11.4.19 Energy Update: The Love Train is Coming

Energy Update:

It is official,  Mercury has gone retrograde.  What does that mean in the coming weeks for us?  Lots of changes (read: challenges), opportunities for closure, endings of sorts and healing for all of us, particularly, those of us who pay close attention to what is coming up.  Often people/places/events from the past have a way of showing up during this time for closure.  Mercury Retrograde is all about reflection and making decisions about going forward, but this particular Retrograde I am being told is about relationships that have left over stuff that needs to be cleared up that has been taking up space in your energy field. Are you ready to release it/them?   It has to do with beliefs around relationships, feelings that have been unresolved, subconscious beliefs that we may be carrying.  One of the themes at this time is about love. Is love real?  What is unconditional love vs. conditional love?  This is a good one to ponder and share with a friend to help navigate what it is. Really allow the opportunity of  this  time to guide through retrograde. 

An example of what happens during this time:   I was just on the phone with a friend regarding this energy.  She shared a brief thought about someone calling her randomly today--they haven't spoken with her in 5 years and didn't leave a message. She made the assumption that it must have been a "butt dial", but I immediately got the message.  There is something that was left undone, something felt unfinished on her end and would benefit from not contacting the person, but revisiting the energy of the "ending" of their communication.  She asked me how and then started to give me some details, and I heard that she would benefit from reflecting on the time long ago when they knew each other well, and what perhaps the feelings/experiences were when the friendship ended because she may have unfinished energy/emotions/baggage attributed to this time, but wasn't consciously aware of it until now   I also had a dream of very dear friend, who is no longer in my life, as a matter of fact he disappeared from my life (so to speak) 10 years ago,  where I felt like we were in a parallel life and I woke up feeling we made peace and I finally released him.  Yes and no, I realized I needed to release him--no because I hadn't though of him anymore, and yes because when I did think of him I felt emotions around it.   I share these examples with you because it isn't always in the physical sense that you get these opportunities showing up.  

It is also a time to recoup, rebalance, revitalize and raise your vibration.  In the midst of a retrograde you ask? Yes!    It is imperative that we do just that! Part of that is to remember some core spiritual beliefs and work on accepting them if you don't already have the as a belief: you are a soul in a human body,  the earth has been masked in a 3 D Illusion, but you are multidimensional and can overcome the negativity and illusions of the 3D reality and you can choose to change your reality with a little help from your soul friends.  Join spiritual groups, but you don't even have to go that far--surround yourself with people who uplift you and share in your joys and encourage to do better.

Some specifics for the Twinflame Journey:  The divine feminine is coming into contact with truths she has been carrying from this lifetime with all the females in her line: how they carried themselves, how they behaved, what their views were in love and relationships with men. She has an opportunity to question them and recognize they are not her truths and leave them behind for her to construct her world differently, from a place of love not programming and fear.    The divine masculine is coming into contact with their behavior patterns of being a masculine on this planet and all the stereotypes that have been built up to protect their egos.  These things came into play simply to cover up their feeling not good enough, with all the expectations placed upon them.  They will begin to face their fear of not being good enough and it will transform them with that rationale and help them see truth where they have been running from.   For the twinflame relationship, rather than seeing these things that show up as barriers/blocks/ and yet another obstacle in your journey--start seeing them as the gift of union.  The universe is always providing opportunities for you to grow and learn and come into union.  What one twin does effects the other--so my beloved divine feminine beings of light you have the power of awakened memories and energies to support your mission to union and while it may seem burdensome to take on the task of daily holding your union in high regard despite the fear, negativity and disappointment you have endured, it is your gift that will navigate you forward.   (My input here is that...if we are dissatisfied with some aspect of our life and not only the TF journey/union then there is work to do still on our self.  You are probably thinking: WORK?!!!??? how much more can I do?  I am going to invite you to view this a little differently:  This is the fun stuff/work of recreating you from false assumptions and beliefs you have carried about yourself, or have taken on due to family, culture, etc.  Where do I need work, you ask?   Some people have financial issues, career issues either stuck in on or needing one, family issues, etc.  I invite you to look this as more of an opportunity to create divine alignment in your life rather than working to get together in union.

Now as if Mercury Retrograde is not enough of a time period of shifting and changing, we are also entering a time of the 11-11 Gateway. Yep, it is opening soon.  This gateway is and always has been magical for all beings on the planet, twinflames or not.  In 11-11-11, I was gifted with many experiences that showed me the truth of what love can do on this planet, in our lives and in our relationships.  My guides channeled to me it is the time of the LOVE TRAIN, will you be on it?  Or will you run from it?   This is a question posed to all of humanity during this time of year.  It is about oneness an celebration of unity.  Oneness does not mean we become robots or enslaved to being the same, but what it does define is the knowing that no matter what we look, who we are, where we come from, what culture/race/gender etc we are the same inside and we are meant to treat each other with love and kindness not separation and fear.  This is getting very long so I will stop here and plan to write a little more about this particular gateway soon. 

        

 

Energy Update: It is not time for "Business As Usual"

10.16.19 Energy Update.

Now that the full moon has come in fully and anchored a huge vibrational shift, you may be feeling many different things. A sense of urgency and feeling of movement--needing to move: your body, your location, your relationships, your truths, etc. This is the energy that is here to disrupt business as usual, so to speak, and assist you to make necessary changes in your life. (read: force you --at least that is how it will feel for some).

There is a magnetic pull to alignment that has been released out upon the planet. The alignment is essential to go forward on your path at this time. The more in alignment you are the more the pathways will open, the less in alignment you are the more difficult it will be. 

The divine masculine energy has been undergoing massive transformation from within over the last couple of years, and well, now the energy is making it impossible to keep those changes under wraps. Will you see them? Maybe and maybe not. Recognize your divine masculine has been very enmeshed in the 3D reality. The universe keeps providing opportunities to unplug them--are they becoming unplugged? Yes, they are. Are they ready to reveal themselves to you and all of humanity? For some, you will see massive transformations at this time in their realities, for others, they are like a pressure cooker waiting to explode. Explosion could mental, emotional, physical or spiritual--depending on their lessons on this journey.

The divine feminine energy is being called upon to pave the way forward. This has been an ongoing calling for unity and awakening. This is the energy the planet has been crying out for. Recognize that your divine feminine is feeling pulled in many directions now depending upon where she is on the journey. For some they will be laying new ground and finding new directions, for others they are feeling low levels of depression because they are yet to let go of what has been holding them back. It is time to find one another and come together for yourselves, but far more about coming together for the greater good. If you find a tribe, recognize if it is authentically your group, if it is not--move on. If it is it will uplift you in the new energy way--not the old energy. The old energy will maintain the "business as usual" not allowing for heart focused/intuitive energy to be front and center.

The focus over the last several years is to break away from a world where masculine energy prevails and feminine energy is rising. If you are still playing the "game" the way you always had--then it is time to come back into your heart dear ones and recognize the steps you must make to go forward. The heart is the way, it always has been--it just got a little convoluted by fear/money/power/greed/control etc that was/has been running rampant around our planet.

You are the greatest gift you can give yourself at this time. You may think making the world all about you is selfish (well that is the old language of fear of being powerful). Selfish is when you focus from your head on your material/external needs, but for most of humanity--focusing upon yourself is self love, self preservation, self care and ascension. If you frighten enough people to think they must be martyrs--then they lose sight of their beauty. We will leave this discussion for another day as EstaRa must end this channel now.

With love, honor and respect, we bring this message to you today. ~ The Arcturian Masters of Light Through EstaRa.

Energy Thoughts: I Want to Give Up

Hi Everyone,

IF you are experiencing doubt, fear of the future and wanting to give up, then this message is for you. 

If you are a twinflame on this journey at this time, there is plenty of doubt about the path, what direction to go in and what the next steps are.  I wanted to send out a little message of support for those of you doubting.   

It seems in the last several months, the energy of doubt has amped up for so many of us, that we are questioning our next steps, trying to comprehend what is transpiring in our worlds, most particularly, I feel the twinflames that are awakened to what the journey is, have been hit the hardest.   Please know that no matter where you are on this journey, you are not alone.  You may be wondering, why now?  I have been so strong and so clear about this, but now I just don't know.  I just want to throw in the towel, give it up and have a boring, easier life.   Sound familiar? 

Well, I have been spending time alone over the past weekend due to my back really acting up--I literally couldn't walk, let alone sit, stand or enjoy the American Holiday of Thanksgiving--I was alone.  I spent a great deal of time feeling a host of feelings that were uncomfortable at best, ranging from I hate my life to I just need to get better.  One of them in particular was "I feel like giving up, I don't want to do this anymore."   I was in so much pain that I actually had to take medicine which makes it near impossible to keep my vibration as high as I like,  so accessing words of wisdom from my guides was difficult at best. 

So this morning while laying in bed, contemplating getting up and navigating another day with horrible back and neck pain; (I did move from a walker to a cane--huge difference),  I felt into what is going on with me.  Why is my twin so unavailable to me when I need him the most?  Is he really ever gonna do what he needs to do?   Are we ever going to come to the place of full divine union and leave behind the crumbs of connection?

I am going to share some answers that I received, they brought me a bit of comfort, I hope they bring some help to you too.  I asked my guides what is going on and they answered:

"Dearest EstaRa, we do see the difficult time that you are embodying right now.  We ask you to continue to trust, have patience and faith as everything is being moved into divine and perfect order for you."   ~ Arcturian Masters of Light (You can imagine my thoughts--really???!!??) 

"The Divine Masculine is/has been awakening to the world around them more. Over the past year, the embodiment of their multi-dimensional reality cannot not in their world while maintaining that which they have been carrying.  It has come time for them to shed their old and start anew." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light

What does that mean I asked?  "It means as they are awakening more to the reality they are living in, the more discomfort they are feeling, the more the promptings of their soul begin to take precedent." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light  Read: The things they do/did to distract/hide/run from all that is uncomfortable are having little to no affect on them, and they are growing restless/frustrated/afraid of what it is they are feeling.  "The Divine Masculine has been experiencing the longings of their soul when they began to expand their heart energy over this past earth year that you are living in." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light They are feeling uncomfortable with their circumstances, especially if they are in relationships or jobs that have long been completed or that have been suppressing their power as a divine masculine on the planet.  The divine masculine is getting a huge wakeup call as to what it is they have been hiding from themselves; as my guides have implied: there is no room to hide.

"Beloved one, know that your beloved is dealing with so much that he has not allowed into his reality. He no longer has a choice to ignore and avoid; he is being forced to deal with his truths." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light

In addition, since the Eclipse sandwich in August of this past year, much of the suppressed issues from childhood are surfacing for everyone.   Those inner child patterns are coming up to be viewed, particularly the ones you have long forgotten, but have left strong imprints on your life through behaviors, fears; even blocks to living a life of love.  If you notice, there has been a shakeup in humanity with regard to sexual predators, sexual abuse and sexual harassment over the last several months. These revelations will continue to play out center stage for all of humanity to purge itself from the distorted energy around sex and sexuality as well as around the roles  each individual plays with regard to this.   "The inner child plays a prominent role in human behavior and attitudes.  Much of humanity's fears are as a result of distorted perceptions in childhood experiences." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light  These distortions to sexuality are core wounds for the inner child within each of us in humanity.  It is important to recognize  that as this inner child energy gets stirred up through experiences, actions and news media around you, that your inner child is trying to have a dialogue with you about what needs to be healed.  "The issues surfacing at this time are looking to be released from what may have been suppressed by you, what has been stored in your ancestral DNA, what has been experienced within your soul group and the roles in which you have played in humanity with regard to this over various lifetimes."  ~ Arcturian Masters of Light

"What may not be evident to humanity as the release of sexual distortion comes to the surface is that as a result of that behavior, several other distortions/beliefs/patterns/ behaviors are appearing now."  ~ Arcturian Masters of Light Read:  sense of guilt, shame, worthiness, self esteem to name a few.  Those are coming up for clearing and release.  "We ask you to not judge yourself or another, for each of you are moving through this purging.  The best use of your energy at this time is to flow with the energy of release and recognize those patterns of behavior within you to begin to move through it.  We ask you to become more of an observer to identify where you are blocked, and once recognized, we encourage you to use tools to move through it." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light Read:  Get real with yourself and see what you have not accomplished in life and recognize where you feel insignificant, stuck or blocked and start working through it.  This will assist you during this time more than you know and beyond that it will assist humanity in shifting. The more we shift, the more we shift humanity.

Finally,  I just want to come around full circle to my fellow twinflame brothers and sisters.  Take a moment and recognize what is happening for all of humanity and recognize how hard hit we are, and even more so, our beloveds because they are unprepared at this bombardment of energy surfacing in their reality.  Their inability to handle what is happening is ultimately reverberating into our reality by way of amplifying what we are feeling or showing us what we still need to work on.  What does that mean for us and how do get through ? Our experience is  intensified!  We need to start looking at us once again and begin the process with ourselves.

While I was working on clearing away some pain this past weekend, I found this video on EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) also known as Tapping.  I used it and it has helped put my life in a better perspective.  Does it make me want to jump right in and not give up?  No--but it certainly makes me want to give up a lot less.  I hope this helps you too, what do you have to lose? Just try it.

Feel Like Giving Up?

Namaste~ EstaRa

Energy Update: You are Leader in Walking the Path of Light

Good day Evening Everyone,

I have had the most incredibly difficult time in sleeping last evening. It is the second time this has happened since we have entered this month of August.  There is so much energy flying around that it is keeping us awake, alert and ready for what is to come. What is to come you ask?  It is more of what we have been seeing I am told.  The massive awakenings are continuing--the pull on the heart strings, the suffering we are witnessing, the doubt in humanity's compassion-- to name a few.  These are trying and scary times for so many.  This time on the planet has put many lightworkers on guard, and ready to pounce to our readiness-- to our rightful place to herald in the new paradigm showing the way.  We are being prompted now to take our roles as healers, teachers, peace promoters, guides, light bearers, leaders and sources of love. As as my guides have said on numerous occasions over the last several months, the dress rehearsal is over--now is the time to step into your mission/role in support of humanity's transition out of the old and into the new.

We have been doing our job in the background lighting up the pathways making the truth come to light. And yes, sometimes the truth appears darker than the light. It isn't that the truth is darker than the light, it is simply that we can finally see it.   Right now, I am going to share words that I wrote on January 3, 2016 below because they bear worth saying again:

 Something that hit me really hard recently about why there is so much anger/hatred in our world towards other people of different religion/gender/race/path/beliefs—I thought to myself how can anyone hate/torture/kill/degrade another human being. (I am being kind with my words today.)   Why is it that so many are so violent and so willing to follow along with violence? I often channel/teach/explain that all we want as humans is to feel safe and loved; thinking about that, I realize that the reason people behave in such way is that ultimately—they hate themselves.  I know hate is a strong, passion-filled word, but it is a strong, passion-filled response so many people have in their life whether is from anger/resentment/regret/trauma/pain/suffering/guilt/shame/fear etc.  Ultimately, it is what individuals feel toward themselves either out of feeling inadequate/unloved/unworthy in the eyes of their loved ones/society etc., feeling unsafe/insecure because of past trauma, feeling overwhelmed by what they have no control over and feeling fear of how to survive. 

 Since I work in energy, I can tell you that most of this is actually part of the person’s experiences on the planet in this lifetime, but it can also be part of their ancestral karma/DNA, geographical karma (their ethnicity/culture/country of origin), soul karma—these are the patternings/behaviors/experiences that they have come to learn about/overcome/change and create anew.   With that being said, I believe it is our job, the people who are awake and aware on the planet at this time,  to step up and change/transmute/clear/release those patterns for all of humanity. It cannot be done alone and it cannot be done if we don’t all choose to be the light that we are.  Yes, it is one thing to shine your light for all of humanity to see in your individual-ness, but it is time for us to come together and stand hand in hand and walk together for truth/love/harmony/peace/balance/freedom for all inhabitants of the planet. 

 I believe we must start locally; and,  I believe that there  is a revolution on the rise, but it need not be a fight/violence filled/chaos, as we have learned from our mistakes as humanity, have we not?  From a Spiritual Perspective we need more love, light and connection to one another.  From a Human Perspective we need more love, light and connection to one another.  Then how does that happen?  We stop letting the prevailing energy out there be one of anger/violence/separation; instead we accomplish this through peace, education, healing and by all means standing together raising one another up human to human.  

 What I wrote then is just as important now, if not, more than it was then.   We are at a time when humanity is seeing the rise of possibilities and we, the lightworkers, as leaders among us, are being given the opportunity to create in a new way of being, and we are asked to bring healing to the mass consciousness with all the tools we have been given. It is now that the rise of the Divine Feminine is imperative.  When I say rise of the Divine Feminine, it does not imply that women must take over and be in power--it is not a literal gender thing, nor is it to be one-sided.  That is to say, our focus (humanity's focus) must be on the qualities of the Divine Feminine--we must embody those aspects of us that have been trampled upon and downplayed over the last several thousand years.  It is time for the qualities of cooperation, forgiveness, intuition, compassion, understanding, communication and connection (read: union) to come into play.

What we are witnessing, is the unraveling of the dark template/qualities of the Divine Masculine playing out on our planet. That is to say we are seeing clearly the imbalanced energy of the Divine Masculine without his Divine Feminine.  What does it look like you ask?  It looks like the world we increasingly have been living in: competition, authoritarian control, violence, self-centered dominance, separation, suppression and thoughtless action.

Why do we need to know this?  Because this is where the lightbearers must take their stand and not face darkness with more darkness; we need to use light to combat/undo/release the darkness. We need to give the Divine Masculine permission to let go of what they have erroneously been upholding.  I want to clarify something for those of you who are not aware--when I talk about Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine, I am not referring to genders--I am referring to the energy that is expressed by the human individual on the planet at this time. It bears saying that each of us have both of those aspects within us, but one plays a more predominant role in our lives.  For more information on this topic, particularly with regard to Twinflames, please see my blog posts entitled:  Breakfast with Magdalena &Jeshua  and  Message on Relationships .

With accessing more of the Divine Feminine energy and the tools of creation, balance and harmony it is possible to assist the Divine Masculine out of the dark path that he has been treading down and bring in more light to assist him onto his path of ascension.  This is a necessary step for all of humanity to find peace and create the earth they have been wanting collectively.  We do not say that you are meant to dismiss what has been occurring on the planet in your world, instead, we ask that you observe it from a different perspective and feel into how you can best be of service to humanity now from a new way.  Divine Beloveds we are with you, and we ask you to behold the mission ahead, for in that, your union will emerge.~Galactic Federation of Light  

This has gotten to be a longer writing that I expected so I think quite possibly, I will be picking it up again very soon.  We have a lot going on at this time with regard to energy.  Be prepared, Be in love,  Believe you have the power to change.   If you are a twinflame stay tuned there is more to come for you from last evening's writings, check it out Here.

Namaste,
EstaRa

Q&A: Question about the Runner and Chaser Dynamic?

Q&A from Facebook:

Question:


I have a question about the Chaser and Runner because, I feel if we identify one as being the other, aren't we too the Runner if we're describing them? Because we too are the one Soul and energetically connected to them so by one being the runner or Chaser, we are in the same boat and by saying only they are running, isn't that thought alone repelling our energy in connecting/uniting with them? I feel of ones not ready, both aren't ready and both cleansing and dealing with the same yet different blocked energies or beliefs and so on and so forth.

I agree with you that sometimes, and more often than not, if one twin is not ready then it is likely that both may have healing to do. However, what I have discovered recently is that often the twin not consciously doing the work may have heavy influence on the twin doing the work. We are all merging at several dimensional levels and at different times. I have merged with my beloved in many different levels so much so that often I do not know where I end and he begins with regard to what comes my way. So while I have done tremendous clearing/healing work for myself and my twin, his energy of fear/worry/doubt etc infiltrates me still--so much so that I sometimes think it is mine,particularly if I am not feeling balanced often due to not feeling well or not being sure to take care of my daily needs of meditation, grounding, protection and healing.  In this case, I will not recognize it doesn't belong to me and I will automatically attribute it to something I can I identify with (perhaps an old belief, old memory) and I go down that path and it creates a new barrier and block between us.  

Let me share a recent experience with you as an example:  I know for a fact that my twinflame is going through a great of stress, pain, struggles both internally and externally, but that was not in the forefront of my mind nor was I remembering that little tidbit of information.  I started to feel really hungry--like nothing was satisfying me and I was craving all kinds of foods that I never crave.  I just kept wanting to eat (good thing I keep only healthy food in my house), and I hadn't paid attention and I gave in a little.  It was about a day and half after I started feeling that way, when it finally occurred to me--oh my goodness this is him; he is stuffing his emotions and staying in his head.  Once I identified it--I didn't have the cravings and wasn't "hungry" anymore. Why did it happen you ask? Well, I was out and about a lot over the weekend attending family parties, surrounded by so many different people that my energy barriers got a little weakened and I was tired. I didn't do my normal releasing/intensive clearing that I usually do so I let us get out of balance.  And yes, I know there are some of you that caught the "us getting out of balance", but you may be thinking he is out of balance, and it is not my responsibility, but the truth is it is my responsibility to a point.  What do I mean by this?  I mean I am the one who is more aware and have the tools available to me to protect and keep us balanced. If I maintain the balance within me, I am also assisting him to maintain balance too.    

Being more present, this doesn't happen as much and it makes it more identifiable when it is his energy and not mine. In that case, I recognize his needs and respond accordingly. Remember, energetically, we are always in contact with our beloved even when we are not in the physical realm.  We are also always reverberating our energy back and forth with theirs.  









I try not to identify anyone as the runner and chaser and yet that is the metaphor that people use to describe this reverberation back and forth.  I do think if we focus on their "running" and perhaps our "chasing" then that is the energy that grows.  I feel that rather than focusing on that we would be better off focusing on what we need to do to maintain our empowerment and balance despite the external circumstances because internally we only connection, and that we are connected as one.

I hope this makes sense and helps you out!

EstaRa

Q&A: What does Overpowering Activity in My Solar Plexus Mean?

I recently received a question from Facebook about Twinflames, and I felt answering it here would be helpful information for everyone, even those that are not on the twinflame journey. 

Question:
I had such intense and overwhelming sensations. Yesterday I felt almost over powered by the activity going on in my Solar Plexus. What does that mean if You're a Feminine Twin(if that matters) and feeling that?

Answer:

To respond to your solar plexus question--there is a tug of war going on internally for both Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine.  The energy is pushing each of us (each half of the couple) into their own self empowerment because that is what will bring us together--it may appear initially as if it is pulling us apart. I know for myself a long time I ago I was really afraid of moving forward and continuing my journey on because I was afraid I was leaving my twin behind, but the Archangels, my guide,s the Arcturian Masters of Light have helped me to know that the highest expression of myself is what gives my beloved the ability to see/feel/want to experience his highest expression for himself.  Much of this is not on a conscious level. It is a vibrational frequency.  When we hold our self back, we are amplifying that energy for our beloved too.  I hope this helps ...so when you are feeling activity in your solar plexus know that there is massive change going on in there.   This is the chakra of divine will so you can imagine the energy transformation/resistance/fear/healing that is taking place in there, especially for the twinflame who is still riding out the energy of 3D and not completely understanding their role, ascension, mission. For them, they have really dipped into and bought the idea that the old paradigm is real and some are even clinging to it even tighter than before.  While changes are happening all around them, these twins may be fearing loss of control in their lives, feeling unstable, facing unexpected changes which you can imagine creates a flow of unsteady energy in the lower physical chakras. 

This is a powerful chakra and perhaps, 
you will want to use one or all of these
affirmations when you feeling this energy.  

By the way, when I was struggling with whether I continue to ascend and "move away" from where my twinflame was at energetically, my guides and angels have often reminded me that as twinflames, you are never apart--it is only in physical appearance and a limited belief system that allows you to feel the separation.  They also often confirmed for me, and still do, that I should not worry that I will be beyond him because he will jump to where I am energetically.  I can honestly say that I have seen him transform a lot, particularly in the last two years--in ways that I would have thought impossible.  And it happened without me coaching/reminding/controlling him--it happened because my focus was on me and raising my frequency, and in essence, he did too (perhaps without conscious awareness). 

Q&A: Can Sending Love to Your Twinflame Repel Them?

I recently received a question from a youtube viewer about twinflames, and I felt this would bear helpful information for everyone. 

Part One of the Question:

Do You think by focusing on always sending them (our twinflames) Love everyday that that's a form of control of fear of losing that connection? Sometimes I think, even consciously doing those things are still in some ways repelling them from drawing near? 

To answer your question about sending love to our twins everyday, I truly feel it depends on what your intent is.   Is your intent to keep them connected to you because you haven't had a strong connection recently?  Is your intent to influence your twinflame in some way?  Is your intent to try to hold that connection because you are afraid of losing them? Is your intent to manifest the union? If you answered yes to any of those questions above then yes, there is a form of control and fear in there. This needs to be re-evaluated and perhaps step away from "sending love" until the intention becomes purely unconditional.  The repelling, in this instance, will come from the pressure of conditional love that your twin will feel subconsciously.  
 
Is your intent pure of heart to simply surround them in unconditional love because you feel love in your heart?   Is your intent knowing they are struggling and you wish to surround them with unconditional love?   If you answered yes to one of these questions, then your intentions are pure. 

I wish to ask you not to jump to quickly to answer those questions, these questions require some serious introspection into you and your motives, beliefs, emotions and understanding.  Albeit, we wish to be pure intention of love, but sometimes there is an underlying fear that may manipulate us into thinking we are doing one thing when underneath a different intent is there because of our own journey of healing; we may have unintended subconscious intentions without realizing it if we don't allow ourselves to step back and see where it is we are coming from. 

Remember in energy, intention is everything.  If it has a controlling component it will most certainly repel our beloved twinflame because they will not feel the love, they will feel the control, get scared and "run" for lack of a better way of saying it.  


 Part Two of the Question:

We all let  (I believe this person meant to say "met") our Twins when our High Selves/Self orchestrated the encounter but, also, we weren't consciously aware and were in the receptive mode because we had no expectations in that moment and that is when the Universe conspired for that encounter to take place in the physical.  

I completely agree with you, as my Guides (the Arcturian Masters of Light and the Archangels) always say, everything is in divine and perfect order.  When we met our twinflames, it was because our energies aligned perfectly at that moment in time; and for many of us we were not looking, simply just trusting our journey.   However, it doesn't mean that now that we are awakened (awakened to the twinflame journey and have more understanding of it), we do nothing. Instead, I believe it means we work really hard at raising our vibration, clearing our personal barriers that we have put up to receiving love, really work at removing distractions. We have many reasons to distract-society has created various ways in which to distract ourselves; and some appear for good cause too.  The utmost important work we are given on this journey is to uphold and maintain faith with regard to the truth within us.


A side note about my journey with my twinflame regarding sending love.   I spend a few hours in the the morning on me, healing, journaling, crying, writing, stretching, walking, meditating, being in nature. I also spend about an hour in the even on me too. With the work I do, that amount of time is necessary for me.  Within all the time I just mentioned, the most I give to my twin journey in a given day is about 15 minutes, and directly sending love to my twin--1-3 minutes.  I do go into my heart everyday several times a day.  It feels really good to just sit in my own heart and sometimes, more often than not, my twin is there and he is holding my hand while I am sitting on a bench with him.  My intention of going into my heart is not always to connect with my twinflame, it is to keep me in that connection of my heart.