Final Day of 45 Day Journey

Happy Last Day of Class Everyone.

Imagine that this time tomorrow morning you woke up with everything you need and you didn’t have to do a thing other than go to sleep and wake up in the New Year?  Well, that is what you will have if you trust that everything you need is right there inside of you.  I know , I know some of you may be saying “I don’t have enough money to pay my bills.” Or  “I don’t have the love relationship I want.” Or  “I don’t have the health that I want.”  I hear you and I understand you loud and clear—believe me I have said those things and others too.  But what I know for certain is that the outside circumstances do not matter so much as what you are feeling inside of you.  Those of you following my journey must know that  it has been a constant struggle every day for me physically, mentally, emotionally, financially and even spiritually to maintain my beliefs because everything outside of me appeared as if it were against me; and believe me in many ways it was/is.  That being said, it was what I knew to be truth inside me that has kept me moving forward—surviving and not dive into a deep, dark depression when the reality is—it would be completely acceptable for me in a deep, dark space! The thing is that being in that energy for longer than a day or two is no longer in my DNA—not because someone removed it from me, but because I removed it from me several years ago when I began this journey of infusing myself with more light and more healing and definitely doing the work to fall in love with myself, connect with my inner little girl to find her needs and embracing change/my path rather than resisting it.   I changed my DNA and you can change yours too.  The one thing I learned over the last few years was another dimensional level of healing that has given me the opportunity to clear from my Ancestral, Geographical and Soul Lineages as well as my expanded soul groups.  It takes time to heal and remove pain, but it doesn’t have to! 

Take some time today to contemplate this past year, I know for many it has been difficult—and for myself included I started 2015 off in a hospital with my back in horrible pain, but even with that—I had a pretty amazing year.  I would say write in your journal for yourself, but some of you resist the writing of experiences, but I feel it may truly assist you to write down your experiences and really see what your year was like—a life review perhaps.  It will show you how far you have come even when things do not look as good as you would like them to.  This will help put you into a better energy before you decide to think about what you wish to create in the new year.   Every year, I write out a list of things (everything I wish to do) I would like to manifest, and that list is as long as the age I am.  This new year, I will be 44 I March so my list will have 44 things, some may be simple to attain while others may seem like a dream, but I believe they are all possible.  If you have watched my journey, you know that many things have happened to me that are unbelievable!!  (One day I will write more about that!)

I’d like to end today’s class with a few thoughts for you to ponder…

Are you willing to commit yourself to Love - the infinite presence of Spirit in your soul?

Getting in touch with the love within you is the most important step you can take on your spiritual journey. It will also be your most rewarding. Being in touch with the love within allows you to be accepting, understanding of yourself and others, vulnerable when you need to be. It allows you to look at your shadow and heal yourself while being supported by the love of Spirit and the soul within. It allows you to be truly who you are.     

Every guru of this earthly time that has the ability to channel and receive guidance about life on earth; has imprinted that this year is the time for the embodiment of our “Christed-Self”, that is the Christ Consciousness the energy of Love, Miracles and Blessing will be bestowed upon us because access to these things increases with your vibration. I echo that as well. I know I am ready to allow mine in, but I also know that it is not without work. But not work in the way we think of work; instead, it is about how we use what we have learned about living life in this time on our planet. It could mean going against what we used to know, leaving our comfort zone and entering unchartered territory.

Is this something you are ready to do? Are you willing to give up your attachment to how things have always been and see real miracles in your life and allow the blessings of abundance to fall upon you? If so, then this is the year for you to change your life to the one you really want to be living. Let go of the attachment to how things have been or how you think they should be.  Let things/experiences be just what they are supposed to be---just what they are in this moment. Stay in each moment as best as you can and don't cloud your mind with distractions and useless clutter, instead allow yourself to face things in your life as they may happen. We’ve allowed so much to clutter us and prevent us from going forward.  It is time to be present in our life, our community and the global world around us.  We are the light we have been waiting for…tt is time for us to speak our truth, lead by way of doing and join in the energy that is building the momentum of change in our country, our planet.  It is our time! 

Blessings of love and magic to you all and happy 2016!

 

Day 34 of 45 Days: Epiphany

Good Beautiful Saturday in CT.

Sun is shining after a few days of clouds and gloomy weather….I needed that when I woke up this morning—it has been a tough couple of weeks both physically, emotionally and mentally.  I’ve had very little sleep now in over a week and I am not used to this.  I am choosing to take it as a sign that I am getting better.  So onto today’s snippet.

Almost 25 years ago, I was doing some work on my spirit, but not completely in the way I do work on my spirit now. I was living at home with my parents and attended traditional therapy bi-weekly (haven't been to therapy in 22 years..now I have other tools). It was college break and I worked two part time jobs. My daily morning routine that summer (it took an hour and half to complete and I loved it!) was to wake up, ride my bike to a park in the town I lived in. I would pack with me a bottle of water, a piece of fruit, a book to read, a journal and pen. Sometimes I would take a yogurt too!  (Boy, thinking about it—some things never change—if you know me—I still take all that stuff with me, only exception is that I don’t take yogurt now!)  I'd park my bike and walk the park. After the walk, I'd make my way back to the bleachers to sit and relax. I would sit for a few minutes looking gathering in my "taste of sunshine". Then I would lie down on the bench and notice how good it felt to rise early in the morning on a summer day. After a few minutes of meditating, let’s face it that is really what it was, I’d sit up and say my prayers, eat my breakfast and decide to read or write in my journal. (As you can see I was always prepared.) It was so powerful for me-- I contemplated life...sometimes I did more writing than I did contemplating and other days I did more contemplating.  Often I would ponder bits of wisdom that would come to me; when I think back the wisdom I had as a 19 year old was far beyond my years—and quite honestly therapy wasn’t able to truly help me because I too was beyond what they could comprehend.  But I digress, I want to tell you about one particular day.  One morning I finally got it, I grasped very clearly a simple message that came to me.  It was so life changing and simple that most of us overlook this fact—believe me it was so profound that I would compare it to the message Yeshua gave me that summer day about “I am the Way”, the one I wrote you about early on in this class.  You will be amazed at how simple this is or you will be like “yes, I know”.  Well, either way stay out of your head with this one, step away from your ego that says yes I know, and open your heart  like that of the little child within you learning a new thing for the first time. The truth is—this is something we inherently know, but have forgotten and; even with the awareness, it gets forgotten at times as we get lost looking outside ourselves for the answers. You know what I mean, right?  Okay, okay onto it already:




No one can tell you they will love you forever because the only person in your forever is you. So you have to love yourself. -April Ann D’Amato

Do you we really comprehend it? Go ahead read it again.  Does it invoke in you the real meaning behind the words, not just the words?  Let your little child remember his/her first steps on the path of life when they discovered they can dress themselves, played dress up or got ready for the school play and looked in the mirror and felt true love for themselves for the first time; let me rephrase that, true “SELF-LOVE”.   It isn’t that you have to love yourself, but if you do, you will never really feel alone, you will always have love in your life, you will begin to make choices for your well-being not out of fear/patterning/loss.  There is so many doors that open when you love yourself.

To this day to read it...it pulls me back to the moment when I first discovered this all important truth. I remember I was walking on cloud nine when this came to me. So simple, so easy to comprehend or is it? So simple and real I should have known it, but I didn't feel it till that day. As much as I have felt it, reading that statement is just what I need to "remember" from time to time...I hope it sparks something in you too.   The point being you need to love yourself because you are truly the only one who will always be there for you.  Interesting thought isn’t it?  It is about ownership/responsibility/self-love and truth.   On that day, it occurred to me because my grandmother told me that she would be there for me at least until I graduated high school, but she actually died when I was 9 years old.  I was devastated and there started the fear of not being loved, the fear of abandonment and the patterns that needed to be corrected. It took me years to have this realization and I can honestly say I worked really consistently upon my self-love and there did come a time not too far off in the future after this epiphany that I had did I recognize I loved me, I value me and I am worthy and deserving of the life I desire.  It has empowered me to love me more, faith that what I feel inside of me is truth and courage to endure being single until the time is right for me.  (I say courage because my twinflame journey has taken a lot of faith and courage to keep on its path.  It would be so easy to give up and settle like most people do and not wait for real love, but that one phrase above propel me forward always.)  I hope this helps you too.

Pardon me for the wordy snippet this day, but spirit tells me to write what I feel and sometimes my feelings can be wordy....

Some thoughts for you to ponder:

What does that one sentence mean to you?  Does it change you?  Will it change how you view the “wanting/needing/expectation” of relationships and/or love from outside yourself? 

Where do you feel what I wrote in your body? Do you have a physcial, mental or emotional reaction?

Inspirational Snippet: Thoughts on Charleston Shootings

Good Morning Everyone and Happy Friday! 

I woke up this morning and jumped on my computer to look at emails and the first thing I saw was what recently  happened in Charleston, S.C. the other day where people were killed in a church. (I don't have television/radio--really no mainstream media of any sort--yep I live on the vibes that thrive inside of me and from lovely like-minded spirits that share with me.)    I used to think that when things like this happened (several times in the past and no one seemed to care) that we are a country that has supposedly come so far and yet, it doesn't appear that anything has changed and it would make me angry.  I'd feel so fired up inside and I'd want to change things, and then, I would find more walls and people who didn't really care because it didn't directly impact them and, it got me more angry:  Angry at the people who caused harm, angry at the situation and angry for no one stepping up to change it.  In the last several years, I have seen a ton of prejudice and bias every day of my life and I can choose to be angry/resentful/spiteful about it, and many times I did experience great anger, but it got me nowhere except fueled more anger and frustration. It doesn't change the situation/circumstance, instead, it really keeps the person holding those feelings stuck in a loop of drama/pain/suffering etc.  It just keeps us stuck--what we experience and feel affects us all.

I know I have a choice to look beyond the 3D reality and shift my perspective.  In this 3D reality that I live in day to day on Earth, in America, it is riddled with hateful things/anger/violence/abuse/suffering etc. That is why I have chosen to "unplug" from the mainstream a long time ago.  I learned in the last several years that  I must overcome all the things that keep people stuck and not evolving because if we all jump into the drama and suffering nothing will change.  Now, it doesn't mean we don't take a stand and speak our truth--no, instead,  it means we STAND TOGETHER AS ONE AND SPEAK OUR TRUTH. These people causing the pain/violence/harm are simply pawns in a greater picture to create separation within us.  WE are evolving as a planet and as humanity, but there are those that will not benefit from our evolution so they amplify/expand/magnify the separation/outrage through FEAR.   The first thing people think of is a "War on Poverty, War on Terrorism, War on Racisim--why war?  Well, war signifies manipulation/control and FEAR.  It is a violent way to "get things done"...

Well my beloved beings of light--WE ARE LIGHT! WE ARE LOVE!  We have been/are being re-educated through our soul's wisdom to step into our power, our oneness and our essence which is love.  It is our time to declare not War on Racisim--it is time to declare LOVE ON SEPARATION, RIDE ON THE PEACE TRAIN.  This quote from Martin Luther King, Jr. "Hate begets hate; violence begets violence; toughness begets a greater toughness. We must meet the forces of hate with the power of love.."  is exactly what I talking about!!

You may be thinking what can I do?  What is it that I, as one person, an individual can do to make a difference--it is really much easier than you think.  When something transpires that gets you angry/grief stricken-- Stop for a moment to understand your reaction, then ask yourself will this reaction take me to what I know as truth within my soul?  Then ask, will this reaction bring peace upon my planet, my country, my life and/or the people who have been harmed?  This should help you shift your perspective back into your heart and out of a fear reaction.  This should help you send love to the area/situation/circumstance.  How? Think of something/someone you love and hold that feeling in your heart and use that love you feel and send it out to that area/situation/circumstance, and you know what happens then?  Your own heart expands with a greater love coming back into you because LOVE BEGETS LOVE!

If your soul is still yearning to do more, and for many of you, it will...then find like-minded spirits that are willing to stand with you as you speak your truth and take a ride on the PEACE TRAIN.  I am sharing a favorite song of mine from the 1970's, this is a newer version with a great video...check it out below. These musicians of the 1960's/70's had the music and their frequency was turned onto peace and love, but unfortunately their message well--it appears as if it got lost in translation or the channel was changed--now is the time to listen to them!!



My wish for you is to STAND IN YOUR LOVE, SPEAK YOUR LOVE AND RIDE ON THE PEACE TRAIN.  For if you do this, you will see how rapidly humanity will grow/evolve/expand beyond the limits and controls that have been holding us back.  You will also see the truth of what is really out there in the stars!

In love with humanity,
EstaRa April

Energy Thoughts: Are You Ready to Embody?

Hello Beautiful Ones,

Havoc has been wreaked.  Life is being altered in this very moment of time.  Do you feel it? Have you argued or acted out in ways you haven't really done before? Has life seemed to get out of control the past weeks?   Do you feel like you are stuck in molasses at the same time a year's worth of stuff got jam-packed in a week?  And when I say stuff, I don't mean the easy kind--I mean the in your face, not going to let you go till you face it stuff.  Well, you are not alone and that is where we have been while Mercury was in Retrograde. My last Energy Update was when Mercury went into Retrograde.  I didn't have bad experiences per se, but the feeling of molasses under me; like I want to move forward, but not having the ability to move forward was definitely the theme of the days of Mercury Retrograde.


Now, the energy has shifted and the dust that has been kicked up will begin to settle if it hasn't already.  The last few days I have felt heaviness in the air, energy and major lack of motivation.  Do you know why?  I asked my higher self and guides this morning in meditation and they said that there are so many people in crisis, whether visibly outward crisis or an internal revamping crisis.  Does it really matter?  It is still an energy of crisis. This is a direct reflection of what has been transpiring over the last several weeks.  So what has been transpiring you ask? Well, the usual stuff with Mercury Retrogrades, communication break downs, electronic melt downs and the past coming up out of nowhere, but this Mercury Retrograde had a Saturn Retrograde that began in March and will continue until August of this year, can we say karma?  This time period is requiring due diligence in one's life, by way of thinking and being.  Have you experienced it?  Things/people/places showing up where you thought you moved past or didn't have to worry about anymore.

Add to what I just mentioned the following:  "This is the time when all timelines collide and you begin to see which one you would like to be on. Do you know what that means? It means that there are so many doors opening right now for all of you and you get to pick which one you will enter.  The doors represent opportunities past, future and present. Sounds exciting doesn't it? Well for some it does and for others  fear is breaking through--fear they will choose the wrong door, or even more, fear they will be required to make changes. What door/doors will you choose to step into? More of the same? And if you choose that, will it get you where your soul is guiding you? Or will your soul be knocking loudly on your choices prompting a deeper, more profound change?   Or will you take a giant leap forward? The life you have long held in your dreams awaits you--which step will you make?" --Arcturian Masters of Light

There is no need to fear this knowledge it is simply to help you see why you have felt hazy/dizzy/overwhelmed/unmotivated/anxious/fearful recently.  But  Mercury has moved direct and the energy has shifted as of yesterday morning when I woke up, did you feel it?   This move forward by Mercury lightens our load (but yep another planet goes retrograde today--Neptune--Piscean love-y, spiritual and fluidity comes in making it a little less clear to stay physical while Mercury moving forward it pulling you into 3D. A bit of a tug of war so to speak on our consciousness and focus.) We are in a place of new beginnings once again and next Tuesday, we will experience a new moon that will catapult us forward.    While in meditation this morning, I was sitting quietly in meditation when I received the message to not let others' struggles get me down--we are all here to experience something that we have put forth, but it is not advisable to jump into the proverbial "sinking boat" with them, rather it would benefit us to tug them along from the shore.  What does that mean?  It means we will do best to assist from a balanced place of detachment.

We needn't jump in Discern--Discern--Discern.   That is the theme during this time on the planet.  There is so much information out there and so much money to be made through the dissemination of

information on what is right, wrong or appropriate for you--but dear beautiful souls, only you know inside of you what resonates truly.  Listen to the stillness of your voice and your heart for then you can easily discern what is in your best interest. We ask you to step away from mass marketing and media for there is far too much that is not of the light, in essence, that influence is what keeps you from looking in, finding happiness and moving toward what/who it is you love. --Arcturian Masters of Light  emotionally/mentally/physically, but we can still help as long as we maintain our groundedness and our emotional/mental/physical well-being.  Sounds difficult ?  It is or it can be. It is just the opposite of what the prevailing energy has been on our planet.  We are all in on this together, but some of us have different lessons/journeys to travel through.  That accounts for the heaviness of energy that I was feeling for the last two days, of Mercury Retrograde, reflected much of what humanity is experiencing at this time.  We are so interconnected with one another (through collective consciousness)  that it is imperative that we discern what feelings are ours and what belongs to others.  The heaviness brought me to a place of not wanting to do anything--not wanting to leave my house, which is not a new phenomenon for me as this is how I experienced things pre-car accident.  (That means EstaRa is back!  Look out world I am here to accomplish several things:  Transform myself, Reunite with my twinflame, Anchor the high vibration of Love to Earth, Change the Frequency of the Planet...basically save the world and head back home. Is that too much to ask?  Well from the human physical perspective--yes, well, yes it has been, but with my renewed energy and my multi-dimensional abilities it shall be a piece of proverbial Cake.)    To navigate during this time of 3D earth changes, human changes, body changes and so on, it is imperative that we discern. 

As you can see my guides are emphasizing discernment and I totally agree with them.  Whatever resonates with you deep in your soul and bones--even if you do not know why then keep it and whatever doesn't and you don't know why, toss it aside. This is something I often repeat to my students and clients--any good teacher will.  It is helpful to remember, we are all working through the thick, heavy sludge that we call 3D, but don't forget there is far more than what the human eye can perceive that is why it is so important for you to look within.  If you have trouble doing that, then take the time to find a teacher who will share with you the beauty of your soul and help you navigate the longings of your heart. 

Another tool to help you maintain your calm and balance (read: sanity) during this time is to ground. I know I've said it thousands of times, but it is necessary to be anchored into Gaia to experience (read: endure) the physical earth changes taking place upon her. I know it sounds so passe for some to read "grounding, but that is the greatest tool to keep you safe and protected as you walk upon this planet.  She is not known as Mother Earth simply as a name--she is the energy of protection and nurturing--just as a mother's love should be.

Finally, stay hydrated with pure spring water or very purified clean water.  It will help you to move through the internal changes taking place in your body.

Over the next several weeks transformation is the key word in everyone's life whether they want you to know it or not.  There is a restlessness building and has been for awhile night--that restlessness will be quelled with the coming of the Solstice Alignment next weekend.  I'm hosting an event--join us as we align, anchor and balance the energy of the NEW HUMAN TEMPLATE within us and assist Mother Gaia with her transition forward. A reminder of the new human template: it is evolving into a love-centric, authentic, mind blowing miracle manifestor. Ask yourself today---are you ready to embody?

It is will love, honor and respect that I bring this message to you all.   I am here if you need support during this time or any other time, via in-person, phone of skype for individual sessions. Blessings to you.

Love and light,
EstaRa April




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