Day 52:

Today is the 52nd day on my journey to keep the faith about my reunion with my twinflame. Today I woke up and felt a little different than I did the past few days before. If you noticed, I was filled with hope and excitement about my reunion with my twinflame. Today however, I didn't feel as much enthusiasm. Is it because I believe less? No. It is because I discovered something today about me. I discovered that I have some fear. The fear is located in my body..it is a body memory that I am ready to release now that I discovered it was there. The body memory is connected to fear I feel with regard to my twin. There is so many fears all wrapped into one as I right this I get this image of an elastic band ball, did you ever see one of those?

That is what I have as a visual in my mind right now. It looks colorful, but complicated; it really isn't if you take one elastic at a time. So I guess, I have been pulling off the elastics so to speak. The elastic I found today was that I have some fears with my beloved. I am afraid that he will not come to me. I am afraid that he was so wonderful last week when we conversed, but was that just a one time thing? I am afraid he hasn't changed. I am afraid he won't come to me. I am afraid he will forget me. I know, I know as I type this I am well aware how ridiculous this all sounds. But that was my new discovery. I now know what the fears are and now it is time to overcome them and just trust.

The message I got over and over is that he has changed and to see him as changed. I often hear listen to him...allow him to show himself to you. I want to, but there is this learned behavior that I have developed in this lifetime perhaps it has a seed from previous lifetimes too (I am tingling so that is a yes). It is time to unlearn and come back to fully trusting and realizing that his behavior isn't about me. It is about him dealing with the stuff he has to overcome. I know I teach not to take personally what someone else says and does, but I sometimes forget especially when it comes to my twinflame; perhaps because he and I are so similar in so many ways.

So for tonight, I am going to embrace these fears and work through them one by one. How appropriate, methinks...it is the evening of the full moon...perfect timing to release... Good night world....

Day 51: One Day Closer

Good Afternoon World,

I was up early and ready to start my day. I woke up yesterday feeling a bit of relief after I experienced a bit of heaviness the past couple of days. I woke this morning feeling that I am one day closer to the reunion with my twinflame. I feel it...look out world because when we come together the whole world will feel it--that I am sure of!

I was out the door early and feeling excited to start my day, I can feel the momentum of life picking up. Something is coming I feel it.......and then I spoke to my guides and they told me to turn the radio on now. They As I turned it on, I heard the news on the radio station stating that there is a Solar Storm that may interrupt electronics. I smiled and my guides said "good one Lil Grasshopper" (they like to be funny). The congratulated me on knowing it once again. I tend to experience the "symptoms" if you will prior to the event.

As I sit here out on my back deck in the beautiful warm day in Guilford, I think of how people think the solar flares will only impact electronics, but I know differently--it will "light up" each and every one on the planet. It is here to assist in the ascension process; how else would people light up? Especially the ones resisting, my guides are telling me as I type this. Boy, I think to myself, my twin must glow in the dark by now with all the light that has come his way and yet he is still not with me as of yet. Oy!!

Anyway, I digress, the word is ...I feel one day closer....what is the date? I have no idea, but then again I don't think I am supposed to know....I just know it is soon. hahaha

Channeled Message: Maintain Your Balance

I was prompted by my guides once again to share my daily message from my Facebook Fan Page as they feel it is very pertinent to each of you.

Today's message....You have an important role on this planet and that is in assisting others. However, dear ones, the person in most need of your assistance is you. You must take good care of your physical, mental, emotional and spiritual needs before you can effectively assist others. We do not proclaim you need to be perfect in doing so, but we urge you to be in a state of continually working at maintaining the necessary balance for you. If you are honest with yourself you will know what you need to do. Your planet has a lot of people talking, but if there was ever a time to follow what you speak it is now.

Many people are now stepping into the path of healing, coaching and assisting others; that is because people are beginning to see where their path lies. The ascension of humanity or what is more easily understood, the evolution of human consciousness is happening now and many will be seeking assistance. If this is a true path for you, my guides say that it is important that you do take care of yourself and find that balance within you each and every day for it isn’t possible to be the light in this world unless your fully shining your light.

My guides would like to speak to this…
The energy on your planet is evolving and changing the way in which people are experiencing their world. The time is now to step into your emPOWERment. Gone is the belief that “if you cannot do, you teach.” Dear ones, you must do in order to teach. Gone is the belief “you can focus on helping others so you don’t have to worry about your personal situations.” Dear ones, if you are not actively working on your personal situations they will prevent you from truly helping others. You are the only one who can change your world. Your ascension, dear ones, begins with you. See the truth in your life and begin to change it from there for now is the time to heal yourselves because soon your services will be needed and there will be no time to heal as the earth’s vibration moves faster. Your planet needs healers to be prepared to assist others from a place of balance for your assistance is only as beneficial as you are for you. Let this message ring loud and true for each of you.

Today is a new day and we ask you to select where you put your energy each day. We informed EstaRa prior to this channel that the Solar Flares are making news in your regular media. The media is attempting to deal with this information in one of two ways: creating frenzy or downplaying the effects. The truth is dear ones, you must seek to find your answers in yourself on how the solar flares affect you. The human time in between each solar flare is getting shorter; therefore, your energy body (light body) needs to be prepared as well. Your time is well worth spent in balancing yourself mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually each day. For each day, you are given the opportunity for renewal. Remember dear ones, when you are well so too are the people around you and when you are not, so too are the people around you.

We wish you to ride the waves of energy from a safe distance from the rest of humanity; however, that is your choice dear ones. It is your choice in how you choose to experience what is happening upon the planet. We wish you well and wish for you to see that now is the time. It is with love, honor and respect that we bring you this message today.

We are the Masters of Light. Namaste.

Day 50: Expect the Unexpected

Since Sunday, I have been waking up feeling and hearing I need to be prepared. Yesterday, I kept feeling like I need to be prepared. I am supposed to be prepared for him...for my twinflame to arrive. I have never felt this preparation theme before. I mean I have felt it for some other things in my life, but not for the ultimate preparation for my twin to arrive! I feel excited and yet at the same time, I feel this sense of urgency.

All day yesterday, I kept feeling like I had to cut my fingernails. In case you don't know, my fingernails grow like mad. I have to keep cutting them because they grow so long and hard. I've been getting the message to cut them the last three days, but I avoided it thinking I should go for a manicure and then I realize I don't want to spend my money on that when I have to buy food, gas, etc. I kept saying to myself all day yesterday that I would cut my nails before I went to bed. (By the way, this is significant and I know somehow it is associated with my twin because I remember one time my nails were so long that I hurt him accidentally one time when I saw him.) Last night, I got all ready to go to sleep, snuggled in my bed, under the covers and fell asleep. I woke up a couple hours later, got out of bed and clipped my fingernails and filed them before going back to sleep. I did it...an accomplishment for me really.

This morning when I woke up at 6:30 (slept in this morning) I got this beautiful message to share with my clients on the Soul Star Healing fan page on Facebook...it motivated me to write the above snippet. Here is the message that really motivated me this morning...

Today's message...Embrace the magic within all of your daily experiences today, including the mundane tasks. Many small, yet wonderful surprises are coming your way. Begin to expect the unexpected and you will begin to see as the miracles occur.

The message goes along with the feelings I have been having. The interesting thing is that I was on the phone with my friend this morning and I heard myself saying, "All this time, I've been waiting and waiting for him to come and now I feel like I am unprepared." Really? Who am I kidding? I am ready for him to arrive, but there is a few things that I would like to have look great for him to step into. Either way, I feel really motivated today...and the faith is on....

Inspirational Snippet: Expect the Unexpected

I woke this morning with a beautiful message...as I lie in bed making a decision if I was going to sleep in or get up this morning. I chose to wake up early do a little work out, but the big motivator was this message I was given to share with everyone for today. Here is the message I placed on the Soul Star Healing fan page from my guides:

Today's message...Embrace the magic within all of your daily experiences today, including the mundane tasks. Many small, yet wonderful surprises are coming your way. Begin to expect the unexpected and you will begin to see as the miracles occur.

This message so resonated with me today; because I think we all get stuck in our routines or struggle to make it through our daily tasks. Why does that happen? Often we are not able to see the magic that we can create within our day. I know that for me, it happens sometimes too. In my work, I tend to over give and yes people tend to appreciate the work I do at the time, but often my work goes unnoticed otherwise. The days I start to feel like I don’t want to do anything (That is my tell tale sign—and yes it happens to me too!), it is a sign for me to look at my life and see how my balance is. I’ve learned and noticed that once in awhile this happens to me to remind me to take note of what is happening. Often it means that I am working too much, spending too much time with people that are not feeling happy with their life (could be work that is exposing me to this or some friends) or I am not making it fun. It takes a beautiful sunrise to en-LIGHTen my thoughts and remind me to explore the current day differently. Bring back my child-like wonder…Yes that is what I said child-like wonder. Remember as a child everything you saw or experienced was new and exciting; let that be the lead for your new day.

While many people laugh or tease me about how I can spend hours looking out my living room window amused by nature as it plays in front of me or that I find everything, everywhere in the shape of a heart, taking note of these things is what makes magic happen in my life. It sustains me and assists me to not take one moment for granted. I know what helps me to restore my energy to a child-like state of wonder, what do you have that helps you to restore yours?

My wish for you today is to discover what helps you to restore your child-like state of wonder and to embrace the magic in your daily life so that miracles can happen.

Be love,
EstaRa

Day 49: Quest to Keep the Faith is Stronger Today

Well, I have started to write several times over the last few days, but then the information was way off tangent and had nothing to do with my twinflame and yet it did. I have decided along with my guides to post my writings as a separate article or snippet over the coming days.

I am sitting here in my apartment finished with appointments for the day and spent the last hour and half working on a painting I am creating for my niece for her birthday. It has to be something simple and yet I want to place much of my vibration into it for her to take. I have felt like I don't want to do anything for the past several days, but I realize this is not my personal feeling. I feel like this is my twinflame's feelings. I have been feeling his stuff more than anything lately.

So much happened since I last wrote in the blog. I talked with my twin again very briefly on Saturday. I felt his urgency to talk with me and felt his need to escape whatever is happening in his life at this moment. Our conversation was not as amazing as it was the couple of days prior. My friend intuited a message for me that resonated and that was to ignore the second conversation that it wasn't the changed him..it was the old him trying to avoid dealing with what is necessary for him at the moment. That was really hard to hear, but understandable.

Then on Sunday, I felt him for a good part of the day. Sometimes when I feel him I feel his love, I feel his physical anxiety or his physical body aches like stomach or headaches and often I have to question it to determine if it is mine or if it is his. I felt all of the above on Sunday.

Then I went to see a movie and on my drive, all of a sudden I had this wave of energy that kept coming over my body. I was covered in head to toe with tingling...waves over an over again. The only feeling I got and my friend confirmed was that my beloved twin had a realization--a wake up call if you will. He realizes what he needs to do. It was like his adrenaline lf discovery. It was amazing really. Because of this magnificent energy on Sunday, I felt more confident when I woke up yesterday morning. The quest to keep the faith gets easier and more difficult at the same time, but the truth remains the faith is much stronger than it used to be.

Okay off to finish up something else....

Day 43: It's My Birthday

It's my birthday today and I woke up and cried. It isn't because I am another year older. It isn't because it is my birthday--it is because my longing for my twinflame is greater than ever before. I feel it is so close for us that now all the feelings are so intensified.

I had an early birthday present last night. I talked to my twinflame on line for two hours through instant messenger. It is the first time in a long time that we talked back and forth through that medium. Towards the beginning of the conversation. He wrote "I miss you." I could feel his sincerity from just that message and then he followed it up with "raising hand." So I guess my guides were right (as if I doubt them), I do need to say whatever I feel at the time I feel it. He was really cute last night and I really had fun. I felt like we were on a date. I know that sounds weird, but it is true. It was different--all of it was different...but truly in a very good way. We ended our conversation with a simple thank you for the fun conversation and bye. We didn't say we'd talk again...we just enjoyed each other in that moment. Of course, when we finished I cried, but the tears were both mixed happy and sad. Happy because I love him so much and have missed him and sad because we had to go and I don't know when I will talk with him again. I do know that I will. I feel him and he feels me more than he ever has. I logged off the computer last night and just laid back down on the couch with my arms crossed around me as if I was holding something and I fell asleep there as if he were holding me. I woke up and was able to go into my bed feeling really warm and safe and felt like I slept in his arms most of the night.

This morning when I woke up, I cried. I have this feeling it is time. This is the month where everything changes...this is the beginning...how appropriate and today is my birthday....hmmm I must have put this in the divine plan.

So I did a little gift for myself---I did a little reading for me with Angel Cards. As you all know, I don't use cards when I do my readings, but this is me doing it for me so I used cards so I couldn't dispute what I was feeling or sensing (believe me when you want to hear something and you hear it sometimes you doubt it thinking it is just because that is what you want to hear). So I want to share this reading with you all...

The card reading I just did for me is below. The question I asked was, what message do you have for me about me and my twin:

Overall: a happy new move or place of employment is in the works. The movement will usher in new positive energy. (I have pulled this card twice recently when I asked a question about my twin. So I feel this is about him and changes he is making or about to make...it does involve me.)

Possible Block: Make a Decision Feeling Stuck or indecisive. Listen to your intuition and make a decision. (I feel like this is for him and me. He does have decisions to make and they are being placed in front of him each day until he makes them. But I also feel this is for me, it is reminding me to just listen to the intuition I am receiving about us and go with it.)

Angel's Guidance: Yes, the timing is right for this new happy adventure. A Happy Outcome follows your positive expectations. (It is NOW!! Resonates with the message I got about this month ushers in a new beginning.)

Have Faith: Prayers are manifesting. Remain Positive, and follow your guidance. (This one well you know this is about me keeping the faith, but as I type this I think it is also for him to hold on to the faith of my love for him. It will help him through this time too. As for me, I'm working on keeping the faith.)

Thank you all for witnessing my evolution.....and for being there perhaps silent witnesses sometimes to my journey, but nonetheless for supporting me by way of witnessing me. My love is here to share with the world and I share it all with you today....