Quick Energy Update for August 2017

This month's energy has come tumbling in and rolling over everything in its way--anything that is not rooted in your soul's truth or in the highest light possible will be turned upside down, trampled over and up for deep release.

What the heck does this mean? It means let it happen. It means that you are advancing forward on this journey to a new you... It means for some this is what you have been waiting for and for others it means roll up your sleeves and get to work facing what is surfacing. 

Yesterday, I had a visit with the Goddess Sekhmet and this morning, I had a visit with Sanat Kumara both are nudging me forward on my path explaining it is time to hunker down and get to work on the things I wish or desire. They imbued the same wisdom for you as well. Get those shields of courage ready to brave through the thickness of this energy and by all means--allow, allow, allow.

As I once told my beloved twinflame in person and in the etheric--resistance is futile. At this time, resistance is not only futile, but it will be painful physically, mentally and emotionally. Embrace what is being shown to you--let go and allow the energy to shift within you...your entire existence has been created for this time on the planet.

We are ready to embark on an even bigger journey than we can imagine. There is magic to be had at this time...but first you must drop away the safeguards, the falsehoods, the stories you have been telling yourself and the stories that have been told to you about you. What is you wish to create? Use this month to garner the courage, gather the support and embrace the wisdom.
Namaste
EstaRa

Q&A: Is He/She My Twinflame & How Do You Know?

Hello Everyone,

This is probably the single most important questions for twinflames, particularly those that are waking up to the notion that they are/may be a twinflame.  I get asked this question at least 3times a week and today I am going to answer it to the best of my ability.

Question:

One client asked:   I have been told that "A" is my twinflame and also that he is a karmic soulmate  I guess it is all about the journey, so maybe that doesn't matter so much, but it does to me somehow though.   Do you ever receive clarification on that?  

One client wrote:  Please let me know if he is my twin or if I am just crazy.

One client wrote:  How can he be my twinflame? I mean I feel like he is, but it just doesn't make sense, may he is just a soulmate.

These are just a few samples of what I get asked in my readings, or just in email.  I feel you, I hear you and I totally understand.

Response: 

The clarification comes when we stop denying our inner truth for what we are hearing/seeing/experiencing outside of ourself.   Often times, we have been programmed from a very young age to not trust what we know to be true in our heart.  For example, when a child talks about their imaginary friend and the parent ignores it or even more the parent tells the child there is no such thing.  This dismissing of the child's experience or perception begins the pattern of learning not to trust their own instincts/intuition/inner guidance.   Breaking free from that pattern is one of the obstacles on the Twinflame Path that we must overcome.  Many times, everything outside our ourselves with regard to our twinflame plays on that belief pattern-our external physical experience often contradicts our internal spiritual truth/experience. 

The journey to twinflame union is also the journey to self discovery which involves awakening the power of self within.  Archangel Michael was my biggest cheerleader to look within and also my biggest supporter to remind me that what I knew to be truth inside was really the truth.   A great example came when I had an experience with my own twinflame.  Archangel Michael prepared me on my drive to see him.  AA Michael said, "trust what you know to be true inside of you.  Do not listen to his words, listen with your heart."    When I saw my twin that night, I was well prepped by Archangel Michael thankfully so.   My twin and I embraced immediately when we saw each other and I heard his heart speak to mine, I heard almost in a whisper (it was internal from his spirit), "I'm home."   I nearly cried when I heard it with my heart.  But as the night went on my twin's fear kicked in and he said to me, "I don't feel the way you do."   But trusting Archangel Michael as my teacher, I held onto the "I'm home" knowing that was in fact our truth, not the fear.

My guides have guided me to never tell anyone directly that they are or are not twinflames as that is their journey to self (trusting their own inner voice).  That will not be an answer I will ever give you. What I do know is that I have known since I was five years old is that I was here to find my other half and at seven I knew I would find him and marry him.   Throughout most of my life, I knew he was out there, I just hadn't met him, until I met him.  When I did I knew the first time I heard his voice I was in love.  But did I doubt/question/harrass my guides absolutely every chance that I got.  I literally asked for clear indisputable signs that he was my twinflame for six years; until I finally got my most amazing answers in Egypt and promised I would not doubt who he was again. I accepted he was my twinflame.

Then I had to work on accepting that he loved me even when he doesn't appear to care. I had to work on the doubt that  I felt, the doubt that he loved me because he didn't just run to me like I imagined he would when I was a little girl. (You know the old paradigm story of Prince Charming?--had to scratch that from my mental/emotional body. lol)  I have been "educated" quite a bit by the Archangels, Mary Magdalene and Jeshua to recognize his love for and his showing it or not showing it has/had nothing to do with me at all--it was about him and where he has/is at on his journey.  This was the hurdle I worked a lot to get over.  I now know and trust his love for me.

I am at the final stage I suppose where I get plagued occasionally with the doubt that this will ever happen. I have been on this journey for a long time, but even as I write this truth to you--I have a smile. I know inside that we will be together--the when --not so sure, but I know it is so. 

So I have to say this stage is much smoother and getting easier to work through than the previous two. :)

I hope this helps. 

Energy Thoughts: Tick Tock Tick Tock

Hello Everyone,

Back with Part 2 of yesterday's blog post called Energy Thoughts: Pull Back the Curtain.   Picking up where I left off, July's energy of introspection, what does that mean for us all?   We started the month off, still reeling from the energy of Freedom. Freedom to be love, be who we are and do what we wish.  My guides said this month would require a great deal of Integration from all that has taken place over the last several months. (You think? I asked.)  It feels like I could use a year to integrate all that has transpired. They informed me kindly that I do not have a year, but I had a whole month that would feel a lot longer as I was going through it, but in the end, the month will have moved faster than it would seem.  And well, here I am on July 27th and I can honestly say, where did the month go? 

July brought massive upheavals for many, particularly the Divine Masculine. (read: dramatic awakening)  The newly open-hearted Divine Masculine is really beginning to view the world from a different perspective, the heart-centered one which takes on a different meaning than a head centered one that they/we have become accustomed to.   As the Divine Feminine began to integrate much of what she has been challenged to embody, she also began to get some backlash, pummeling to the point of her questioning her own soul truth and her new forging reality.   As the Divine Masculine began to go further inward--pulling away, it reverberated outward to the Divine Feminine in her reality and amplified the energy of confusion.  She isn't confused--she is feeling the Divine Masculine waking up from a dream.

For example:  Imagine, you have been dreaming for sometime, but in the dream it is a life you are
living, let's call it 3D reality. In this dream, you believe that the 3D reality you are living is all there is to the point of you recalling the phrase: You made your bed, now you must lie in it.   (Ok, yes now, let's imagine.  no--I am talking real human earth world of 3D--not really a dream, but for the sake of this example, bear with me.) Then, you woke up and everything you have been doing doesn't make sense: the life you are living, the job you have been in, the place you are living, the people you are living with--it all doesn't make sense.

But wait, the old beliefs start playing in your head: This is all there is. I can't have more than this life. I don't deserve to better.  This is how my family has always done it.  Yes, they were unhappy, but that is all there is in life.   But again, wait, those beliefs contradict what I am beginning to see peering over the horizon.  How do I change what I am living? I put so much time/effort/money into creating/maintaining/suffering through it?  It can't possibly be changed at least that was what had been taught in the old paradigm belief system, right?  Again, beliefs start pouring in:  No one ever gets divorced in our family.   I marry for life.  I just have to suck it up and deal with a crappy job.  I have to do the right thing. I need this job to pay the bills--it is just a paycheck.  I will do (fill in the blank) when I retire.  (Is this sounding familiar? I am sure you can add more of your own belief systems into this too. I am sure some of you reading this have been working through this, reworking through this or just beginning to explore this.)

By the way we are in the new paradigm, but some of us are still running old programs prompting us to believe in the old paradigm still existing.  The reality of the paradigms living together simultaneously will be shifting shortly come September--be prepared by looking more closely at what is going on within you--sneak peek of what is ahead.  Oh yes the reality we/they (speaking mostly of the Divine Masculine at this time) are living in appears in real time to have changed, but the beliefs/values/programs all say 3D is all there is, right?--I have to hold on tight, right? (read: cling for dear life or picture hanging onto the cliff of life.)   This is what the Divine Masculine is experiencing in his world internally, but as of July---in his reality it is no longer just internally, but iappearing physically in his world. It started happening late January of this year with the Divine Masculine opening up to love; and it hasn't let up.  (Thanks to the Divine Feminine claiming her space and holding up sacred reality.)

Spirit is saying it won't let up.  Time is running out for choices and alignments so each soul is being led (read: dragged through the mud) to awakening/shifting/change.  We are in the crunch time once again, but this time it isn't temporary--this shift will be permanent. Remember, old timelines will be disappearing more and more and new possibilities will open that have not been seen before--this is why the clock appears to be ticking, particularly with regard to the Twinflame Energies, but really for all of humanity--as you can well see it playing out on stage in the American Political System.  Oh yes, that is all about the Divine Masculine waking up and Divine Feminine coming into balance, but it appears more like a competition as we watch, but don't be fooled--it is all about learning to navigate the time we are in and the possibilities that are presenting themselves to us.   We as a collective have to learn that we have entered the new paradigm,  we have left the old paradigm behind, but so many of us are still trying to work through things/manifest stuff through the old paradigm--it is time for some changes, don't ya think? Perhaps the more each of us steps into who we

are the more quickly everyone else can or the others can step aside. I digress.

 So while the Divine Masculine is incubation, the Divine Feminine is too.  He is reclaiming his power (read: beginning to recognize there is more to life than what he has been experiencing, learning he has more power than he ever thought, looking for answers; and for some, learning to navigate this new energy); while the Divine Feminine is nurturing her dreams (read: healing/integrating/learning how to manifest in the 5D and what the consequences and rewards are for doing so, and working to balance the fallout energy of the Divine Masculine into her reality.).  This is happening for all Twinflames and for all non-Twinflames.  Get ready people the ride is on and it is going to be a thrilling one.

This brings me to today. Integration, Integration and more integration.  Enjoy this integration period because soon it will be over and the real work begins.  I know, I know --lots of questions....What?  Real work? What the heck have we been doing, if not real work? When does it end--the working phase, I mean?  See I do understand your questions as I have asked them myself quite often. 

We are now approaching quickly the 8-8 Gateway--also known as the Lion's Gate which is a kick ass time of energy--also the Galatic/Cosmic New Year is arriving and boy do we have some magic in store for us.  We are on the path to divine alignment whether you are on the twinflame journey, your own soul's path or just a soul looking to catch a ride to ascension and the higher dimensions---we are set to be there soon.   As we end July and close out a lot the old (read: limitations/blocks), we are being thrown into the lesson of learning how to best use this energy.  When you close out limitations and blocks, what does one do?  One steps into their power and jumps at opportunities and explores the number of possibilities beginning to reveal themselves. 

As the month of August opens up we are going to be walloped by the energy opening doorways/pathways/possibilities that we have not yet opened up to. Are you ready to see how this energy rocks your world with adventures?  Well--hang on the ride is about to arrive.  (And just an aside--adventures come in all ways--physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, but don't we just love the physical ones the most? )  We start August out with the beginning of Eclipse season---Eclipse sandwiches are always most potent times of evolution to which we don't often see  or make sense of the likes that transpired  during that time, but dear ones I am being told by spirit--we can use this energy to really power us forward.   We also have the planet Mercury getting ready to retrograde in August, but I am told to hold on before you make any judgments or decisions--it isn't going to be like the other ones you have endured. (well that is not if you don't want it to be? hint: we have control of our reality--not others, but the reality we live in--choose wisely because this energy will help to catapult you forward.)

August will be a month of easing back from the pushing forward, instead spirit tells me that you have been given the signs, the go ahead and now it is time to start the planning/strategizing/moving forward/lining up of what you are going to be doing, where you are heading and the like.  Really pay attention to the signs/messages/knocks on the head you receive at the Lion's Gate. Remember this gateway brings courage and power to your year ahead and sets the tone for what you will reap in the harvest of your soul come the September Equinox.  It is time for you to use this month for manifestation--learn the new way of manifesting in the 5 D reality--this new paradigm is ready and waiting for you to step in and create.  What will you create?  Do you know how?  You can check out a class I am offering in the Physical on August 19th. If you are local, click here to find out more. I know it says 3 hours, but I am feeling it may last an extra bit of time.  Get excited--I am.   It is also time to garner the support both in the physical realm and with the unseens--lots of help is just there waiting for you to pluck up and use it for your benefit.  We often talk about the dark./negative, well, there is some massive light that is cutting through space to help you and all of humanity to ascend and create the new earth.

Okay, I will stop here as I feel I can write more and more ---you know my ramblings they keep going--once spirit starts sparking itself through me clearly--I can go on. :)   Oh one last note before I go....a few sneak peeks forward....September will be the time to adjust, put things into play that you had garnered over the August transformation energy. Globally, be prepared to navigate the energy of fear that will likely ripple out in August for those that are not on this conscious path to ascension.  It will rock their world too--but perhaps not in such a balanced and good way that we intend for ourselves.   Just know come September massive change will occur.

Namaste Beautiful Ones.
EstaRa

Energy Thoughts: Pull Back the Curtain

Happy July Everyone,

So here we are after the June Solstice has arrived, do we feel different?  No, you say.  Check in again, do you feel different. Yes, now that is better.  So much has been happening over the last several months, weeks and days.  This Energy Thoughts will bring to light what has been happening, what is happening and what will be happening.  Are you ready to go down the rabbit hole and turn back the clock a bit?

So earlier this year a new  Light Energy began lighting up our planet (read: pummeling) which paved the way for some massive transformation healing and clearing of our heavier growing light bodies. We had still been enveloped in a light body of the old paradigm (3D light body) while the a new paradigm of light body (5D light body) began to come down to blend and upgrade our light body.  Did we feel it? Heck yeah, we all felt it with massive aches, pains, exhaustion and any other number of ascension problems you wish to remember. Then as was promised, we began to fully embody the new 5d Light body.  This happened around the March Equinox.  Do you remember?  Things started to change a bit?  Clarity started surfacing and then as if the curtain fell down, the energy became a little heavier and little more intense (read: as if? hahaha).

While all of that was transpiring the Divine Masculine has begun really opening up their heart. (read: universe breaking it open wide.)  This is big news for all of us on the planet--you may be wondering what the heck is going on here. How can that be?  There is so much amiss on this planet--too much chaos taking place--but that is why things seem so far out of balance?  With the Divine Masculine living in the more 3D reality (read: clinging to what they know/knew) and the 5D becoming more real and tangible, it has knocked everyone out of balance--forcing the Divine Masculine to look inward. I mean really, it can't help but break open the hearts of the Divine Masculine.  This is good news for Twinflames (in the waiting) that have long been waiting for this to occur.  Of course on the surface, no one has seen this in play except perhaps glimpses of it. It is happening--don't you worry.

Let's bring us back to what else has transpired. We must look at where we have been to look at where we are going--well that is not always necessary, but during these times it is quite helpful to keep some level of sanity on our end. So in  June, I was given a very clear message from the Arcturians that June 11th was going to be the closing of a cycle--well more specifically, the beginning of a closing of the cycle. They informed me it would be 2-3 weeks for some depending on where they were in ascension and that would bring us to the Solstice.   That brought up lots of fear, pain, suffering etc that was ready to really be released even if you thought you did it already, or even if you thought you didn't have a problem with it--it was there for you--likely in your face--we needed to put closure to some of that old.  It was an intense period! ( I know, I know when has it not been? I hear you. I feel the same way, just when I think we are on solid ground--the boat gets rocked.  But we are better for it, right? )

The weekend before the Solstice in June, boy started pouring in feelings/emotions/dreams/intense longings for some or all of us.  What was that for? The release of the old and the letting go of the past and wait...what happened?   We literally closed out the cycle and said good bye to old timelines that we shall never revisit again.  Pheww---I felt this energy of freedom come over me and for some of you too--you may or may not have recognized it, but look back over that time crunch and see what was going on for you.  I am sure you can remember feeling a sense of freedom breeze through--I am sure it was a breeze for some and then it went back to intense for others.  I remember feeling high--living off the energy of freedom and excitement because I did feel like I dropped off my baggage for good--never to be reclaimed.  Thank you cycle for ending and leaving me feeling empty.

Then, I had a day like no other on the Solstice. I usually have a big event gathering with friends, clients and doing a ritual--I was guided not to do that. Instead, I spent the evening in a conversation with a good friend; she is also a twinflame on this crazy journey to union too.  We sat at the beach engaged in conversation, catching up as we hadn't seen each other in a while.   Prior to that the whole day was different...things happened that made me excited, glad to be alive and felt the anticipation of love. Things just seemed to click.
Sitting there on the beach engaged in conversation with my friend that evening, my phone rang. (I didn't think I had the sound on.)  I exclaimed, "did you hear that? did you hear the ringtone?"  She looked at me funny and said yes with a surprised look in her eye. (She probably thought I lost it or something.  I said, "OMG  The ringtone, the ringtone. I haven't had that ringtone since September (2016). It is not possible."  So that was shocking, I went back into conversation and exclaimed again, "OMG!"  I could not let it go.  I had had a recorded ringtone I made Love is the Answer for years now, but when upgraded my phone  in September 2016, the ringtone disappeared.  But there it was that night!!  I felt something in me stir--I back in divine alignment to union with my beloved--I heard I jumped timelines.  I was like what?  (my guides had been preparing me for the solstice since the equinox, but they didn't tell me I was going to jump timelines--just that the energy was going to be big. )  Then I looked up behind me were these clouds that you can't totally tell by the picture, but they looked like fire. I heard transmutation of the past has happened and you are now on the timeline to union.   I was in awe and I began to tell my friend what was happening. She was in awe, but said she thought I was right and I looked over and saw a rainbow.  Of course, I didn't take a picture of the rainbow in time, (I didn't think about it-I was too amazed by it.) but this is the best I could do with that moment.   It started to rain and I couldn't believe what was happening--it started to rain and we decided to sit in the car and watch.

As we continued to talk, the rain moved quickly by and the clouds started to clear up. I was so happy I had jumped timelines, this was big and it started to confirm the messages that I was getting about and upcoming move.  I asked spirit is this what you really want me to do?  And there it was a ball of light being presented to me in the sky.   That was all I needed and it confirmed that I had not only jumped timelines, but many will.  We have chosen our timeline based on the choices we have been making.  See my blogpost about timelines here.  The time between the Solstice and Equinox in September will be when the Timeline Shifting will occur.  Have you jumped timelines yet?  If so, I'd love to hear from you.

From that day forward, so many clear, indisputable signs have shown up in my reality, particularly with regard to a geographic change/shift for me. It has been difficult at best to keep/maintain unwavering faith in this at times especially when I hit the introspective energy of July and the reality taking place with the Divine Masculine, but I have my handy dandy guidance system on high alert--providing me with continually messages/challenges/signs to keep me awakened and remembering I am in the new timeline. What does that mean I am being constantly prompted not to go back to old patterns/thoughts/beliefs--(read: hit over the head with truth from spirit to stay the course).  A whole week of 7's reminding me just what I need to know--I am right on target for my future and so are you!


This shift in energy has fueled a great of healing/clearing/reaffirming our past in July.  I will end here and come back with another Energy Thoughts part 2 with regard to the Energy of Introspection/Integration for July.  I know I can ramble so I am breaking this up...expect the next part to come out soon....until then.

Namaste,
EstaRa

Q&A: Question about the Runner and Chaser Dynamic?

Q&A from Facebook:

Question:


I have a question about the Chaser and Runner because, I feel if we identify one as being the other, aren't we too the Runner if we're describing them? Because we too are the one Soul and energetically connected to them so by one being the runner or Chaser, we are in the same boat and by saying only they are running, isn't that thought alone repelling our energy in connecting/uniting with them? I feel of ones not ready, both aren't ready and both cleansing and dealing with the same yet different blocked energies or beliefs and so on and so forth.

I agree with you that sometimes, and more often than not, if one twin is not ready then it is likely that both may have healing to do. However, what I have discovered recently is that often the twin not consciously doing the work may have heavy influence on the twin doing the work. We are all merging at several dimensional levels and at different times. I have merged with my beloved in many different levels so much so that often I do not know where I end and he begins with regard to what comes my way. So while I have done tremendous clearing/healing work for myself and my twin, his energy of fear/worry/doubt etc infiltrates me still--so much so that I sometimes think it is mine,particularly if I am not feeling balanced often due to not feeling well or not being sure to take care of my daily needs of meditation, grounding, protection and healing.  In this case, I will not recognize it doesn't belong to me and I will automatically attribute it to something I can I identify with (perhaps an old belief, old memory) and I go down that path and it creates a new barrier and block between us.  

Let me share a recent experience with you as an example:  I know for a fact that my twinflame is going through a great of stress, pain, struggles both internally and externally, but that was not in the forefront of my mind nor was I remembering that little tidbit of information.  I started to feel really hungry--like nothing was satisfying me and I was craving all kinds of foods that I never crave.  I just kept wanting to eat (good thing I keep only healthy food in my house), and I hadn't paid attention and I gave in a little.  It was about a day and half after I started feeling that way, when it finally occurred to me--oh my goodness this is him; he is stuffing his emotions and staying in his head.  Once I identified it--I didn't have the cravings and wasn't "hungry" anymore. Why did it happen you ask? Well, I was out and about a lot over the weekend attending family parties, surrounded by so many different people that my energy barriers got a little weakened and I was tired. I didn't do my normal releasing/intensive clearing that I usually do so I let us get out of balance.  And yes, I know there are some of you that caught the "us getting out of balance", but you may be thinking he is out of balance, and it is not my responsibility, but the truth is it is my responsibility to a point.  What do I mean by this?  I mean I am the one who is more aware and have the tools available to me to protect and keep us balanced. If I maintain the balance within me, I am also assisting him to maintain balance too.    

Being more present, this doesn't happen as much and it makes it more identifiable when it is his energy and not mine. In that case, I recognize his needs and respond accordingly. Remember, energetically, we are always in contact with our beloved even when we are not in the physical realm.  We are also always reverberating our energy back and forth with theirs.  









I try not to identify anyone as the runner and chaser and yet that is the metaphor that people use to describe this reverberation back and forth.  I do think if we focus on their "running" and perhaps our "chasing" then that is the energy that grows.  I feel that rather than focusing on that we would be better off focusing on what we need to do to maintain our empowerment and balance despite the external circumstances because internally we only connection, and that we are connected as one.

I hope this makes sense and helps you out!

EstaRa

Q&A: What does Overpowering Activity in My Solar Plexus Mean?

I recently received a question from Facebook about Twinflames, and I felt answering it here would be helpful information for everyone, even those that are not on the twinflame journey. 

Question:
I had such intense and overwhelming sensations. Yesterday I felt almost over powered by the activity going on in my Solar Plexus. What does that mean if You're a Feminine Twin(if that matters) and feeling that?

Answer:

To respond to your solar plexus question--there is a tug of war going on internally for both Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine.  The energy is pushing each of us (each half of the couple) into their own self empowerment because that is what will bring us together--it may appear initially as if it is pulling us apart. I know for myself a long time I ago I was really afraid of moving forward and continuing my journey on because I was afraid I was leaving my twin behind, but the Archangels, my guide,s the Arcturian Masters of Light have helped me to know that the highest expression of myself is what gives my beloved the ability to see/feel/want to experience his highest expression for himself.  Much of this is not on a conscious level. It is a vibrational frequency.  When we hold our self back, we are amplifying that energy for our beloved too.  I hope this helps ...so when you are feeling activity in your solar plexus know that there is massive change going on in there.   This is the chakra of divine will so you can imagine the energy transformation/resistance/fear/healing that is taking place in there, especially for the twinflame who is still riding out the energy of 3D and not completely understanding their role, ascension, mission. For them, they have really dipped into and bought the idea that the old paradigm is real and some are even clinging to it even tighter than before.  While changes are happening all around them, these twins may be fearing loss of control in their lives, feeling unstable, facing unexpected changes which you can imagine creates a flow of unsteady energy in the lower physical chakras. 

This is a powerful chakra and perhaps, 
you will want to use one or all of these
affirmations when you feeling this energy.  

By the way, when I was struggling with whether I continue to ascend and "move away" from where my twinflame was at energetically, my guides and angels have often reminded me that as twinflames, you are never apart--it is only in physical appearance and a limited belief system that allows you to feel the separation.  They also often confirmed for me, and still do, that I should not worry that I will be beyond him because he will jump to where I am energetically.  I can honestly say that I have seen him transform a lot, particularly in the last two years--in ways that I would have thought impossible.  And it happened without me coaching/reminding/controlling him--it happened because my focus was on me and raising my frequency, and in essence, he did too (perhaps without conscious awareness). 

Q&A: Can Sending Love to Your Twinflame Repel Them?

I recently received a question from a youtube viewer about twinflames, and I felt this would bear helpful information for everyone. 

Part One of the Question:

Do You think by focusing on always sending them (our twinflames) Love everyday that that's a form of control of fear of losing that connection? Sometimes I think, even consciously doing those things are still in some ways repelling them from drawing near? 

To answer your question about sending love to our twins everyday, I truly feel it depends on what your intent is.   Is your intent to keep them connected to you because you haven't had a strong connection recently?  Is your intent to influence your twinflame in some way?  Is your intent to try to hold that connection because you are afraid of losing them? Is your intent to manifest the union? If you answered yes to any of those questions above then yes, there is a form of control and fear in there. This needs to be re-evaluated and perhaps step away from "sending love" until the intention becomes purely unconditional.  The repelling, in this instance, will come from the pressure of conditional love that your twin will feel subconsciously.  
 
Is your intent pure of heart to simply surround them in unconditional love because you feel love in your heart?   Is your intent knowing they are struggling and you wish to surround them with unconditional love?   If you answered yes to one of these questions, then your intentions are pure. 

I wish to ask you not to jump to quickly to answer those questions, these questions require some serious introspection into you and your motives, beliefs, emotions and understanding.  Albeit, we wish to be pure intention of love, but sometimes there is an underlying fear that may manipulate us into thinking we are doing one thing when underneath a different intent is there because of our own journey of healing; we may have unintended subconscious intentions without realizing it if we don't allow ourselves to step back and see where it is we are coming from. 

Remember in energy, intention is everything.  If it has a controlling component it will most certainly repel our beloved twinflame because they will not feel the love, they will feel the control, get scared and "run" for lack of a better way of saying it.  


 Part Two of the Question:

We all let  (I believe this person meant to say "met") our Twins when our High Selves/Self orchestrated the encounter but, also, we weren't consciously aware and were in the receptive mode because we had no expectations in that moment and that is when the Universe conspired for that encounter to take place in the physical.  

I completely agree with you, as my Guides (the Arcturian Masters of Light and the Archangels) always say, everything is in divine and perfect order.  When we met our twinflames, it was because our energies aligned perfectly at that moment in time; and for many of us we were not looking, simply just trusting our journey.   However, it doesn't mean that now that we are awakened (awakened to the twinflame journey and have more understanding of it), we do nothing. Instead, I believe it means we work really hard at raising our vibration, clearing our personal barriers that we have put up to receiving love, really work at removing distractions. We have many reasons to distract-society has created various ways in which to distract ourselves; and some appear for good cause too.  The utmost important work we are given on this journey is to uphold and maintain faith with regard to the truth within us.


A side note about my journey with my twinflame regarding sending love.   I spend a few hours in the the morning on me, healing, journaling, crying, writing, stretching, walking, meditating, being in nature. I also spend about an hour in the even on me too. With the work I do, that amount of time is necessary for me.  Within all the time I just mentioned, the most I give to my twin journey in a given day is about 15 minutes, and directly sending love to my twin--1-3 minutes.  I do go into my heart everyday several times a day.  It feels really good to just sit in my own heart and sometimes, more often than not, my twin is there and he is holding my hand while I am sitting on a bench with him.  My intention of going into my heart is not always to connect with my twinflame, it is to keep me in that connection of my heart.