Day 6 of 45 Day Journey

Good Day!

I have been extremely overwhelmed the last couple of days--experiencing extreme headaches and body pains...it is quite overwhelming really.  This is Day 6 of our Journey together.  May you each find balance in your life and change the way things are for the better.  I have to admit for me it has been a bit of a struggle as I have not felt well the last few days—body pain always seems to get me down and it takes extra effort to be present with myself, but as always I am a creation in progress.  Notice I used the word creation, rather than work in progress?  Work signals my brain and the universe that life must be work…I’d rather have life be a creation so I chose words that resonate more deeply in my soul. Besides with creation, there  is always change involved. :)

I am finding that it has been particularly hard to consciously change my thoughts when my body is undergoing pain. (I'm referring to the first day when I was able to walk myself through a belief.) For the record, since my car accident I have been in pain every day of my life; it is just that it has become my new normal.   But when I complain or state that I have been experiencing pain, such as I just did,  it is simply much more difficult or painful than my new normal.  I didn't write the last few days because I have spent so much time at physical therapy, doctor appointments and then I was just too tired to sit upright.  

What I have noticed is that simply because I am not consciously evaluating my life and experiences,

doesn't mean that I don't have revelations; as a matter of fact, I have been noticing that some of my friends are stuck in the same loop of negativity.  They don't see it as such because they are so enmeshed in it.  It didn't occur to me how much of a rut some of them are in, which in essence, keeps me in a similar rut; even if I am trying to change me and my thoughts--if I stay surrounded by people who are not trying to change themselves then I will remain stuck just the same, and it will recycle itself.  WOW!!  Big work ahead for me and perhaps big changes too!   I can't speak for those friends, but I can speak for me--I wish to be in a better place by year's end and next year's beginning so I will roll up my sleeves and start paying attention a little better.

By the way, today's exercise for this class is about grounding.  You cannot expect to change your reality, particularly if you are not grounding your reality to the earth.  Without grounding, your dreams are like a balloon in the sky floating around with the whims of the wind; where as with  grounding, your dreams are anchored right where you are--therefore, manifesting everything there.  

As a special this month, I am offering my Guided Grounding Meditation for $10.00. Next month, the price will be going up to $20.00. This meditation will calm you, balance you and help you to be more present in your life, expand your intuition and begin your journey into meditation. It will help you feel more grounded and centered when performed for a minimum of once per day.  Buy Now  

 In addition, you are invited to join in the journey, 45 Days to Releasing Negativity in your life.  There is still time to join until November 30th.  The email class which provides tools for removing negativity in your life, tools for changing your thoughts, tools to refocus yourself and tools for letting go began on Sunday, November 16th and will end on Wednesday, December 31st.   The small fee click here to buy includes a daily email directly to your inbox as noted above and all previous emails leading up to the day of your purchase.


Catch you on the other side of Negativity---that would be Positive-Life Changing-Dreams Manifested side!

Love EstaRa

Day 3 of 45 Days of Releasing Negativity

This morning I am going to share a snippet of information with you from Yeshua.  This was from a channel I recently did over the weekend.  Here it is:

Several years ago, I would often go to Our Lady of Lourdes Shrine, in Litchfield, CT for peace and sanctuary particularly when I lived in Bristol. I would often take someone with me to experience the peace and beauty,  but truly I preferred to go there alone I got more out of it for me.  So one day (gosh it has to be 10-12 years ago now), I was walking down the "Stations of the Cross" (for those of you who do not know what that is, to put it as simply as possible it is a path that resembles the story of Jesus from death to resurrection).  Near the end of the "Stations", Yeshua (Jesus prefers to be called his Hebrew name) greeted me and walked with me.  "I am the way."  He must have repeated it three times before I stopped to listen to him and understood, really understood for the first time ever!

He said:

"I am the way.  I am (not me the person), but the "I AM" is the way. This is the divinity of God within you and it is your power to create in this earthly realm. Whatever words, thoughts, feelings you place after the words "I AM" creates your reality in the physical world you live in."   ~Yeshua

This was by far one of the most profound experiences I have had with Yeshua.  It taught me so much, I remember crying and being really excited with this information, but I had no one to share it with.  Back then, I was still transitioning out of my old life and burgeoning on birthing my new life. The message above is just as significant today as it was back then.   Yeshua is here with me now with another message for humanity. And today, Yeshua stood beside me to fill in the gaps and to add more information for me, for us. 

"It will take you many years to fully comprehend and embody this truth for you will have to undergo deconstruction of a program that has been deeply embedded in your DNA and cellular memory, for when you have incarnated into human form on this planet, you have taken on the prevailing consciousness and your job is to rise above that consciousness to help humanity change the very consciousness that is holding them back.  I will assist you dear one, to reclaim your divinity and essence of light that you are, and have been taught to believe you are not.  You are not a sinner from birth, for you are the light and love of God, the creator of all. As humanity begins to awaken and question what they have been told to believe the more quickly the energy will move upon the planet and the more quickly consciousness will begin to resemble the light that you are.  Your powers of creation are more magnificent than you can imagine from your limited human perspective. Look into your heart and begin to see the transformation of your very being." –Yeshua

Something to truly ponder, what words do you put after your “I am”?   This is journal worthy—take a gander and make a list.  I know one of mine is “I am tired.”  I have to find a new way to convey I am tired perhaps coming up with something like “I feel energized”…Maybe I can reprogram a tired body to feel energized with that simple of words. 

It is hard to get into a new habit and say you are fine when quite frankly, you are not. I struggle with this everyday because since my car accident I have not had one day free of pain in my body.  However, my belief is to not "feed" the energy what you do not want so I don't always say what is happening in me, but then when I go to the doctors I struggle because I don't think I convey enough how bad my body feels.  This has been such a difficult journey because to deal with the medical world, you must over and over again present the same information --nothing like keeping you stuck and locked into a diagnosis.  I try to use words to describe what is going on with me avoiding the "I am".  Yesterday was a tough day for me---I feel like time is moving more quickly than I can keep up with and find their is little time for the things I want to do so I am going to make more of an effort to make time for me by accomplishing a few things that need to get out of the way.   This is short but brief.....will check in later or tomorrow.

Day 2 of 45 Days of Releasing Negativity

Good Morning World,

Last night I asked for dreams for clarity of messages that I have not gotten or have not understood. I kept dreaming something about soap making.  I will not bore you with the details, but I will tell you what I learned from the dreams last night is that I am always, ALWAYS willing to help everyone else achieve their goals and dreams--and yes I am a Spiritual Coach, Teacher and Intuitive Healer, but I tend to put everyone in front of me.  I tend to put others needs above my own especially when I am working with clients.  I don't hold tight to my boundaries.  Why is that?

For example:  When I am working with a client, I am totally focused on their needs and forgo the extra time I need between clients or my need to each lunch; that is by my choice. Over the years I've gotten better about taking care of myself, like scheduling the appropriate amount of time in between sessions; however, my clients fail to recognize how important my time is.  Often a client will overstay their time slot, (now since I am not nearly working as I did in the past due to my car accident--it isn't like I have another appointment waiting to come in and that cuts the client of.  Now it is more of an effort on my part to uphold my boundaries.), the reality is that my time is just as valuable as anyone else's and I should be charging for the additional questions/time, but sometimes I don't.  Their choosing to stay longer, talk more when it is clearly the end of the session interferes with my needs.  It frustrates me because often I need time to go rest, eat my lunch before going off to an appointment.  Once in awhile is one thing, but often clients can border on abusive taking advantage of because they do not know their own boundaries.  Is it their fault?  No, it is mine for not being more clear about what my needs are.  This is something I discovered this morning lying in my bed.  

I laid in bed trying to understand what the thoughts are, you know, the ones that carry such deep weight in me, but I am hardly aware of.  I really spent a good hour laying in bed and "analyzing me" to discover the root of this.  Once I got started, it got easier for me to figure out the root of why I don't put my needs ahead of others.  By the way, think of the Airplane Analogy:  "...make sure to put the oxygen mask on yourself first before attempting to help someone else put on theirs."  This is significant! 

Here was my discovery in a shortened version:  The first thought is that I need to help others.  The second thought is that others are more important to me.  The third thought was that is what my mother and father do. The fourth thought came to how it is more important to be a martyr that to want or need something. (That thought/belief was taught by the religion I grew up in).  The fifth thought, came by way of the second thought, I am not good enough.  The sixth thought, came by way of the fifth, if I am not good enough then I am definitely not worthy.  WOW!  Is all I can say....It never occurred to me that I didn't feel worthy enough to put my own needs ahead of me because I feel I am not good enough.  How do I unlearn that belief?  I have to check to see if it is valid.  What would make me not good enough?  Who determines what is good enough?  In this instance, I can go back to my childhood religion and upbringing.   The first sign of invalidity of this belief is that I don't believe in that religion any longer because I have come to accept that it is not along the lines of my soul's truth.  The second sign is that I am an adult now and can objectively look at my parents and see that this is a belief they held about themselves and it spanned over into my upbringing, thereby, I learned it to be my truth. The key is I learned it; therefore, it can be unlearned since it is not truth to my soul. Wow, what a processing session this morning with myself was!

Oy...I have to get moving--this writing is taking a bit longer than I expected. Stay tuned for tomorrow's update on my journey. 

Day 1 of 45 Days of Releasing Negativity

Hello World,

Yep, you guessed it!  This is my new journey to clearing out the old, releasing negativity and opening my world to manifesting my dreams. As with anything I begin, I started not only building up resistance to begin this journey over the last couple of days, but since I invited everyone to follow me and join in, I've got to stick with it!  Not to mention the great benefits I will be reaping at year's end.  Not only did I notice the resistance I began feeling, but I also started to experience an influx of crankiness that I am sure my friends will gladly tell you about from yesterday.  I wanted to pout, cry, scream from exhaustion and frustration. (of course, I have to be completely honest--much of what I am experiencing I am absolutely sure my twinflame is experiencing the same after our conversation last week.  As a matter of fact I really do believe it may be a majority of his stuff spilling over into my reality--which normally I would pout and complain about and do, but that was yesterday.  Today, I am excited to say if his stuff is so easy to spill over into my reality, (and dag nabbit, it is)then this next 45 days will be extremely interesting for him too as my challenge/changes will spill over into his reality too!

So you are reading and thinking, she is crazy. Well, I may be, but everyone has their own reasons/definitions for crazy.  The thing is that whenever I am preparing to do something that may (often does) transform me I get a ton of resistance building up inside me.  It is not a conscious thing that happens or that I choose, it is something I have learned to become aware of over the years.  For example, I would book a retreat weekend and be excited so excited that I would plan to leave really early so I can make a day of the journey to get there, but then the nearer it got I found I would procrastinate and leave just enough time to arrive on time, but definitely not early.  I would go to these retreats unassuming and experience all kinds of healing and transformation at the end of the weekend and realize, "wow that is what all that resistance is about."  I was never conscious of the "fear of change" or "fear of transformation and certainly it wasn't apparent while traipsing through it.  Actually it was more like a sideswipe for me from out of nowhere and then upon reflection afterward it was clear to me that there is/was an egoic part of me afraid to change and let go of the comfort.  Comfort can mean many things to people and in this instance to not change was comfortable.

Now, I tell you all this because perhaps you are experiencing something similar and perhaps you are are not aware. My awareness grew out of getting know me and well, it was years and years before I had a clue.
 
So I woke this morning cranky as heck!  I was frustrated at things and procrastinated in getting things done. It was a wonder that I didn't struggle getting dressed. But I was typing away this morning and then my computer locked up, I spilled something and then I was overwhelmed by the energy so that tells me that I am preparing to really release.  Not to mention that this morning's lesson I sent out made me realize I definitely had some homework to do to prepare. The phrase "You are Unlimited Potential" is earth shattering in a good way.  Today, it reminded me that I am unlimited potential--now is this something I have always known? Yes. Is it something that I needed to be reminded of: ABSOLUTELY. Even I forget and often I teach my clients and students these things, but I fail to remember to apply it to me. I hold myself up to an even higher standard, sound familiar ? I am sure some of you do too.

Anyway, I am off to complete my day as I have been writing on and off into this blog since this morning when I lost my connection because the computer froze. 

I did catch myself saying things like, "where the heck did I put that?" In a very demeaning way like saying "you're so stupid" without saying because that is what the intent was behind the first sentence.  Interesting little way I can beat me up without making it sound like it, huh?  Sneaky little buggers those self-criticizing thoughts are.  Blessings to you and wishing you well..stay tuned...will be back tomorrow for another blog on my journey of releasing negativity. 

Inspirational Snippet: You are Unlimited Potential!

Inspirational Snippet: You are Unlimited Potential!

I am getting ready to begin my first day of the 45 Days of Releasing Negativity Email Class. I wanted to share this with you so that you can get a sample of what this class will be like.  If you are interested there is still time to sign and join others wanting to transform their life.  You can sign up until November 30th, but why wait? Start now and begin to see change.  Here is the link to buy the class for $25.00 click here to buy  and be sure to put the address you wish me to use. 

Talking to yourself negatively is one of the most destructive things you can do to yourself.  It often goes unnoticed and yet it can cause a great deal of harm to you, your life and your dreams.  

WELCOME to 45 DAYS to Releasing Negativity

WHAT TO EXPECT FROM THIS EMAIL CLASS:
Over the next several weeks, I will be sending out a tip, tool, article, inspiration and more to help you pay attention and become aware of how negative self talk is a silent killer—to your dreams.
This email experience will present perhaps more questions than answers at times, allowing your own process of self-discovery to unfold in its own time. If you come across something that you feel it is silly or you “can’t” do it, I would recommend that you take on the attitude that there is something here for me to learn and if you can’t do it at that moment come back to it later in the day and try again.
Please do not judge yourself; when we practice not judging ourselves we allow our Soul’s Truth to shine and work through us and that is what we really want, right?

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS for this journey are similar to those I offer for every class I teach.
How do I Show Up for Myself?
In essence that means what you put into this experience is what you will get out of it—keep that in mind as we go long. I ask you to be fully present with this experience. By participating fully in this process you can connect with that part of yourself that longs for growth, wisdom and balance! You will have the opportunity to use honest introspection, self-expression and other tools to awaken you from the slumber of negativity surrounding your every day, whether it be due to experiences externally or experiences internally.  What you put into this class is what you get—keep that in mind as we go along.

What do I need to have?
You will need: access to the daily emails, a journal for doing introspective work, and a quiet place to meditate if so choose.  Oh and awareness!  Awareness is key!  Pay attention each day to your thoughts—you may like to keep a journal of all the thoughts you have in a day—the quiet ones that go on in your internal chatter or the ones you slip out in humor.  The acknowledgment of what you will say, see and experience will be profound.  Ooops—one last thing you need to have is Honesty.  Be honest with yourself about what it is going on inside of you—no one need see your journal, but you.

What am I expected to do?
You are expected to read the emails that are sent to you (and perhaps, read my blog at www.aprildamato.blogspot.com to see that my journey is a constant winding road of ups and downs, ins and outs, lefts and rights—you get the point, creating new habits and change is never easy, but it is even harder to let go of things that we didn’t realize were there or need to change. I will be tracking the next 45 days of my experience to clearing out negativity—boy, I said to everyone I know change is a brewing and get ready), experiment with the tools and just try to expand your awareness of your thoughts and experience, and again, what you put into this experience is what you get out of it.

What can you expect of me?
You can expect a daily email from me highlighting a tool, inspiration, thought, exercise or articles to assist you in releasing negativity in yourself and your everyday life.  You will receive a daily email in your inbox; however, the times may vary depending upon my schedule, my physical well-being and life circumstances so please bear with me as my intention is to post in the morning; however, it may not be the same time every day; and perhaps sometimes it may reach you in the afternoon or evening.  You can also expect a daily blog post at www.aprildamato.blogspot.com regarding my own journey of 45 days to Releasing Negativity.

LET’S GET STARTED

The first place to start is always within so that is why one of the primary focuses for this journey is how we think/talk/treat/speak of ourselves.  Negative self talk is one of those things that we often hold dear (perhaps unknowingly), as close to us as the things we love.  Sound scary?  It is—what you may discover over the next several weeks is that your thoughts/beliefs/feelings about yourself/your abilities are so comfortable as they are that they seem near impossible to believe that is what is holding you back.  You may discover (I’d like to say you will discover) that those very beliefs limit you in every aspect of your life. You are unlimited potential!  WHOAAAAAAA--- what does that mean to you?  Did you feel yourself quiver a bit when I wrote that?  Did you feel yourself react to those words?  Let me write that again:  YOU ARE UNLIMITED POTENTIAL!    What comes up for you?  Do you hear your thoughts in this moment?  For example (Ya, but… or I believe that, but… or  well, maybe if I didn’t…)  Perhaps journal what feelings/thoughts/reactions come up for you when you hear that phrase.  Really PAY ATTENTION!  That means attune to you in every level: PHYSICAL, MENTAL, EMOTIONAL, SPIRITUAL  For example: You may feel that somewhere in your body, perhaps your jaw tightens, your stomach drops, your chest feels heavy.  You may have heard yourself say, “No I’m not.” OR “That is ridiculous!” OR “Wow, really?”   You may have felt a sadness coming over you or an excitement.  Whatever you experience is your unique feeling and something that I feel would be worthwhile to capture in your journal.

With love, light and transformation,
EstaRa

Inspirational Snippet: Removing Negative Self Talk

Good Morning Everyone,

I was working with a client yesterday and we were talking about thoughts we have (or get stuck in) and patterns that we have created in our life . It stems from some false/outdated beliefs that no longer serve us; such as beliefs/expectations that we learned from our family/society/religion/education/government.  Some of which is beneficial for our continual growth and empowerment and much that is a block/hindrance to fully realizing who we are. 

I got to thinking, after my client left, how since my car accident, I've come up against the most difficult obstacles, particularly, with the healing of my physical body. It occurred to me that I need to revisit the removal of negative self talk from my life.  I noticed that because the healing of my body has been slow, I've been really hard on my self partly because I wish I felt better quicker, and partly because others expectations of my recovery.  When I first started my journey several years ago now, I remember, I was trying really hard to be a "good" Catholic, and for Lent that year, I had given up negative self talk because to give up a food item was not really hard for me. (As a child, I would give up ice cream, but it didn't really matter because I didn't really like ice cream. But as an adult to give up negative self talk--now that was a challenge to say the least.)  Oh my goodness, those 40 days were truly transforming, not to mention the opportunities that came my way.  I remember laughing and thinking, "Oh my God.  I was asked out on more dates in that time than I had in the year prior."  That was simply because I started to believe in me and I was surrounded by positive energy.   Of course after those 40 days were up, I fell off the wagon, so to speak.  So that following year, I gave up negative self talk for my New Year's Resolution and really began to see my life change.  From that point forward, I had always been focused on the positive, the ability for miracles to happen, but some of that changed with the car accident as I had been shut down and "grounded" for nearly 2 years.

Living your life is a work in progress, there is no real endgame, there simply is growth and change.  At different points in your life you will find yourself returning to your old tools to move forward or finding new ones.  And, it isn't as simple as saying a positive thought and carrying on; instead, it requires some vigilance on your part: to pay attention to what you are thinking, to break free from limitations you or others set for yourself, to work through the feelings behind the thoughts, to let go of negative relationships and to overcome obstacles that you have put in your way to learn/grow/expand.  It isn't time to beat yourself up or even to tell yourself to shut up when it comes to negative self talk, rather it is time for you to reclaim your power.  You are perfectly capable and in control of changing the way you think and perceive the world around you.  It just takes some practice. The point is that when you begin to pay attention to the thoughts you are thinking, then everything can change and you can begin to manifest the life you want.

With the advent of my discovery of needing to go back to clearing some of the negativity that has been in my way as a result of my car accident, I have decided to go back to "school" and heal those thoughts and release the negativity by way of beginning a 45 day journey to re-framing my mind and setting the real me free.

So my gift and offer to you is to join me on this journey of 45 days to release negativity in your life.  This will take us to year's end where we will close the year by way of letting go of the past and beginning a new year from a transformed, new personal power within us. I am offering two ways for you to enjoy this opportunity:  First, for free you can follow my personal journey of self discovery on my blog at: www.aprildamato.blogspot.com where I will begin daily posts with updates/experiences I'm having for the next 45 days, beginning Sunday, November 16th to Wednesday, December 31st.  OR you may choose to have messages delivered directly to your email which will include tools for removing negativity in your life, tools for changing your thoughts, tools to refocus yourself, tools for letting go as well as intuitive messages and shares for your journey. The email is more personalized to helping you overcome your obstacles and negative self talk and negative for a small fee of $25.00 click here to buy. The choice is yours and I hope you join in one of the two ways.

With blessings of love,
EstaRa

Energy Thoughts: 11-11-11 Gateway of LOVE

Happy Tuesday---Happy 11-11-11...We are in a gateway of oneness, wholeness, reunions and love.....

Did you know that today is an 11-11-11 day?  Not just 11-11?  11-11-2014 adds to "11" a Master Number Day.  Hence, 11-11-11.  My suggestion is to set aside some time this evening to connect with the numerous groups of people that are connecting into oneness and wholeness.

I know it has been nearly a month since I last sent out an Energy Thoughts, but again Mercury Retrograde wreaked mild havoc, but it wasn't as bad for me as in the past, but it lent to me not writing so hence it is a month later. I was sitting here eating breakfast and started to feel/remember today is 11-11-11 and boy, what a powerhouse energy it is!   It is take action time! There is no more weighing out thoughts/ideas, it is time to listen to your feelings because they are guiding you to or away from relationships/careers/locations/etc.  For some, the change comes right in time. For some, the change is going to wreak havoc. And for others, the change is what they have been patiently waiting for.  

This Gateway is all about coming back together: reclaiming parts of you that have been lost along the way, parts of you that have never fully been embodied, parts of you that were blocked by fear: it is reunion of your soul time!  Yes, and that means Twinflame Reunions too!

You can walk through the gate softly, slowly and comfortably without a struggle or you can get nudged, pushed and pulled through uncomfortably; the choice is yours.   How do I choose you ask?  The choice is not a conscious one in terms of saying "push me through" or “I'll ride the easy train”, no dear ones it is not that simple.  It is far easier, we think. It is by the choices you make day to day to live your truth, live in your truth, be your truth, speak your truth.  --Masters of the Light

Sounds difficult?  It may be for some of you who have bought into the belief that we are supposed to follow the guidelines/rules laid out before us through society/religion/education/tradition/family.  The interesting thing is that most people don’t even stop to question what it is they follow—they just do follow.  If you are one who has unplugged from traditional society already, it is easier.  If you have not unplugged or are partially unplugged, then you may have a little more work to do to clear the outdated/old belief systems that have been programmed into the very cells of your being. This is not to say that those who are unplugged have finished clearing by any means because unfortunately, there are many distractions.

We tell you to unplug from the world around you and plug into your Higher Self at this time.  Your Higher Self is your master tool of discernment along with the active creator self that is known as your I Am Presence.--Masters of the Light

Your higher self of the light is the all knowing part of you; the part of you that is connected to all things and assists you on your journey, as a compass would upon your path.  We are in the times where the integration of this aspect of your self is necessary in navigating the new earth energy.  Your higher self provides you with knowledge/intuition/guidance/presence that is so needed to clearly view/see the world around you.  My guides mention unplugging and what that means is to simply step out of the program “that is currently playing   The current program is one of fear, separation, violence and lack; it has been running on our planet for sometime which has created the chaos that surrounds us all now.  (On a side note, please do not take this to mean that I do not see or am not aware of the beautiful LOVE that is popping up on the planet because I am very well aware and clear and so excited to say that I am part of it.) All of humanity has been programmed/plugged into the current system from birth.  The institutions of government, education, religion, traditions and, even some family belief systems have been in place to instill and maintain the current program.  These systems have created a very large imbalance in humanity and created a consciousness of control and separation.  This is the global perspective. Now, for the more personal, localized perspective: it is what keeps you stuck in an uncomfortable/abusive/loveless/dutiful relationship for example.   

The 11-11 Gateway, particularly since 2011,  has opened up the current program to dismantling and unraveling.  If you will recall in 2011, my guides referred to the 11-11 Gateway as the Love Train—it was arriving then and has been traversing our globe since, opening up pathways for some, awakening others and breeding new light and awareness into everyone and everywhere.  It has been evident for some time (read: many, many years!)  that the current system was failing us, but since 2011, it has been brought into the light for all to see even those who are not “aware".  By the way, every being on this planet has been awakened  even if you feel they are "unawake"  they are, they are just awakened to a different vibration/level. 
 

As more and more people unplug/remove themselves from the current program, you will see/have noticed greater evidence of the clamping down control and the pumping out of fear/violence/trauma such as the current issues on the national/global level.  The current system in place has not worked and requires great change.   The changes must happen internally for each being too; for change and transformation must begin individually for it to impact the greater good/whole.  

The calling in/allowing in of your higher self is what will assist you in making better choices, getting clearer answers/messages about your life. (on a side note: you don't have to be psychic and talk to your guides to get clear answers and messages.  You simply need to be present in your life so that you can notice/see the signs that are provided to you.  It can be something as simple/dramatic as three different people mention the same thing to you.  By the way,  I offer session and classes on how to connect with your higher self and utilize that part of you in everything you do.)  

Your I am Presence is your God-self, your divinity and the aspect of you that is creator.  Working with this aspect of yourself, assists you in not only manifesting the life that you so desire, but assists humanity and Mother Earth in laying down the foundation of the new earth, that we as a collective have chosen to create. We are in times of dismantling/tearing down structures that no longer work in our lives, our communities, our countries and the world around us.  But if you are one that gets up goes to work, watches tv and goes to bed and just does it all over again without realizing that you can change/control your life then you are missing out on the greatest opportunity to utilize your I AM presence. I have often taught about how powerful the words "I am" are in our language through my Manifestation Classes.  Whatever you put after the words, "I am" ultimately creates your reality.  Now, if said enough you create pattern and energetic vibration of what it is you are saying and you draw "like" energy to you: hence the Law of Attraction.  The Law of Attraction is neither good or bad, it simply is.

Several years ago, when I began this part of my journey, I was walking through Our Lady of Lourdes Shrine in Litchfield, CT.  Now, many of you know that I was raised Catholic and that I tried really hard to be a good Catholic for many years, but it never really sat well with me.  Even when I was a child, I would question the Bible to my parents; I recall highlighting passages in my Bible with a yellow highlighter, the passages where Jesus spoke of light.  I would go to my parents and say why don't they talk about this in Church?  Why is it the same old stuff that is about death and sin?  Why can't we talk about being the light and not hiding it under something? They would get frustrated with me, but I think it wasn't so much that they didn't like my questions and perhaps, it wasn't even that they didn't agree; I think it is because of the programming of humanity--that is is just how it is done; don't question it.  Two of the verses I am referring to are: 

•   Matthew 5:15  Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.

• Luke 11:33"No one lights a lamp and puts it in a place where it will be hidden, or under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, so that those who come in may see the light. and  they often had the word light in them. 

Anyway I digress, back to the Shrine.  I would often go there for peace and sanctuary particularly when I lived in Bristol. I would often take someone with me to experience the peace and beauty,  but truly I preferred to go there alone I got more out of it for me.  So one day (gosh it has to be 10-12 years ago now), I was walking down the "Stations of the Cross" (for those of you who do not know what that is, to put it as simply as possible it is a path that resembles the story of Jesus from death to resurrection).  Near the end of the "Stations", Yeshua (Jesus prefers to be called his Hebrew name) greeted me and walked with me.  "I am the way."  He must have repeated it three times before I stopped to listen to him and understand, really understand for the first time ever! 

He said:

"I am the way.  I am (not me the person), but the "I AM" is the way. This is the divinity of God within you and it is your power to create in this earthly realm. Whatever words, thoughts, feelings you place after the words "I AM" creates your reality in the physical world you live in."   ~Yeshua

This was by far one of the most profound experiences I have had with Yeshua.  It taught me so much, I remember crying and being really excited with this information, but I had no one to share it with.  Back then, I was still transitioning out of my old life and burgeoning on birthing my new life. The message above is just as significant today as it was back then.   Yeshua is here with me now with another message for humanity. And today, Yeshua stood beside me to fill in the gaps and add more information for me, for us. 

"It will take you many years to fully comprehend and embody this truth for you will have to undergo deconstruction of a program that has been deeply embedded in your DNA and cellular memory, for when you have incarnated into human form on this planet, you have taken on the prevailing consciousness and your job is to rise above that consciousness to help humanity change the very consciousness that is holding them back.  I will assist you dear one, to reclaim your divinity and essence of light that you are, and have been taught to believe you are not.  You are not a sinner from birth, for you are the light and love of God, the creator of all. As humanity begins to awaken and question what they have been told to believe the more quickly the energy will move upon the planet and the more quickly consciousness will begin to resemble the light that you are.  Your powers of creation are more magnificent than you can imagine from your limited human perspective. Look into your heart and begin to see the transformation of your very being." --Yeshua

I just finished typing up Yeshua's message and I heard the words "Land of Illusion",  and it brought me back to the song by Genesis (from the 80's) Land of Confusion, do you all remember this?  Oh my wow. I looked it up on You Tube and the most recent version is from a Group called: Disturbed. Not sure what is more disturbing the group's name or the song.  Either way, here's the video, this has the lyrics in it and worth a watch.


One caveat to the song/lyrics, they say,  "not enough love to go around".  I agree and disagree.  I feel there is a belief in lack and not enough so that is truth, but I know that there is plenty of LOVE to go around--it is simply being withheld.  Each of us has our own programs of fear/lack/pain/hurt that holds up back. In addition, there have been numerous messages implanted into us through the world we live in to look externally for the answers, when in truth, if we look in, we will find that we are love and light that Yeshua speaks of.  Like the Masters of Light suggest, it is time to unplug from external sources (they are distractions--and can be as simple as never staying home to just relax, never turning off the noise or even mindchatter) and plug into your higher self (this is to say plugging into your heart and soul to carry out your truth which again is love and light). 

If we can unlearn bad behaviors (and in case you didn't know, you can!), then we can un-program bad beliefs too.  Back to this 11:11:11 Gateway, you are being given the opportunity to break free/step out of/change into who you are and take action to make your life/existence better. It is a time to remember and reunite all parts of yourself. And a special message  for Twinflames:

The time is now dear ones.  Things may not appear different, but they are. Your twinflamess may not appear different, but they are.  It is necessary now to step into your full power of acceptance and love for yourself and your twin.  Remember, that what you experience in your reality is being experienced in their reality and vice versa. So if you are undergoing great change and challenges, so too is your twin.  The more awakened twin may ride through a little easier while the other twin may experience more bumps in the road.  Trust that all will happen as according to your highest good. Your reunions are needed now to set the planet on the path of wholeness and oneness.  The balance of your souls represents the balance of humanity; the coming together represents the coming together of humanity and the fulfillment of your love represents the anchoring of the new earth for humanity.  It is expected that you will fulfill your mission to bring a new experience/view of love to the planet.  It is with great anticipation we say to you that the time is now.  It is with love, honor and respect that we bring this message to you. ~Masters of Light

In love and light,
EstaRa