A New Journey of Healing Begins...

 I begin a new journey of healing...here starts my story.

 

Dear Friends,

It has been a few months since I sent out an email to you all. As you know I have been going through a lot of health issues in the last few years and unfortunately, that has not changed. 

At about age 28, I remember walking out of a doctor's office and hearing a voice say, "if you don't change your life now, you will not live to be 40."  I was working at the State Capitol in Hartford, CT and running campaigns on the side, both political and labor related.  I worked way too many hours and was under way too much stress for my sensitive soul and was sick all the time.  I heard those words and immediately I changed. I quit my job, left my Masters program, and created a new world for me; focused on my self-healing that led me to opening my business and experiencing adventures in learning, growing, helping and healing myself and so many others.  It has been a journey of discovery and love, and I've loved every minute of it.  

As some of you know, I have never completely recovered from injuries and exhaustion since my car accident.  I kept feeling something was wrong, and did everything I could holistically to function, continue my work and bring love to the earth.  If you have known me and followed me for some time,  I have suffered severe fatigue the last several years and was told by doctors that it was simply because I was in pain.  

I turned 49 on March 1st, and on March 31st I underwent another surgery for the removal of a lymph node in my neck for a biopsy. 

I was diagnosed with Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia.

I was shocked, but not totally surprised since I knew something was not right.  This surprised my doctors, as well, as I've been told over-and-over again that I look healthy and so young for my age.  I have to say that one doesn't just wake up one day having Advanced anything; no I believe I have had this at least the last 20 years, if not my entire life.  I credit my healing and holistic lifestyle for the years I believe I have been in and out of remission.  Why do I think I have had it for many years?  Well, I have experienced the particular symptoms since my 20's and the crazy thing is that this dis-ease is usually diagnosed through blood work 20 years before symptoms show, and it is usually diagnosed in 70 year olds.  When I was a child, we lived in an area where chemicals were being dumped in the nearby river and we drank the well water.  Yes, a story similar to Erin Brockovich; and my parents tried to fight the chemical company--they worked hard to get the Freedom of Information Act passed in the State of Connecticut back in the late 1970's, but it wasn't enough - the company still dumped enough to affect families in two towns. I was sick the majority of my life--if you grew up with me, you know I missed ridiculous amounts of school--it appeared I didn't have a good immune system, but I disagree.  I have an amazing immune system because I am still here at 49 years old even after all that I have been through physically.

I share this news with you for many reasons.  I have to.  You are the people in my life that have brought such love and light into my world; and supported me through all my challenges.  I have always been transparent with you and I don't want to stop that.  I also want you to understand why it has been so hard for me, particularly in the last several years, to maintain my business fully.  I just haven't been feeling 100%.

And yes, I am scared, but I am also hopeful.  I find myself wavering between paralyzing fear, a realization of relief that I know what is wrong with me and optimism that if I can keep myself in and out of remission over the last many years, without the assistance of doctors,  then I can do this now with the help of the right healing team.

With all that being said, I am taking some time off from my business, not taking on new clients and not teaching any classes at the present time.  However, I still want to work  and will continue to pick up sessions in a few weeks with my current clients, through shorter, sessions because it is really good for my mental health and it is what I love to do, helping people.  I ask for understanding if I have to cancel, reschedule appointments as I have really worked a very limited schedule and it is has become more and more limited in the last year.

If you are wondering how you can help?  Here are some ideas:

1. Check out my new website, it has options for you to buy my prerecorded meditations, light language activations, my books, sprays and more.  These will help you to heal too! 
Click here:  www.soulstarhealing.com

2, If you are a healer please send healing to me, or better yet join a Healing Circle that my dearest friend Marcia is putting together to help me heal. It will be a weekly opportunity to connect at the same time.  You can contact me and I will add you to the group. 

3. Want to cheer me up? I need that too!  Please send cards, inspirational thoughts, whatever you feel to me at April D'Amato, PO Box 465, Groton, CT 06340. 

I thank you all for listening and supporting and loving me throughout the years. While this is a difficult diagnosis, I really need your inspiration, love, healing and continued support of me and my business.

In love, light and service of humanity,
EstaRa  April

Energy Thoughts: Stop, Look and Listen to Your Heart

This morning I was conversing with my guides about the energies of 2021. The words of Winnie the Pooh came into my mind loud and clear "Did you ever stop to think and forget to start again?"

The overall energy is that we are getting clear about what it is we want to create in our world, and more globally. Spirit is asking you to STOP and think about where you are going and what direction you are moving in. The past year was like no other we've experienced in recent times that did stop us from going about business as usual, but that only broke us from patterns temporarily. When the world is free to move around once again, will we go back to those previous patterns? Will we have learned anything new? Will we have discovered a new path that we are heading towards? Are we allowing fear to come into play? Are we allowing joy to lead the way? These are just a few of the questions Spirit has asked us to ponder. 

 

The past year was like no other for me as much as it was for you; however, I had the added stress of
health issues and experiencing three major surgeries in less than one year. The first surgery healed a long time issue of not being able to walk--and boy did I utilized the call of nature and the pressure to social distance as an opportunity to walk. It made it possible for me to stop and think about what it is that I am doing. Last summer, I opened my mind and heart to many potentials and different directions to go in. I was getting clearly that we as a collective are beginning again--look ahead of you and notice there is a clean slate. I chose to follow ideas that flowed to me and I am moving in that direction. Then I was faced with a surgery that I had planned, but with some complications. Then I was faced with a surgery that I had no choice to wait on--one that I knew I would likely ultimately need, but thought I could wait another year. Instead, I realized it was a matter of
urgency---not without a great deal of emotion I decided to do the surgery. I am still recovering and it may be awhile before I feel completely ok again. But it has once again asked to me to determine the direction that I am heading in and to see all alternatives. It has encouraged me to look beyond what is right in front of me and dream. It is asking me to see the possibilities laid out in front of me, there are many more than I dreamed. It has asked me to look at the road of my journey over the last twenty or so years leading me in this direction and perhaps my whole life. It is asking me to stop, look around my reality and listen to what my heart is saying. Spirit is asking you to do the same.

 

I am not quite sure just yet what will be, but what I do know is that we are on the path to becoming a united people in love. Oh yes, it doesn't look that way, but it is and can be a reality. It requires releasing the old way of being and recognizing that anger, violence, jealousy, fear, inequality and resentment have no place in an evolving society. We as a people are changing --we are entering a new paradigm. Yes, it is easy to claim that it has something to do with the changing of the people in powerful places, for example, in the US, an Inauguration took place for a new president, but that is not it. It has more to do with the changing of human consciousness which requires humans to be conscious. Weird isn't it? We think because we wake up every day and live our life acquiring the "right things", eating the right way, making ends meet and sometimes beyond that we are doing it right. Well, guess again that is what Spirit is calling you to look at and reflect on. Yes, you are living, (read: surviving), but are you a joyful, love filled being? Or are you too tired, too stressed to actually be present with your life, your decisions and yourself? 

We are creatures of habit and even more so we don't like to experience change easily. We resist it as we go, but as Star Trek's most famous saying goes "Resistance is Futile". Change is happening all the time, but now it is happening on a grander scale that is rippling throughout humanity. It is happening within you and around you. Will you partake in it to create the world you want to live in or will you just allow the world to lead you? If you are a lightworker, truly a lightworker than you know your job is to stand up in your power and be an example of light for others. 

 

Step away from what you have been going about doing --whether it is just this past year or it has been years and determine if this is who you really are. You ask how? Spirit says, the first question to answer is, no matter your circumstances, what do you feel every day? Do you even know how you feel? Step into that question and really allow yourself to go there, be honest. How do you feel? Content? Fearful? Worried? Excited?

 

Back to the energy of this new year. The first few months of this new year, is all about taking the time now for reflection because once the new earth officially gets underway around the equinox, things will happen (read: move forward faster) and you will need to know which way to go. It is not only important to recognize the direction we wish to move in, but we also must recognize the energy we are putting out into the world. If we are moving fast and we don't reflect--perhaps our energy will be haphazard (read: lots of stops and starts and misdirection) and we are not in conscious creation. If we are moving slowly, or for some, not moving at all, what is it we are stuck in (read: what fears are coming up? Afraid of failure or is it fear of success? These are the things that we ultimately get stuck in with the help of old outdated, past programming we've come to accept about ourselves.)

 

Spirit is guiding you now to take a few moments in the next several weeks to be in the present with your current world, current circumstances, current choices and the life you are currently living. Presence is key--my guides have often channeled this many times throughout the years, but now it is no longer about practicing --it is about being. Soon it will be about taking action and making things happen. Are you ready? Set go, wait, stop and think, but this time start again may mean a new direction or an improved version of the old one. Only proceed down the path you are on if it feels intuitively right for you and if it doesn't get ready to create the life you've always dreamed of the universe and all its magical energy is on your side going forward. Remember that blank slate I spoke about above? Well, what you choose will have all the support you need coming your way to fulfill your mission and your life on Gaia.

 

Channel: The Magic Within You

Greetings, dear ones.

Welcome to another new human earth day on your planet.  Have you realized yet that you are the ones you have been waiting for?  Have you realized you have locked within you the true magic and hope for a better tomorrow upon your earth?  Have you realized how empowering the energy of love can be when you truly allow yourself to feel it?   We ask you these questions to wake you up to the new energy on your planet for dear ones it is here.  You feel the same, you say?   Well, dear ones you didn’t expect to look in the mirror and see a completely different person now, did you?   We smile at the thought of humans.  Look at your pictures dear ones you are different.  You write that off to age, we understand your human minds far more than you think.  You look younger, you look lighter and you look ready to enter into this new golden age.  Go ahead. Take another look in the mirror we say to you.   And then look again after another month and see the changes within you.   They will become so evident that you may not even recognize yourself ask EstaRa as she has been transitioning for a long time now.   We say to you, do not let the mirror be the only way you look at the changes taking place within you.  Look at your life, the choices you make and how far along this journey you have come.

EstaRa: Please explain the questions:  Have you realized yet that you are the ones you have been waiting for?

Dearest one, you are the ones you have been waiting for.  Do you now understand that no one, no thing will swoop down and save you? Only you can save you.   The time is now to look at what isn’t working and change it.

You say that often.

Yes dear one, we do.  That is because there are many of you who still need to look at what isn’t working and change it.  We will keep reminding you ever so gently as long as we feel it is necessary for those of you upon this planet to drop away what no longer serves you and, dearest EstaRa there are many beings upon your planet that need to hear this message. 

Have you realized you have locked within you the true magic and hope for a better tomorrow upon your earth?  Why do you say locked within you?

Dearest one, it is simply a reminder for each of you to know that within each of you, you have the magic.  We say locked because some of you humans, do not realize that it is simply a matter of unlocking the gifts that lie dormant in your energy.  The shifting of human consciousness is the unlocking of  keys within your DNA and your being.  Once you are unlocked, there is no locking it up again and putting it away.

What gets unlocked?  How do they get unlocked?

The magic within you. (they laugh) You unlock codes that are within your make up that were set into place specifically for this time upon your planet.  The codes were not always locked, but with the heaviness of the energy and the control that was upon your planet codes became locked away only by way of thought and consciousness.  What you think and believe about yourself is the truth.  So in essence dear ones if you believe you are not magical beings then you would not be magical beings.  For too long have you held that belief, but that belief is lifting from the planet as more and more beings unlock the codes within them. 
You, dearest EstaRa, have unlocked the codes within you; however, there is more unlocking to come for you.  With the unlocking of the codes you will see great transition for you and your planet.

It is with love, honor and respect that we bring you this message today.

The Intergalactic Counsel of Light through EstaRa

Inspirational Snippet: Twinflames Trust What You Know To Be True

On this 45 Day Journey of Transformation Class that I am not only taking, but attending as well I am discovering so many wonderful things that are helping me to fuel my twinflame faith and trust forward.

This is a snippet that I shared with my class the other day...

Several years back ArchAngel Michael came and spent the day and night with me to teach me about trusting what I know to be true in my heart. (By the way, this was not the only time he has taught me this, but it certainly was the most profound.)  I was going through something that I didn’t know whether to trust what I felt because what I felt was completely different than what I saw in my 3D reality.  He literally spent the day with me—how cool is that to learn from the ArchAngels?  They have been my greatest teachers—when I didn’t have human teachers. (because back when I was looking for human spiritual teachers—it just wasn’t happening—everyone told me to come back when I could afford it financially, really?   Most people give up and most people wouldn’t pursue their healing especially back when I started.  This is why my philosophy in my business is that I will help anyone willing to really work on their healing and evolution—we will figure it out reasonably, of course. ) So the ArchAngels are the ones who stepped in and taught me what I needed to know, and I am so grateful for them every day of my life.   I share some of their wisdom with you on this particular day when  AA Michael told me to trust what I know to be true in my heart above all else.  This whole day he was telling me to listen only with my heart center because it knows the truth. 

On this day, AA Michael even made himself small enough to sit in the passenger seat beside me.  He said that when I had a conversation with someone (this happened to be my twinflame he was referring to) to not listen to the words my twinflame would say, no matter what they were, listen only to what I felt in my heart to be the truth.  This was extremely hard because the words that came across were harsh and painful and at first I nearly gave in—how could I not?  I mean when you are bombarded by human 3D words in your face (reality to most of the world) it is difficult to dispute, is it not?  And honestly it made me cry and get a little lost,  but my guide, AA Michael, kept with me, instructing me to stay in my heart. 

So when I had the conversation with that someone I was instructed to listen to my heart.  As my twinflame spoke, I heard the words he used, but I could easily disregard them because I felt in my heart the truth—the difference was, for this person to speak they could easily use words, but for them to feel was much harder for them to access, but I  COULD FEEL what they were not saying. I could feel the truth from his heart to mine.  Looking back now, it was kind of funny because he spoke and I let him.  I even heard what he had to say, and they were not pleasant words, but I still had this warm smile in my heart and didn’t buy into what he had to say.  He didn’t really understand why I reacted so much the way that I did.  I didn’t cry—I just accepted his words and when I left I knew that what he said was what he thought he must say.

The difference listening with my heart versus listening with my head, was I could feel him—I could feel his truth--his feelings matched what I knew to be true in my heart, but they certainly didn't match his words.  See, it is really easy for us to get caught up in our minds, they are built to protect us—the programs we often run are to keep us from getting hurt—at least that is what our minds think they are doing.  What we don't recognize is that often the old programs are what causes us to get hurt.  Our brain likes to think, resolve situations by filling in the gaps with more thinking not more hearting,  and there is so much stimulation out there for our brains that we more often than not stop listening to our hearts and just focus on our thinking. Unfortunately, the way many of us have been taught is to ignore our heart and focus on what is "real".

Ever have those moments of OCD where your mind just doesn’t stop? I didn’t for the longest time, but then my car accident happened, and my brain started acting that way….the last few years I’ve had to re-learn how to navigate all this again.  Some days I have to admit are easier than others.  It does take practice, just like everything does. 

Why is it so important for twinflames, in particular to pay attention to their heart?  Well this is an easy one, our connection to our twinflames is direct from the heart, and that is the easiest way to hear their truth is through our own heart.   Go into your heart and connect with your beloved and allow the connection to grow--you will feel them, you will begin to hear them--even if you think it is impossible or you can't do that, I am here to tell you absolutely can.   This is the only tool the has really kept me on this journey to union--the truth be known, I've wanted to bail at least a thousand times. hahaha  And no, I am not exaggerating--I really believe it was that many times, if not more.

So I suggest that you start for just one day….ignoring what is in your 3D reality and feeling what you

know to be true in your heart.  Sounds simple enough?  One day? If that seems daunting and to some of us, it is and will be. Okay then let's take an hour at a time until you build up to where you want to be.   It might not be so simple, but it will be the best lesson you could ever teach yourself.   Go ahead and try…I’m here if you need me.  I will take this challenge today for myself—it may be hard for me as you know I've been a little worried about my twin's health over the last few weeks and I haven't gotten a physical confirmation that he is ok yet.  Good luck today on your journey of heart-listening--we all need to do this.

Namaste,
EstaRa

Inspirational Snippet: Change Your Perspective to Love (Especially for Your Twinflame)

Today's Message: (Definitely Twinflame Appropriate)

I came across this message I wrote several years back as I was cleaning out my computer--(trying to make room for some additional memory) and it screamed out to me to share with you all.

"People need loving the most when they deserve it the least." - John Harrison

Hmmm..imagine if just once we didn't take personally what someone says or does and we just continued to love them. I wonder how much that would change us and change them? Okay, it sounds difficult at best when feelings are involved and we feel hurt, but that is always a choice too, ya know--to allow ourselves to feel hurt. (Believe me this is a hard one for me to digest at times too.) But what if the next time someone says something hurtful or makes a choice that really makes you feel icky---what if you treated the situation as if that person were a child who when sent to get the “paper” meaning newspaper, brought you a piece of plain paper instead of the newspaper? You wouldn’t stop loving that child, would you? It was a simple mistake. You would probably laugh or give them the opportunity to try again. It is not always easy to change our perspective—that I know for sure, but if we try to step away from the emotional reaction in that moment, we can change not only our reaction, but perhaps the direction of where we were headed in that situation.

So my thoughts for you today are: Try this in your life. Change Your Perspective. GIVE the person who “pushes” your buttons, who acts impulsively, who acts without conscience, who speaks without thinking, who reacts out of fear: LOVE. Love them and know they are just like us trying to navigate through their life and these times of change to the best of their ability at this moment. Often when someone does something that hurts another –there is no intention to cause harm, they are just behaving the way they are in that moment because that is all they know. Quite often it is such an unconscious response.  Like a child not necessarily comprehending that “paper” could have more than one meaning. I suggest that for one day you just try this…Show Love even when you don’t feel it…it will change your life….LOVE LOVE LOVE

Someone in my life did something that hurt my feelings last week...I was angry and started to react...so I was driving in my car and shouting out at this person (my car is my sacred place truly!) and then I decided to shout out to them, "I LOVE YOU. IIIIII LOOOOVE YOU." Do you know that it changed not only my mood, my vibration, my day and it even changed my feeling about what happened. It opened my eyes to so much that I wasn't seeing because my emotional reaction before that overrode any rationale. It was incredible and it can be incredible for you too!!

 TWINFLAME SIDENOTE...I do this with my twin.  Those of  us who are twinflames probably experience unreasonable behavior, unconscionable actions, and often disregard from our other half.  Does that sound familiar to you?  It certainly is familiar to me.  And yet, I still love him because there is a part of me that knows his behavior, words and actions are not always his own.  Over the last several years as an Intuitive Counselor, Spiritual Coach, Psychic, I've discovered that children learn at a very young age patterns of behavior that they carry into adulthood.   If they do not do some of their own self-discovery and healing, this is often the place they react from and they tend to draw in the same/similar situations to maintain or compound that learned behavior.  In the case of twinflames, we are the ones most confronted by this problem and can identify it with enough intuitive savvy or the help of another Twinflame, preferably with intuitive skills that can see past the proverbial veil.  I am available for individual sessions and group work as well. As a twinflame, it is our job to transmute these patterns/behaviors/beliefs not only for ourselves and and our twinflames, but for all of humanity.  Each couple has come in with a mission to transform relationships at every level--when twinflames come together in full physical union there is a divine mission that as a couple you are to carry out,  but before, during and after, our mission is to help clean up humanity's blockages within in themself that keeps each person from living the life they are meant to live. 

For example, I had an experience recently with my twinflame.  I will share in hopes it helps you understand not only the above comments, but also our role as a twinflame.  The plan was for him to call me on a specific day and time because there was something we agreed on doing.  Needless to say, he did not call.  Now when he did finally call my reaction was/is never what he is expecting, but he is already on defense from his previous experiences in this life.   Initially when I didn't receive the call I felt hurt and disappointed, but I asked Spirit to help me to understand this experience, feel it and take it away from me for two reasons: I didn't want to perpetuate the disappointment and lower my vibration and I didn't want to amplify this energy to be sent to him (remember your twin whether in contact or not, FEELS EVERYTHING you say or do).    

As I sat with this, I discovered two things:  he didn't want to call me because I expected him to (this is his way of gaining control in his life) and he also wanted to manipulate the energy so that he could create a guilt for himself.  Why you ask?  Hmmm...well at first over the years, I had not understood this and I had struggled with his behavior, but as time as gone on and I have opened to what was really going on and seeing him more than just the love of my life hurting me because by no means do I think he does this intentionally. 

I gained clarity into the whole situation by just staying in balance not disappointment or frustration--basically I CHOSE LOVE.  So what did I gain, you may ask:  He chose not to call me to feel in control.  It was as if he said, I am not going to meet your expectation of me, I am in control.  It came to me that this is a behavior of rebellion for him.  Is he rebelling against me?  No, in fact, I know that is not the case.  However, my feeling  is that throughout his life he has failed to meet the expectations that others have placed upon him, whether reasonable or not, (more likely unreasonable)  and how others reacted (particularly his family to him from a very young age) really created damage to him.  So, he is just programmed to not follow through in fear that he won't meet the expectations so "let me take control and do what I want, you are going to yell at me anyway" attitude.  This is why he is often ready for a fight when I am simply just saying hi.   Now this brings me to the guilt part.  My twinflame has had a mis-perception of what love is, means, feels like.  What does that mean?  His wires got crossed with regard to what love is. (again at a young age because it is in childhood where we develop patterns, beliefs,etc that only get compounded upon as we grow up.)   Guilt is a powerful emotion that invokes in him that he must love someone if he feels guilty.  My feeling is that at a young age the people he was closest to in his family dynamic often made him feel guilty and he interpreted it as this must be what love feels like.  Remember we don't come in with all the knowledge of human dynamics--yes we come in with love, but then the family dynamics, attitudes, behaviors quickly get placed upon us and we "forgot" that purity of love. With me, he doesn't automatically feel guilty, but he does love me.  So he needed/needs to recreate the guilt feeling so that his "love" for me makes sense. He has to unlearn that love and guilt feelings are not the same. This is the crossed wires. 

Children learn at a very early age how to react, behave and deal with life circumstances, as a  matter of fact, it becomes completely ingrained into the patterns of who they become.  This programming is completely capable of being unlearned and changed, but each individual must come to terms with understanding this.  As a twinflame, we can help our twin to undo this pattern, again whether we are in contact with them or not.  It is as simple as self discovery within us.  To some degree, I have/had this same belief of love and guilt--often synonymous with Conditional Love, but I have overcome most of it.  Clearly, there is still some there left for me to see the pattern within him.  To undo this pattern, is to do just what I did.  Recognize his behavior, try to understand the place it is coming from remembering to love your twin unconditionally.  

I know this is truly a deep topic for twinflames and likely a common thing that is not easily seen on the surface. On the surface, it appears he was being selfish, and yes, you can view it that way especially if you see his need to be in control, but digging a little deeper, he was just preparing for failing even before he did and the thing is to help him learn that he may not fail.   Choose to respond to him with love has and does make a difference in our communication, but occasionally depending on what is happening in his life, he may revert back to old programming, and we just work again to heal it.

I hope to share more of my relationship wisdom with you, but please know that while this pertains to twinflames, but it can be useful in other relationships too.

Message for Twinflames from Archangels Chamuel and Raziel

Today's Twinflame Message:

I haven’t put out a message about twinflames in awhile, but I do get them all the time. The last three days I have been hearing from my guides how important it is to stay focused—focused on what you want especially with regard to your twinflame. The doubt and fear will continue to creep in, but it is imperative to use this time of “fertility and creation” to manifest the life you desire. The more you analyze and replay something that has or has not happened, the more that is what you manifest. For some of us we use it to try to “understand” what it is our twin is doing/fearing, but it is really important at this juncture to focus on what we want. This has been echoed loud and clear—some of you may notice that I stop you when you ask me about my twin or I just don’t share all the details because I am trying to stay so present and in the moment, and not get caught up in any doubt or fear. Thanks for honoring me and understanding me, please know I want to capture this moment—the timeline we are on with love, light, balance, trust and faith.

Archangel Chamuel and Archangel Raziel suggest that you create a simple affirmation with regard to your twinflame relationship. For example: I manifest full physical reunion with my beloved. OR I manifest open communication with my beloved.

Most importantly, select something, create something that resonates deeply with your soul. Keep that in your field often. Do your best to recognize when it doesn’t feel authentic or comfortable, that is when you need to do an energetic clearing. The discomfort speaking about what you want or the uncertainty that you can have it, is not because you don’t desire it or that you don’t want to manifest it—it is the fear or the blocks that have been placed there. You can clear it yourself or you can feel free to contact me to schedule a session to help you clear out your chakras/blocks to realign you with your soul's truth.

We are in a time where the energy is building and creating—take advantage of this energy and use it for motivation.

Have a blessed and magical Thursday!
EstaRa

oh by the way, even if you are not on this journey to twinflame union, you can still use this energy to manifest the soulmate love you so desire.

Moving from Fear to Love: A Snippet on Spirituality

I've been thinking a lot about Spirituality lately.  I have been moved in so many different directions over the last few years with my car accident.  In some ways, I feel like I am trying to regain my footing because I fell over the proverbial cliff into a land of pain, suffering, poverty and the like; while other ways, I feel like I have expanded far beyond where I used to be.  I guess really it all depends on how I am feeling in that moment and perhaps what is going on around me.  So recently, as you may or may not know, I have been really been pulled/pushed into the direction of the political world.  My higher self has nudged me through messages, dreams and the like to get active in the political realm and I am.   I notice I am feeling the excitement that I felt when I went to school for Political Science.   Well, with that excitement I started to think about spirituality and what it means in terms of politics, then I came across this quote by Brother David Steindl-Rast,

"Sometimes people get the mistaken notion that spirituality is a separate department of life, the penthouse of existence. But rightly understood, it is a vital awareness that pervades all realms of our being."

The journey of spirituality means that you are awake-- aware of your entire being! It means you are responsible for your choices and actions and understand the consequences as well as the beautiful benefits of those choices and actions. Spirituality means that you can move to the beat of your own drum while being a spark of light on this planet, and making choices to live life from a place of love while moving out of the fear.  What you learn is that the process of living from a place of love and moving out of fear is a continual process that you face/confront everyday in your daily existence. It isn't running and hiding behind some outside source when we don't want to take responsibility, or choosing to blame the circumstances and situations on someone else for what is happening.  It isn't something you can go to church to receive absolution for--and not something that you experience on the holidays to receive extra grace.  We have long been taught on this planet that our relationship with spirit/God/higher self (what ever words you choose to use) is outside ourselves, but Spirituality is who you are and the answers, God/Spirit/higher self are all inside of you.

Spirituality becomes an inherent part of who you are, in every way.  It is a place that you live from each day:that is you live from a place of love each day working to overcome the fear of your past and removing all blocks and obstacles. Having faith and trust in the unknown rather than fear it. It is a beautiful journey if we let it be that way.  

Do you consider yourself a spiritual being? Or a temporary spiritual being when the going gets tough? Meaning when things are bad you cling to a sense of love and work on releasing the fear, but when things seem to be going well, you let go of the tools or work you have been doing and forget that living spiritually means daily practice.

Or is it a lifestyle you choose? If it is a lifestyle that you choose it doesn't mean you have to give up the fun parts of your life--it means you have to give up the self-sabotage, the inner critic, the negative thinking, fearful living and making choices from what you have known versus choices based in faith and trust. Are you ready and willing to do that ? Have you recognized the power you have within you yet?

For me it is who I am, it is the lifestyle I choose in every moment,  I have to admit in some moments it is easier than others, but with practice, focus and vigilance--it is a lot easier.   Bringing us back around to why the universe is nudging me into politics at this time, most of you know my background is politics and well perhaps my past experience is for this very moment on the planet, in the United States where a Love Revolution is truly taking place. Either way, my Spirituality is fueling my decision to become involved.  As I mentioned above it is a part of everything I do/experience/feel humanly.  As long as I am in a physical body, I have to remember to take part in the human world too as it does directly affect me.  The beauty of this part of my journey is that I get to bring my Spirituality with me and not hide it away to fit in.  This is the time for the Light to shine.  I won't go on my rant about how I feel and why I feel the way I do, but I will offer you these two final things. If you considered yourself Spiritual it would benefit for you to pay attention too.  And if you are interested in my thoughts and views of other like-minded individuals, please check out my group on Facebook called:  Lightworkers4Bernie.  Anyway, I send you love on your path and peace as you find your way.

Namaste.

Final Day of 45 Day Journey

Happy Last Day of Class Everyone.

Imagine that this time tomorrow morning you woke up with everything you need and you didn’t have to do a thing other than go to sleep and wake up in the New Year?  Well, that is what you will have if you trust that everything you need is right there inside of you.  I know , I know some of you may be saying “I don’t have enough money to pay my bills.” Or  “I don’t have the love relationship I want.” Or  “I don’t have the health that I want.”  I hear you and I understand you loud and clear—believe me I have said those things and others too.  But what I know for certain is that the outside circumstances do not matter so much as what you are feeling inside of you.  Those of you following my journey must know that  it has been a constant struggle every day for me physically, mentally, emotionally, financially and even spiritually to maintain my beliefs because everything outside of me appeared as if it were against me; and believe me in many ways it was/is.  That being said, it was what I knew to be truth inside me that has kept me moving forward—surviving and not dive into a deep, dark depression when the reality is—it would be completely acceptable for me in a deep, dark space! The thing is that being in that energy for longer than a day or two is no longer in my DNA—not because someone removed it from me, but because I removed it from me several years ago when I began this journey of infusing myself with more light and more healing and definitely doing the work to fall in love with myself, connect with my inner little girl to find her needs and embracing change/my path rather than resisting it.   I changed my DNA and you can change yours too.  The one thing I learned over the last few years was another dimensional level of healing that has given me the opportunity to clear from my Ancestral, Geographical and Soul Lineages as well as my expanded soul groups.  It takes time to heal and remove pain, but it doesn’t have to! 

Take some time today to contemplate this past year, I know for many it has been difficult—and for myself included I started 2015 off in a hospital with my back in horrible pain, but even with that—I had a pretty amazing year.  I would say write in your journal for yourself, but some of you resist the writing of experiences, but I feel it may truly assist you to write down your experiences and really see what your year was like—a life review perhaps.  It will show you how far you have come even when things do not look as good as you would like them to.  This will help put you into a better energy before you decide to think about what you wish to create in the new year.   Every year, I write out a list of things (everything I wish to do) I would like to manifest, and that list is as long as the age I am.  This new year, I will be 44 I March so my list will have 44 things, some may be simple to attain while others may seem like a dream, but I believe they are all possible.  If you have watched my journey, you know that many things have happened to me that are unbelievable!!  (One day I will write more about that!)

I’d like to end today’s class with a few thoughts for you to ponder…

Are you willing to commit yourself to Love - the infinite presence of Spirit in your soul?

Getting in touch with the love within you is the most important step you can take on your spiritual journey. It will also be your most rewarding. Being in touch with the love within allows you to be accepting, understanding of yourself and others, vulnerable when you need to be. It allows you to look at your shadow and heal yourself while being supported by the love of Spirit and the soul within. It allows you to be truly who you are.     

Every guru of this earthly time that has the ability to channel and receive guidance about life on earth; has imprinted that this year is the time for the embodiment of our “Christed-Self”, that is the Christ Consciousness the energy of Love, Miracles and Blessing will be bestowed upon us because access to these things increases with your vibration. I echo that as well. I know I am ready to allow mine in, but I also know that it is not without work. But not work in the way we think of work; instead, it is about how we use what we have learned about living life in this time on our planet. It could mean going against what we used to know, leaving our comfort zone and entering unchartered territory.

Is this something you are ready to do? Are you willing to give up your attachment to how things have always been and see real miracles in your life and allow the blessings of abundance to fall upon you? If so, then this is the year for you to change your life to the one you really want to be living. Let go of the attachment to how things have been or how you think they should be.  Let things/experiences be just what they are supposed to be---just what they are in this moment. Stay in each moment as best as you can and don't cloud your mind with distractions and useless clutter, instead allow yourself to face things in your life as they may happen. We’ve allowed so much to clutter us and prevent us from going forward.  It is time to be present in our life, our community and the global world around us.  We are the light we have been waiting for…tt is time for us to speak our truth, lead by way of doing and join in the energy that is building the momentum of change in our country, our planet.  It is our time! 

Blessings of love and magic to you all and happy 2016!