Energy Thoughts: Let's Not Fight "It" Anymore

Let's not fight "it" anymore.  Got your attention now, didn't I ?  We all talk about fighting this ailment, this dis-ease, this cause, but when you fight, you get more fight, and perhaps more reason to fight too?  Since my car accident and the hell (so to speak) I have gone through to get  to a place that is somewhat manageable. (I have not shared my full experience with all of you, but let's suffice to say that at this moment--doctors/traditional medical care have failed me greatly, in many ways.  One day I will write my story to share with all, but right now I am in the recovering phase still--to write about it at the moment, would be a problem of reigniting or keeping me stuck in the emotional pain and turmoil that I have been through.  Right now, my plan is keep moving forward.) 

Back to the fight thought. I keep hearing people talk about "Fighting things", but what exactly are we fighting, especially with regard to our illness?  We are fighting our own body.  The body that has been created to be a self-sustaining, vehicle for what is to come What if, for the moment, perhaps we chose to embrace the disease/ailment/illness?  I mean our body is only shouting out to us telling us that something is wrong--that something is not working: physcially, mentally, emotionally and even spiritually.  When I think of how treatment and care is being handled in our healthcare systems, I think of it being an attack plan (and I too, have used those words), but let's not use those words anymore. Let's embrace the problem and delve deeper into the messages the problem/problems are trying to convey to us. Oh, you think it may only be a physical symptom?  Guess again, I've been listening to the body's wisdom for years: whether it be my own body which I have a perfectly wonderful relationship with (that nurture frequently) and the bodies of my clients that I have worked with over the last ten years. 

Being caught up in this 3D world that we live in, sometimes (if not always), we forget that we are made up of much more than this physical body that we are living in.  We have an energy field that carries our Physical, Mental, Emotional and Spiritual bodies that make up/carry/transform/alter our experiences in this physical body.  We have emotions we experience, (yes, those things we tend to discount, not feel or suppress) that make up our Emotional body.   We have thoughts/beliefs/patterns/egos (ours or others that tell us what to do/act/feel/be) that get trapped in our Mental body.  We have life lessons/goals, past life experiences and missions to accomplish (or not) while here in a physical body that is held in our Spiritual body.  We have a physical body that has been created to sustain itself for the length of our stay here as a member of humanity and those things that we do to heal/harm (consciously or not) our physical body gets stuck in the Physical body.   While all of this is factual to me, and anyone who truly lives in the new earth energy/world of energy, often we are not aware (or choose not to be or don't notice) of those other attributes until something physical happens to us. (And even then, the physical body is neglected by Western Medicine, which primarily focuses on the physical body, often relying solely on technology not even the physical symptoms.) 

My wish for you is to look at your body and all the other components that make you up.  Those beliefs
about your self/life/relationship/career that you carry about without even thinking of them most of the time often show up as messages for you through the dis-ease in your body.  Perhaps you cannot discern the messages alone, (and maybe can't or don't want to) you are not supposed to that is what people like me are here for.  We see past the physical appearance/body of someone and look into their soul.  We work with your energy to clear/remove/transmute and even realign your energy to flow from the highest place possible.  This work is not a one time shot, (not to say that you can't come in for a quick relaxation), but rather, it is a journey to self discovery for you.  My job is to partner with you (your body, mind and spirit) to develop the appropriate path of healing for you, while providing you with information that is often overlooked elsewhere.  When I work with people to do healing sessions, I ask permission of their higher self to read them (and that can encompass everything!), then I begin to clear and provide guidance and energetic healing to them! That is only the beginning of their healing because then the feedback/suggestions/guidance I get from their Angels/Guides/Higher Self is something for them to explore.  Sounds difficult or time consuming?  Well yes, it is and can be!  It isn't a quick fix like modern medicine where they will often prescribe a pharmaceutical and tell you that you have this particular disease and will be like this the rest of your life, instead, it is about addressing issues in all levels, physical, mental, emotional and spiritual.  There is no everyday one pill fits all --everyone's journey is unique just as everyone is unique.  

So again, I come back to let's not fight "it" anymore, let's embrace the message our body is sending to us because from there, only then can true healing begin. That is why I am here and others on the planet are here just like me to help assist you.  Listen to your body's wisdom because long before it appeared/pained you in
the physical body it was held in one of those other energetic bodies I talked about above. It you notice those energetic bodies have a lot more to deal with your everyday living, than something that just came out of nowhere.Try changing your perception from one of "fighting it" to one of "embracing it" and see what miracles can happen!

Embrace your body's wisdom with love and feel free to contact me to work with you. My mission has always been to help everyone that wants to heal and from the point at which they are ready to begin.   You will be amazed at what your body is telling you, and even more amazed by how it can begin the process of healing nearly everything! (if that is in your soul plan--and then again, why wouldn't it be?  I mean we are a divine perfect aspect of God, are we not? )

And so it is.
In love and light,
EstaRa

Finally, A New Year Message!

Happy New Year dear friends and family, angels and aliens alike.  It has been a great blessing for me to close the year of 2013.  I have gone through much on my journey this past year with the car accident, incompetent or just lazy doctors, fears of money and such.  While the journey continues to be a bit of a challenge, I know on some level I did sign up for it.  I don't know exactly how the future will go, but I do know that I am grateful to say that I put much behind me.  As I travel the ladder of ascension, it occurs to me that so many things have to change.  While we all want to be in the love and joy (most are not feeling it), the truth remains we can never just be in the love and joy without helping to change the things that no longer work for humanity.   We came here to shine, we came here at this time on the planet to move forward human consciousness.  It isn't by accident that you chose to incarnate at this hour on planet earth. It was a choice to come and free the earth's inhabitants from the limitations of living 3D.  We are in the age of the pioneer and you thought that term referred to the old American prairie. This energy is about to rock your world, if hasn't already been doing so. 2014 is the year that you can begin to change everything you no longer like. 

With the advent of 2013, I discovered how important it is to have boundaries with family, friends and clients. I also learned that spreading love to the world is my way of living (it has always been, but I discovered that no matter what that truly is my job) and then on February 14 (the well-known day of love), I was in a car accident; that literally caused me to stop, stay still and learn.  I've still not been back to myself in many ways in terms of my physical reality: haven't had much of a social life, haven't been able to be my fully active self and  in truth, I spend most of my time in my bed because lying down is the most comfortable position for my body. While I may not have been out in the world like I was pre-accident, I experienced ,much over the past year.  I learned many things as a result of my car accident of 2013 about myself and about people in my life.

To name a few things I experienced and learned in 2013 (or relearned), there is no particular order there.  They are simply thoughts that came to me as I started writing this.

I learned who my friends were and who were just there for the ride until my life stopped.  I learned that people don't like to face the truth they would rather look outside themselves for their joy.  I learned that always being independent I needed this experience to show me how to ask for help.  I learned that I need people. I learned that yes I am scared, but I learned there are things I cannot change and I'd much rather focus my energy on things I can.  I learned that connection to another is of utmost important in a world where separation is so prevalent. I learned that people prefer that I pretend I was fine rather than see the truth of a dysfunctional medical system.  I learned what I had already known, but didn't realize how much worse it had gotten.   I learned that doctors do not listen to you, medicine is what is destroying our bodies, insurance is really not a benefit as it has been promoted to be.  I learned that not having insurance is nearly the same as having state insurance. I learned that firing a doctor is freeing. I learned that no one will speak up for you in the way you can. I learned that I often know more than the doctors do simply because I listen to my body. I learned that there really is no help out there for you if you don't have friends and family.   I learned that if you are incapacitated in a way you can not speak or understand information that you must have someone you can trust to help you. I learned that money seems to be everyone's priority and yet I learned that throughout all of my trials and tribulations it still has not become my priority. Oh ya, I'm not living well--in fact I am struggling a great bit, but it is still not a priority. I learned that I have no money because my motivation has always been to help regardless if someone could afford it or not. I learned that a true healer is one that focuses more on the healing than the money.   I learned that the system we (as American government) have in place is no longer for the people and I question exactly how long has it not been for the people. I learned tolerance and compassion for people who were not like me.  I learned that I prefer to have people sharing my values and beliefs surrounding me. I learned that just because I learned something at a young age that it is okay to question it.  I learned that standing up for those you love is more important than watching injustice or abuse happen. I learned that you must question everything.  I learned that we must see ourselves as the ones who are here to change the world.  I learned that breathing in peace is a miracle. I learned that my head was no longer quiet like before the accident. I learned again how to quiet my mind and start over again. I learned that pure, unconditional love is possible. I learned that magic happens every moment that we breathe if we let it. I learned that facing your truth is so much easier when you realize you are always learning. I learned how powerful I truly am.  I learned that blessings come in a great many sizes and in a great many ways.  I learned that greatest problem facing humanity is fear.  I learned that fear is perpetuated by the world outside of us.  I learned that everything that causes a problem to the world is traceable back to fear.  I learned that no matter what we must take back our power, first on a personal level, then on a local level and then expand it globally. 

2014 is shaping up to be the year that we can do it.  The astrology is on our side.  Planetary alignments are such that you have began to shed your skin down to the bear bottom or continued to do so in 2013.  Now, in 2014, it is time to expand that out to your community, where are the injustices?  It is now time to stand together, unite with others of like mind and begin to make it happen. If you are interested in doing this and want to come together with like minds, I am going to ask you to contact me, no matter where you are.  Let me know what your focus is, what your voice wants to speak and what path you wish to take and I will connect you with others just like you!   I would like to gather together with others that are willing to stand up for themselves and those who have no voice.  I want to give empowerment to the paths that we must take. I want to give voice to the change we wish to be.  It is time that we learn that we are the ones we have been waiting for and that we are the ones that have the power to create the world we wish to see. 

PS Sorry for the late New Year Message, but things have been a little delayed and well...now it feels that time is pushing forward. There are many other things I've learned, but  most importantly to me is that I learned how to be neutral in a time when nothing in my life is particularly neutral or in the world for that matter.

Energy Thoughts: Transformation of DNA, Surrender & Reality

Hello Everyone,

So I have been wanting to write my Energy Thoughts since last week, but I have had some bad days and have not been able to so I apologize for the delay.  Meanwhile, the energy keeps moving on.  I have stopped and started this so many times that this evening I am just writing a whole new one—that is how fast the energy is moving.  So last email we had, was about being in the birthing canal getting ready to be birthed.  Well, dear ones  here we are ready to be birthed next month—birthed into the multidimensional reality –you’ve been having experiences all year leading you up to this point. I am sure with regard to mirrors (people/places/things being reflected back to you resembling parts of you that you have not accepted), obstacles being put up in front of you, around you and things being brought forward for you to deal with. Well, you all know that I had the car accident and I have been out of the loop a bit in terms of what humanity has to deal with on the 3-D level, but I can tell you that I have spent the last 6 months not only in pain and healing physical trauma, but healing pain and physical trauma in all realities.  I bring this to your attention because while we have not lived a purely multidimensional existence consciously (that is the key word) in the last 9 months that mulit-dimensional reality has been here! Oh yes, it is there and it has been happening to you.  It has been surfacing for me and for many others as more of a reality than 3D.  When you first think of multidimensionality, what do you think of?  I used to think oh wow I can travel the dimensions, but whoa!  NOW, it is more like oh wow—I AM traveling the dimensions simultaneously while I am trying to maintain a 3D semblance of life.  That is a mouth full really,  because we have been so accustomed to our focus and attention being on the 3-D that we fail to see the significance of these times.  Dear ones, you are traveling daily, hourly, momentarily and life experiences are mimicking different times and places and you may or may not even be aware of.  I find that when I am dealing with one thing I am dealing with one thing/issue/belief that spans across many of my lifetimes—past, present and future.  It is loaded when I think about it  So don’t think that life is not changing and you are not learning---dear ones you are learning/changing/choosing every day.  The reality is that you are learning faster than you think which is why more and more is coming at you from all directions of time and space.  The bad news is that it is overwhelming and could cause some people to linger in their pain and frustration, is there good news ? 

Oh yes there is good news! When you feel it/experience it/ move through it you are healing it in all dimensions of time and space for you, your ancestry and your DNA.  What does that mean ?  Your DNA is being healed/changed/transformed as well.  That means you are changing the very essence of who you are by way of your new multidimensional beliefs, but even more you are changing who your family is and will be in the future. It means that as you change your beliefs and move forward into the “new” energy you are literally changing your DNA structure.  You all hear me say everything is changeable-well dear ones, everything is changeable!  You literally change the DNA molecules in your being to reflect what you wish to create in this “new” energy.  That means you need to pay attention to what is working and what is not because if you continue on and give your power outside of yourself then you will perpetuates others beliefs/ideas/limits and impact your DNA by creating such.  What you put out is what you create?  Not only in your external world, but in your internal world as well—you literally can change what your DNA says about you! 

(I was told by many doctors10 years ago that I would always have chronic pain for the rest of my life. I was told I would have endometriosis for the rest of my life as well as acid reflux disease.  Let me tell you something I disagreed with the doctors and I said I am going to change that ---and I did!  I did so much so that when this car accident happened for me it was unbelievable to many that I didn’t have pain before the accident.  What I mean by that is that is? Based on my MRI’s my physical spine shows terrible degeneration from past traumas to my spine in this lifetime (another story about those traumas).  It  looked so bad so that doctors have said that my spine is that comparable to a 90 year old.  Really?  I didn’t feel 90 before the accident?  I felt 20 (am in my 40’s).  I DEFY THEIR REALITY!  When I had the accident—no one believed that I could have been pain free prior to the accident, but as you are well aware—I was pain free!  I traveled extensively, played golf, played wiffle ball, hiked, mined for crystals to name a few—oh and I even went as far as to shovel snow in the blizzard the week before my accident.  So, I defied reality to them—based on their “human tests” that is impossible, but let me tell you IT IS POSSIBLE AND I’m going to do it again—actually I am doing it again. More personal tales to share another time!)  

SO is everything really different?  No—your awareness is what is different/what has changed.  Awakening to your new consciousness awakens your healing power, your DNA changes,  your path and your direction.  Awakening means remembering who you are!  Awareness simply means using that remembrance to expand who you are!  Imagine if 10 years ago I didn’t awaken and I listened to the docs back then?  I wouldn’t be here now sharing stories and energies with you all—I know that for sure. If I choose to listen to them any longer, then I won’t be able to change, right?  I had one doc think I would be out of work for one year or longer and on pain medications for at least that long.  For the record, I am not taking any pain meds have stopped after the initial period that I needed them to get my physical body into a place that I could do only natural healing techniques, herbs and supplements. (There is a time and place for traditional medicine—a lot less time and a lot less place if you ask me.) Hmmm—imagine that?

SO, back in July I spent two weeks of real grieving!  I mean the docs told me stuff that made me scared and think twice (but the whole time in the back of my mind was the belief that everything is changeable---boy I thank heavens I am me!).  I grieved for two weeks literally cried every day.  Scary huh?  No not at all.  You won’t be scared when I tell you what happened.  After that two week period, I made the decision to take back my health—no longer leaving it in the hands of the other docs—it is my decision on how it will go forward, it was me who saved me last time and it will be me once again. Not saying I didn’t need the help because those first two months when I didn’t receive help I really needed it which truly is what prolonged my healing recovery.  I asked one doc to work with me and he said I can’t promise you anything and I can’t heal you.  I said—I don’t expect you to---ONLY I CAN HEAL ME.  However, I also know I will need assistance along the way and I asked if he would work with me in partnership, rather than not listening to me or hearing me.  That is the truth—ONLY I CAN HEAL ME by way of my beliefs/thoughts/opinions.   I stepped back from the feelings that I experienced those two weeks and looked more closely at it.  I grieved so much more than just my physical health. I grieved things in different times and spaces that directly impact/ed my today.  I feel so free for the first time in months—which could explain my sudden shift in healing—I am getting better—slowly, but it is happening.   Oh and by the way, my DNA has changed---anything I used in the past to heal my body through traditional medicine (meaning medications, injections for pain, etc); it no longer works, in fact, now that I used what was necessary to get over the initial trauma is acting like a toxic substance in my body and makes me sick.  So my DNA, will not accept traditional “drug therapy”—my DNA says only nature will heal me!  DNA Transformation is that real?  Those of you with high vibration what happens when you are in low vibrations?  The medical world in the US (all I can speak of since I have never experienced it out of the US) is all about money, business and only help when it is nearly too late—those things right there equate to low vibrations—what do you think that means for you???  Hmmm…a topic of interest perhaps for another time.

So, I tell you all this to remind you that what I channeled above is truth—you are changing everything in your internal/external reality.  Think you are not able to?  Try it…see what happens when you surrender to your emotions/feelings/pain and just allow yourself to feel and muddle through it until you are no longer in emotional pain.  Okay easier said than done, perhaps for some.  The key is to feel.  You have to feel to heal!! (I coined that phrase well before Vaseline Intensive Care did—just saying!)  You do not  have to know why you are in pain/sadness/frustration/anger/whatever emotion that may be coming up.  What you do need to do is feel it. Do not judge it.  Do not try to figure it out.  Just feel.  That is how you release it.  (Yes, sometimes you will understand why you are crying or you will attribute it to something else, but for most of the time that is all head stuff.)  I believed I was crying about one thing and I think my friends thought so too. The truth was I was grieving everything that happened (not just car accident/pain, other things I didn’t think about) in this timeline but in other timelines too.  The beauty of being an individual means you are an individual and you feel/experience differently than others—there is no right or wrong way—there simply is feeling.  Some people think they have “Felt enough”. (I would love to say that is me, but the truth is that I know as long as I am here in a human body I will continue to feel—that is my gift to me and this world. Others may not perceive it as such, but I do.)  

My advice at this time is to SURRENDER to everything that you are resisting and fighting which very well could mean the relationship you are in, the job you are in, the financial situation you are in, what you believe to be true—you can’t change/fix/transform if you are fighting/resisting, but you can if you surrender to your heart’s truth and act upon it with LOVE.  This is the time to do it ladies and gentleman.  This is the time your soul has been waiting for.  This is the time to see who you are really are and this is the time to be who you really are.  Are you up for the test/birth/emotion/challenge/opportunity?  It is all of those and more!

Just a quick FYI—I wrote/channeled this last  night and more to come…stay tuned to your email.

Be in love, Be at peace and Believe,
EstaRa (April)

The Best Healing Toothpaste Ever

Okay, so I have been pampering me A LOT and with products that were gifted to me and provided to me during my several months of recovery from a car accident.   So today, I want to share my experience with the best toothpaste ever! For years, my gums have bled no matter if I was flossing or brushing. The dentist just told me, "unfortunately your gums are sensitive".  Then he would suggest, buy a softer bristle toothbrush, but really?  They only have extra-soft and I had that type of brush already and my gums would still bleed.  Recently, I started using Young Living Oils.   Yes, they are a little bit expensive, but my goodness I have found that they are well worth it in so many ways!  (To have something non-toxic, 100% purity is fabulous!) I love these oils!!! They are amazing!! 

But today, I am going to talk about their toothpaste called Dentarome and/or Dentarome Plus, both of  which contains Thieves Oil.  It is really the best toothpaste ever.  (Recently, I ordered the Dentarome Plus which has a couple other oils to enhance flavor and more whitening ability.) I've been using it now for two months and just recently, it occurred to me that my gums do not bleed!  They don't bleed if I floss, they don't bleed when brushing and my teeth don't seem as sensitive.

Let me tell you a little about the ritual I do to keep my mouth germ free and clean. I floss my teeth at least twice a day. I  brush with Dentarome Toothpaste (soft bristle brush is used).  Then, I used the Thieves Oil Blend and put a drop on my gums of the lower teeth and a drop on my upper gums.

My discovery of how to keep my teeth clean begins with flossing my teeth twice a day.   I then brush with Thieve's Dentarome Toothpase. Then I use the the Theive's Oil Blend. I put a drop on my finger tip and rub it into my lower gums and another drop on my finger for the upper gums.  I let it sit in my mouth for about a minute then take a couple sips of water to swish it around and spit.  Yes, my mouth tastes fresh, clean, little tingly and numb.  But, it goes away quickly the numbness that is.


By the way this Oil Blend was created based on research about four thieves in France who covered themselves with cloves, rosemary, and other aromatics while robbing plague victims. The judge at the time set the "Thieves" free if they would give the recipe for this antiviral, antibacterial and anti-inflammatory oil. This proprietary essential oil blend was university tested for its cleansing abilities. It is highly effective in supporting the immune system and good health.  There are many uses for this oil, but  this is just one little miracle that I wanted to share with you about the Thieves Essential Oil Blend.   If you are interested, in buying the oil or the toothpaste, please feel free to contact me at april@soulstarhealing.com.  I would be happy to set you up to receive this amazing gum-healing magic.  Feel free to contact me about other uses for this amazing oil!

Recipe for a Healing Summer Salad

I have been playing with my food again.  Do you ever do that?  You know, those times you get bored with eating or you look at the food in your fridge and think what am I going to make?   Well, if you don't know what I mean...imagine it.  You open the refrigerator and you see salad greens, you see spinach and you see watermelon.  You think to yourself.  Not another greens salad.  That is what I mean.   In the last several years, I have upped my game in cooking and baking because I really don't like that bored, tired feeling with food.

So,  I've gotten really creative particularly in the last few years.  And, while I am not a Vegetarian/Vegan or any other "diet" follower, with the exception of being Gluten Free. I am an Intuitive Eater. What does that mean? It means I eat what my body craves.  The beauty of really knowing your body/energy is that you are able to listen to it and respond to it.   Which brings me to today's recipe that is just a really yummy/easy/ quick/healthy/healing summer salad..  Why is it all those adjectives?  Well to answer that question you will have to make the recipe.  But I will share why this recipe is a healing summer salad.

Spinach Watermelon Salad  Serves 2-4

4 c. Raw Spinach
2 c. Fresh Watermelon (cut in chunks)
3/4 c. Roasted Almonds (You can slice, chop or leave them whole.)
1/2 c. Goat Cheese Crumbled
1 tsp. Black Pepper
1 1/2 Tbsp. Olive Oil
1 Tbsp. Balsamic Vinegar

Since the car accident, I have had a lot of pain and an increase inflammation in my body. I look to my supplements, alternative techniques and my diet to help reduce inflammation.  I've been craving watermelon and spinach a lot lately not really knowing that they both have anti-inflammatory properties.  This recipe has all around good balance, good source of vitamins and minerals and a great taste. Inflammation is not only the cause of physical pain, but it is also the precursor for many diseases such as: cancer, diabetes and heart disease.  So in essence this salad is a great healer and a preventative measure.  Not to mention it hits the taste buds perfectly !   When I cook making sure all the sensations that I need to satisfy me are covered such as: sweet, crunchy, spicy, softy, flavorful, I find there is no need to overeat or want anything more.  Enjoy the Salad!

Step by Step We Heal

So as you all know, I had a car accident on Valentine's Day this year.  Really hard to forget not only because I still have some bad days with pain, but also it is the Day of Love and how ironic that on the day of Love, I am knocked down for the count.  I've had many revelations as to why this happened and my guides have told me that I will never know the full extent of reasons until possibly ten years from now.  I am not going to go into what I think the reasons are spiritually, mentally, emotionally or even physically at least not now at this moment, but what I would like to talk about is how the process of healing is coming about and what has happened.

I didn't have treatment for two months and the doctors didn't want to give me medications when that is what I truly needed especially at the beginning to get the Inflammation down.  Well, because treatment was delayed so has been my recovery. I have been blessed by amazing friends, students, clients who have helped me stay in my apartment and get by thus far. I no longer want to use medications and I am looking for many alternatives to what traditional medicine provides.

During this time at home, I have had the pleasure to experience some great healing opportunities through my spirit and through alternative therapies. In addition, I have had people share products with me that have been wonderful and healing or just plain what I want.  I would like to write a little more so my plan is to share with you what is helping/working for me.  I also want to share products I was given to help me during this time.  Maybe each of you will benefit from my experience too. 

As an aside  sometimes the journey is really difficult because you are meant to be something greater than you even know.  I would like to point out that while it has been difficult these last several months, I am also becoming more aware of what my future will look like, including the changes I am making.  Truly, creating your future is the first step to healing and making it happen is the next.  I believe everything is possible--I healed myself once before so I know I will do it again.    Step by step my journey is becoming more and more interesting.  There is much to be said about healing your life and I look forward to sharing more with you.

Words from EstaRa

Dear Family of Light (Friends, Clients, Students, etc.):

It has been a long time since I’ve posted a message on my blog.  My car was rear ended back in February, the 14th late day.   Unfortunately, I have not been working since the day of my car accident and the injuries I sustained created a re-occurrence of severe pain in my neck and back along with new additional injuries to the discs in my back and a concussion.    Fortunately, I had not been to a medical doctor in ten years, nor have I had insurance for just as long; I’ve been healthy.  It has been really difficult in getting help for me since the day of the accident—without insurance or having money to pay upfront most doctors would not see me or treat me.  Yes, it was the other person’s fault and no their insurance company refuses to pay until I am “done treating”. 

As most of you know my story, when I was 28 I was told I would have to endure chronic pain in my neck and back among other ailments for the rest of my life.  At that point, I chose to defy the doctors by leaving traditional medicine, leaving my work and learning energy healing and exploring alternative healing. My whole world changed: all chronic conditions were healed, and I remained pain free for several years.  The last several years I performed many activities that I would not be able to do if I was still in pain. I actually shoveled snow during our record blizzard the week before my car accident, first time in 20 years, and I had no pain.  That is testament to the healing that I have done on me in the past. 

 I didn’t get proper care until early April; so needless to say, I had still been in acute pain and trauma since February.  Thankfully my attorney has been able to get me in to see good doctors, who are willing to wait to be paid. It has been not only taxing physically on me, but emotionally, mentally and financially as well.

 Being in pain is not who I am or a new way of life for me,  it is simply a sign that I still need to take time to heal and do whatever it takes to make my body physically ready to live life fully once again.  I wish to extend my apologies to those of you, who may have reached out to me and have not gotten a response, but I have been away from my phone and computer; it is simply that I am doing what my body needs for repair.   In addition, my body is not used to taking medication; therefore, causing terrible side effects.   I do believe a full recovery will happen with great care and healing that is necessary over the long term. 

 

I am deeply grateful to those of you who have helped me with your generosity of time and money.   I thank you for the many miracles that spirit is shining down upon me through all of you.  While I know that there is recovery still ahead of me, I feel your love and support and it gives me hope that all will be well.  While this accident on the surface looks horrific and a tragedy for me—please believe me when I say, there are many beautiful gifts that are coming out of this accident for me, and they can only get better.  Many lessons have come out of this as well as new opportunities for me to help advocate for others that struggle to get proper care. Please bear with me as I begin to get back into the groove of things! (Keep watching my posts--I have some new insights/discoveries to share.) I thank you for taking the time to read my words.

 Love and Blessings. EstaRa (April) 

 PS:  There are current fundraising efforts to assist me during this time as all my money has been depleted and I do not have a direct return date back to work.   In the meantime, if you wish to help by donating, please read go to a page set up by one of my Angels: http://www.gofundme.com/36nqqs