A New Journey of Healing Begins...

 I begin a new journey of healing...here starts my story.

 

Dear Friends,

It has been a few months since I sent out an email to you all. As you know I have been going through a lot of health issues in the last few years and unfortunately, that has not changed. 

At about age 28, I remember walking out of a doctor's office and hearing a voice say, "if you don't change your life now, you will not live to be 40."  I was working at the State Capitol in Hartford, CT and running campaigns on the side, both political and labor related.  I worked way too many hours and was under way too much stress for my sensitive soul and was sick all the time.  I heard those words and immediately I changed. I quit my job, left my Masters program, and created a new world for me; focused on my self-healing that led me to opening my business and experiencing adventures in learning, growing, helping and healing myself and so many others.  It has been a journey of discovery and love, and I've loved every minute of it.  

As some of you know, I have never completely recovered from injuries and exhaustion since my car accident.  I kept feeling something was wrong, and did everything I could holistically to function, continue my work and bring love to the earth.  If you have known me and followed me for some time,  I have suffered severe fatigue the last several years and was told by doctors that it was simply because I was in pain.  

I turned 49 on March 1st, and on March 31st I underwent another surgery for the removal of a lymph node in my neck for a biopsy. 

I was diagnosed with Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia.

I was shocked, but not totally surprised since I knew something was not right.  This surprised my doctors, as well, as I've been told over-and-over again that I look healthy and so young for my age.  I have to say that one doesn't just wake up one day having Advanced anything; no I believe I have had this at least the last 20 years, if not my entire life.  I credit my healing and holistic lifestyle for the years I believe I have been in and out of remission.  Why do I think I have had it for many years?  Well, I have experienced the particular symptoms since my 20's and the crazy thing is that this dis-ease is usually diagnosed through blood work 20 years before symptoms show, and it is usually diagnosed in 70 year olds.  When I was a child, we lived in an area where chemicals were being dumped in the nearby river and we drank the well water.  Yes, a story similar to Erin Brockovich; and my parents tried to fight the chemical company--they worked hard to get the Freedom of Information Act passed in the State of Connecticut back in the late 1970's, but it wasn't enough - the company still dumped enough to affect families in two towns. I was sick the majority of my life--if you grew up with me, you know I missed ridiculous amounts of school--it appeared I didn't have a good immune system, but I disagree.  I have an amazing immune system because I am still here at 49 years old even after all that I have been through physically.

I share this news with you for many reasons.  I have to.  You are the people in my life that have brought such love and light into my world; and supported me through all my challenges.  I have always been transparent with you and I don't want to stop that.  I also want you to understand why it has been so hard for me, particularly in the last several years, to maintain my business fully.  I just haven't been feeling 100%.

And yes, I am scared, but I am also hopeful.  I find myself wavering between paralyzing fear, a realization of relief that I know what is wrong with me and optimism that if I can keep myself in and out of remission over the last many years, without the assistance of doctors,  then I can do this now with the help of the right healing team.

With all that being said, I am taking some time off from my business, not taking on new clients and not teaching any classes at the present time.  However, I still want to work  and will continue to pick up sessions in a few weeks with my current clients, through shorter, sessions because it is really good for my mental health and it is what I love to do, helping people.  I ask for understanding if I have to cancel, reschedule appointments as I have really worked a very limited schedule and it is has become more and more limited in the last year.

If you are wondering how you can help?  Here are some ideas:

1. Check out my new website, it has options for you to buy my prerecorded meditations, light language activations, my books, sprays and more.  These will help you to heal too! 
Click here:  www.soulstarhealing.com

2, If you are a healer please send healing to me, or better yet join a Healing Circle that my dearest friend Marcia is putting together to help me heal. It will be a weekly opportunity to connect at the same time.  You can contact me and I will add you to the group. 

3. Want to cheer me up? I need that too!  Please send cards, inspirational thoughts, whatever you feel to me at April D'Amato, PO Box 465, Groton, CT 06340. 

I thank you all for listening and supporting and loving me throughout the years. While this is a difficult diagnosis, I really need your inspiration, love, healing and continued support of me and my business.

In love, light and service of humanity,
EstaRa  April

Energy Thoughts: Achieving Boundless Empowerment

Wow, Memorial Day Weekend has come and gone already.  It is hard to believe that summer is on the horizon--half of this year is almost over already.  I don't know about all of you, but since Mercury Retrograde has moved direct and Saturn moved Retrograde my life has gotten dramatically busier and more stress-filled.  

The energy has really amped up with massive outpourings of light from Spirit; which in and of itself is exactly what is needed for all of humanity and our planet, but with it comes the responsibility of embodying more light.   As the energy continues to pour in, it has no choice, but to reveal where the obstacles are in your body, life, relationships and work, to name a few.  Not to forget it does the same thing on a global level too, with regard to the political, financial, healthcare systems in your community, state, country, planet too.  I am sure there are many of you, if not all, that can I identify with those obstacles being revealed whether they are personal or more of global, but I am willing to bet you are experiencing/feeling it in both places.   When I say the light has no choice, I simply mean that its job is to uncover the darkness that has been hidden away, reveal the core obstructions you have been carrying in your life preventing you from being the magnificent light that you are.   

In this time on the planet, it is often said by many new age teachers to pay attention to your thoughts, focus on making them positive, they even go as far as to not talk about anything, but positive things.  I find this to be one of great disservice to everyone and a new way to create distractions.  Have you had a brief encounter with someone who responded with "I'm doing great" when asked how they are, and you didn't believe them?   Why do think that is?  It is because their energy is vibrating at the lower vibration not the one that feels "great".  The philosophy is that you project what you want to be and you are that; that is the problem with focusing on saying/doing only positive things, even when that is not what you are feeling.  That philosophy is a misconception because what you are truly feeling underneath is what goes out to the universe and becomes a self sabotaging answer to what you are wanting to do.   Spirit asks you to "be" with your real feelings so that you can clear/heal/understand them more fully.  This process is how you will truly raise your vibration to the place in which you want to be. 

The empowerment that comes with processing and clearing these old blocks will be boundless and you will experience a massive shift in not only your energy body, but in your manifesting abilities/relationships/careers etc.    Spirit asks you to trust this path that you are on, even if it is uncomfortable.  This is what you have been waiting for all this time, this is the time we have all been waiting for. It is possible to achieve all that you have longed for, don't give up hope when you are so close.

If you follow me on Facebook, you will know a bit about what has been coming up in my life over the last few weeks and understand that this energy is not leaving anyone untouched.  I have been dealing with some serious health concerns for several members of my family; including friends around me.  For me personally, I've been dealing with the trauma of the car accident and the care, or lack thereof, that I had after my car accident. Some of you may remember that I had the car accident over 5 years ago and still suffer with physical issues and financial issues as a result.  I started working part time again just about 2 years ago and haven't been able to move past part time work (only when I am physically able to) due to continuous issues with my neck and back.  However, I've never given up on pursuing ways in which to heal me and recently I have something to feel optimistic about.  I had a consultation with a Functional Neurologist who told me that the situation I am in has been beyond my control.  He affirmed for me that the doctor's really have dismissed some serious issues to my brain as a result of the trauma and concussion due to the accident. I am feeling that this doctor will help me to get out of this horrible situation and help resolve the neck and back issues permanently.  My only concern now is being able to pay him and travel to him--he is in NYC, not covered by insurance, and I am struggling to afford my basic needs on my part time work.   I am sharing my medical fundraiser that I created to help me. HOWEVER, if you would prefer to pay my doc directly (which is what I prefer) or send money to me, please message me privately and I will be happy to provide the additional information. 

If every person reading this Energy Thoughts were to donate, it would make more of a difference than you can imagine, even if it just $5-$10.   www.youcaring.com/healingforapril

Thank you truly from the deepest part of my soul.

 

Happy Hanukkah!

I was blessed to be invited to celebrate Hanukkah with some wonderful souls and delicious latkes--oy they were good!  

As you may or may not  know, I don't consider myself any one specific religion--I truly believe first and foremost I AM part of everything. I AM part of all that is and I AM  all of it:  we are all one and connected to all that is--so to me there is no separation.   However, I was raised Catholic; but since "reopening/awakening" several years ago, my soul has called me back to ancient roots of Judaism.  I began to study Judaism and boy did the floodgates open as I began to recall many past lives when I was Jewish.  My SOUL remembered who I really was and where my soulroots lie.   I remember the first time I went to a Synagogue, after I "RE-Membered"  I started saying the Hebrew Prayers (sounded very much natural as the people around me commented on it) like I knew the prayers.  I even felt "my wings" open up wide. It was the first time, I felt my "wings"...I felt larger than life.  I felt alive with the ancient language of Hebrew--that's when  I knew I found the language of my soul. 

So I celebrate everything that is part of me which is LIGHT, LOVE and PEACE.  This time of year, I do, celebrate both Hanukkah and Christmas as they both resonate deeply within me,  and, I don't feel complete if I celebrate one without the other.  Tonight will be the second night of Hanukkah...here is a picture from my Menorah last year on the second night of Hanukkah.  The flames are uniting and make me feel the union of the twinflames is imminent. What a beautiful reminder of the miracles in my life.
 

During this Festival of Lights (Hanukkah), I light my menorah each of the eight nights of the holiday in honor of lighting the way of peace, remembrance of union, miracles, faith, trust and love.  The miracle of Hanukkah was that of light lasting beyond when the darkness "should" have taken over.  Let this holiday be a reminder for those who are Jewish and those who are not that just as the light was the miracle then---so too is light the miracle NOW.  Shine your light, my beautiful souls on this journey,for that is who you are.  As you shine your light, let the way of peace, remembrance of union, miracles, faith, trust and love be your truth so that you too will see the miracles coming your way. There is no requirement to light a candle or to be a certain religion/person/thing for you (each of you)  are the light and the way. 
 
Happy Hanukkah, my friends.

My wish for you is to shine your light.

In love, peace and light,
EstaRa

Hanukkah began last  night...

45 Days of Transformation, Inspiration and Magical Treats!

Hello Everyone,

Hope you are all enjoying the amazing season of fall especially, those of us in New England---the leaves are finally really falling and disappearing off the trees this last week despite the temps being up in the 70’s.  Imagine that?  A mini weather miracle—if you told someone two months ago that it would be impossible for the temps to be in the 70’s and yet, here we experienced it.  I was preparing classes for this fall/winter and I remembered last year around this time I really wanted to change the direction in my life and physically heal, so I committed to a 45 day Clearing Negativity Challenge and I offered it out to my clients and students as well to be part of this experience. 

I am not sure how it all played out for all my students who took this class, but I can tell you this—several said it left them with a foundation and huge shifting in their personalities, choices and life.  For me, it was a tremendous experience!  Yes, I ended up in the hospital during Christmas time and didn’t come home until February—all due to my back.  So on the surface, it looked like a horrific experience, but what you may not know is this.  I prayed for several months before for my body to heal and receive the proper care that I was not given for nearly 2 years at that point.  Doing this clearing class, not only did I shift my energy big time, my prayers were answered and started to get proper care for my body; 2015 has been a year of profound physical healing for me.  I am not finished with full recovery yet, but I am so on my way!!!  I attribute the massive transformation to the  online class that I offered.  It was one experience that in leading this class—I was also held more accountable to myself to do and live and be conscious of my thoughts and feelings day to day, which by the way, is not always easy for healthy times, but when you are in constant pain—it was quite the challenge!  Why am I telling you all this?   Well, I have decided as part of my gratitude to all of you, I am offering out a similar class to all of you this year, but it is more about self love which includes finding peace, releasing negativity, remembering who you are and more.

So my gift and offer to you is to join me on this journey of 45 days to release negativity in your life.  This will take us to year's end where we will close the year by way of letting go of the past and beginning a new year from a transformed, new personal power within us. I am offering two ways for you to enjoy this opportunity:  First, for free you can follow my personal journey of self discovery on my blog at: www.aprildamato.blogspot.com where I will make some posts with updates/experiences I'm having for the next 45 days (I have to admit to all of you I am not consistent with my blog because of other events that are taking place in my life), beginning Monday, November 16th to Wednesday, December 31st.  OR you may choose to have messages delivered directly to your email which will include tools for removing negativity in your life, tools to refocus yourself, tools for letting go, tools for falling in love with you as well as intuitive messages and shares for your journey. The email option is more personalized and focused on tools for transforming you from now until the end of the year for a small fee of $33.00  Click here to Buy Now. The choice is yours and I hope you join in one of the two ways.   The timing is perfect for the new year—believe me I’ve experienced the magic last year!  (If you know me and have seen me lately—you will be amazed at the physical healing transformation I’ve made and I attribute it to the class last year along with making way for proper care to come my way!

45 Days of Transformation, Inspiration & Magical Treats!
Monday,November 16 (Receive at Your Preferred Time)
Take this opportunity to begin a new year by preparing your body, mind, spirit for the 45 days before.  This email will include tools for changing your thoughts, tools for refocusing yourself, tools for letting go, tools for self love and more. This email class will provide you with all you need to prepare to manifest magic in the new year. Are you ready to hold a positive attitude, stay focused on your plans and recharge your batteries?  Now is the time. Energy Exchange: $33.00

This is the time on our planet to make magic happen---let's start with us so it can spread like wildfire.

In love and light,
EstaRa April

RSVP to this invite by emailing me at april@soulstarhealing.com or check out my website at: www.soulstarhealing.com