Good Morning World,
I want so badly to hear my twin's voice. He called me last night four times. Called and hung up on me. I know it is him. The second call I was available to answer and I heard his breath. No he was not being a breather and doing those perverted calls, rather he was caught off guard as I answered the phone, I heard him breathe and then hang up.
Then he called two more times. I so wanted to say his name and "don't hang up, I'm here." But at the same time, I do know that if things had changed he would just speak to me and not hide his number and even if he did hide his number, he would just speak to me. Oh my God this is a such a sweet torture. I know he loves me and longs for me. He broke his routine of calling once every 7-10 days (well that routine only started in January), but it makes me think that his longing is getting just as great as mine. Pheww...thank goodness I am not alone in feeling it all.
Okay...off I go to work...
Friday, March 30, 2012
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Day 72: A Card that Brought Happiness to Me
So, I went for a hike this morning instead of writing and boy was the hike great for me. It was definitely quite the workout, but I must say as I walked I thought about what it would be like to hike with my beloved. Come to think of it, I don't even know if he likes hiking. He said he has done it, but the man is in his 50's I am sure he has done many things. I just don't know if he likes it. I wonder what it would have been like to go hiking with him this morning and finding a beautiful rock to sit up and hold one another as we talked about our journey so far. Oh boy...one of the things I can't wait to do with him.
Yesterday was a weird energy day. I felt in the afternoon that I would hear from him and mind you hearing from him can be as simple as a hang up call. I took a small nap before heading out to teach my class last night. I was guiding my students in a meditation and while doing so I allowed myself to drift off to a bit of meditation too. In my meditation, I started to really feel my twin. I feel him and started to think about how to talk with him again and what it would be like. I guided my students once again in a meditation. I did something I never do and this I was drawn to look at my phone. There he was...two missed calls from him. They came at the exact time I had thoughts of him in meditation. It was his concern not mine. As you all must be aware, I was secretly happy to have a phone call from him even if we did not humanly connect.
Then, the last thing did in my class was use my cards to show my students how they can use them in their journey. Usually when I pick cards, I don't have time to clear and remain focus because here I am the facilitator, but it was a smaller class and it alloted me the time to pick the cards. The question I asked was, do you have a message about me and my beloved? I picked the card "Triumphant". I am so excited I loved this card...it speaks of everything coming together after a long struggle at least that is what spoke to my soul.
I was guided to pick a second card as my message for the day and it was LOVE. How truly beautiful it was. I went out for tea with my students after which was a good thing because you all know I would be online looking for him as soon as I got home. But by the time, I arrived home he wasn't there. I miss you, my love. I miss you so much.
Anyway, I went to sleep knowing he misses me too!
Yesterday was a weird energy day. I felt in the afternoon that I would hear from him and mind you hearing from him can be as simple as a hang up call. I took a small nap before heading out to teach my class last night. I was guiding my students in a meditation and while doing so I allowed myself to drift off to a bit of meditation too. In my meditation, I started to really feel my twin. I feel him and started to think about how to talk with him again and what it would be like. I guided my students once again in a meditation. I did something I never do and this I was drawn to look at my phone. There he was...two missed calls from him. They came at the exact time I had thoughts of him in meditation. It was his concern not mine. As you all must be aware, I was secretly happy to have a phone call from him even if we did not humanly connect.
Then, the last thing did in my class was use my cards to show my students how they can use them in their journey. Usually when I pick cards, I don't have time to clear and remain focus because here I am the facilitator, but it was a smaller class and it alloted me the time to pick the cards. The question I asked was, do you have a message about me and my beloved? I picked the card "Triumphant". I am so excited I loved this card...it speaks of everything coming together after a long struggle at least that is what spoke to my soul.
I was guided to pick a second card as my message for the day and it was LOVE. How truly beautiful it was. I went out for tea with my students after which was a good thing because you all know I would be online looking for him as soon as I got home. But by the time, I arrived home he wasn't there. I miss you, my love. I miss you so much.
Anyway, I went to sleep knowing he misses me too!
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Channeled Message: Winds of Change
Channeled Message from The Masters of Light through EstaRa in Guilford, CT on Wednesday, March 28, 2012.
This is just a brief message about the energy this week:
On Monday morning, I woke up and asked my guides, "was that the wind?"
They said, "Yes, it is the Winds of Change that you are hearing outside. It is the force with which people (humans) are being moved to make the necessary changes in their life that need to happen. It is the sound of energy sweeping over the planet. It is the visible sign of human potential."
Then I smiled knowing that while it may not seem good on the surface for many, I know deep within me that what is happening upon our planet at this time is the necessary force to shift human consciousness. Then, they said, "It has begun."
I was surprised because they do not normally speak that way, but it was poignant and fitting. I went about my day feeling on the cusp of emotions all day on Monday. I asked my guides where this is coming from because I have been in a truly amazing place of balance. They told me, "You are experiencing the energy of the collective of human consciousness. You are feeling what others may or may not be expressing about their life."
A little clarity on "It has begun" please is what I next asked my guides.
"The changes, dear one, are happening. There isn't time left to be lingering on decisions the time has come that those decisions must be made. Everyone is being moved into place." (This I know they were referring to the whole of humanity—not particular to my life.)
I said I know it is not easy for some, but I am excited about it. It makes all that I have seen as possible.
They then told me, "Dear one, the twinflame reunions have begun as well. Soon you shall see and understand that which we speak of."
Last night, they gave me a visual of gears and how they are clicking into place. The gears weren't moving until each piece of the puzzle moved into place. Wow...I love it.
The gears represent humanity and as each piece of the puzzle is moved into place, then the shift can move and as more and more people move into place then the gears begin to move faster. Between the movement of energy and humanity, the shift of human consciousness will happen in no time and no space.
This is just a brief message about the energy this week:
On Monday morning, I woke up and asked my guides, "was that the wind?"
They said, "Yes, it is the Winds of Change that you are hearing outside. It is the force with which people (humans) are being moved to make the necessary changes in their life that need to happen. It is the sound of energy sweeping over the planet. It is the visible sign of human potential."
Then I smiled knowing that while it may not seem good on the surface for many, I know deep within me that what is happening upon our planet at this time is the necessary force to shift human consciousness. Then, they said, "It has begun."
I was surprised because they do not normally speak that way, but it was poignant and fitting. I went about my day feeling on the cusp of emotions all day on Monday. I asked my guides where this is coming from because I have been in a truly amazing place of balance. They told me, "You are experiencing the energy of the collective of human consciousness. You are feeling what others may or may not be expressing about their life."
A little clarity on "It has begun" please is what I next asked my guides.
"The changes, dear one, are happening. There isn't time left to be lingering on decisions the time has come that those decisions must be made. Everyone is being moved into place." (This I know they were referring to the whole of humanity—not particular to my life.)
I said I know it is not easy for some, but I am excited about it. It makes all that I have seen as possible.
They then told me, "Dear one, the twinflame reunions have begun as well. Soon you shall see and understand that which we speak of."
Last night, they gave me a visual of gears and how they are clicking into place. The gears weren't moving until each piece of the puzzle moved into place. Wow...I love it.
The gears represent humanity and as each piece of the puzzle is moved into place, then the shift can move and as more and more people move into place then the gears begin to move faster. Between the movement of energy and humanity, the shift of human consciousness will happen in no time and no space.
Day 71: My Guides Call it the Winds of Change
I woke up this morning not feeling well. I didn't sleep well last night. It has been over a week since my last TF post. I apologize for the delay, but then again I was enjoying my last week and so busy interacting with amazing souls who participated in my Spring Equinox Event that I didn't even contemplate writing.
Just because I stepped out of the writing doesn't mean things were not happening. I am going to share Monday with you. On Monday morning, I woke up and asked my guides, "was that the wind?" They said, "Yes, it is the Winds of Change that you are hearing outside. It is the force with which people (humans) are being moved to make the necessary changes in their life that need to happen. It is the sound of energy sweeping over the planet. It is the visible sign of human potential." Then I smiled knowing that while it may not seem good on the surface for many, I know deep within me that it is what is happening upon our planet at the time as the necessary force to shift human consciousness. Then, they said, "It has begun."
I was surprised because they do not normally speak that way, but it was poignant and fitting. I went about my day feeling on the cusp of emotions all day on Monday. I asked my guides where this is coming from because I have been in a truly amazing place of balance. They told me, "You are experiencing the energy of the collective of human consciousness. You are feeling what others may or may not be expressing about their life." Of course, I didn't ask that question until right before I went to bed and got that clarity. I woke up Monday morning and felt the deep longing for my beloved twinflame. It was so intense and when I sit and think about it (last night I had help of a friend who helped me to discover it) I have been having a deep longing to communicate with my twinflame on Mondays (sometimes Sundays and Tuesdays combined with a Monday), but it is this deep need to hear his voice. Monday was no different and I was near tears all day and parts of the day I cried. Yesterday, I felt that longing on and off all day too. So last night as I talked to my friend, I became aware that I am feeling the longing of my soul group and carrying it for them on some level. My guides thanked me for doing this work. Sometimes it is so hard to be a spiritual being in this human world. On a spiritual level, I am in complete understanding and knowing, but on a human level, I am wondering what the heck this is all about and when??
Anyway, that is my share for the day...
Just because I stepped out of the writing doesn't mean things were not happening. I am going to share Monday with you. On Monday morning, I woke up and asked my guides, "was that the wind?" They said, "Yes, it is the Winds of Change that you are hearing outside. It is the force with which people (humans) are being moved to make the necessary changes in their life that need to happen. It is the sound of energy sweeping over the planet. It is the visible sign of human potential." Then I smiled knowing that while it may not seem good on the surface for many, I know deep within me that it is what is happening upon our planet at the time as the necessary force to shift human consciousness. Then, they said, "It has begun."
I was surprised because they do not normally speak that way, but it was poignant and fitting. I went about my day feeling on the cusp of emotions all day on Monday. I asked my guides where this is coming from because I have been in a truly amazing place of balance. They told me, "You are experiencing the energy of the collective of human consciousness. You are feeling what others may or may not be expressing about their life." Of course, I didn't ask that question until right before I went to bed and got that clarity. I woke up Monday morning and felt the deep longing for my beloved twinflame. It was so intense and when I sit and think about it (last night I had help of a friend who helped me to discover it) I have been having a deep longing to communicate with my twinflame on Mondays (sometimes Sundays and Tuesdays combined with a Monday), but it is this deep need to hear his voice. Monday was no different and I was near tears all day and parts of the day I cried. Yesterday, I felt that longing on and off all day too. So last night as I talked to my friend, I became aware that I am feeling the longing of my soul group and carrying it for them on some level. My guides thanked me for doing this work. Sometimes it is so hard to be a spiritual being in this human world. On a spiritual level, I am in complete understanding and knowing, but on a human level, I am wondering what the heck this is all about and when??
Anyway, that is my share for the day...
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Inspirational Snippet: Honor Your Light
I was prompted by my guides to share today's Soul Star Healing facebook message to the children of earth and expand a bit upon it.
"Today's message is one of honoring your light. For it is the quickest, surest way you will manifest what you wish to create upon the earth. Your light is your guide, it is your truth and it is your path. Many of you find it difficult to honor your light and dear ones we tell you that it has not always been your fault because the prevalent energy on your planet was one of guilt, victimhood and lack of responsibility for your well being; but we tell you now that energy is no longer here: you are now free to transform...you are now free to shine. You are now free to step into who you are...you ask how and we tell you...honor the light within you to the detriment of those old beliefs. Shine dear ones, shine brightly."
After rereading it, I feel my guides are correct in the need to share this message with you all. Energy on our planet has now shifted significantly, can you not feel it? Time is moving much more rapidly than previously. Do you feel that? Now you ask, what does that mean for me? It means the potential of manifestation is far quicker and greater than ever before. If you do not honor the light within you and you continue to go along with old beliefs such as guilt, victimhood and lack of responsibility, that has been prevalent on our earth for sometime,for your creations, you will continue to experience more difficulty in manifesting what you truly desire.
My guides are stating: "that those old beliefs are no longer being supported by the planet's consciousness. The consciousness upon planet Earth has been shifting and changing for sometime. However, with the end of the Mayan Calendar in your human calendar of last year 2011 in October was the end of that consciousness and a new consciousness was anchored into the earth with the arrival of the love train of November 2011. Dear Ones, you are evolving past those beliefs and now have the ability to create new ones of worthiness, empowerment and wisdom." For example, the beliefs mentioned above (guilt, victimhood, lack of responsibilty) were in fact very well maintained by traditions both social and religious. If you still have a belief system including any of those above, then it is time you look at how to change that; for it is solely your responsibility to shift your consciousness now. Nothing is keeping you stuck any longer in that old consciousness, only you are.
By honoring the light within you, you honor the truths within you and your life as well. Perhaps sometimes, they are uncomfortable to face and deal with, but nonetheless they are part of you. Once you begin to shine as suggested by my guides, you will no longer be contained by old beliefs. You will begin to breakthrough the pain of the past into the love of the future. "Simply being who you truly are is simply stepping into your own empowerment as a being upon the planet earth who co-creates a world with other beings upon the planet. You will understand that you not only live and dwell next to one another, but you are, in fact, a very important piece of the fabric of life upon earth. Each thought, feeling and step you make creates not only your reality, but the reality of the earth you live upon."
My wish for you today is to shine your light as bright as you can in everything you do today.
Love to you,
EstaRa
"Today's message is one of honoring your light. For it is the quickest, surest way you will manifest what you wish to create upon the earth. Your light is your guide, it is your truth and it is your path. Many of you find it difficult to honor your light and dear ones we tell you that it has not always been your fault because the prevalent energy on your planet was one of guilt, victimhood and lack of responsibility for your well being; but we tell you now that energy is no longer here: you are now free to transform...you are now free to shine. You are now free to step into who you are...you ask how and we tell you...honor the light within you to the detriment of those old beliefs. Shine dear ones, shine brightly."
After rereading it, I feel my guides are correct in the need to share this message with you all. Energy on our planet has now shifted significantly, can you not feel it? Time is moving much more rapidly than previously. Do you feel that? Now you ask, what does that mean for me? It means the potential of manifestation is far quicker and greater than ever before. If you do not honor the light within you and you continue to go along with old beliefs such as guilt, victimhood and lack of responsibility, that has been prevalent on our earth for sometime,for your creations, you will continue to experience more difficulty in manifesting what you truly desire.
My guides are stating: "that those old beliefs are no longer being supported by the planet's consciousness. The consciousness upon planet Earth has been shifting and changing for sometime. However, with the end of the Mayan Calendar in your human calendar of last year 2011 in October was the end of that consciousness and a new consciousness was anchored into the earth with the arrival of the love train of November 2011. Dear Ones, you are evolving past those beliefs and now have the ability to create new ones of worthiness, empowerment and wisdom." For example, the beliefs mentioned above (guilt, victimhood, lack of responsibilty) were in fact very well maintained by traditions both social and religious. If you still have a belief system including any of those above, then it is time you look at how to change that; for it is solely your responsibility to shift your consciousness now. Nothing is keeping you stuck any longer in that old consciousness, only you are.
By honoring the light within you, you honor the truths within you and your life as well. Perhaps sometimes, they are uncomfortable to face and deal with, but nonetheless they are part of you. Once you begin to shine as suggested by my guides, you will no longer be contained by old beliefs. You will begin to breakthrough the pain of the past into the love of the future. "Simply being who you truly are is simply stepping into your own empowerment as a being upon the planet earth who co-creates a world with other beings upon the planet. You will understand that you not only live and dwell next to one another, but you are, in fact, a very important piece of the fabric of life upon earth. Each thought, feeling and step you make creates not only your reality, but the reality of the earth you live upon."
My wish for you today is to shine your light as bright as you can in everything you do today.
Love to you,
EstaRa
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Day 63: Happy Equinox! Let the Reunions Begin!
Yesterday was such a gorgeous day in Connecticut...started it by walking on the beach, cleaning and painting. By the end of my day about 6, I felt a headache come up and I felt so tired that I needed to go lay down. I went in my room and laid on my bed and I felt so much energy happening coming to me. My eyes were closed, the lights were off in my room and I could see so much light around me. I could feel my twin's energy around me---as I often do when I lie down no matter what time of day it is. I could feel all these light beings in my room. It actually felt like I was getting a new crown. But not the traditional crown chakra because that is on the head; I felt like it was more of a new crown above my higher chakras. The clincher was that I felt like "we" (my twin and me) were receiving the same crown like we were receiving our final connection. I don't know if that makes any sense, but to me that is exactly how it feels. I slept so well last night. I feel like it is all happening in a different way than I did before. Talk about faith--I am basking in it right now.
As an aside, it's a new day and its a new time...the past is over and has begun to unravel and open to a beautiful new you.this is a new beginning...it is an opportunity to become who you truly are...no my guides are correcting me Allowing you to be who you truly are!
Monday, March 19, 2012
Day 62: Stuck on You
Good Afternoon World,
Just got back from the beach this morning...I spent the morning walking and talking with a friend and spreading love....
It feels so good to be alive. A shift has been happening for days now I am anticipating his (my TF's) arrival anytime. I must go clean my home so it is all ready for him.
Meanwhile, my very clear message I heard today was Lionel Richie's song, Stuck On You...such a Twinflame song...check out the lyrics...
Welcome home, my love.
Just got back from the beach this morning...I spent the morning walking and talking with a friend and spreading love....
It feels so good to be alive. A shift has been happening for days now I am anticipating his (my TF's) arrival anytime. I must go clean my home so it is all ready for him.
Meanwhile, my very clear message I heard today was Lionel Richie's song, Stuck On You...such a Twinflame song...check out the lyrics...
Welcome home, my love.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Day 61:
It is the evening of the 61st day of my blog on faith. I have felt so much faith the past few days. I feel so blessed. I am grateful.
So onward with the story of TF and S. So, I discovered they were brothers in our Victorian past life. I started to put pieces together. It was a bit of a love triangle. I was in love with TF; however, S was my husband. So little pieces of that life would come up as time went on. I put it to rest when I realized they were brothers and that I was married to S and TF was the one I was in love with. I figured that is a lot of detail, surely there wasn't any more that I needed to know. I figured again, here lies some fear for my TF. He is afraid to love me because I was married to his brother and hurt him. Then one day, my cousin had a gathering at her home and she had asked me to come and do readings there.
I jumped at the chance--it is a great opportunity to assist people when you give a reading. So, I went there and met this girl who I immediately felt like I knew. I was introduced to her with her real name and I kept calling her Jessica. I felt bad because this girl was like, "Uh my name is K." She and I decided to try trade services for a mini reading and mini-massage. (She was a massage therapist.) We never got to do it that day.
Meanwhile, I learned more details of that particular past life. One of the things I discovered was that the reason I was married to S who was named Harry in the past life, was because his brother who I was in love with Tom (TF) was always traveling to Europe. (Did you catch that? Does that make sense? I (Eleanor), was in love with Tom, but he traveled all the time to Europe and wasn't ready to settle. Meanwhile Tom's brother, Harry, his brother, would escort me to events. I had lots of money in that life..woohoo. I digress...So it was appropriate to have an escort in a past life. Harry escorted me everywhere. He convinced me to not wait for Tom and marry him instead. That is what I did, but the truth in that life was that I was in love with Tom and never stopped really loving him even after I married his brother and started to have a family.)
So my cousin had another event at her house and the same people were invited so I said hello to Jessica (nope her name started with a K, but I couldn't remember it so I relied on the name Jessica unintentionally of course). On this particular occasion, we were able to exchange services. She sat down at my table and I found that she was my daughter, my eldest daughter in that past life named Jessica. I couldn't believe the life came up again. Imagine that the main characters of that life came up, oh and I forgot one of the first things I noticed was that one of my dearest friends in this life, was my dearest friend in that life. She helped me shop for my wedding in that life...and she will probably likely help me shop for my wedding in this life too.
Okay, there is more, yes there is more, but I will stop here and go dream about my beloved....
I have much to write today about me and my twin. I am so madly in love with im. It is so weird, I keep falling in love with him over and over again. It is such a wonderful feeling and yet...it all does seem surreal.
So onward with the story of TF and S. So, I discovered they were brothers in our Victorian past life. I started to put pieces together. It was a bit of a love triangle. I was in love with TF; however, S was my husband. So little pieces of that life would come up as time went on. I put it to rest when I realized they were brothers and that I was married to S and TF was the one I was in love with. I figured that is a lot of detail, surely there wasn't any more that I needed to know. I figured again, here lies some fear for my TF. He is afraid to love me because I was married to his brother and hurt him. Then one day, my cousin had a gathering at her home and she had asked me to come and do readings there.
I jumped at the chance--it is a great opportunity to assist people when you give a reading. So, I went there and met this girl who I immediately felt like I knew. I was introduced to her with her real name and I kept calling her Jessica. I felt bad because this girl was like, "Uh my name is K." She and I decided to try trade services for a mini reading and mini-massage. (She was a massage therapist.) We never got to do it that day.
Meanwhile, I learned more details of that particular past life. One of the things I discovered was that the reason I was married to S who was named Harry in the past life, was because his brother who I was in love with Tom (TF) was always traveling to Europe. (Did you catch that? Does that make sense? I (Eleanor), was in love with Tom, but he traveled all the time to Europe and wasn't ready to settle. Meanwhile Tom's brother, Harry, his brother, would escort me to events. I had lots of money in that life..woohoo. I digress...So it was appropriate to have an escort in a past life. Harry escorted me everywhere. He convinced me to not wait for Tom and marry him instead. That is what I did, but the truth in that life was that I was in love with Tom and never stopped really loving him even after I married his brother and started to have a family.)
So my cousin had another event at her house and the same people were invited so I said hello to Jessica (nope her name started with a K, but I couldn't remember it so I relied on the name Jessica unintentionally of course). On this particular occasion, we were able to exchange services. She sat down at my table and I found that she was my daughter, my eldest daughter in that past life named Jessica. I couldn't believe the life came up again. Imagine that the main characters of that life came up, oh and I forgot one of the first things I noticed was that one of my dearest friends in this life, was my dearest friend in that life. She helped me shop for my wedding in that life...and she will probably likely help me shop for my wedding in this life too.
Okay, there is more, yes there is more, but I will stop here and go dream about my beloved....
I have much to write today about me and my twin. I am so madly in love with im. It is so weird, I keep falling in love with him over and over again. It is such a wonderful feeling and yet...it all does seem surreal.
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Day 60: It is Day 60.
Hello World,
It is day 60 and here we are on this semi-beautiful day--I say semi because the clouds are hiding the sunshine. It is St. Patrick's Day..I am wearing a green sweater--probably the first time in years that I actually own a green sweater. I am not Irish and nor do I try to fit in the Irish theme of things, but I feel green today. I wonder what my twin is doing for St. Pat's day. As I begin typing the time is 1:11 p.m. I feel like he actually does something on this day besides eating corned beef and cabbage. I mean even I eat corned beef and cabbage. I don't celebrate this day in a special way, but I will tonight by having dinner with a friend I have not seen in a long time. I really wish that he were to show up on my doorstep this evening. I would welcome him home.
Day 60? Did you catch that? It is 60 days since I began journaling my faith in the reunion of me and my twin. I know, it is just a number, but for the record, I am prepared for my twinflame to walk through my door at anytime now. ...I think after 60 days he should be here by now, don't you? Ironically, today I feel so confident about our reunion, but if you have been following me then you know that I can not complete this blog post journey at least for 24 more days because I didn't uphold my bargain of posting a blog daily regarding my twin, my faith and my faith in the twin. So I am going to continue for a bit more or until he arrives. (whichever comes first)
Today, I'd like to share a story with you all about me and my twin. A story of boy meets girl. I may have already shared this with all of you, if I did you can skip down a bit and if I didn't well..enjoy.
When I met my twin back in 2005, I really had no idea what I was in for. That year was so evolutionary for me. I met someone else about the same time. He is a soulmate. He was from one of my past lives. I recall very clearly, my experience with him. I will call him S. When I met S, the story began to unfold. We were married in a past life. The life I am referring to was about the 1800's. In the visions I saw it looked very Victorian. We lived in Queens, NY the area in which I am most drawn to when I go to NY. It was quite the time, I had money--wow it felt good to see this vision where I was wealthy even tried to pull some of that wealth back through the dimension with me, but it was checked at the gate. hahaha S and I in that life had 5 children. It was so powerful and yes, I am planning on writing a story because the details were so rich and only got richer when I met my TF (twinflame). I remember I met both of them in this life about the same time. S, I met first and I felt an immediate connection to him thinking he was the TF because a few months earlier I had met my TF in a meditation and he said he was on his way. What I didn't realize was the human timelag we have in comparison to other dimensions. I remember thinking S was the TF, but there were so many things that didn't totally fit when I did date S. I mean he didn't look like the man I saw in my meditation, but now looking back I think of the many lessons I learn that sometimes you get just the opposite before you get what you want to be sure you want what you got.
Anyway, when I met the TF, the past life with S started to get stronger. It got so strong that I began to see more details. Then after a few months of knowing both of them, I started to feel like they knew each other in this life. I kept feeling it, but didn't tell either of them; how do you tell someone who has no clue what you are talking about that you think that someone they don't know currently you think they knew? So, I didn't say anything. Then I started to see TF's and S's name everywhere...but it wasn't just everywhere, it was together everywhere. Finally, about a year later I had clarity--they were brothers during this Victorian time period. They knew each other alright. As I am writing this, I am flashing back to the moments I remembered all this. I remember talking to the TF and told him that I think he knew my boyfriend, S. He started to name all the S's he knew. I laughed and said I am not going to tell you even if you did say the name. (For your sake, I will tell you of the names he said, I stopped him midway through his list, he didn't say his name.) You have to love my TF---he has an incredible personality. I just adore him.
Okay, I must go work so I will continue on the story at another time...stay tuned.
It is day 60 and here we are on this semi-beautiful day--I say semi because the clouds are hiding the sunshine. It is St. Patrick's Day..I am wearing a green sweater--probably the first time in years that I actually own a green sweater. I am not Irish and nor do I try to fit in the Irish theme of things, but I feel green today. I wonder what my twin is doing for St. Pat's day. As I begin typing the time is 1:11 p.m. I feel like he actually does something on this day besides eating corned beef and cabbage. I mean even I eat corned beef and cabbage. I don't celebrate this day in a special way, but I will tonight by having dinner with a friend I have not seen in a long time. I really wish that he were to show up on my doorstep this evening. I would welcome him home.
Day 60? Did you catch that? It is 60 days since I began journaling my faith in the reunion of me and my twin. I know, it is just a number, but for the record, I am prepared for my twinflame to walk through my door at anytime now. ...I think after 60 days he should be here by now, don't you? Ironically, today I feel so confident about our reunion, but if you have been following me then you know that I can not complete this blog post journey at least for 24 more days because I didn't uphold my bargain of posting a blog daily regarding my twin, my faith and my faith in the twin. So I am going to continue for a bit more or until he arrives. (whichever comes first)
Today, I'd like to share a story with you all about me and my twin. A story of boy meets girl. I may have already shared this with all of you, if I did you can skip down a bit and if I didn't well..enjoy.
When I met my twin back in 2005, I really had no idea what I was in for. That year was so evolutionary for me. I met someone else about the same time. He is a soulmate. He was from one of my past lives. I recall very clearly, my experience with him. I will call him S. When I met S, the story began to unfold. We were married in a past life. The life I am referring to was about the 1800's. In the visions I saw it looked very Victorian. We lived in Queens, NY the area in which I am most drawn to when I go to NY. It was quite the time, I had money--wow it felt good to see this vision where I was wealthy even tried to pull some of that wealth back through the dimension with me, but it was checked at the gate. hahaha S and I in that life had 5 children. It was so powerful and yes, I am planning on writing a story because the details were so rich and only got richer when I met my TF (twinflame). I remember I met both of them in this life about the same time. S, I met first and I felt an immediate connection to him thinking he was the TF because a few months earlier I had met my TF in a meditation and he said he was on his way. What I didn't realize was the human timelag we have in comparison to other dimensions. I remember thinking S was the TF, but there were so many things that didn't totally fit when I did date S. I mean he didn't look like the man I saw in my meditation, but now looking back I think of the many lessons I learn that sometimes you get just the opposite before you get what you want to be sure you want what you got.
Anyway, when I met the TF, the past life with S started to get stronger. It got so strong that I began to see more details. Then after a few months of knowing both of them, I started to feel like they knew each other in this life. I kept feeling it, but didn't tell either of them; how do you tell someone who has no clue what you are talking about that you think that someone they don't know currently you think they knew? So, I didn't say anything. Then I started to see TF's and S's name everywhere...but it wasn't just everywhere, it was together everywhere. Finally, about a year later I had clarity--they were brothers during this Victorian time period. They knew each other alright. As I am writing this, I am flashing back to the moments I remembered all this. I remember talking to the TF and told him that I think he knew my boyfriend, S. He started to name all the S's he knew. I laughed and said I am not going to tell you even if you did say the name. (For your sake, I will tell you of the names he said, I stopped him midway through his list, he didn't say his name.) You have to love my TF---he has an incredible personality. I just adore him.
Okay, I must go work so I will continue on the story at another time...stay tuned.
Friday, March 16, 2012
Day 59: The Path to My Reunion
Yesterday, I was feeling my twinflame all day. As you know from yesterday's blog, I was feeling his disappointment, but even more I was feeling his nerves and his anxiety. I felt all day that I would hear from him. I didn't hear from him, but I saw that he was online. I really really want to talk to him. It takes everything inside me to not let him know I see him. It takes everything inside me to not talk with him. I just simply saw he was online and I said to his spirit, "I love you dear man and I want so badly to talk with you, but you must be fully ready to come to me."
I logged off the computer and proceeded to paint for five hours. I painted a beautiful powerful heart and I kept hearing it is "Heart on fire." Here is the painting...
It didn't stop there...I really wanted to keep my focus away from knowing he was on the computer looking for me. So I threw myself into painting. I created this painting that I like to call "The Path to My Reunion". It was the vision that I saw the day that I married my beloved in the higher dimensions. I refer you to the blog post entitled, "Divine Marriage: Illusion or Reality?". This is the path and door that I saw.
My faith is so strong this morning because I spent the whole night with my twinflame again in the etheric of course, but you have to know it is the most incredible connection to someone...it seems all so real. I often wake and don't want to open my eyes to not see him next to me. Anyway, I feel amazing today...and feel full faith on the faith-o-meter. :)
I logged off the computer and proceeded to paint for five hours. I painted a beautiful powerful heart and I kept hearing it is "Heart on fire." Here is the painting...
It didn't stop there...I really wanted to keep my focus away from knowing he was on the computer looking for me. So I threw myself into painting. I created this painting that I like to call "The Path to My Reunion". It was the vision that I saw the day that I married my beloved in the higher dimensions. I refer you to the blog post entitled, "Divine Marriage: Illusion or Reality?". This is the path and door that I saw.
My faith is so strong this morning because I spent the whole night with my twinflame again in the etheric of course, but you have to know it is the most incredible connection to someone...it seems all so real. I often wake and don't want to open my eyes to not see him next to me. Anyway, I feel amazing today...and feel full faith on the faith-o-meter. :)
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Day 58: Faith is Still Here
Good Morning World,
I write today about my continuing journey of faith: faith is still here so too is doubt and emotion. Yesterday, I did a lovely channel about the twinflames. Our reunion is inevitable from what my guides tell me and yet I feel a little sadness this morning. I don't understand where that comes from out of nowhere and yet as I sit here and type it. I realize it is not mine. The sadness I feel is his disappointment. Last night, I had some wonderful friends over that I truly enjoyed spending time with; I hadn't seen them in some time. During their visit, I could feel my twinflame looking for me. When they left, I saw him online, but I was blocked. I wanted to talk with him so much, but I did the best I could to resist my wanting to talk with him. I am resisting because he has to come to me fully and permanently as the twinflame that he is reuniting with me. The disappointment was him feeling sad because I was not there to find him last night. I know he wants to talk to me just as much--I really don't like this waiting.
But now that I discovered this emotion I am feeling is about his disappointment, I feel better and can come back to my faith. I do believe we are so near if only he knew. I listened to Tom Lescher's Astrology Report today...and it made so much sense the energy is all about questioning everything. I actually had a conversation with a friend last night saying...what if I am crazy? What if all this stuff is ridiculous and crazy? But I have facts to prove everything that I receive so there is no disputing it. I mean I actually went through an inventory of how I know what I do (that is channeling and knowing he is my twinflame) and why. So this energy is pushing everyone's buttons...don't let anyone else tell you otherwise. The energy is only going to get more intense so grab hold everyone onto your truths and focus your energy on falling in love with you and taking care of you...you will thank me later when you see those who are not heeding that.
Off I go to start my day...
I write today about my continuing journey of faith: faith is still here so too is doubt and emotion. Yesterday, I did a lovely channel about the twinflames. Our reunion is inevitable from what my guides tell me and yet I feel a little sadness this morning. I don't understand where that comes from out of nowhere and yet as I sit here and type it. I realize it is not mine. The sadness I feel is his disappointment. Last night, I had some wonderful friends over that I truly enjoyed spending time with; I hadn't seen them in some time. During their visit, I could feel my twinflame looking for me. When they left, I saw him online, but I was blocked. I wanted to talk with him so much, but I did the best I could to resist my wanting to talk with him. I am resisting because he has to come to me fully and permanently as the twinflame that he is reuniting with me. The disappointment was him feeling sad because I was not there to find him last night. I know he wants to talk to me just as much--I really don't like this waiting.
But now that I discovered this emotion I am feeling is about his disappointment, I feel better and can come back to my faith. I do believe we are so near if only he knew. I listened to Tom Lescher's Astrology Report today...and it made so much sense the energy is all about questioning everything. I actually had a conversation with a friend last night saying...what if I am crazy? What if all this stuff is ridiculous and crazy? But I have facts to prove everything that I receive so there is no disputing it. I mean I actually went through an inventory of how I know what I do (that is channeling and knowing he is my twinflame) and why. So this energy is pushing everyone's buttons...don't let anyone else tell you otherwise. The energy is only going to get more intense so grab hold everyone onto your truths and focus your energy on falling in love with you and taking care of you...you will thank me later when you see those who are not heeding that.
Off I go to start my day...
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Channeled Message: Dance of Life, Balance & Twinflames
The day that I started to write this post, I had just turned forty and my writing started to take off on a tangent and then I realized there was much more that I needed to say so I am happy to say that this message comes to you today with love, honor and respect from my Guides, the Arcturian Masters of Light, the Archangelic League of Light in Council to the Twinflames and me. It is a bit of a read, but I promise it is worthwhile.
It all started with a thought: Since when did living become a chore? Since when is to live upon earth supposed to be you get up, you go to work, you make enough money to pay your bills and then you go to bed and do it all over again. There may be some alternate options, such as you get married (because you don't want to be alone and isn't that the ultimate goal is to not be alone? At least I have seen many succumb to it or stay in it to avoid being alone. If one gets really truthful with themselves they would see it too!) and get up, go to work, make enough money to pay your bills, support your family and do it all over again. Or a third scenario: you get married, you get up, you go to work, you make more than enough money to pay your bills so that you can have all the luxuries in life. I know I may be oversimplifying it, but really am I? Is this not what appears to be the status quo for so many?
When you think of life this way, you really can see why people are lost and unsure of what to do next. They are living someone else's story, not their own. The story was told to them by their parents, relatives and friends who learned the story from their parents, relatives and friends. I may not be living that life now, but I understand it well because I lived like that too
But did you ever wonder where they got it from? It came from somewhere, right? It definitely did not come from within. It came from without, perhaps with the advent of Hollywood? Depiction of what one human’s perspective/opinion as the perfect life? –Masters of Light
I remember when I was a teen in high school I took a Current Issues class and at the time the big conflict was Lebanon. (Isn't there always a big political problem in our world? If it is not one country it is another.
World Conflict is a way to focus you each outside of yourselves to keep you away from finding out the secrets of life—simply put you carry the secrets of life inside of you. To teach that, there would be no form of controlling humanity to one human’s perspective of what should be.—Masters of Light
I find that a conflict is often created to support someone's political agenda one person’s perspective that gets fueled by many following by using people's religion, values or ideology to blame on the "conflict", but I digress I’m not here to talk politics, but here to talk about what I discovered in my life so that you could hopefully discover something in your life too.)
This Current Issues class intrigued me so much--I just couldn't understand why people couldn't just get along and accept one another for who they were regardless of everything else. It prompted me to go into school for Political Science. I had the idea that somehow I could change the world by way of the system because of course back then I saw only what I was being programmed to see as a way to change the world. I do believe when America was founded there was much more foresight into changing everything in the world to make it a better place, but somewhere along the way that was lost and we got what we have today. I remember when I was in college and dating, I had several men say to me, what are you going to school for? I would say Political Science and they would say...."Oh an M.R.S. degree?" I had no idea what they meant until one day someone explained it to me; that the only reason a woman would take such a degree was to find a husband and become a MRS. Really? That experience is pure truth as difficult as it is to believe, but that is how people thought. It was hard for me to think that way because I was idealistic and really believed I would change the world. But unfortunately, I was a woman in a male dominated world and that was never going to happen as far as they were concerned.
Being thrown into the world of politics I saw women stop being women (I simply mean they gave up their softer, more intuitive side to fit in) so that they would be taken seriously. They left their hearts and got more into their heads and based decisions more on what was tangible rather than intuitive. (No that pattern didn’t start when I was in school—it started well before; it just became more prominent.) While I was in politics, I saw that all the change the feminine energy could bring to a very masculine government could never happen when women started to take on the role of being masculine energy. The thing that could change our world was the balance of energy, but if women gave up their feminine energy; valuing the ego mind more than their natural inclination toward intuition, then the changes could never occur so instead we got more of the same or worse---we got a world in extremes.
The more I was in that world, the more I saw that it was near impossible for some women; especially sensitive women like me. I couldn’t handle quieting my beautiful gifts of intuition so I got physically ill. Other women, I saw succumb to the marriage and family thing not necessarily for love, but because that is what they are supposed to do. I mean if a woman was going to college to find a husband; shouldn’t that be what she did ? Hmmm…makes my pairing up theory (that I recently discovered) sound like it has some weight to it. The emphasis is not on love. Instead it is to make ends meet with the hopes of not being alone and; hey, you are lucky if you like the person you are with, but that is not the requirement--no of course not...the requirement is that the husband bring home the money and work himself nearly to death doing so as long as he has a home, car, family that looks good to the outside world; he has it all. As a woman the requirement is just as bad--as long as she looks like the models in magazines and in the movies (not that that is ever truly possible because what the media fails to divulge to people is that they do a lot of things with technology to make even the models and actresses look a certain unattainable way), become holly homemaker oh and look like you love being a mother even when you are struggling to like yourself. Okay so that may be a bit oversimplified again, but hey we are in 2012 and things have changed; right?
We may be in 2012, but I do I think people are more confused than they ever been were because those two roles I described from the early 1990's have shifted up a bit. Now the men are getting more sensitive with the arrival of the feminine energy on the planet so they are embarking on new territory unsure of what that all means. The women are being called back into their power in a more comfortable way; but everyone is still unhappy. Why? Because everyone is still looking outside themselves for their answers. Even in the holistic arena, where finding yourself should be the main thing on the menu; it isn’t necessarily. It is cool to be spiritual now, to eat healthy now...great if it is capturing people's attention in a healthy way to discover who they are, but being spiritual shouldn't be about a money making opportunity with new clothing, commercialized belief systems; it should be about developing oneself to live in a world that is evolving past what used to be. Oh sure there are many people marketing their stuff, but are they truly called to assist the people of the earth or is it just another ploy to keep people stuck?
Dear ones, pay attention to what things feel like to you, use your discernment for many times humanity has been stuck in the extremes. Humans have a way of turning everything into a distraction so as to keep them from looking within themselves.—Masters of Light
As the feminine energy keeps pouring into the planet, much is occurring. Men are losing their footing and their power centers are off balance for their roles are changing. Women are gaining their footing and power, but their power centers are off balance as well as they begin to lean towards excluding the men; therefore, the male energy. Unfortunately, in that way, it is becoming an extreme for many.
The purpose of the outpouring of feminine energy from above to the earth at this time is to bring about a balance that has been lacking upon the earth. –Masters of Light
As I started rereading my writing from a couple of weeks ago my guides started to clarify things for me which is why you are receiving such a long article from me. This brings me to my new mission upon earth as I know my current mission is nearing completion. The reunion of my twinflame and me is imminent as I am told by my guides because it is necessary at this time.
The mission of the twinflames is far greater than humans can imagine. Only the twinflame energy will carry with it the balance that is so necessary for humanity to go forward and live during these times. The shifting that will occur as a result of the reunions of the twinflames will assist humanity in the transformation of energy from one of extreme to one of balance. This rebalancing needs to occur in order to create an earth in which love will transform the earth to a place that all inhabitants can live upon peacefully.
With the advent of the Spring Equinox, the twinflame reunions will commence. As that happens, twinflames strategically placed around the planet will reunite one after another bringing about the balance of male and female energies. At this time, the reunions are necessary to shift humanity's consciousness from the extremes of planetary imbalance of an all masculine energy or of an all feminine energy. The twinflame reunions will signify the ultimate balance of divine feminine and masculine energies. Upon the lighting up of the planet through the love of the twinflames, each individual human will be reset in their own masculine and feminine energy creating an inner merge of the male/female in each human upon the earth. This is necessary in order to create upon the new fifth dimensional earth--Archangelic League of Light in Council to the Twinflames
A little clarification on the above information about twinflames: Twinflames are truly one half of the other: one twin carries the male energy and the other carries the female energy and with their reunion they become a balance of both energies and become one. Not everyone on the planet at this time has a twinflame incarnated to reunite with them. It is not the path for every soul this time around; however, it is the path for some. The reunion of twinflames is a mission that was written before this earthly incarnation for when the soul is closest to finishing their “work” and ready to go “home” that is when the twinflame contract is brought forward to completion. To be on this path of twinflames involves more than just connecting with a love; there is work to be carried out prior to the reunion and after the reunion as a twinflame. The work involves assisting humanity.
As twinflames reunite, it shifts the energy for the entire planet in terms of human relationships with another. Humans will begin to see another through the eyes of love. They will find that their connections with another come from their heart center and they will find their true soulmates. This will and has created chaos for some as they begin to separate from relationships that are not heart centered. –Archangelic League of Light in Council to the Twinflames
Those people who are not on the twinflame path will still be impacted by the reunification energy as they will have a similar internal reunion of the male and female energies within them. There are far less twin flames incarnated to reunite upon the earth than most people will believe. However, with the internal rebalancing that is occurring for all humans, the potential and possibility of having that soulmate love come your way is far greater than ever before. The only thing that is necessary for you to embark upon that journey is to live from a place of love.
Finally, the roles of humanity are changing and there are several things that need to be learned for one to survive not just succeed in the energetic shifts occurring. Are you ready for the changes? The future is not about how much money you make, the future is not about what you look like, the future is not about what you do; the future is about you truly being you as you are. There are no pretenses and there are no expectations. There is only love.
It all started with a thought: Since when did living become a chore? Since when is to live upon earth supposed to be you get up, you go to work, you make enough money to pay your bills and then you go to bed and do it all over again. There may be some alternate options, such as you get married (because you don't want to be alone and isn't that the ultimate goal is to not be alone? At least I have seen many succumb to it or stay in it to avoid being alone. If one gets really truthful with themselves they would see it too!) and get up, go to work, make enough money to pay your bills, support your family and do it all over again. Or a third scenario: you get married, you get up, you go to work, you make more than enough money to pay your bills so that you can have all the luxuries in life. I know I may be oversimplifying it, but really am I? Is this not what appears to be the status quo for so many?
When you think of life this way, you really can see why people are lost and unsure of what to do next. They are living someone else's story, not their own. The story was told to them by their parents, relatives and friends who learned the story from their parents, relatives and friends. I may not be living that life now, but I understand it well because I lived like that too
But did you ever wonder where they got it from? It came from somewhere, right? It definitely did not come from within. It came from without, perhaps with the advent of Hollywood? Depiction of what one human’s perspective/opinion as the perfect life? –Masters of Light
I remember when I was a teen in high school I took a Current Issues class and at the time the big conflict was Lebanon. (Isn't there always a big political problem in our world? If it is not one country it is another.
World Conflict is a way to focus you each outside of yourselves to keep you away from finding out the secrets of life—simply put you carry the secrets of life inside of you. To teach that, there would be no form of controlling humanity to one human’s perspective of what should be.—Masters of Light
I find that a conflict is often created to support someone's political agenda one person’s perspective that gets fueled by many following by using people's religion, values or ideology to blame on the "conflict", but I digress I’m not here to talk politics, but here to talk about what I discovered in my life so that you could hopefully discover something in your life too.)
This Current Issues class intrigued me so much--I just couldn't understand why people couldn't just get along and accept one another for who they were regardless of everything else. It prompted me to go into school for Political Science. I had the idea that somehow I could change the world by way of the system because of course back then I saw only what I was being programmed to see as a way to change the world. I do believe when America was founded there was much more foresight into changing everything in the world to make it a better place, but somewhere along the way that was lost and we got what we have today. I remember when I was in college and dating, I had several men say to me, what are you going to school for? I would say Political Science and they would say...."Oh an M.R.S. degree?" I had no idea what they meant until one day someone explained it to me; that the only reason a woman would take such a degree was to find a husband and become a MRS. Really? That experience is pure truth as difficult as it is to believe, but that is how people thought. It was hard for me to think that way because I was idealistic and really believed I would change the world. But unfortunately, I was a woman in a male dominated world and that was never going to happen as far as they were concerned.
Being thrown into the world of politics I saw women stop being women (I simply mean they gave up their softer, more intuitive side to fit in) so that they would be taken seriously. They left their hearts and got more into their heads and based decisions more on what was tangible rather than intuitive. (No that pattern didn’t start when I was in school—it started well before; it just became more prominent.) While I was in politics, I saw that all the change the feminine energy could bring to a very masculine government could never happen when women started to take on the role of being masculine energy. The thing that could change our world was the balance of energy, but if women gave up their feminine energy; valuing the ego mind more than their natural inclination toward intuition, then the changes could never occur so instead we got more of the same or worse---we got a world in extremes.
The more I was in that world, the more I saw that it was near impossible for some women; especially sensitive women like me. I couldn’t handle quieting my beautiful gifts of intuition so I got physically ill. Other women, I saw succumb to the marriage and family thing not necessarily for love, but because that is what they are supposed to do. I mean if a woman was going to college to find a husband; shouldn’t that be what she did ? Hmmm…makes my pairing up theory (that I recently discovered) sound like it has some weight to it. The emphasis is not on love. Instead it is to make ends meet with the hopes of not being alone and; hey, you are lucky if you like the person you are with, but that is not the requirement--no of course not...the requirement is that the husband bring home the money and work himself nearly to death doing so as long as he has a home, car, family that looks good to the outside world; he has it all. As a woman the requirement is just as bad--as long as she looks like the models in magazines and in the movies (not that that is ever truly possible because what the media fails to divulge to people is that they do a lot of things with technology to make even the models and actresses look a certain unattainable way), become holly homemaker oh and look like you love being a mother even when you are struggling to like yourself. Okay so that may be a bit oversimplified again, but hey we are in 2012 and things have changed; right?
We may be in 2012, but I do I think people are more confused than they ever been were because those two roles I described from the early 1990's have shifted up a bit. Now the men are getting more sensitive with the arrival of the feminine energy on the planet so they are embarking on new territory unsure of what that all means. The women are being called back into their power in a more comfortable way; but everyone is still unhappy. Why? Because everyone is still looking outside themselves for their answers. Even in the holistic arena, where finding yourself should be the main thing on the menu; it isn’t necessarily. It is cool to be spiritual now, to eat healthy now...great if it is capturing people's attention in a healthy way to discover who they are, but being spiritual shouldn't be about a money making opportunity with new clothing, commercialized belief systems; it should be about developing oneself to live in a world that is evolving past what used to be. Oh sure there are many people marketing their stuff, but are they truly called to assist the people of the earth or is it just another ploy to keep people stuck?
Dear ones, pay attention to what things feel like to you, use your discernment for many times humanity has been stuck in the extremes. Humans have a way of turning everything into a distraction so as to keep them from looking within themselves.—Masters of Light
As the feminine energy keeps pouring into the planet, much is occurring. Men are losing their footing and their power centers are off balance for their roles are changing. Women are gaining their footing and power, but their power centers are off balance as well as they begin to lean towards excluding the men; therefore, the male energy. Unfortunately, in that way, it is becoming an extreme for many.
The purpose of the outpouring of feminine energy from above to the earth at this time is to bring about a balance that has been lacking upon the earth. –Masters of Light
As I started rereading my writing from a couple of weeks ago my guides started to clarify things for me which is why you are receiving such a long article from me. This brings me to my new mission upon earth as I know my current mission is nearing completion. The reunion of my twinflame and me is imminent as I am told by my guides because it is necessary at this time.
The mission of the twinflames is far greater than humans can imagine. Only the twinflame energy will carry with it the balance that is so necessary for humanity to go forward and live during these times. The shifting that will occur as a result of the reunions of the twinflames will assist humanity in the transformation of energy from one of extreme to one of balance. This rebalancing needs to occur in order to create an earth in which love will transform the earth to a place that all inhabitants can live upon peacefully.
With the advent of the Spring Equinox, the twinflame reunions will commence. As that happens, twinflames strategically placed around the planet will reunite one after another bringing about the balance of male and female energies. At this time, the reunions are necessary to shift humanity's consciousness from the extremes of planetary imbalance of an all masculine energy or of an all feminine energy. The twinflame reunions will signify the ultimate balance of divine feminine and masculine energies. Upon the lighting up of the planet through the love of the twinflames, each individual human will be reset in their own masculine and feminine energy creating an inner merge of the male/female in each human upon the earth. This is necessary in order to create upon the new fifth dimensional earth--Archangelic League of Light in Council to the Twinflames
A little clarification on the above information about twinflames: Twinflames are truly one half of the other: one twin carries the male energy and the other carries the female energy and with their reunion they become a balance of both energies and become one. Not everyone on the planet at this time has a twinflame incarnated to reunite with them. It is not the path for every soul this time around; however, it is the path for some. The reunion of twinflames is a mission that was written before this earthly incarnation for when the soul is closest to finishing their “work” and ready to go “home” that is when the twinflame contract is brought forward to completion. To be on this path of twinflames involves more than just connecting with a love; there is work to be carried out prior to the reunion and after the reunion as a twinflame. The work involves assisting humanity.
As twinflames reunite, it shifts the energy for the entire planet in terms of human relationships with another. Humans will begin to see another through the eyes of love. They will find that their connections with another come from their heart center and they will find their true soulmates. This will and has created chaos for some as they begin to separate from relationships that are not heart centered. –Archangelic League of Light in Council to the Twinflames
Those people who are not on the twinflame path will still be impacted by the reunification energy as they will have a similar internal reunion of the male and female energies within them. There are far less twin flames incarnated to reunite upon the earth than most people will believe. However, with the internal rebalancing that is occurring for all humans, the potential and possibility of having that soulmate love come your way is far greater than ever before. The only thing that is necessary for you to embark upon that journey is to live from a place of love.
Finally, the roles of humanity are changing and there are several things that need to be learned for one to survive not just succeed in the energetic shifts occurring. Are you ready for the changes? The future is not about how much money you make, the future is not about what you look like, the future is not about what you do; the future is about you truly being you as you are. There are no pretenses and there are no expectations. There is only love.
On Turning 40
I started this blog post, a couple of weeks ago when I turned 40 so forgive the reference to me turning 40, but it will give you perspective. I started writing this as a twinflame post, but it turned out to be more of a Masculine and Feminine Energy Message, but then I decided to split the message in two because my guides had their input as well...hopefully you will read this one and the one entitled: Channeled Message: Dance of Life, Balance & Twinflames
Yeesterday, I turned 40. Hard to believe that is my age. When I was in my 20's I looked so much older than I do now. I remember when I was 25 I went to the casino with my friends who were in their 30's at the time; they were carded, but I wasn't. I couldn't believe it. Apparently, I looked pretty old and when I look back at those pictures during that time period, I looked really unhappy. So much has changed for me in the last 15 years. To even say, fifteen years is weird for me because it sounds so long ago, but it feels more like a blink of the eye.
I went through a lot of emotion yesterday morning not because I was turning 40. I had a few people say it is only a number, but they really didn't get it. It isn't that I am 40 that I cried. I cried because at 26 to 28, I knew that if I didn't change my life I was living that I would be dead before I was 40. It had more to do with me not living my life and just doing my daily routine that I was "supposed to do". Since when did living become a chore? Anyway, those of you who have known me a long time know my story of how sick I was on a daily basis. I truly believe that if I didn’t change my life I would be here now so I am so grateful to be alive in 2012. I am so grateful for the opportunities life has given to me; even if I don’t appreciate them as they come until much later when the dust has settled.
Yeesterday, I turned 40. Hard to believe that is my age. When I was in my 20's I looked so much older than I do now. I remember when I was 25 I went to the casino with my friends who were in their 30's at the time; they were carded, but I wasn't. I couldn't believe it. Apparently, I looked pretty old and when I look back at those pictures during that time period, I looked really unhappy. So much has changed for me in the last 15 years. To even say, fifteen years is weird for me because it sounds so long ago, but it feels more like a blink of the eye.
I went through a lot of emotion yesterday morning not because I was turning 40. I had a few people say it is only a number, but they really didn't get it. It isn't that I am 40 that I cried. I cried because at 26 to 28, I knew that if I didn't change my life I was living that I would be dead before I was 40. It had more to do with me not living my life and just doing my daily routine that I was "supposed to do". Since when did living become a chore? Anyway, those of you who have known me a long time know my story of how sick I was on a daily basis. I truly believe that if I didn’t change my life I would be here now so I am so grateful to be alive in 2012. I am so grateful for the opportunities life has given to me; even if I don’t appreciate them as they come until much later when the dust has settled.
Day 57: It all moves into place
Good Morning World,
Yes it appears that I have been MIA for the last few days. I have been meaning to write each morning I started a blog post and then something took me away from the computer. I ended up starting it and not finishing it. Of course, I had good reason...nature was calling me to go outside and enjoy the weather so I did. I went to the beach Saturday, Sunday and Monday and boy it was a great thing for me to do. It felt refreshing and relaxing. A necessary. Anyway, I digress this is supposed to be about my twinflame. It is day 57--the number year my twinflame was born. So I am on day 57 of my journey and I was like yay I am almost finished and my guides so poignantly, through a friend, reminded me that I did not write for 60 days--perhaps I lived the 60 days, but I did not everyone of them so I must continue to have 60 days of writing.
While my twinflame may not be reading this humanly (or perhaps he is), he feels my words and hears them inside of him. Hence why it is so important for me to keep the faith and continue this writing so he could feel it and give him fuel to keep pushing forward with the changes he is contemplating. So, I just took a look at my blog and realize that the number of days I did not write was 24 days so I am extending my writing for keeping the faith with my twin for 24 more posts.
So I truly realized that I need to continue to write when the other day, I was guided to a book and my guides told me to read it out loud. I was told that as I read it, my twin was picking it up in his vibration. He may not be completely aware of it humanly, but he is picking it up and it is having an impact on him. That is amazing to me, but then again why not? I mean we are one and what is in my vibration is often in his vibration too.
So I am sitting outside watching the birds in my backyard and listening to their song. I just heard as a cardinal sang loudly over and over a call to its partner. It was a beautiful red cardinal and I watched as the other cardinal (not a red one) came to answer the call. As the other cardinal arrived, the red one jumped to another branch. It was like, "oh look you came? Now, I'm going." It felt like the dance that humans do in relationships. I wonder if the birds are mimicking us or if we are mimicking them? ( Anyway, I digress, I just love sitting outdoors. I must say I do need to get a lawn chair that I can put out here because this carrying my treatment room chair in and out is getting old. Anyone have a lawn chair that they are getting rid of ? It can't be heavy or ugly because when it is not outside it will be in my bedroom...if so let me know.)
My guides inform me that as of the Spring Equinox all will begin...the twinflames will move into place and begin to reunite...I feel this so much inside of me--it truly resonates especially in the last several days and today included. Bring it on I tell you ...bring it on...
Yes it appears that I have been MIA for the last few days. I have been meaning to write each morning I started a blog post and then something took me away from the computer. I ended up starting it and not finishing it. Of course, I had good reason...nature was calling me to go outside and enjoy the weather so I did. I went to the beach Saturday, Sunday and Monday and boy it was a great thing for me to do. It felt refreshing and relaxing. A necessary. Anyway, I digress this is supposed to be about my twinflame. It is day 57--the number year my twinflame was born. So I am on day 57 of my journey and I was like yay I am almost finished and my guides so poignantly, through a friend, reminded me that I did not write for 60 days--perhaps I lived the 60 days, but I did not everyone of them so I must continue to have 60 days of writing.
While my twinflame may not be reading this humanly (or perhaps he is), he feels my words and hears them inside of him. Hence why it is so important for me to keep the faith and continue this writing so he could feel it and give him fuel to keep pushing forward with the changes he is contemplating. So, I just took a look at my blog and realize that the number of days I did not write was 24 days so I am extending my writing for keeping the faith with my twin for 24 more posts.
So I truly realized that I need to continue to write when the other day, I was guided to a book and my guides told me to read it out loud. I was told that as I read it, my twin was picking it up in his vibration. He may not be completely aware of it humanly, but he is picking it up and it is having an impact on him. That is amazing to me, but then again why not? I mean we are one and what is in my vibration is often in his vibration too.
So I am sitting outside watching the birds in my backyard and listening to their song. I just heard as a cardinal sang loudly over and over a call to its partner. It was a beautiful red cardinal and I watched as the other cardinal (not a red one) came to answer the call. As the other cardinal arrived, the red one jumped to another branch. It was like, "oh look you came? Now, I'm going." It felt like the dance that humans do in relationships. I wonder if the birds are mimicking us or if we are mimicking them? ( Anyway, I digress, I just love sitting outdoors. I must say I do need to get a lawn chair that I can put out here because this carrying my treatment room chair in and out is getting old. Anyone have a lawn chair that they are getting rid of ? It can't be heavy or ugly because when it is not outside it will be in my bedroom...if so let me know.)
My guides inform me that as of the Spring Equinox all will begin...the twinflames will move into place and begin to reunite...I feel this so much inside of me--it truly resonates especially in the last several days and today included. Bring it on I tell you ...bring it on...
Monday, March 12, 2012
Inspirational Snippet: Listen to Your Heart
My guidance this morning is to share a message with each of you…the message that I shared on Facebook as the message of today…I only share these when I am prompted to, so if you want to know what the message of the day is you may want to become a fan on the Soul Star Healing Fan Page on facebook (it is usually 3-5 sentences long). Often my snippets are different and like this one more expanded than a 3-5 sentence message.
On to the message I wish to share. I woke up this morning and I thought to myself, what is missing for people? Why do I meet so many people and know so many people who care what other’s think and care even more to remain where they are in life and not strive for what they truly desire? The higher my vibration gets the more information I receive from people even in a five minute conversation and it can be quite overwhelming really. I feel their longings and their discomfort in life even if they are not aware. So I asked my guides what can I share with people today and this was the message:
Today's message is: Listen to your heart. You are being pulled to the longings and callings of your heart. It is time to let go of anything and everything that does not resonate with your heart. How do you know you ask? Your first reaction is like one of a child's nature-- It feels right and limitless in the possibilities because it is fueled by love. ...the second reaction is from your mind not your heart because it sets limits in your old belief system.
The message to me is loud and clear. How many people just live their life day to day not really “feeling alive”. You know what I mean when I say not feeling alive. I mean really not enjoying their moments day to day. I find that I really enjoy my own company more than I ever have because I do feel alive. However, it is nice now and again to be with friends who are likeminded or are supportive of me in the way I think, feel and love. I say that last sentence because I know that I live differently than many of my friends, but I also know that they know I live in my heart. Living in my heart is more important to me than being right, looking right or fitting in. It is more enjoyable to just be me than strive to fit someone else’s ideas of what me is or should be. That is what many people get lost in doing(fitting someone else’s ideas of what is or should be)—sure they think it is their own beliefs, but really if they investigate their beliefs they may discover how they are really familial beliefs or societal beliefs. This brings me to my guides messages of Listen to your heart. It speaks to you every minute of every day…it is the language of your soul and it speaks softly. Too often it does not get heard for the words are drowned out by noise and loud chatter from external sources. Your heart always has something to tell you if you tune in to listen. You will recognize it when you begin to listen to it and feel that child-like sense of wonder that has so gotten lost by the restrictions you have placed upon yourself.
My wish for you today is to listen to your heart’s guidance. Hear your heart speak to you in your day today by way of how it feels to do or not do something. Your heart is waiting for you to heed the call. Will you listen to it? Or will you silent it by obligations and expectations?
Be in Love,
EstaRa
On to the message I wish to share. I woke up this morning and I thought to myself, what is missing for people? Why do I meet so many people and know so many people who care what other’s think and care even more to remain where they are in life and not strive for what they truly desire? The higher my vibration gets the more information I receive from people even in a five minute conversation and it can be quite overwhelming really. I feel their longings and their discomfort in life even if they are not aware. So I asked my guides what can I share with people today and this was the message:
Today's message is: Listen to your heart. You are being pulled to the longings and callings of your heart. It is time to let go of anything and everything that does not resonate with your heart. How do you know you ask? Your first reaction is like one of a child's nature-- It feels right and limitless in the possibilities because it is fueled by love. ...the second reaction is from your mind not your heart because it sets limits in your old belief system.
The message to me is loud and clear. How many people just live their life day to day not really “feeling alive”. You know what I mean when I say not feeling alive. I mean really not enjoying their moments day to day. I find that I really enjoy my own company more than I ever have because I do feel alive. However, it is nice now and again to be with friends who are likeminded or are supportive of me in the way I think, feel and love. I say that last sentence because I know that I live differently than many of my friends, but I also know that they know I live in my heart. Living in my heart is more important to me than being right, looking right or fitting in. It is more enjoyable to just be me than strive to fit someone else’s ideas of what me is or should be. That is what many people get lost in doing(fitting someone else’s ideas of what is or should be)—sure they think it is their own beliefs, but really if they investigate their beliefs they may discover how they are really familial beliefs or societal beliefs. This brings me to my guides messages of Listen to your heart. It speaks to you every minute of every day…it is the language of your soul and it speaks softly. Too often it does not get heard for the words are drowned out by noise and loud chatter from external sources. Your heart always has something to tell you if you tune in to listen. You will recognize it when you begin to listen to it and feel that child-like sense of wonder that has so gotten lost by the restrictions you have placed upon yourself.
My wish for you today is to listen to your heart’s guidance. Hear your heart speak to you in your day today by way of how it feels to do or not do something. Your heart is waiting for you to heed the call. Will you listen to it? Or will you silent it by obligations and expectations?
Be in Love,
EstaRa
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Day 53: Fly To Me
This morning I am writing a mini-post for my Angels keep reminding me that it is necessary for me to do this. Yesterday, was a long day. I felt when I woke up I would hear from my twinflame and I did. He pulled his famous call and hang up on me. It has become a comfort for me now to get a call and hang up from him. It makes me realize that he is thinking of me and longs for me just as I long for him. I used to get so frustrated when he would call and hang up on me because quite honestly he would do it several times in a row and drive me crazy never allowing me to answer it. But now there is a comfort in it and I suppose there has always been a comfort in it for him too. I love you my dearest man.
Anyway, I woke up this morning with the following song in my head. It speaks deeply to my soul because I believe it is him, my beloved twinflame discovering he is free to love, he doesn't have all the answers, but he knows now what he is looking for. You are free...fly to me...my love...fly to me...
Anyway, I woke up this morning with the following song in my head. It speaks deeply to my soul because I believe it is him, my beloved twinflame discovering he is free to love, he doesn't have all the answers, but he knows now what he is looking for. You are free...fly to me...my love...fly to me...
Friday, March 9, 2012
Day 52:
Today is the 52nd day on my journey to keep the faith about my reunion with my twinflame. Today I woke up and felt a little different than I did the past few days before. If you noticed, I was filled with hope and excitement about my reunion with my twinflame. Today however, I didn't feel as much enthusiasm. Is it because I believe less? No. It is because I discovered something today about me. I discovered that I have some fear. The fear is located in my body..it is a body memory that I am ready to release now that I discovered it was there. The body memory is connected to fear I feel with regard to my twin. There is so many fears all wrapped into one as I right this I get this image of an elastic band ball, did you ever see one of those? 
That is what I have as a visual in my mind right now. It looks colorful, but complicated; it really isn't if you take one elastic at a time. So I guess, I have been pulling off the elastics so to speak. The elastic I found today was that I have some fears with my beloved. I am afraid that he will not come to me. I am afraid that he was so wonderful last week when we conversed, but was that just a one time thing? I am afraid he hasn't changed. I am afraid he won't come to me. I am afraid he will forget me. I know, I know as I type this I am well aware how ridiculous this all sounds. But that was my new discovery. I now know what the fears are and now it is time to overcome them and just trust.
The message I got over and over is that he has changed and to see him as changed. I often hear listen to him...allow him to show himself to you. I want to, but there is this learned behavior that I have developed in this lifetime perhaps it has a seed from previous lifetimes too (I am tingling so that is a yes). It is time to unlearn and come back to fully trusting and realizing that his behavior isn't about me. It is about him dealing with the stuff he has to overcome. I know I teach not to take personally what someone else says and does, but I sometimes forget especially when it comes to my twinflame; perhaps because he and I are so similar in so many ways.
So for tonight, I am going to embrace these fears and work through them one by one. How appropriate, methinks...it is the evening of the full moon...perfect timing to release... Good night world....
The message I got over and over is that he has changed and to see him as changed. I often hear listen to him...allow him to show himself to you. I want to, but there is this learned behavior that I have developed in this lifetime perhaps it has a seed from previous lifetimes too (I am tingling so that is a yes). It is time to unlearn and come back to fully trusting and realizing that his behavior isn't about me. It is about him dealing with the stuff he has to overcome. I know I teach not to take personally what someone else says and does, but I sometimes forget especially when it comes to my twinflame; perhaps because he and I are so similar in so many ways.
So for tonight, I am going to embrace these fears and work through them one by one. How appropriate, methinks...it is the evening of the full moon...perfect timing to release... Good night world....
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Day 51: One Day Closer
Good Afternoon World,
I was up early and ready to start my day. I woke up yesterday feeling a bit of relief after I experienced a bit of heaviness the past couple of days. I woke this morning feeling that I am one day closer to the reunion with my twinflame. I feel it...look out world because when we come together the whole world will feel it--that I am sure of!
I was out the door early and feeling excited to start my day, I can feel the momentum of life picking up. Something is coming I feel it.......and then I spoke to my guides and they told me to turn the radio on now. They As I turned it on, I heard the news on the radio station stating that there is a Solar Storm that may interrupt electronics. I smiled and my guides said "good one Lil Grasshopper" (they like to be funny). The congratulated me on knowing it once again. I tend to experience the "symptoms" if you will prior to the event.
As I sit here out on my back deck in the beautiful warm day in Guilford, I think of how people think the solar flares will only impact electronics, but I know differently--it will "light up" each and every one on the planet. It is here to assist in the ascension process; how else would people light up? Especially the ones resisting, my guides are telling me as I type this. Boy, I think to myself, my twin must glow in the dark by now with all the light that has come his way and yet he is still not with me as of yet. Oy!!
Anyway, I digress, the word is ...I feel one day closer....what is the date? I have no idea, but then again I don't think I am supposed to know....I just know it is soon. hahaha
I was up early and ready to start my day. I woke up yesterday feeling a bit of relief after I experienced a bit of heaviness the past couple of days. I woke this morning feeling that I am one day closer to the reunion with my twinflame. I feel it...look out world because when we come together the whole world will feel it--that I am sure of!
I was out the door early and feeling excited to start my day, I can feel the momentum of life picking up. Something is coming I feel it.......and then I spoke to my guides and they told me to turn the radio on now. They As I turned it on, I heard the news on the radio station stating that there is a Solar Storm that may interrupt electronics. I smiled and my guides said "good one Lil Grasshopper" (they like to be funny). The congratulated me on knowing it once again. I tend to experience the "symptoms" if you will prior to the event.
As I sit here out on my back deck in the beautiful warm day in Guilford, I think of how people think the solar flares will only impact electronics, but I know differently--it will "light up" each and every one on the planet. It is here to assist in the ascension process; how else would people light up? Especially the ones resisting, my guides are telling me as I type this. Boy, I think to myself, my twin must glow in the dark by now with all the light that has come his way and yet he is still not with me as of yet. Oy!!
Anyway, I digress, the word is ...I feel one day closer....what is the date? I have no idea, but then again I don't think I am supposed to know....I just know it is soon. hahaha
Channeled Message: Maintain Your Balance
I was prompted by my guides once again to share my daily message from my Facebook Fan Page as they feel it is very pertinent to each of you.
Today's message....You have an important role on this planet and that is in assisting others. However, dear ones, the person in most need of your assistance is you. You must take good care of your physical, mental, emotional and spiritual needs before you can effectively assist others. We do not proclaim you need to be perfect in doing so, but we urge you to be in a state of continually working at maintaining the necessary balance for you. If you are honest with yourself you will know what you need to do. Your planet has a lot of people talking, but if there was ever a time to follow what you speak it is now.
Many people are now stepping into the path of healing, coaching and assisting others; that is because people are beginning to see where their path lies. The ascension of humanity or what is more easily understood, the evolution of human consciousness is happening now and many will be seeking assistance. If this is a true path for you, my guides say that it is important that you do take care of yourself and find that balance within you each and every day for it isn’t possible to be the light in this world unless your fully shining your light.
My guides would like to speak to this…
The energy on your planet is evolving and changing the way in which people are experiencing their world. The time is now to step into your emPOWERment. Gone is the belief that “if you cannot do, you teach.” Dear ones, you must do in order to teach. Gone is the belief “you can focus on helping others so you don’t have to worry about your personal situations.” Dear ones, if you are not actively working on your personal situations they will prevent you from truly helping others. You are the only one who can change your world. Your ascension, dear ones, begins with you. See the truth in your life and begin to change it from there for now is the time to heal yourselves because soon your services will be needed and there will be no time to heal as the earth’s vibration moves faster. Your planet needs healers to be prepared to assist others from a place of balance for your assistance is only as beneficial as you are for you. Let this message ring loud and true for each of you.
Today is a new day and we ask you to select where you put your energy each day. We informed EstaRa prior to this channel that the Solar Flares are making news in your regular media. The media is attempting to deal with this information in one of two ways: creating frenzy or downplaying the effects. The truth is dear ones, you must seek to find your answers in yourself on how the solar flares affect you. The human time in between each solar flare is getting shorter; therefore, your energy body (light body) needs to be prepared as well. Your time is well worth spent in balancing yourself mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually each day. For each day, you are given the opportunity for renewal. Remember dear ones, when you are well so too are the people around you and when you are not, so too are the people around you.
We wish you to ride the waves of energy from a safe distance from the rest of humanity; however, that is your choice dear ones. It is your choice in how you choose to experience what is happening upon the planet. We wish you well and wish for you to see that now is the time. It is with love, honor and respect that we bring you this message today.
We are the Masters of Light. Namaste.
Today's message....You have an important role on this planet and that is in assisting others. However, dear ones, the person in most need of your assistance is you. You must take good care of your physical, mental, emotional and spiritual needs before you can effectively assist others. We do not proclaim you need to be perfect in doing so, but we urge you to be in a state of continually working at maintaining the necessary balance for you. If you are honest with yourself you will know what you need to do. Your planet has a lot of people talking, but if there was ever a time to follow what you speak it is now.
Many people are now stepping into the path of healing, coaching and assisting others; that is because people are beginning to see where their path lies. The ascension of humanity or what is more easily understood, the evolution of human consciousness is happening now and many will be seeking assistance. If this is a true path for you, my guides say that it is important that you do take care of yourself and find that balance within you each and every day for it isn’t possible to be the light in this world unless your fully shining your light.
My guides would like to speak to this…
The energy on your planet is evolving and changing the way in which people are experiencing their world. The time is now to step into your emPOWERment. Gone is the belief that “if you cannot do, you teach.” Dear ones, you must do in order to teach. Gone is the belief “you can focus on helping others so you don’t have to worry about your personal situations.” Dear ones, if you are not actively working on your personal situations they will prevent you from truly helping others. You are the only one who can change your world. Your ascension, dear ones, begins with you. See the truth in your life and begin to change it from there for now is the time to heal yourselves because soon your services will be needed and there will be no time to heal as the earth’s vibration moves faster. Your planet needs healers to be prepared to assist others from a place of balance for your assistance is only as beneficial as you are for you. Let this message ring loud and true for each of you.
Today is a new day and we ask you to select where you put your energy each day. We informed EstaRa prior to this channel that the Solar Flares are making news in your regular media. The media is attempting to deal with this information in one of two ways: creating frenzy or downplaying the effects. The truth is dear ones, you must seek to find your answers in yourself on how the solar flares affect you. The human time in between each solar flare is getting shorter; therefore, your energy body (light body) needs to be prepared as well. Your time is well worth spent in balancing yourself mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually each day. For each day, you are given the opportunity for renewal. Remember dear ones, when you are well so too are the people around you and when you are not, so too are the people around you.
We wish you to ride the waves of energy from a safe distance from the rest of humanity; however, that is your choice dear ones. It is your choice in how you choose to experience what is happening upon the planet. We wish you well and wish for you to see that now is the time. It is with love, honor and respect that we bring you this message today.
We are the Masters of Light. Namaste.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Day 50: Expect the Unexpected
Since Sunday, I have been waking up feeling and hearing I need to be prepared. Yesterday, I kept feeling like I need to be prepared. I am supposed to be prepared for him...for my twinflame to arrive. I have never felt this preparation theme before. I mean I have felt it for some other things in my life, but not for the ultimate preparation for my twin to arrive! I feel excited and yet at the same time, I feel this sense of urgency.
All day yesterday, I kept feeling like I had to cut my fingernails. In case you don't know, my fingernails grow like mad. I have to keep cutting them because they grow so long and hard. I've been getting the message to cut them the last three days, but I avoided it thinking I should go for a manicure and then I realize I don't want to spend my money on that when I have to buy food, gas, etc. I kept saying to myself all day yesterday that I would cut my nails before I went to bed. (By the way, this is significant and I know somehow it is associated with my twin because I remember one time my nails were so long that I hurt him accidentally one time when I saw him.) Last night, I got all ready to go to sleep, snuggled in my bed, under the covers and fell asleep. I woke up a couple hours later, got out of bed and clipped my fingernails and filed them before going back to sleep. I did it...an accomplishment for me really.
This morning when I woke up at 6:30 (slept in this morning) I got this beautiful message to share with my clients on the Soul Star Healing fan page on Facebook...it motivated me to write the above snippet. Here is the message that really motivated me this morning...
Today's message...Embrace the magic within all of your daily experiences today, including the mundane tasks. Many small, yet wonderful surprises are coming your way. Begin to expect the unexpected and you will begin to see as the miracles occur.
The message goes along with the feelings I have been having. The interesting thing is that I was on the phone with my friend this morning and I heard myself saying, "All this time, I've been waiting and waiting for him to come and now I feel like I am unprepared." Really? Who am I kidding? I am ready for him to arrive, but there is a few things that I would like to have look great for him to step into. Either way, I feel really motivated today...and the faith is on....
All day yesterday, I kept feeling like I had to cut my fingernails. In case you don't know, my fingernails grow like mad. I have to keep cutting them because they grow so long and hard. I've been getting the message to cut them the last three days, but I avoided it thinking I should go for a manicure and then I realize I don't want to spend my money on that when I have to buy food, gas, etc. I kept saying to myself all day yesterday that I would cut my nails before I went to bed. (By the way, this is significant and I know somehow it is associated with my twin because I remember one time my nails were so long that I hurt him accidentally one time when I saw him.) Last night, I got all ready to go to sleep, snuggled in my bed, under the covers and fell asleep. I woke up a couple hours later, got out of bed and clipped my fingernails and filed them before going back to sleep. I did it...an accomplishment for me really.
This morning when I woke up at 6:30 (slept in this morning) I got this beautiful message to share with my clients on the Soul Star Healing fan page on Facebook...it motivated me to write the above snippet. Here is the message that really motivated me this morning...
Today's message...Embrace the magic within all of your daily experiences today, including the mundane tasks. Many small, yet wonderful surprises are coming your way. Begin to expect the unexpected and you will begin to see as the miracles occur.
The message goes along with the feelings I have been having. The interesting thing is that I was on the phone with my friend this morning and I heard myself saying, "All this time, I've been waiting and waiting for him to come and now I feel like I am unprepared." Really? Who am I kidding? I am ready for him to arrive, but there is a few things that I would like to have look great for him to step into. Either way, I feel really motivated today...and the faith is on....
Inspirational Snippet: Expect the Unexpected
I woke this morning with a beautiful message...as I lie in bed making a decision if I was going to sleep in or get up this morning. I chose to wake up early do a little work out, but the big motivator was this message I was given to share with everyone for today. Here is the message I placed on the Soul Star Healing fan page from my guides:
Today's message...Embrace the magic within all of your daily experiences today, including the mundane tasks. Many small, yet wonderful surprises are coming your way. Begin to expect the unexpected and you will begin to see as the miracles occur.
This message so resonated with me today; because I think we all get stuck in our routines or struggle to make it through our daily tasks. Why does that happen? Often we are not able to see the magic that we can create within our day. I know that for me, it happens sometimes too. In my work, I tend to over give and yes people tend to appreciate the work I do at the time, but often my work goes unnoticed otherwise. The days I start to feel like I don’t want to do anything (That is my tell tale sign—and yes it happens to me too!), it is a sign for me to look at my life and see how my balance is. I’ve learned and noticed that once in awhile this happens to me to remind me to take note of what is happening. Often it means that I am working too much, spending too much time with people that are not feeling happy with their life (could be work that is exposing me to this or some friends) or I am not making it fun. It takes a beautiful sunrise to en-LIGHTen my thoughts and remind me to explore the current day differently. Bring back my child-like wonder…Yes that is what I said child-like wonder. Remember as a child everything you saw or experienced was new and exciting; let that be the lead for your new day.
While many people laugh or tease me about how I can spend hours looking out my living room window amused by nature as it plays in front of me or that I find everything, everywhere in the shape of a heart, taking note of these things is what makes magic happen in my life. It sustains me and assists me to not take one moment for granted. I know what helps me to restore my energy to a child-like state of wonder, what do you have that helps you to restore yours?
My wish for you today is to discover what helps you to restore your child-like state of wonder and to embrace the magic in your daily life so that miracles can happen.
Be love,
EstaRa
Today's message...Embrace the magic within all of your daily experiences today, including the mundane tasks. Many small, yet wonderful surprises are coming your way. Begin to expect the unexpected and you will begin to see as the miracles occur.
This message so resonated with me today; because I think we all get stuck in our routines or struggle to make it through our daily tasks. Why does that happen? Often we are not able to see the magic that we can create within our day. I know that for me, it happens sometimes too. In my work, I tend to over give and yes people tend to appreciate the work I do at the time, but often my work goes unnoticed otherwise. The days I start to feel like I don’t want to do anything (That is my tell tale sign—and yes it happens to me too!), it is a sign for me to look at my life and see how my balance is. I’ve learned and noticed that once in awhile this happens to me to remind me to take note of what is happening. Often it means that I am working too much, spending too much time with people that are not feeling happy with their life (could be work that is exposing me to this or some friends) or I am not making it fun. It takes a beautiful sunrise to en-LIGHTen my thoughts and remind me to explore the current day differently. Bring back my child-like wonder…Yes that is what I said child-like wonder. Remember as a child everything you saw or experienced was new and exciting; let that be the lead for your new day.
While many people laugh or tease me about how I can spend hours looking out my living room window amused by nature as it plays in front of me or that I find everything, everywhere in the shape of a heart, taking note of these things is what makes magic happen in my life. It sustains me and assists me to not take one moment for granted. I know what helps me to restore my energy to a child-like state of wonder, what do you have that helps you to restore yours?
My wish for you today is to discover what helps you to restore your child-like state of wonder and to embrace the magic in your daily life so that miracles can happen.
Be love,
EstaRa
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Day 49: Quest to Keep the Faith is Stronger Today
Well, I have started to write several times over the last few days, but then the information was way off tangent and had nothing to do with my twinflame and yet it did. I have decided along with my guides to post my writings as a separate article or snippet over the coming days.
I am sitting here in my apartment finished with appointments for the day and spent the last hour and half working on a painting I am creating for my niece for her birthday. It has to be something simple and yet I want to place much of my vibration into it for her to take. I have felt like I don't want to do anything for the past several days, but I realize this is not my personal feeling. I feel like this is my twinflame's feelings. I have been feeling his stuff more than anything lately.
So much happened since I last wrote in the blog. I talked with my twin again very briefly on Saturday. I felt his urgency to talk with me and felt his need to escape whatever is happening in his life at this moment. Our conversation was not as amazing as it was the couple of days prior. My friend intuited a message for me that resonated and that was to ignore the second conversation that it wasn't the changed him..it was the old him trying to avoid dealing with what is necessary for him at the moment. That was really hard to hear, but understandable.
Then on Sunday, I felt him for a good part of the day. Sometimes when I feel him I feel his love, I feel his physical anxiety or his physical body aches like stomach or headaches and often I have to question it to determine if it is mine or if it is his. I felt all of the above on Sunday.
Then I went to see a movie and on my drive, all of a sudden I had this wave of energy that kept coming over my body. I was covered in head to toe with tingling...waves over an over again. The only feeling I got and my friend confirmed was that my beloved twin had a realization--a wake up call if you will. He realizes what he needs to do. It was like his adrenaline lf discovery. It was amazing really. Because of this magnificent energy on Sunday, I felt more confident when I woke up yesterday morning. The quest to keep the faith gets easier and more difficult at the same time, but the truth remains the faith is much stronger than it used to be.
Okay off to finish up something else....
I am sitting here in my apartment finished with appointments for the day and spent the last hour and half working on a painting I am creating for my niece for her birthday. It has to be something simple and yet I want to place much of my vibration into it for her to take. I have felt like I don't want to do anything for the past several days, but I realize this is not my personal feeling. I feel like this is my twinflame's feelings. I have been feeling his stuff more than anything lately.
So much happened since I last wrote in the blog. I talked with my twin again very briefly on Saturday. I felt his urgency to talk with me and felt his need to escape whatever is happening in his life at this moment. Our conversation was not as amazing as it was the couple of days prior. My friend intuited a message for me that resonated and that was to ignore the second conversation that it wasn't the changed him..it was the old him trying to avoid dealing with what is necessary for him at the moment. That was really hard to hear, but understandable.
Then on Sunday, I felt him for a good part of the day. Sometimes when I feel him I feel his love, I feel his physical anxiety or his physical body aches like stomach or headaches and often I have to question it to determine if it is mine or if it is his. I felt all of the above on Sunday.
Then I went to see a movie and on my drive, all of a sudden I had this wave of energy that kept coming over my body. I was covered in head to toe with tingling...waves over an over again. The only feeling I got and my friend confirmed was that my beloved twin had a realization--a wake up call if you will. He realizes what he needs to do. It was like his adrenaline lf discovery. It was amazing really. Because of this magnificent energy on Sunday, I felt more confident when I woke up yesterday morning. The quest to keep the faith gets easier and more difficult at the same time, but the truth remains the faith is much stronger than it used to be.
Okay off to finish up something else....
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Day 43: It's My Birthday
It's my birthday today and I woke up and cried. It isn't because I am another year older. It isn't because it is my birthday--it is because my longing for my twinflame is greater than ever before. I feel it is so close for us that now all the feelings are so intensified.
I had an early birthday present last night. I talked to my twinflame on line for two hours through instant messenger. It is the first time in a long time that we talked back and forth through that medium. Towards the beginning of the conversation. He wrote "I miss you." I could feel his sincerity from just that message and then he followed it up with "raising hand." So I guess my guides were right (as if I doubt them), I do need to say whatever I feel at the time I feel it. He was really cute last night and I really had fun. I felt like we were on a date. I know that sounds weird, but it is true. It was different--all of it was different...but truly in a very good way. We ended our conversation with a simple thank you for the fun conversation and bye. We didn't say we'd talk again...we just enjoyed each other in that moment. Of course, when we finished I cried, but the tears were both mixed happy and sad. Happy because I love him so much and have missed him and sad because we had to go and I don't know when I will talk with him again. I do know that I will. I feel him and he feels me more than he ever has. I logged off the computer last night and just laid back down on the couch with my arms crossed around me as if I was holding something and I fell asleep there as if he were holding me. I woke up and was able to go into my bed feeling really warm and safe and felt like I slept in his arms most of the night.
This morning when I woke up, I cried. I have this feeling it is time. This is the month where everything changes...this is the beginning...how appropriate and today is my birthday....hmmm I must have put this in the divine plan.
So I did a little gift for myself---I did a little reading for me with Angel Cards. As you all know, I don't use cards when I do my readings, but this is me doing it for me so I used cards so I couldn't dispute what I was feeling or sensing (believe me when you want to hear something and you hear it sometimes you doubt it thinking it is just because that is what you want to hear). So I want to share this reading with you all...
The card reading I just did for me is below. The question I asked was, what message do you have for me about me and my twin:
Overall: a happy new move or place of employment is in the works. The movement will usher in new positive energy. (I have pulled this card twice recently when I asked a question about my twin. So I feel this is about him and changes he is making or about to make...it does involve me.)
Possible Block: Make a Decision Feeling Stuck or indecisive. Listen to your intuition and make a decision. (I feel like this is for him and me. He does have decisions to make and they are being placed in front of him each day until he makes them. But I also feel this is for me, it is reminding me to just listen to the intuition I am receiving about us and go with it.)
Angel's Guidance: Yes, the timing is right for this new happy adventure. A Happy Outcome follows your positive expectations. (It is NOW!! Resonates with the message I got about this month ushers in a new beginning.)
Have Faith: Prayers are manifesting. Remain Positive, and follow your guidance. (This one well you know this is about me keeping the faith, but as I type this I think it is also for him to hold on to the faith of my love for him. It will help him through this time too. As for me, I'm working on keeping the faith.)
Thank you all for witnessing my evolution.....and for being there perhaps silent witnesses sometimes to my journey, but nonetheless for supporting me by way of witnessing me. My love is here to share with the world and I share it all with you today....
I had an early birthday present last night. I talked to my twinflame on line for two hours through instant messenger. It is the first time in a long time that we talked back and forth through that medium. Towards the beginning of the conversation. He wrote "I miss you." I could feel his sincerity from just that message and then he followed it up with "raising hand." So I guess my guides were right (as if I doubt them), I do need to say whatever I feel at the time I feel it. He was really cute last night and I really had fun. I felt like we were on a date. I know that sounds weird, but it is true. It was different--all of it was different...but truly in a very good way. We ended our conversation with a simple thank you for the fun conversation and bye. We didn't say we'd talk again...we just enjoyed each other in that moment. Of course, when we finished I cried, but the tears were both mixed happy and sad. Happy because I love him so much and have missed him and sad because we had to go and I don't know when I will talk with him again. I do know that I will. I feel him and he feels me more than he ever has. I logged off the computer last night and just laid back down on the couch with my arms crossed around me as if I was holding something and I fell asleep there as if he were holding me. I woke up and was able to go into my bed feeling really warm and safe and felt like I slept in his arms most of the night.
This morning when I woke up, I cried. I have this feeling it is time. This is the month where everything changes...this is the beginning...how appropriate and today is my birthday....hmmm I must have put this in the divine plan.
So I did a little gift for myself---I did a little reading for me with Angel Cards. As you all know, I don't use cards when I do my readings, but this is me doing it for me so I used cards so I couldn't dispute what I was feeling or sensing (believe me when you want to hear something and you hear it sometimes you doubt it thinking it is just because that is what you want to hear). So I want to share this reading with you all...
The card reading I just did for me is below. The question I asked was, what message do you have for me about me and my twin:
Overall: a happy new move or place of employment is in the works. The movement will usher in new positive energy. (I have pulled this card twice recently when I asked a question about my twin. So I feel this is about him and changes he is making or about to make...it does involve me.)
Possible Block: Make a Decision Feeling Stuck or indecisive. Listen to your intuition and make a decision. (I feel like this is for him and me. He does have decisions to make and they are being placed in front of him each day until he makes them. But I also feel this is for me, it is reminding me to just listen to the intuition I am receiving about us and go with it.)
Angel's Guidance: Yes, the timing is right for this new happy adventure. A Happy Outcome follows your positive expectations. (It is NOW!! Resonates with the message I got about this month ushers in a new beginning.)
Have Faith: Prayers are manifesting. Remain Positive, and follow your guidance. (This one well you know this is about me keeping the faith, but as I type this I think it is also for him to hold on to the faith of my love for him. It will help him through this time too. As for me, I'm working on keeping the faith.)
Thank you all for witnessing my evolution.....and for being there perhaps silent witnesses sometimes to my journey, but nonetheless for supporting me by way of witnessing me. My love is here to share with the world and I share it all with you today....
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