Hi Everyone,
IF you are
experiencing doubt, fear of the future and wanting to give up, then this message
is for you.
If you are a twinflame
on this journey at this time, there is plenty of doubt about the path, what
direction to go in and what the next steps are.
I wanted to send out a little message of support for those of you
doubting.
It seems in the
last several months, the energy of doubt has amped up for so many of us, that
we are questioning our next steps, trying to comprehend what is transpiring in
our worlds, most particularly, I feel the twinflames that are awakened to what
the journey is, have been hit the hardest.
Please know that no matter where
you are on this journey, you are not alone.
You may be wondering, why now? I
have been so strong and so clear about this, but now I just don't know. I just want to throw in the towel, give it up
and have a boring, easier life. Sound
familiar?
Well, I have been
spending time alone over the past weekend due to my back really acting up--I
literally couldn't walk, let alone sit, stand or enjoy the American Holiday of
Thanksgiving--I was alone. I spent a
great deal of time feeling a host of feelings that were uncomfortable at best,
ranging from I hate my life to I just need to get better. One of them in particular was "I feel
like giving up, I don't want to do this anymore." I was in so much pain that I actually had to
take medicine which makes it near impossible to keep my vibration as high as I
like, so accessing words of wisdom from
my guides was difficult at best.
So this morning
while laying in bed, contemplating getting up and navigating another day with
horrible back and neck pain; (I did move from a walker to a cane--huge
difference), I felt into what is going
on with me. Why is my twin so
unavailable to me when I need him the most?
Is he really ever gonna do what he needs to do? Are we
ever going to come to the place of full divine union and leave behind the
crumbs of connection?
I am going to
share some answers that I received, they brought me a bit of comfort, I hope
they bring some help to you too. I asked
my guides what is going on and they answered:
"Dearest EstaRa, we do see the difficult
time that you are embodying right now. We
ask you to continue to trust, have patience and faith as everything is being
moved into divine and perfect order for you." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light (You can
imagine my thoughts--really???!!??)
"The Divine Masculine is/has been awakening
to the world around them more. Over the past year, the embodiment of their
multi-dimensional reality cannot not in their world while maintaining that
which they have been carrying. It has
come time for them to shed their old and start anew." ~ Arcturian
Masters of Light
What does that
mean I asked? "It means as they are awakening more to the reality they are
living in, the more discomfort they are feeling, the more the promptings of
their soul begin to take precedent." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light Read:
The things they do/did to distract/hide/run from all that is uncomfortable are having
little to no affect on them, and they are growing restless/frustrated/afraid of
what it is they are feeling. "The Divine Masculine has been
experiencing the longings of their soul when they began to expand their heart
energy over this past earth year that you are living in." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light They are
feeling uncomfortable with their circumstances, especially if they are in
relationships or jobs that have long been completed or that have been suppressing
their power as a divine masculine on the planet. The divine masculine is getting a huge wakeup
call as to what it is they have been hiding from themselves; as my guides have implied:
there is no room to hide.
"Beloved one, know that your beloved is
dealing with so much that he has not allowed into his reality. He no longer has
a choice to ignore and avoid; he is being forced to deal with his truths."
~ Arcturian
Masters of Light
In addition, since
the Eclipse sandwich in August of this past year, much of the suppressed issues
from childhood are surfacing for everyone.
Those inner child patterns are coming up to be viewed, particularly the
ones you have long forgotten, but have left strong imprints on your life
through behaviors, fears; even blocks to living a life of love. If you notice, there has been a shakeup in
humanity with regard to sexual predators, sexual abuse and sexual harassment
over the last several months. These revelations will continue to play out
center stage for all of humanity to purge itself from the distorted energy
around sex and sexuality as well as around the roles each individual plays with regard to
this. "The
inner child plays a prominent role in human behavior and attitudes. Much of humanity's fears are as a result of
distorted perceptions in childhood experiences." ~ Arcturian Masters of Light These distortions to sexuality are core
wounds for the inner child within each of us in humanity. It is important to recognize that as this inner child energy gets stirred
up through experiences, actions and news media around you, that your inner
child is trying to have a dialogue with you about what needs to be healed. "The
issues surfacing at this time are looking to be released from what may have
been suppressed by you, what has been stored in your ancestral DNA, what has
been experienced within your soul group and the roles in which you have played
in humanity with regard to this over various lifetimes." ~ Arcturian
Masters of Light
"What may not be evident to humanity as the
release of sexual distortion comes to the surface is that as a result of that
behavior, several other distortions/beliefs/patterns/ behaviors are appearing
now." ~ Arcturian
Masters of Light Read: sense of
guilt, shame, worthiness, self esteem to name a few. Those are coming up for clearing and
release. "We ask you to not judge yourself or another, for each of you are
moving through this purging. The best
use of your energy at this time is to flow with the energy of release and
recognize those patterns of behavior within you to begin to move through it. We ask you to become more of an observer to
identify where you are blocked, and once recognized, we encourage you to use
tools to move through it." ~ Arcturian
Masters of Light Read: Get real with
yourself and see what you have not accomplished in life and recognize where you
feel insignificant, stuck or blocked and start working through it. This will assist you during this time more
than you know and beyond that it will assist humanity in shifting. The more we
shift, the more we shift humanity.
Finally, I just want to come around full circle to my
fellow twinflame brothers and sisters.
Take a moment and recognize what is happening for all of humanity and
recognize how hard hit we are, and even more so, our beloveds because they are
unprepared at this bombardment of energy surfacing in their reality. Their inability to handle what is happening
is ultimately reverberating into our reality by way of amplifying what we are
feeling or showing us what we still need to work on. What does that mean for us and how do get
through ? Our experience is intensified! We need to start looking at us once again and
begin the process with ourselves.
While I was
working on clearing away some pain this past weekend, I found this video on EFT
(Emotional Freedom Technique) also known as Tapping. I used it and it has helped put my life in a
better perspective. Does it make me want
to jump right in and not give up?
No--but it certainly makes me want to give up a lot less. I hope this helps you too, what do you have
to lose? Just try it.
Namaste~ EstaRa
well as external shifts in your life. We are entering Mercury Retrograde Shadow period which will allow room for this integration to take place. I have been working through a great deal of inner child healing and I am going to be sharing that with all of you in the coming weeks. I will be hosting an Inner Child Healing Workshop for my clients--stay tuned for the details in December. Meanwhile, let your inner child speak to you. Allow he/she to play as well as teach you what you have been avoiding--there is great wisdom to be had at this time.
