Happy Earth Day!!

Channeled Message from The Masters of Light through EstaRa in Guilford, CT on Sunday, April 22, 2012. Happy Earth Day Everyone! I know many of you are disappointed that the weather is a bit glum looking out at least here in CT. I spend a good chunk of the afternoon outside with my friends as I channeled live and connected to Earth yesterday. It was a marvelous day yesterday. I am in the process of manifesting beautiful weather on this day for a workhsop I am teaching this afternoon (the plan is to be outside in honor of the Earth). I ask that each of you today think of one way in which you can honor the earth everyday going forward and I suggest that it be a way in which you may have only thought of and not done or have not yet thought of. Every little step you make to assist the healing of the earth will make her ascension that much more smoothly because remember what you do with you impacts her and what we do to help her impacts us. Love from EstaRa A little message from my guides... " Dear ones, everyday is your Earth Day. The earth is nurturing as your mother in that she carries you, feeds you and provides with all that is necessary for your physical incarnation. We ask that you show her love, honor and respect everyday for the gifts she provides you. Let today be the moment you shift and recognize the gifts from the earth and what is necessary to assist her in full ascension. We love, honor and respect each of you on your journey and thank you in caring for your planet." --The Masters of Light.

Inspirational Snippet: Yout Light

I was prompted by my guides to share today's Soul Star Healing facebook message to the children of earth and expand a bit upon it. Today's Message: You are each a star into yourself. Your light permeates the world around you with the vibration of light. We ask you to shine proudly in love. If you are feeling anxiety, hopelessness, unclear or simply afraid to make the next step,please know that is not love that you are using to guide you rather it is fear. Step away from fear by acknowledging it and trusting in the grace of your self love to guide you. Your self love is the key that unlocks your ability to live fully upon this earth at this time. Your self love is the most precious gift you can ever give yourself. When you really love yourself, you continue upon your journey healing the many layers of yourself that have kept you stuck, hopeless, anxious and confused. "We suggest you view fear as a sign that you are ready to heal whatever it is you are afraid of; rather than use it as a motivation to not move forward. There is no reason to fear, fear itself. There is only reason to love yourself more." --The Masters of Light. The quickest easiest way to to love yourself is to love yourself. "To love yourself is to see the value in your indeliable being. It is not for someone outside yourself to see your love or value; it is for you to remember your love and value. The lessons which you have chosen to undergo in this particular lifetime upon your earth have brought you here."--The Masters of Light. My guides talk about this time on our planet being one of great transformation and change. It is clear that the biggest lesson for each individual upon this earth at this time is to love themselves for in doing so much power will come to them. It is the love of themself that fuels their choices and fuels the changes and transformation of this earth from one wallowing in separation and control to one of unity and trust. My wish for you today is to see you and learn to look at yourself with love. Love to you, EstaRa

Day 93: At Last

Well, it is another beautiful day in Connecticut. I woke up this morning to my I-phone playing the song "At Last" by Celine Dion. It is really a beautiful song. I know it was from my beautiful twinflame's soul. I love it. Here it is for you to listen to.. I have been experiencing so much energy from my twinflame over the last couple of days...I feel him and the stuff he is going through. I have been having amazing experiences and seeing amazing visions. I hope to share them with you someday. I feel the time is growing nearer and the song helped me to realize that he has had a great deal of revelations today. I am sure you all like the short blog post today....don't worry my real wordy ones will be back soon. hahaha

Day 92: Acomplishing the Impossible

Hello World,

As I mentioned in my blog yesterday. There wer4e a number of bees surrounding me. I looked up bees and this is what I found ...I wanted to share it with you all..

the following information was taken from www.linsdomain.com. This is where I looked up Bee as Animal Totem. I read this and thought...hmmm...this is definitely for me especially accomplishing the impossible. Anyone agree about this?

BEE

Fertility and the Honey of Life,
Accomplishing the Impossible


Bees are the symbol of fertility and sexuality.
Its honeycomb, a hexagon, is the symbol of the heart and
represents the sweetness of life found within our own heart.
It is also the symbol of the sun and all its energies.

The bee reminds us to extract the honey of life
and to make our lives fertile (productive) while the sun shines.
No matter how great the dream is, there is the promise of fulfillment
if we pursue our dreams.

If a Bee has shown up in your life, examine your own productivity.
Are you doing all you can to make your life more fertile?
Are you busy enough?
Are you making time to savor the honey of life and not becoming a workaholic?

The Bee is the symbol of accomplishing the impossible.
Aerodynamically, its body is too large for its wings and should not be able to fly.
Although now we understand how it does fly (high rate of wing movement),
the Bee remains a symbol of accomplishing anything you put your mind to.

Anyway, that is my post for the day.

Day 91: Almost There

First, let me start off the day with saying so much for my 30-60 day journey; it is apparent to me that I will be writing until my twin and I reunite. Perhaps when it finally happens, I shall say HE IS HERE. That would be my blog post for the day. :)
I like the sound of that. So one of these days, you can expect that...

Second, I had a dream last night where one of my friends I hadn't seen in awhile came to one of my classes. She said hello and pointed to her belly and said, "are you?" I knew what she meant. She wanted to know if I was pregnant. I said no and she paused for a moment and said, "well I am seeing it again (referring to seeing me pregnant) and it is stronger now so it is really close. I see twins." It really stuck with me, I woke up thinking about it. It occurred to me that she meant the twins will be birthed soon. My reunion is very near is what I feel. I also feel like there is some truth to the pregnancy in the sense that I am pregnant carrying the vibration of my twin until he is ready to be birthed as a twinflame. I also think there is some truth to pregnancy because he and I are going to have a baby girl. I see her and I talk to her sometimes too.

Third, yesterday, I was at the Acupuncturist. (I am really going to continue the work I need to fix my body so that the back pain is moved out of my body for good.) Now, usually these appointments are really relaxing. Yesterday was the first day that I did not take Advil the night before or during the day--woo hoo so I was really clear. (ahhh, but I took Advil last night---really bad pain, but I am feeling better this morning.) Not to mention, I was so clear because I was receiving acupuncture which helps the energy flow that much better. Anyway, I finally start to relax (it is community acupuncture so others are in the room too.) When I got there, I was alone. But, as I was drifting off to the higher dimensions to talk with my beloved twinflame, I felt another conversation taking place. It was between me and another, but no big deal. Then it became, me and another and then I felt pain like you wouldn't believe in my neck and shoulder. At that point, I had to open my eyes and I looked over and the acupuncturist was putting a needle into the woman to my right in exactly the same spot I felt pain. It was horrible at first until I identified that it was not mine.

So, I was able to go back into the 12th dimension where I spoke with my guides. They told me that my beloved is near and it is all happening. They said that the energy of the twinflame reunion is now in the 6th dimension so it had trickled down and only one more dimension for it to travel to him in physical form. Phewwwww--one more thank Goodness, but remember it was 2010 when it was in the 8th dimension--it took all that time, but when you think about it. It really wasn't such a bad thing and well I can handle it is soon. I did travel to speak to my twin in the higher dimensions and he said, "Hang On, I am almost there." Then all day yesterday, I kept hearing the song, "Hang on, Help is On The Way" by Little River Band. I even woke up to that song on and off all night and then again this morning.

Anyway, before I left the Acupuncturist's office, I gave readings to the two women because what had happened, when they came into the room, the Acupuncturist began putting needles into the first woman and I was with her spirit in the higher dimensions (she was not aware) and the information was so beneficial to her as to what is going on inside of her. She had a life in Ancient Rome and the experiences in that life are coming up now and she is experiencing the same emotions now which is causing the pain she is experiencing today. (not the same problems clearly because "time" is different. The same thing happened with the other woman in the room. Her past life was associated with the time of Ben Franklin and setting up this country's government. Again she was experiencing the same emotions as in that life. These women were lucky to get so much information about what needs ti happen in this life to solve the physical manifestation of what they are experiencing. I hope they do work through it and use the information I gave to them. It was so clear!!

Fourth, some interesting stuff is coming up about Mary Magdalene and me. The connection is more than just the twinflame connection. I will write more at another about that.

Finally, I am surrounded by bumble bees here in my back deck. I have been outside for about an hour as I meditated and wrote this blog post and they keep swarming around me. I shall talk about them tomorrow.

Okay...I have to work for the day,...blessings to all.

Day 89: Road to Faith was Paved with Unworthiness Now that Has Changed

Inspirational Snippet: Worthiness

I had an epiphany today…that I am valuable, a necessary piece of the puzzle, worthy of all I desire and more. Now I have always known that in my head and have understood it in my heart for others, but today I feel it inside of me. I truly feel it inside of me. I thank you all my beautiful friends for helping me to feel it and assisting me on my journey to worthiness. The clearing of my past and the unworthiness chain that has followed me around for sometime…I am ready now to release that. I am ready and willing to release my need to feel unworthy. I am worthy. I am worthy of all that I desire. I am worthy because I am.

About a month ago, I ran a class on Manifesting Your Dreams through using your thoughts. I had taught a similar class to this in the past, but this time I allowed my guides to teach it. I mean I channeled everything I talked about. I even remember the second week of the class, I said to my students. I know you had homework, how was it? What was it? I seriously didn't remember anything I had said or taught that day, but the message that was clear to me is that there are certain core beliefs each of us developed as young children and incorporated them as part of us. And, it is time to let them go. (Tip for you---what core belief no longer serves you? Look at the signs in your life and see where that is stuck and really look into the layers of things that are stuck. You may need assistance with the step many of us do---I’d be happy to help you, but you must be willing to do the work for when we work together the energy gets moving rapidly. )

I gave my students homework to get to the core belief that was underlying the difficulty they were having in achieving what it is they were wanting. As you all know, I don't ever give homework to clients or students that I have not done myself so I understand what it is I am giving each of you. Now, I have noticed that so many people need to first fall in love with themselves. They often tell me that they love themsleves, but I can feel the lack of love for themselves even with their speaking it. Loving yourself requires you to be able to look deep within your soul by connecting with your eyes and telling you that you love you (This is a suggestion for those of you who want to take that step. Spend five minutes a day telling yourself that you love you, but not just standing their repeating it--establish a soul connection by looking at your eyes and speaking to the little girl or boy inside of you. Say the following: I love and accept myself just as I am. And watch how magic happens.)

For me that part I can honestly say I got down I can truly look in the mirror and say I love me and really mean it and feel it. However, as we all know we have layers of stuff (healing that needs to clear). So I took notice during this class that one of the themes that kept coming up for me was worthiness. I felt unworthy. When the physical class ended, I have continued to work with my students in weekly 15-20 minute check in phone conferences. During our first phone call, I asked them to hold me accountable for my homework of working on my worthiness as I was holding them accountable for their work. Well, if you know me, you know I really do live the way I speak and off I went on my mission to reclaim my worthiness. I remember looking in the mirror saying, I am worthy. And hearing, in the back of my mind a voice that said, Are you? (I swear it felt like it came out of nowhere, but truly it was in the dark recesses of my mind.) That one moment spawned a whole mess of feelings, emotions and work to do. So like the good student, I did my work every day; honoring me for the voice I heard was really me and what really was going on not the words that I spoke out loud.

After a few weeks of doing my mirror exercises of “I am worthy. I am willing to release unworthiness.” I heard that voice again, but this time it said, "You Are." Wow!! I achieved it in my thoughts. I was no longer going against the thoughts in my head they were in unison. I was so proud, but felt I needed to continue working it. So I continued and things I have been manifesting, just began to show up (well really continue since last year things just happened.)

Then, almost two weeks ago, this back thing started. I began to do all I humanly knew as possible to clear up my back pain, including A LOT OF ENERGY HEALING!!! Well as you should well know, energy healing really gets things moving on all levels, spiritual, mental, emotional and physical. It worked my wish to heal this unworthiness issue that I have carried around for so many years has manifested through back pain and feelings of unworthiness. Without going into too much more detail, people started showing me how worthy I am. Everything culminated this past week when I was receiving all these beautiful gifts of love and friendship. Things that were never expected or thought; all was extremely needed. Last night, I had the assistance of friend who witnessed my emotions and my discoveries of where the beliefs of unworthiness began. She was an Angel to me last night not that I don’t appreciate her all the time, but it was what I needed last night ---hmmm another beautiful manifestation.

Truthfully, it overwhelmed the heck out of me, but in a good way, (I remember my twin saying that I overwhelmed him, but in a good way. I never understood what he meant until this moment. But I digress.) You would think that beautiful things that people give me or share with me or help me with would make me feel so loved and worthy, but what I discovered that it made me feel less. I felt inferior like I owe something because I can't give back in the same way that they can offer the help to me when I need it. I have always had that independent attitude that I can do everything; I thought I had to and it seems really clear to me now that I wanted to do so that I wouldn’t feel inferior. (ding ding) Wow, new revelation at this moment for me. It isn't because these beautiful people make me feel that way. It is because I make/made me feel this way based on my belief that I am/was not worthy of being here or I am/was not good enough.

Today, I discovered I can and do give back ME and that ME IS ENOUGH. I am worthy. I want to shout it out to the world so everyone knows and perhaps it will get through to me too—once and for all! I think the truth is that I am the only one it has to get through no one else. It needs to be my truth every moment of every day of my life.

So in a long winded way, the truth is that this helped me to understand and renewed my faith in the reunion of my twin….this worthiness thing is something that both he and I have had all our lives. I realize that I need to continue my journey of taking care of me by accepting and allowing me to feel worthy until it is a natural inherent part of me just as the old belief was. I have full faith he is coming and on his way to me….I feel like this was a profound healing for me…but no I am not done, but perhaps almost done on this layer. I am worthy of the full reunion with my twinflame.Thank you all you beautiful souls for bearing witness to my journey and perhaps I have been able to impart some wisdom to you. Blesssings.

Day 86: Recovery Mode

Hello World,

I know, I know. It has been 7 days since I last wrote a post. I am in recovery mode. Last Thursday, I got up and had several hours before my clients so I decided a good day to clean. Apparently cleaning requires moving furniture around so I moved furniture and made my living room look different and good, but I hurt my back. Yes, it wasn't the smartest move to make. I thought it was my hip, but it appears to be my back. I feel a pinched nerve in my back. So the last few days I have been in pain and avoiding my blogging and really not doing much of anything since last Thursday with the exception of taking Advil. If you know me, you know that I don't take any medication and Advil kicks my butt and makes me sleepy and unclear so I experienced a spacey weekend.

Yesterday, was my first day back to normal sort of, but I know I need to still take it easy and I am. It hasn't stopped my twin from calling me. He phoned me so much this past weekend. I wanted so badly to speak with him. I was so tempted to phone him, but I had a couple of friends here being supported of me. They watched movies with me and gave me the encouragement to be strong. I have to admit I need that with all this because the one thing I want more than anything is to be talking to this man. I love him.

Day 79: Destroyed a Pillow

It has been a few days since I last wrote my blog post about me and my twin. He continued to call me up until Tuesday. I believe he is away. I always know when he is away even if I don't speak with him--I just feel it.

Today was a difficult day. I woke up this morning and had a little pain in my left hip and then I cleaned and my hip got worse. I've been in some horrible pain today. At first, I thought it was because I was holding onto anger. I am frustrated with my twin for taking so long. He is supposed to be here. I am not supposed to do this alone. I have always known he is out there and I finally found him and where the heck is he now? He should be here with me. SO I grabbed a pillow and single-handedly destroyed the pillow--I mean the stuffing came out. I beat it up shouting and crying. Then I thought that would make my hip better, but no such luck. Later in the day, I wrote and wrote and wrote.

I realized something different. I had tears today not because he is not with me, not because I was waiting but this time because I know he will be here soon. I have truly looked for him all my life and I found him and soon he will be here with me. I long to love him and tell him how much I love him everyday. It is so powerfully, beautiful to recognize love when you have it and to know it is going to be better than we can imagine.

I am getting ready for bed, but wanted to write. This journey has not always been easy and I am talking the journey of being psychic. It definitely has been fun, but surely not always easy. I feel this sense of relief for it is soon...

Just a little while ago, I talked with my twinflame's spirit and told him that I was sorry for having such high expectations, sorry for rushing him to learn his lessons, sorry for pressuring him; I never want to hurt him. I only want to love him. It felt important that I acknowledge those things.

Anyway, I am tired and need to go to bed now...

Day 76: Everyday is April

The month of April is here. I gave me a weekend off from writing my blog. I gave me some time to digest the many calls I have been receiving from my twinflame. Secretly, I love his calls and hang ups even if it is a little annoying and a little torturous at times, but it helps me to know that he thinks of me, misses me and loves me as I do him. If he can't say it with words, I know his heart says when he does that. It gladdens my heart and makes me smile knowing that he is thinking of me, even if he doesn't feel free enough to speak...I hope does one day soon.

Yesterday was the first day of April. I can't believe it is April. Time has flown since January even faster than it has and wow we are already in April. I like the speed with which time is moving faster because it means the faster the time goes, the quicker I will be with my twinflame. Phew...bring it on...

Now back to the fact that this month is April....my twin must be slammed with my name...how could he not ? He lives by calendars and my name is all over them. He must be going crazy...I know I would be if I were him. There is a small bit of pleasure I take in knowing that everywhere he turns this month, my name is being spoken, presented, writing, thought of simply because it is my month. Thanks mom and dad for my name. Hmmm...I wonder if one of the very real reasons I was named April was so that in this point in our journey my name would be needed to tip the scale so that my twin would be faced with my name at a very critical point: the time of reunion. If the reunions are necessary this year, then the time is right and my name is needed. lol Of course, I get a little taste of it (well, a lot a taste of it) I don't watch television much; but in the last few months the few things I watched on Hulu.com inevitably had commercials with his name...okay so every commercial I saw had his name in it; his name was said over and over. Now mind you, his name is not that common today, but apparently it is for commercials. Or the universe just showed me the same commercials over and over. hahaha