so much more!  My belief is, then of course he feels/experiences what I do as well--now he may not be able to consciously say "April cleared my heart chakra today--I feel lighter", but I know it is assisting him because when we do talk--I can recognize the changes in him.  It may show up in his reality as experiencing more self love or someone being understanding with him; helping him to love himself more.  I also know when I am in a bad place--it amplifies for him any bad place he is in; but as mentioned above as the Keeper of the Flame, it is my responsibility to keep raising my/our vibration.  As much as I sometimes see this journey as so much work, I take comfort and find hope in knowing that what I am doing is really having an impact on his experiences as well.  Another quick example, when I talk about him, oftentimes I get the distinct feeling he knows I am talking about him--again he may not know what I am saying, but he feels me thinking of him.)

As humanity continues to awaken, more and more opportunities will arise for the twinflames to come together in union.  The light upon the planet is paving the way for you by shining down upon you the energy to clear all darkness out of your way. Raise yourself up in the light and your beloved will raise as well. We wish for you to find the place within you that holds an unwavering faith in your journey and mission.  We ask you to live from that space even when all circumstances appear otherwise.  This is the difficulty most humans have on this path, but we are here to assist you.  We love you and are here for you, with you and to assist you.

We are the Twinflame Collective working through EstaRa's Galactic Team.

Day 6 of 45 Day Journey

Good Day!

I have been extremely overwhelmed the last couple of days--experiencing extreme headaches and body pains...it is quite overwhelming really.  This is Day 6 of our Journey together.  May you each find balance in your life and change the way things are for the better.  I have to admit for me it has been a bit of a struggle as I have not felt well the last few days—body pain always seems to get me down and it takes extra effort to be present with myself, but as always I am a creation in progress.  Notice I used the word creation, rather than work in progress?  Work signals my brain and the universe that life must be work…I’d rather have life be a creation so I chose words that resonate more deeply in my soul. Besides with creation, there  is always change involved. :)

I am finding that it has been particularly hard to consciously change my thoughts when my body is undergoing pain. (I'm referring to the first day when I was able to walk myself through a belief.) For the record, since my car accident I have been in pain every day of my life; it is just that it has become my new normal.   But when I complain or state that I have been experiencing pain, such as I just did,  it is simply much more difficult or painful than my new normal.  I didn't write the last few days because I have spent so much time at physical therapy, doctor appointments and then I was just too tired to sit upright.  

What I have noticed is that simply because I am not consciously evaluating my life and experiences,

doesn't mean that I don't have revelations; as a matter of fact, I have been noticing that some of my friends are stuck in the same loop of negativity.  They don't see it as such because they are so enmeshed in it.  It didn't occur to me how much of a rut some of them are in, which in essence, keeps me in a similar rut; even if I am trying to change me and my thoughts--if I stay surrounded by people who are not trying to change themselves then I will remain stuck just the same, and it will recycle itself.  WOW!!  Big work ahead for me and perhaps big changes too!   I can't speak for those friends, but I can speak for me--I wish to be in a better place by year's end and next year's beginning so I will roll up my sleeves and start paying attention a little better.

By the way, today's exercise for this class is about grounding.  You cannot expect to change your reality, particularly if you are not grounding your reality to the earth.  Without grounding, your dreams are like a balloon in the sky floating around with the whims of the wind; where as with  grounding, your dreams are anchored right where you are--therefore, manifesting everything there.  

As a special this month, I am offering my Guided Grounding Meditation for $10.00. Next month, the price will be going up to $20.00. This meditation will calm you, balance you and help you to be more present in your life, expand your intuition and begin your journey into meditation. It will help you feel more grounded and centered when performed for a minimum of once per day.  Buy Now  

 In addition, you are invited to join in the journey, 45 Days to Releasing Negativity in your life.  There is still time to join until November 30th.  The email class which provides tools for removing negativity in your life, tools for changing your thoughts, tools to refocus yourself and tools for letting go began on Sunday, November 16th and will end on Wednesday, December 31st.   The small fee click here to buy includes a daily email directly to your inbox as noted above and all previous emails leading up to the day of your purchase.


Catch you on the other side of Negativity---that would be Positive-Life Changing-Dreams Manifested side!

Love EstaRa