11/15/2019 Energy Update: Claim Happiness

11/15/2019   Energy Update:

This sums up the last week....and then after the primal scream...I survived. Did you? Full moon and 11/11 Gateway has definitely ripped the band aid off the wound so to speak. We all felt it in one way or another...only a few more weeks of Mercury Retrograde. Can you bear it? No? If not, just go slow, take a step back and allow for things to settle and show themselves to you....let it all go....what is important will still be there everything else will find its way out. 

What is interesting is that simultaneously, things I didn't have time to focus on are coming together and working out. Let that be a lesson in letting it all. Are you noticing that too? If not, then you are far to locked up in your head. If you are, then you are definitely straddling a form of soul alignment.

Spirit relays the message again that we can be both beautiful and a mess at the same time--let this Mercury Retrograde period show that to you. Accepting the duality of feelings is part of the process and the plan...you will be grateful once you accept this and then see what unfolds for you. This is alignment in physical form; this is mastery. Read the beginning of this paragraph again. I must admit this lesson happens to be a bit trying at times, but once learned life can be filled with beautiful moments that you didn't even know were there. And it takes time to accept this, especially in a society where people are uncomfortable with their own discomfort. However, the more you get comfortable with your own emotions/feelings the more you expand your light and the forerunners (you) will light up the rest of society. Don't accept the words of someone who tells you that you can feel happy 24/7 because being human means you feel it all which includes everything not just happiness. Do accept the words of someone who tells you that you can claim happiness 24/7 because no matter what happens in your life, it is possible to realign and find happiness moment to moment; not quite 24/7 sometimes, but it is achievable.

It is all in mastering emotions/feelings and bringing yourself in divine alignment.

Look for some stuff coming up in January/February 2020 regarding divine alignment with your soul self--been working on it over the last several months. Most of you that I do not offer classes/sessions/homework for things I have not done myself. I must explore and experience myself before I feel it is appropriate to send your way. Stay tuned--much is happening and much is changing.

Sending love to all you beautiful souls today and always.

Happy Friday everyone.

11.4.19 Energy Update: The Love Train is Coming

Energy Update:

It is official,  Mercury has gone retrograde.  What does that mean in the coming weeks for us?  Lots of changes (read: challenges), opportunities for closure, endings of sorts and healing for all of us, particularly, those of us who pay close attention to what is coming up.  Often people/places/events from the past have a way of showing up during this time for closure.  Mercury Retrograde is all about reflection and making decisions about going forward, but this particular Retrograde I am being told is about relationships that have left over stuff that needs to be cleared up that has been taking up space in your energy field. Are you ready to release it/them?   It has to do with beliefs around relationships, feelings that have been unresolved, subconscious beliefs that we may be carrying.  One of the themes at this time is about love. Is love real?  What is unconditional love vs. conditional love?  This is a good one to ponder and share with a friend to help navigate what it is. Really allow the opportunity of  this  time to guide through retrograde. 

An example of what happens during this time:   I was just on the phone with a friend regarding this energy.  She shared a brief thought about someone calling her randomly today--they haven't spoken with her in 5 years and didn't leave a message. She made the assumption that it must have been a "butt dial", but I immediately got the message.  There is something that was left undone, something felt unfinished on her end and would benefit from not contacting the person, but revisiting the energy of the "ending" of their communication.  She asked me how and then started to give me some details, and I heard that she would benefit from reflecting on the time long ago when they knew each other well, and what perhaps the feelings/experiences were when the friendship ended because she may have unfinished energy/emotions/baggage attributed to this time, but wasn't consciously aware of it until now   I also had a dream of very dear friend, who is no longer in my life, as a matter of fact he disappeared from my life (so to speak) 10 years ago,  where I felt like we were in a parallel life and I woke up feeling we made peace and I finally released him.  Yes and no, I realized I needed to release him--no because I hadn't though of him anymore, and yes because when I did think of him I felt emotions around it.   I share these examples with you because it isn't always in the physical sense that you get these opportunities showing up.  

It is also a time to recoup, rebalance, revitalize and raise your vibration.  In the midst of a retrograde you ask? Yes!    It is imperative that we do just that! Part of that is to remember some core spiritual beliefs and work on accepting them if you don't already have the as a belief: you are a soul in a human body,  the earth has been masked in a 3 D Illusion, but you are multidimensional and can overcome the negativity and illusions of the 3D reality and you can choose to change your reality with a little help from your soul friends.  Join spiritual groups, but you don't even have to go that far--surround yourself with people who uplift you and share in your joys and encourage to do better.

Some specifics for the Twinflame Journey:  The divine feminine is coming into contact with truths she has been carrying from this lifetime with all the females in her line: how they carried themselves, how they behaved, what their views were in love and relationships with men. She has an opportunity to question them and recognize they are not her truths and leave them behind for her to construct her world differently, from a place of love not programming and fear.    The divine masculine is coming into contact with their behavior patterns of being a masculine on this planet and all the stereotypes that have been built up to protect their egos.  These things came into play simply to cover up their feeling not good enough, with all the expectations placed upon them.  They will begin to face their fear of not being good enough and it will transform them with that rationale and help them see truth where they have been running from.   For the twinflame relationship, rather than seeing these things that show up as barriers/blocks/ and yet another obstacle in your journey--start seeing them as the gift of union.  The universe is always providing opportunities for you to grow and learn and come into union.  What one twin does effects the other--so my beloved divine feminine beings of light you have the power of awakened memories and energies to support your mission to union and while it may seem burdensome to take on the task of daily holding your union in high regard despite the fear, negativity and disappointment you have endured, it is your gift that will navigate you forward.   (My input here is that...if we are dissatisfied with some aspect of our life and not only the TF journey/union then there is work to do still on our self.  You are probably thinking: WORK?!!!??? how much more can I do?  I am going to invite you to view this a little differently:  This is the fun stuff/work of recreating you from false assumptions and beliefs you have carried about yourself, or have taken on due to family, culture, etc.  Where do I need work, you ask?   Some people have financial issues, career issues either stuck in on or needing one, family issues, etc.  I invite you to look this as more of an opportunity to create divine alignment in your life rather than working to get together in union.

Now as if Mercury Retrograde is not enough of a time period of shifting and changing, we are also entering a time of the 11-11 Gateway. Yep, it is opening soon.  This gateway is and always has been magical for all beings on the planet, twinflames or not.  In 11-11-11, I was gifted with many experiences that showed me the truth of what love can do on this planet, in our lives and in our relationships.  My guides channeled to me it is the time of the LOVE TRAIN, will you be on it?  Or will you run from it?   This is a question posed to all of humanity during this time of year.  It is about oneness an celebration of unity.  Oneness does not mean we become robots or enslaved to being the same, but what it does define is the knowing that no matter what we look, who we are, where we come from, what culture/race/gender etc we are the same inside and we are meant to treat each other with love and kindness not separation and fear.  This is getting very long so I will stop here and plan to write a little more about this particular gateway soon. 

        

 

Quick Energy Update 11/28/2017

Quick Energy Update:

Do you remember when you were a child and your biggest concern was having your homework done for school the next day? I have been having a ton of flashbacks to those times/memories over the last weeks, but I am beginning to realize that is not the case.

Instead, I believe I/we are integrating different timelines into my new multi-dimensional lightbody. I know my guides told me I/we would start to wear that "new body suit" (multi-dimensional lightbody) last year and would experience several upgrades and shifts to make it fit over this past year. Well, I think it fits and integration of the many timelines/dimensions are finally integrating.

I see it like a patchwork coat that I/we are wearing; a patch representing different experiences over different times/spaces making us complete, but first showing us what needs tailoring so to speak. It appears some of the most difficult aspects to integrate come from childhood which is why some childhood memories are surfacing as inner child aspects to be healed/tailored to fit more comfortably within that coat. Please heed some of those memories, they are like the keys to unlock your potential/future/dreams.

As we enter this time of massive integration, you will experience several personal internal shifts as

well as external shifts in your life. We are entering Mercury Retrograde Shadow period which will allow room for this integration to take place. I have been working through a great deal of inner child healing and I am going to be sharing that with all of you in the coming weeks. I will be hosting an Inner Child Healing Workshop for my clients--stay tuned for the details in December. Meanwhile, let your inner child speak to you. Allow he/she to play as well as teach you what you have been avoiding--there is great wisdom to be had at this time.

Namaste. EstaRa

Art: Duguay

Energy Thoughts: I Want to Give Up

Hi Everyone,

IF you are experiencing doubt, fear of the future and wanting to give up, then this message is for you. 

If you are a twinflame on this journey at this time, there is plenty of doubt about the path, what direction to go in and what the next steps are.  I wanted to send out a little message of support for those of you doubting.   

It seems in the last several months, the energy of doubt has amped up for so many of us, that we are questioning our next steps, trying to comprehend what is transpiring in our worlds, most particularly, I feel the twinflames that are awakened to what the journey is, have been hit the hardest.   Please know that no matter where you are on this journey, you are not alone.  You may be wondering, why now?  I have been so strong and so clear about this, but now I just don't know.  I just want to throw in the towel, give it up and have a boring, easier life.   Sound familiar? 

Well, I have been spending time alone over the past weekend due to my back really acting up--I literally couldn't walk, let alone sit, stand or enjoy the American Holiday of Thanksgiving--I was alone.  I spent a great deal of time feeling a host of feelings that were uncomfortable at best, ranging from I hate my life to I just need to get better.  One of them in particular was "I feel like giving up, I don't want to do this anymore."   I was in so much pain that I actually had to take medicine which makes it near impossible to keep my vibration as high as I like,  so accessing words of wisdom from my guides was difficult at best. 

So this morning while laying in bed, contemplating getting up and navigating another day with horrible back and neck pain; (I did move from a walker to a cane--huge difference),  I felt into what is going on with me.  Why is my twin so unavailable to me when I need him the most?  Is he really ever gonna do what he needs to do?   Are we ever going to come to the place of full divine union and leave behind the crumbs of connection?

I am going to share some answers that I received, they brought me a bit of comfort, I hope they bring some help to you too.  I asked my guides what is going on and they answered:

"Dearest EstaRa, we do see the difficult time that you are embodying right now.  We ask you to continue to trust, have patience and faith as everything is being moved into divine and perfect order for you."   ~ Arcturian Masters of Light (You can imagine my thoughts--really???!!??) 

"The Divine Masculine is/has been awakening to the world around them more. Over the past year, the embodiment of their multi-dimensional reality cannot not in their world while maintaining that which they have been carrying.  It has come time for them to shed their old and start anew." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light

What does that mean I asked?  "It means as they are awakening more to the reality they are living in, the more discomfort they are feeling, the more the promptings of their soul begin to take precedent." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light  Read: The things they do/did to distract/hide/run from all that is uncomfortable are having little to no affect on them, and they are growing restless/frustrated/afraid of what it is they are feeling.  "The Divine Masculine has been experiencing the longings of their soul when they began to expand their heart energy over this past earth year that you are living in." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light They are feeling uncomfortable with their circumstances, especially if they are in relationships or jobs that have long been completed or that have been suppressing their power as a divine masculine on the planet.  The divine masculine is getting a huge wakeup call as to what it is they have been hiding from themselves; as my guides have implied: there is no room to hide.

"Beloved one, know that your beloved is dealing with so much that he has not allowed into his reality. He no longer has a choice to ignore and avoid; he is being forced to deal with his truths." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light

In addition, since the Eclipse sandwich in August of this past year, much of the suppressed issues from childhood are surfacing for everyone.   Those inner child patterns are coming up to be viewed, particularly the ones you have long forgotten, but have left strong imprints on your life through behaviors, fears; even blocks to living a life of love.  If you notice, there has been a shakeup in humanity with regard to sexual predators, sexual abuse and sexual harassment over the last several months. These revelations will continue to play out center stage for all of humanity to purge itself from the distorted energy around sex and sexuality as well as around the roles  each individual plays with regard to this.   "The inner child plays a prominent role in human behavior and attitudes.  Much of humanity's fears are as a result of distorted perceptions in childhood experiences." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light  These distortions to sexuality are core wounds for the inner child within each of us in humanity.  It is important to recognize  that as this inner child energy gets stirred up through experiences, actions and news media around you, that your inner child is trying to have a dialogue with you about what needs to be healed.  "The issues surfacing at this time are looking to be released from what may have been suppressed by you, what has been stored in your ancestral DNA, what has been experienced within your soul group and the roles in which you have played in humanity with regard to this over various lifetimes."  ~ Arcturian Masters of Light

"What may not be evident to humanity as the release of sexual distortion comes to the surface is that as a result of that behavior, several other distortions/beliefs/patterns/ behaviors are appearing now."  ~ Arcturian Masters of Light Read:  sense of guilt, shame, worthiness, self esteem to name a few.  Those are coming up for clearing and release.  "We ask you to not judge yourself or another, for each of you are moving through this purging.  The best use of your energy at this time is to flow with the energy of release and recognize those patterns of behavior within you to begin to move through it.  We ask you to become more of an observer to identify where you are blocked, and once recognized, we encourage you to use tools to move through it." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light Read:  Get real with yourself and see what you have not accomplished in life and recognize where you feel insignificant, stuck or blocked and start working through it.  This will assist you during this time more than you know and beyond that it will assist humanity in shifting. The more we shift, the more we shift humanity.

Finally,  I just want to come around full circle to my fellow twinflame brothers and sisters.  Take a moment and recognize what is happening for all of humanity and recognize how hard hit we are, and even more so, our beloveds because they are unprepared at this bombardment of energy surfacing in their reality.  Their inability to handle what is happening is ultimately reverberating into our reality by way of amplifying what we are feeling or showing us what we still need to work on.  What does that mean for us and how do get through ? Our experience is  intensified!  We need to start looking at us once again and begin the process with ourselves.

While I was working on clearing away some pain this past weekend, I found this video on EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) also known as Tapping.  I used it and it has helped put my life in a better perspective.  Does it make me want to jump right in and not give up?  No--but it certainly makes me want to give up a lot less.  I hope this helps you too, what do you have to lose? Just try it.

Feel Like Giving Up?

Namaste~ EstaRa

Quick Energy Update: Divine Feminine & Divine Masculine

Quick Energy Update:

A lot of challenges have been brought up to the surface for the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine over the last several months. It started with the energy of opening hearts for the Divine Masculine (read: energertic breaking open of hearts--might have been physical for some) and purging of long held patterns for the Divine Feminine (read: removal of the clinging onto the way things should be) at the beginning of the year. We have now moved far beyond the place where we can go back. It became evident in August's energy that we were shedding some of the last vestiges of the old way of being. (read: it was stripped from us)

While much transformation has occurred with the feminine energy on our planet over the last several years, my awareness of this began particularly in 2011. It was as if the energy coming in was directed toward the Divine Feminine Awakening, owning her power, stepping into her awareness, while the Divine Masculine appeared to go about his business.  Looking back in retrospect, I get it now. In order for what is taking place right now, it was necessary for the Divine Feminine to build her place within the planet and sustain the high frequency energies of her balance for what is happening now.  In other words, it was her to  pave a path to allow for the dismantling of the unhealthy masculine energy that has been in control on the planet.  It makes for what looks a bit like chaos and a mess, but know that inside of you there is a place of balance, hope and love.

The only view now is forward. In terms of the Divine Masculine, they can never close their hearts again because they are now open. There may be a time delay in the integration process of what is transpiring because this is new territory for them. The energy is providing the Divine Masculine the ability to open up and expand into a more mature view of love and their reality. In terms of the Divine Feminine, well, the energy is assisting them to open up to the new possibilities and giving them the push to propel them forward from what has held them back.   

It isn't an easy road that we are on, but it certainly is paved with light. 

Namaste. EstaRa

Energy Thoughts: Tick Tock Tick Tock

Hello Everyone,

Back with Part 2 of yesterday's blog post called Energy Thoughts: Pull Back the Curtain.   Picking up where I left off, July's energy of introspection, what does that mean for us all?   We started the month off, still reeling from the energy of Freedom. Freedom to be love, be who we are and do what we wish.  My guides said this month would require a great deal of Integration from all that has taken place over the last several months. (You think? I asked.)  It feels like I could use a year to integrate all that has transpired. They informed me kindly that I do not have a year, but I had a whole month that would feel a lot longer as I was going through it, but in the end, the month will have moved faster than it would seem.  And well, here I am on July 27th and I can honestly say, where did the month go? 

July brought massive upheavals for many, particularly the Divine Masculine. (read: dramatic awakening)  The newly open-hearted Divine Masculine is really beginning to view the world from a different perspective, the heart-centered one which takes on a different meaning than a head centered one that they/we have become accustomed to.   As the Divine Feminine began to integrate much of what she has been challenged to embody, she also began to get some backlash, pummeling to the point of her questioning her own soul truth and her new forging reality.   As the Divine Masculine began to go further inward--pulling away, it reverberated outward to the Divine Feminine in her reality and amplified the energy of confusion.  She isn't confused--she is feeling the Divine Masculine waking up from a dream.

For example:  Imagine, you have been dreaming for sometime, but in the dream it is a life you are
living, let's call it 3D reality. In this dream, you believe that the 3D reality you are living is all there is to the point of you recalling the phrase: You made your bed, now you must lie in it.   (Ok, yes now, let's imagine.  no--I am talking real human earth world of 3D--not really a dream, but for the sake of this example, bear with me.) Then, you woke up and everything you have been doing doesn't make sense: the life you are living, the job you have been in, the place you are living, the people you are living with--it all doesn't make sense.

But wait, the old beliefs start playing in your head: This is all there is. I can't have more than this life. I don't deserve to better.  This is how my family has always done it.  Yes, they were unhappy, but that is all there is in life.   But again, wait, those beliefs contradict what I am beginning to see peering over the horizon.  How do I change what I am living? I put so much time/effort/money into creating/maintaining/suffering through it?  It can't possibly be changed at least that was what had been taught in the old paradigm belief system, right?  Again, beliefs start pouring in:  No one ever gets divorced in our family.   I marry for life.  I just have to suck it up and deal with a crappy job.  I have to do the right thing. I need this job to pay the bills--it is just a paycheck.  I will do (fill in the blank) when I retire.  (Is this sounding familiar? I am sure you can add more of your own belief systems into this too. I am sure some of you reading this have been working through this, reworking through this or just beginning to explore this.)

By the way we are in the new paradigm, but some of us are still running old programs prompting us to believe in the old paradigm still existing.  The reality of the paradigms living together simultaneously will be shifting shortly come September--be prepared by looking more closely at what is going on within you--sneak peek of what is ahead.  Oh yes the reality we/they (speaking mostly of the Divine Masculine at this time) are living in appears in real time to have changed, but the beliefs/values/programs all say 3D is all there is, right?--I have to hold on tight, right? (read: cling for dear life or picture hanging onto the cliff of life.)   This is what the Divine Masculine is experiencing in his world internally, but as of July---in his reality it is no longer just internally, but iappearing physically in his world. It started happening late January of this year with the Divine Masculine opening up to love; and it hasn't let up.  (Thanks to the Divine Feminine claiming her space and holding up sacred reality.)

Spirit is saying it won't let up.  Time is running out for choices and alignments so each soul is being led (read: dragged through the mud) to awakening/shifting/change.  We are in the crunch time once again, but this time it isn't temporary--this shift will be permanent. Remember, old timelines will be disappearing more and more and new possibilities will open that have not been seen before--this is why the clock appears to be ticking, particularly with regard to the Twinflame Energies, but really for all of humanity--as you can well see it playing out on stage in the American Political System.  Oh yes, that is all about the Divine Masculine waking up and Divine Feminine coming into balance, but it appears more like a competition as we watch, but don't be fooled--it is all about learning to navigate the time we are in and the possibilities that are presenting themselves to us.   We as a collective have to learn that we have entered the new paradigm,  we have left the old paradigm behind, but so many of us are still trying to work through things/manifest stuff through the old paradigm--it is time for some changes, don't ya think? Perhaps the more each of us steps into who we

are the more quickly everyone else can or the others can step aside. I digress.

 So while the Divine Masculine is incubation, the Divine Feminine is too.  He is reclaiming his power (read: beginning to recognize there is more to life than what he has been experiencing, learning he has more power than he ever thought, looking for answers; and for some, learning to navigate this new energy); while the Divine Feminine is nurturing her dreams (read: healing/integrating/learning how to manifest in the 5D and what the consequences and rewards are for doing so, and working to balance the fallout energy of the Divine Masculine into her reality.).  This is happening for all Twinflames and for all non-Twinflames.  Get ready people the ride is on and it is going to be a thrilling one.

This brings me to today. Integration, Integration and more integration.  Enjoy this integration period because soon it will be over and the real work begins.  I know, I know --lots of questions....What?  Real work? What the heck have we been doing, if not real work? When does it end--the working phase, I mean?  See I do understand your questions as I have asked them myself quite often. 

We are now approaching quickly the 8-8 Gateway--also known as the Lion's Gate which is a kick ass time of energy--also the Galatic/Cosmic New Year is arriving and boy do we have some magic in store for us.  We are on the path to divine alignment whether you are on the twinflame journey, your own soul's path or just a soul looking to catch a ride to ascension and the higher dimensions---we are set to be there soon.   As we end July and close out a lot the old (read: limitations/blocks), we are being thrown into the lesson of learning how to best use this energy.  When you close out limitations and blocks, what does one do?  One steps into their power and jumps at opportunities and explores the number of possibilities beginning to reveal themselves. 

As the month of August opens up we are going to be walloped by the energy opening doorways/pathways/possibilities that we have not yet opened up to. Are you ready to see how this energy rocks your world with adventures?  Well--hang on the ride is about to arrive.  (And just an aside--adventures come in all ways--physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, but don't we just love the physical ones the most? )  We start August out with the beginning of Eclipse season---Eclipse sandwiches are always most potent times of evolution to which we don't often see  or make sense of the likes that transpired  during that time, but dear ones I am being told by spirit--we can use this energy to really power us forward.   We also have the planet Mercury getting ready to retrograde in August, but I am told to hold on before you make any judgments or decisions--it isn't going to be like the other ones you have endured. (well that is not if you don't want it to be? hint: we have control of our reality--not others, but the reality we live in--choose wisely because this energy will help to catapult you forward.)

August will be a month of easing back from the pushing forward, instead spirit tells me that you have been given the signs, the go ahead and now it is time to start the planning/strategizing/moving forward/lining up of what you are going to be doing, where you are heading and the like.  Really pay attention to the signs/messages/knocks on the head you receive at the Lion's Gate. Remember this gateway brings courage and power to your year ahead and sets the tone for what you will reap in the harvest of your soul come the September Equinox.  It is time for you to use this month for manifestation--learn the new way of manifesting in the 5 D reality--this new paradigm is ready and waiting for you to step in and create.  What will you create?  Do you know how?  You can check out a class I am offering in the Physical on August 19th. If you are local, click here to find out more. I know it says 3 hours, but I am feeling it may last an extra bit of time.  Get excited--I am.   It is also time to garner the support both in the physical realm and with the unseens--lots of help is just there waiting for you to pluck up and use it for your benefit.  We often talk about the dark./negative, well, there is some massive light that is cutting through space to help you and all of humanity to ascend and create the new earth.

Okay, I will stop here as I feel I can write more and more ---you know my ramblings they keep going--once spirit starts sparking itself through me clearly--I can go on. :)   Oh one last note before I go....a few sneak peeks forward....September will be the time to adjust, put things into play that you had garnered over the August transformation energy. Globally, be prepared to navigate the energy of fear that will likely ripple out in August for those that are not on this conscious path to ascension.  It will rock their world too--but perhaps not in such a balanced and good way that we intend for ourselves.   Just know come September massive change will occur.

Namaste Beautiful Ones.
EstaRa