Journey of a Psychic: EstaRa's Healing Journey

Day 11: Somewhere in Time

2012-01-27T11:21:00.000-05:00

I wasn't able to write this yesterday because I was crying so much. When I woke up yesterday, I was a little under the weather and napped on and off all day. Of course, I don't know about you, but if you have a million and one things to do, you do them even if you are sick or you at least attempt to do them. So at one point yesterday, I grabbed a hold of my mail. Now in case you do not know, I often pick up my mail and put it in a pile on my desk (if you saw my desk you will know what I mean!).

I walked over to my and began to open it. Recently, I ordered a movie from Amazon, Illusion. So as I started to pour through my pile of mail, I found that movie, but I had found a second package that felt like a movie from Amazon.com too. I hadn't noticed it until now that there were two envelopes from Amazon. (I know that tells you how ungrounded I am when I get my mail! hahaha) I opened the Illusion movie and then I grabbed the other one...and the other movie was Somewhere in Time. I didn't order it. It just found its way to my house. I was obviously gifted it, but there wasn't a note or anything in there, simply the movie was there.

At the first look at the movie cover I started to cry. I have seen this movie before and I loved it when I saw it, but I cried like a baby when I saw it back in the late 80's before I met my twinflame (I was only a teen). I cried because I remember the beauty of this movie.

Then, I sat down as I cried and I looked at the cover and saw the following words: "He sacrificed his present for love in the past". OMG I cried. And cried. And cried. (Did I tell you that I cried?) I didn't know what to think....my first feeling was someone has been reading my blog and sent it to me because it is a Twinflame movie and they know it. Then I thought OMG they think I am sacrificing my life (the present) waiting...wasting my time waiting for my twin to wake up and what a tragedy. Then, I went to the emotions of maybe someone saw the movie and thought of me. They understood. They understand. EstaRa needs to know she is not alone and she needs to know others honor her and believe in her.

I don't know who sent it to me, but I am grateful. I am truly grateful for the gift, the love of someone who cares so deeply for me to let me know I am not alone, even if they do not want the acknowledgement, I am truly grateful for knowing that I am loved, appreciated and my writing about this journey of mine is not fruitless. Love and thank you, thank you.

The day went on and I felt a little better and put the thought beside. Then last night I was checking my email and friend of mine sent out a mail with the you tube theme song from the movie, Somewhere in Time. OMG I started to cry again and I realize there is a message in there somewhere. I talked to a friend this morning and she suggested that perhaps I need to watch the movie and maybe there is a message for me in it. I have to admit I am afraid to watch it. I told my friend that if I watch it I worry that I will cry and not come out of the tear storm that will come down my face.

This whole thing really undid me!! (by the way, I believe I am PMS'ing hence the undoing of me...it is always easier on hormones! NOT!) Today, I feel better and I feel clearer that I should watch this movie, but I am teaching class tonight, tomorrow and Sunday I am doing readings so it is not likely for me to watch until Monday. I will keep you posted on when I watch this and what the message may be....or if any of you have a thought as to why I was given the movie and sent an email with the theme music from the movie..I'd love to hear it...

for now...I hold the faith that it is soon. (If you have not seen this movie, you should totally see it especially if you are experiencing a twinflame thing of your own.)

Inspirational Snippet: When You Know You Are Done

2012-01-27T08:25:00.000-05:00

Today's message came to me while I was lying in bed. It is about when you know you are done it is not out of anger or fear that you decide (though that may have been your motivation for discovering you are done), but it is out of love. You accept that the next step on your journey is to let go and move on. In doing so you are expressing not only love for yourself, but love for the other person too. I asked my guides for clarity and it evolved to another conversation with them so to speak:

When you decided to come to earth (every time you have chosen to experience a lifetime), you gathered together with the major souls who were going to be part of your journey (the main characters if you will) and agreed to assist one another on their path. The plan was set into motion and would evolve by the choices one makes on their journey (of course there is free will). It was agreed that there would be a reason to come together and there would come a time to part for the lessons have been learned. All parties agree. (EstaRa asked what about the children? How could their lessons have been learned?) The children have chosen the particular family based on the lessons that those people within that family have chosen to experience. The agreements were created to assist each soul on their process of ascension.

The earth has always been a school. A school where each soul gets the opportunity to learn what they wish. (It is almost like when you can select what classes you wish to experience in your educational system instead you are selecting what experiences you wish to have.) The experiences are the lessons. They have always been the experiences to bring you back to God---the process of Ascension. Sometimes the lessons come immediately by being born and raised in the family and sometimes those lessons are learned if and when the family is apart. There is so much value in your journey and on your path. Living life on earth has so much to offer.

Things have changed dear ones. The time has come for you to know that agreements have been upheld and the lessons are here for you to learn (Some of you have already learned what is necessary.). However, there was an expiration date for the agreements. Not something you can imagine, can you? The expiration date is this year, the year of 2012. Agreements started to become null and void after October 28, 2011. What does that mean for you? It simply means you are done with your agreements and you have carried out your plan marvelously, but now is the time to choose what you will do with that knowledge. You have followed the rules of the school so well and easily forgotten that you are the one in control and you are the one in power. You have remained powerless often due to the agreements you had made and to the belief systems you so willingly accepted. Now, it is time to take back your power. The only thing holding you back dear ones, is you.

The agreements expired. Again, what does that mean? It means you can freely move about the planet. (We hope you like that line, EstaRa loves that tag line from one of her favorite airline commercials.) It means you no longer are tied to situations, people, places or things like you were in the past. The only thing holding you in that stagnant place is you. You have a choice now to truly follow your heart. It is time to become aware of the gift you have within you. All roads are open, which path do you choose? One that you pave by way of seeing your power and magic or one that you follow because it appears to be the most accepted? The turmoil on your planet has more to do with your own inner turmoil than it does with anything outside of yourselves. If you find peace within you find peace without.

EstaRa once wrote an article that shared the following...."Everyone wants peace on earth, but how in a world that does not know peace within is that possible? The key to world peace is to for each individual to find peace within themself for only then can they know what world peace is." EstaRa's wake up mission was to turn on the lights. She was given her mission.."Promoting HOPE (Healing Our Planet Earth) one person at a time through turning on the lights. You are the lights dear ones. You are the lights. This is the final year of this mission for EstaRa because as she has ascended and evolved so too has her mission. She will have succeeded in turning on the lights of those she meets. She does it simply by being. Your job dear ones is, now that EstaRa has assisted you in turning them on, to keep them on. EstaRa offers many ways for you to keep them turned on by way of her writing, her classes and her BE-ing, but the ultimate responsibility now lies within you. We bid you a day of magic, a day of knowing and a day of discovering when you know you are done. For in that moment, in that awakened moment of knowing you have completed that agreement, all things become possible even humanly from a place of love.

It is with love, honor and respect that we bring you this message today. Namaste. The Masters of Light.

Be love,
EstaRa

Day 10: Marry Me

2012-01-26T10:14:00.000-05:00

As you all may have noticed I did not blog yesterday. It was not intentional at first; I really did not have time to blog yesterday as I have had so much that had to be done. Then I got home last night at 9 p.m. or so and well the truth is that I didn't want to write about my twin because I was feeling sad and didn't want to put that energy out there.

It gets hard for me to make it through some days and well Tuesday, I just put the message out to my guides and angels to bring me some message today. Now, I don't know about you, but for the most part I can shut out background music when I am shopping because quite honestly lately when I go to the store now I am usually on a mission. (The energy is too much for me to linger too long!) So I went into one store and heard..."If I get the courage to (didn't hear anything else)....Marry Me." Then I walked into another store and the same song was playing, but I caught the same lyrics. Wow....the first time, I thought coincidence, but it really is never a coincidence (though I am still human at times and tend to doubt hence the homework from my guides to keep the faith).

Then, much later in the evening I was driving home and turned the radio on and guess what was playing? Yep, the same lyrics and this time I listened to more of the song. It is the song Marry Me by Train....

I was going to write about that above stuff yesterday morning, but never got to. So instead, I went to bed and my wish was to have sweet dreams of me and him. I used to have dreams where he and I would meet and discuss things going on in his life. I haven't had one of those in awhile and I miss them...anyone listening out there? hahaha

This morning I woke up at 6:30 and lingered in bed until about 8:30. I didn't want to get up. I didn't want to experience another day without him. So I didn't get up right away instead I laid there breathing and doing some energy work on my body. I could feel him. I could feel my twinflame and could him next to me in my bed (no he is not physically here with me), but I could feel him and I just laid in bed and talked to his spirit. He told me he loved me. He told me he thinks of me all the time. He told me that he misses me. (I swear if you were there in my room you would think wow she really does talk to herself.) He said he doesn't know. He said he couldn't figure it out. I cried a little, but I felt him and I felt closer to him today in a different way.

My beloved, you do know, you can figure it out, you are strong, you are courageous. I have faith in you! Thank you all for being my witness to this extraordinary experience that I am having.

Inspirational Snippet: Within You

2012-01-25T17:31:00.000-05:00

This morning's snippet has evolved into becoming a conversation with me and my guides. Open your hearts dear ones they say as you read this, for everything you need to know is here and highlighted for you.

When I woke up this morning I felt a great deal of frustration and realized it was not mine alone. Some was my twinflames as he is getting "hammered" by the energy to make a change in his life and the truth is that he knows he needs to, but he fears what others will think because some of the changes that need to happen are drastic and dramatic. He is also afraid of taking that step in fear that the sidewalk ends. These are some of the same fears that others are experiencing with the "hammering" energy prevalent on the planet. The hammer is being dropped on what it is that no longer serves you. Things will get more difficult at first gradually and then more intense. Everyone is experiencing it on some level. Those of us that have been working hard at clearing away what no longer serves us; and I do mean working because, boy it has been a challenge at times for the last several years, we are getting a bit of a breather if you will. Thank goodness. Now when I say breather by no means am I getting a breather from other people's stuff. Hence why I woke with this feeling of overwhelm by everyone choosing to dump their stuff whether it is directly on me or others; whether that is their intention or not it happens. Those of us that are sensitives are experiencing it more.

My guides prompted me this morning to sit with the energy and understand it a little better. They told me that I already knew what I needed to do. I sat with it and heard the answers from within me. I heard what I needed to take care of for me. In those answers what I needed to take care of me would be ultimately helping better take care of others themselves. I bring this up today because it is the truth. We do know what to do. We have all the answers inside of us....quite often we choose not to see them. I used to believe that it wasn't simply not always on someone's radar, but now I know differently. Everything is out there for revealing--everything. And in this energetic time of change and transformation, EVERYTHING IS RIGHT INSIDE for us to see. Perhaps we have sought answers from other people, perhaps we have sought prayers from other people, but the truth remains the one person that needs your prayers and your thoughts is you!!! Yes, perhaps, we have been getting subtle external messages about what needs to be done, but now the universe is bringing them to the forefront of our minds as things that need to change---this is only happening (the hammering I speak of ) as a reflection of what is transpiring inside of us; so ultimately, you are bringing it on. Do not blame others, do not fault others, you are the one in this because you are still choosing this. No choice, you say? No decision you make is a choice. What do you do? You wonder. You can continue to ask others for help or ask their advice but the truth remains you must do the work. You already have the answers within you as to what to do next. My guides ask you to answer the following: What are you waiting for? Is it fear? Is there a way to avoid the truth inside of you? Is getting the same answers from everyone really benefitting you if you do not do something with that information? What is your reason for keeping things the same? What is your reason for not choosing love? You have no excuses anymore....love is the only reason to choose anything in this world. Love is.

Be at peace,
EstaRa

Day 8: Our Meeting

2012-01-24T09:39:00.000-05:00

So I woke up this morning with the only thought and vision in my mind was of the night I met my twinflame. The night we physically met in person because as you know I met him online. I met him one year and four months after I was talking to him nearly every day several times a day. Hours at a time. Sometimes we would "come home" to each other after a long day. We would start talking on the phone 7:30/8:00 p.m. at night and talk until the wee hours of the morning. It was like having met my other half (okay, so I did! I just didn't really acknowledge that at first because really how weird was it from a human perspective to have feelings for someone you met online and let alone never met or saw a picture of? Yes, I can be a normal human too---even if I am and have always been blessed with a higher perspective.) I remember when he first developed feelings for me and admitted them...it was six months after talking daily. I was still holding back because I was afraid to really let him in because I had recently been hurt in a relationship.

Anyway, I digress I don't want to talk about year before meeting I just wanted to share what was in my heart this morning when I woke up. We had never exchanged pictures. My reasons for not sending pictures were because he wouldn't send one to me. I also was afraid he wouldn't like me. We had never talked about superficial stuff like what do you like about someone and what do you want in someone; ya know, the stuff that most people focus on instead our conversations were incredibly about everything in life...his work, my work, our experiences...like I said he was my other half and someone that I couldn't imagine my life without to be honest. By the way, I am a psychic ya know and I could see things. I was so connected to this man that I could see him even before I met him. I knew what he looked like....he was gorgeous in my mind. I would even tease him and tell him what I thought he was wearing...like a blue suit and blue shirt. He once asked are you here in my office with me? I just was so connected to him that I could astrally travel to see him.

Anyway, this morning I had this vision and reminder, if you will, of the night that I met my twinflame in person. I saw the casino. I have not been back to the casino since we met that night. I saw the vision as I walked into the casino on the phone with one of my friends telling her how nervous I was. Walking down the hall of the casino on the way to the Native American statue in the center court, I saw him before he saw me. I saw him walk over to the phone. I said to my friend if the phone rings in the next 30 seconds it is him. It rang and it was him. I saw that this morning...it reminds me of his courage and strength to meet me. I was so proud of him because I knew how nervous he was. Just as much as I was, but with all his phone calls on his way to the casino suggesting he turn around and go back; I was less nervous than him.

As I type this, I am hearing my guides say hold onto the faith...the faith in him. The faith in his ability to step into the powerful, courageous being of light that he is...I love you, my twinflame....not hat he is reading this in human form, but on a spiritual level he hears my heart as I hear his.

Day Seven on My Quest to Keep the Faith

2012-01-23T10:13:00.000-05:00

Good Morning, Everyone.

Woke up in the middle of the night with the song on my head. When I woke up again this morning, I heard it again. It was playing over and over again in my head. Often how I get messages is the music that plays in my head upon waking. This is the song:

I want to suggest you really hear the lyrics. I feel like the song is about a choice and a new beginning. (Perhaps that is not what is meant by Duran Duran, but I have to go with my gut on this one and it feels like leaving behind the old is a choice and waking to the light of your soul on this new moon is another choice.) My guides for the past few weeks have been saying hibernate, hibernate and all will be different on January 23rd. I didn't realize what they meant until a couple of days ago when I figured out that it was the new moon today and things began to feel a little lighter. There was a sense of forward movement in the universe.

As I type this for all of you, I realize that the song has a lot to do with my twinflame. Today is the new moon and his life will take a turn too. It is time to move forward and boy will life move forward not only for me, but for him as well as all of you too! I want to tell him to get ready, life is about to happen and love is about to become the choice he makes. It feels like the energy has been stagnant and in a stalemate since the Solstice on Dec. 21st. We are getting the go ahead from our angels and guides to take those steps to move forward whether we consciously take them or not. My beloved is going to consciously wake up to love sooner than he even thinks. I feel it to be true today....or has he already?

About an hour after working out this morning, I heard the following song...Could it be I'm falling in love? A song that I heard for a few weeks back in the end of summer of 2010. It was from my twin when we hadn't talked for three months and he was longing to connect with me and he did and all I could feel with him was love when he did connect with me. He even told me he loved me when we talked again. Another long story which I shall share another day... Back to the song, I feel like this is from my twin letting me know he is choosing love....on that note....

I am off for now...I feel more at peace today than the past weekend...

Inspriational Snippet: Self Created Mystery

2012-01-23T09:56:00.000-05:00

Good Morning,

I woke to find this quote in my inbox and thought how appropriate it is to share on this day of the New Moon. A quote by Thomas Merton:

"The world as pure object is something that is not there. It is not a reality outside us for which we exist....It is a living and self-creating mystery of which I am myself a part, to which I am myself, my own unique door."

I love this quote because it speaks to us clearly about the fact that we create our life. What we feel and live inside ourselves (our heads and hearts) is what we are living not what the outer world is making us be and become because our outer world is a reflection of what is going on in our inner world. You are the creator of your life. Every thought, feeling and belief is what opens the door to what we experience. Hence, why Thomas Merton suggests the self- creating mystery. What we feel and think moment to moment creates the mystery known as our life. You have to love the power we have.

My wish for you is to understand this, be more conscious of your thoughts and beliefs and to create from a place of love, a place you wish to be and make the life you have always dreamed of happen. If you are having difficulty in doing this and need a little help. My guides suggested that I offer a class in February called "Manifest Your Dreams with Your Thoughts"; it will be held two Saturdays, February 18, 25 from 2:00 to 4:00 p.m. (The date that went out was incorrect in my class listings--oops!) This class will jumpstart your ability to manifest your dreams.

Be love,
EstaRa

Birds Arrived

2012-01-22T11:05:00.000-05:00

I sit here this morning looking out my picture window. Yes, again...I don't have curtains on my living room window because I can't afford a curtain rod that big right now. So it is completely open for me. I have to say that I honestly like it completely open despite the fact that it may make this room a little more cold than normal. I get this beautiful show of nature right before my eyes. I mean I have been sitting here getting ready to write to you all and I have been sidetracked by the show the birds and squirrels are putting on for me. I don't remember ever seeing nature as amazing at I am seeing it right now, right here. Probably because windows are usually covered in the window to keep out the cold or because windows are not the focus of the room. Yes, I have a television, but I hardly ever have that on. Instead, I watch the nature show right outside my window. I love it. It keeps me in the mode of enjoy moment to moment.

I woke up this morning with thoughts of my twin. (When I use the word twin, I am almost always referring to my twinflame as I do not have a biological twin just a soul twinflame.) I always feel him ethereally. I woke with the sensation that he was in bed next to me. I felt his arms around me, holding me. I didn't want to open my eyes to I could continue to experience the feeling a little while longer. So I slept in late today. I even saw glimpses of him sleeping in this morning too. I saw his soft smile as he lay in bed peacefully sleeping. I love that smile. It brings tears to my eyes to think about his smile; I haven't seen his smile in person since June 2011. This is the longest it has been since I have seen him in a few years because for awhile there he made time to see me. Now, he tells me it is too difficult to make time, but I know better. What I know is that it is too difficult for him to feel all the love he feels for me. The beauty and curse for him is that he loves me. And, he can't hide it anymore. He feels it all the time and when he sees me it pains him to know how much he loves me and is not with me. I feel honored that his love is so powerful, but at the same time I feel so hurt that he would rather not be with me at this time because of the fears he has of changing his life. I will stop there because today I am not wanting to go down that emotional path today...it may creep up later, but I don't want to bring it to the forefront..back to watching the birds. By the way, the birds are all black with the exception of the two blue jays that arrived...thank you blue jays. Here is a message about the animal totem blue jay...

"Blue jay animal symbolism resonates truth, faithfulness, and solidarity because they are vigilant in their tasks. They also keep the same mate for life, which is symbolic of endurance, patience and loyalty. The jay is an excellent symbol for those wishing to honor their long-lasting bond between friends, family and lovers." Excerpt from the website: http://www.whats-your-sign.com.

Appropriate me thinks as I type this about my beloved twinflame....and again, did you notice the word faithfulness there? Hmm....someone is trying to get me to hold on....

I am so grateful for the show nature is putting on for me so that I have something beautiful to focus upon all day.

Nothing to Report

2012-01-21T21:22:00.000-05:00

Hello Everyone,

It is 9:00 p.m. and this is the first I am blogging. It is day five of this journey of twinflame faith. Today, I watched the snow fall outside my window--it was magical. It looked like I was in a snowglobe. The only thing missing is my twinflame. I really miss him this evening (and yes there really isn't any time that I don't miss him, but more today than usual). I want to talk with him. I want to hear his voice. I wish he were here to enjoy the snowfall with me. Nothing to really share today; so I am going to share a song that one of my friends shared with me....

It is definitely a twinflame song and sure feels like me; especially sitting here listening to this song....

I Still Glow

2012-01-20T07:41:00.000-05:00

Good Morning World,

It is day four of my adventure into keeping the faith and this week it has been really difficult so now I know why my guides want me to blog about my faith that my twinflame. It has not been easy and everything is pointing to Valentine's Day and wondering if I will hear from him by then or not. Though, I did tell him do not call me that if he wanted to talk to me then he would have to come see me. Okay so emotional on that one to say the least. It was for my highest good and ultimately for his too. What does that all mean? I don't know if I will hear from him. I don't know what will happen. I can tell you what I do know. I know I will see him and I know that we will be together---the how's, the why's, the when's, the what's I am not supposed to be asking about as told by my guides. They said those questions leave doubts so when I talk about my twinflame--try to help me by not asking those questions. :) Anyway, there is much more to talk about as yesterday was a little enlightening for me.

I discovered two things yesterday. The first is about my birthday. My birthday is March 1 in case you all didn't know and this year I will be 40. Wow--I know a lot of women don't like giving out their age, but me on the other hand I have no problem--I love me just as I am. I was writing an email to a friend yesterday and discovered something about me and my twinflame. The hardest time of year for me during this time of knowing him is not Christmas, not New Years, but my birthday. My birthday is so important to me; and I want him there with me in some way, shape or form. (and ethereally doesn't count as I know he will be there that way and has been there that way for many years.) As I was writing to my friend, I, for the first time, realized that it was because my birthday symbolizes me coming back into this life to be with him. I realized I came back in this life (because I had already ascended) only to reunite with him and bring him home. What a revelation to me. It helped me to understand my sadness around this time of year.

My journey with this man has been nearly seven years as I may have mentioned and there is only one time that he acknowledged my birthday in some way. He called me on the day and sang Happy Birthday to me in a voicemail (that was huge--he normally never leaves voicemails--if he ever does then I would know things have really shifted within him because I can't imagine that he doesn't leave anyone a voicemail). Anyway, I digress, but what a big reveal for me.

The next revelation came when I was having lunch with a friend yesterday. We were out to lunch and she asked how is the "man"? The interesting thing and I do have to digress for a moment is that people are so kind, but they do not understand the whole twinflame thing and how it is definitely not a normal relationship by society's standards--it is far beyond that in many ways: good, bad, indifferent. I really believe that sometimes my friends appease me by listening and just think I am plain crazy to love this man, but it is what it is; and truthfully, I would probably think the same if I didn't know better and wait yes, I have thought the same thing about me many, many times.

Anyway back to my revelation. I was talking a very short bit about him and she said to me you, you look radiant and then as I talked about him, she told me I was glowing. It struck me because I had forgotten; I had forgotten that I glow. (unfortunately, it has been heavy and emotional for me with regard to my twinflame for some time.), That is something I do. I glow! I come alive when I think about him, when I talk about him and when I am with him. (Just a side note, he does too!! Remember, I told you he was older than me? Well, when he is in my presence, he drops all those years and becomes a teenage boy! He is adorable!!)

It brought me back to when I first met him; well that is not entirely true. I met my twinflame online. Yes, on the computer. I was home sitting at my computer and drafting up my first brochure for my business. I was such a procrastinator then so I popped online. (Back when online was safe and people where mostly truthful like giving real names.) I went into an AOL chat room. (Back when AOL chatrooms were somewhat normal--I wouldn't know now, but I know shortly after that time things were really not so good.) That is how I met him. (I'll explain more someday.) So to quickly get to my point, we talked almost daily online. We hadn't talked on the phone yet and then one night I was getting ready to go to a Pampered Chef Party at a friend's house. I was home waiting for my other friend to come by and pick me up. He called me. (We couldn't wait to hear each other's voice.) I remember it like it was yesterday. He sounded so cute. (that is what I thought that day.) I loved his voice. The point is that I was talking to him on the phone when my doorbell rang. I answered the door and let my friend walk in. I told him that I had to go (it was brief ten minute conversation) and when I hung up, I exclaimed, "I love his voice and I adore this man; there is something about him." My friend looked at me and said "You are glowing." She said, "I have never seen you look this way. Not even about your ex-boyfriend. You are simply beautiful you are just glowing."

I think I have always glowed whenever I think about him, talked to him or seen him since that day. (Perhaps, I had glowed sooner, but no one was there to witness it.) The magic is that I still glow...

Day 3: Allowing Yourself to Believe in the Impossible

2012-01-19T08:32:00.000-05:00

Good Morning World, are you out there?

I hope someone is out there witnessing parts of my journey. I am so grateful and I feel so blessed from last year's experiences that on New Year's day as I always do I make a list of what I want to manifest for the year ahead and beyond. This year was so different for me. I truly only had one thing that I wished to manifest and that is the reunion of me and my twinflame in the physical 3D permanently. I felt such deep gratitude for the previous year. I honestly haven't been able to share with you all the magic with which transpired over the past year because so much happened and so quickly that I just couldn't keep up on my blog.

Last year 2011 was one of the most incredible years I had in terms of impossibilities becoming possible. I mean really when I think about all the magnificient things that I allowed in last year (notice I said allowed? The reality is that we are the only ones who allow or prevent things from truly manifesting in our life--we are the captain of our ship--and no not sailing anywhere just yet.) I allowed so much into my life because I was in the faith that everything is possible. I am still in that faith. I surround myself with people in that faith--not to say that I am 24 x7 in that faith believe me I have my moments too..just ask my friends. Hence why I am on my mission to stay in the faith of it all...a direct assignment from my guides and you will be living this assignment with me if you wish to follow along. The truth is that the only thing in my life that I feel doubt about from time to time is my twinflame reunion. The thing is that since I have met him I saw our future and it has not happened as of yet. However, the problem or snag in it all is just that it hasn't happened yet. Notice I emphasize yet because I am guided to say that and feel that is most appropriate to say. I still believe I will be with him. Right now I am "allowing" the universe to bring to me my reunion. It is time now I know that, I feel that and I believe that.

This morning when I woke up I was visited by beloved Saint Germain and he shared the following message with me to share with everyone..."Believe in the impossible! Humans often focus their energy and attention on things being impossible; if they only knew what makes things impossible is the way they are thinking. Today look at everything in your world and believe it is possible. Watch how quickly you transform your life and the world around you."

So today in my life I will hold moment to moment my belief in the impossible (the reunion of my twinflame) as humanly it sometimes appears as if it could never happen. But I am told it will so I stay in faith and believe.

Day 2: The Quest to Stay in Faith

2012-01-18T10:25:00.000-05:00

It is day two of my quest to stay in the faith of it all; that is the faith of my reunion of the My reunion with my twinflame is the one thing I have been manifesting since I was 5. Age 5, you say? You wonder how that is possible. Well, I will tell you. When I was a five year old little girl, I had many memories from my past lives. Here are just a few: I actually remembered incarnating as a horse, living and dying in the Holocaust and having the knowledge that I was born too late. God Bless my parents for having a child like me back in the 70's. I look at the children today and I see how difficult it can be for them, but them I think back to just how difficult it was for me at times, hence the being sick all the time as a child. The good news for children today is that they have more open opportunities around them and parents are much more open. But I digress, back to my experience as a little girl at five years old. When I was five years old and really throughout my childhood, I would tell everyone that I was born too late. People would ask me if my birthday was in April since my parents named me April; and I would tell them no I was born in March because I couldn't wait to get here. I knew that my twin had come back to Earth before me. I knew that he would be older than me. Hence he is older than me. I was so sure that this lifetime was it.I remember a few years ago when I was working on one of my clients I saw a lot of her past lives come up during our healing session and it was connected to her throat chakra and her need to express herself. I told her what I saw when I was working on her. She asked me if I ever did a between lives reading the time between lives. I told her no and she said she had and didn't like what she saw and wondered why she came back. I immediately said to her, "I have no idea why I came back." In that moment, I was pulled out of this dimension into another where I was in a spiral of energy (it felt like I was gone at least and hour, but it was only a moment) where I was shown why I came back to be with him, my twinflame. I was told in that moment of time that the reason I came back was to be with him that this is the lifetime we would finally reunite with each other. I will end here now today with the following: I knew the moment I heard his voice that he was the one...

My Next 30-60 Day Journey

2012-01-17T11:34:00.000-05:00

Hello my beautiful soul friends,

Most of you know that I have met my twinflame and most of you know that my journey with my twin has not always been easy. I know I have promised to write more about my twin so that I could help all of you and help me. Unfortunately, time has moved so swiftly that I barely have finished blogging my trip to Egypt..I still have a couple more to upload, but for now I am going to deal with this issue of Twinflames. I apologize for leaving you all out on my adventures for 2011, but so much happened and I was not attached nearly to my electronic item known as a laptop. I traveled to Hawaii, Michigan twice and Sedona...that was all after my trip to Egypt. I don't know what is in store for me this year, but I am sure something magnificent, perhaps finally the full reunion of my twinflame in the physical plane. Full Reunion for all twinflames in the physical plane....that is my one anticipation---it is all happening now.

As you all know I have met my twinsoul in the 3D sense almost 7 years ago (it will be 7 years in June that we met) and while we are not together in the physical sense of 3D as of yet, it is surely on its way to manifestation..there is no time, no place....it simply is now time.

(As a side note, I have been told that the time is now since June of 2008--just sayin!) But I do believe the time is now as we can't leave 2012 without it all happening now.

There is so much more I can write and plan to write about my twin, but today time is of the essence (as I have clients soon) so I will just share what the next 30-60 days of my life will be. I have been getting the message clearly to trust and have faith--I even dreamed recently that I was moving boxes...one labeled trust and the other labeled faith--that is how much the message is getting hammered into me. Yes, I am psychic and do amazing readings for people (so I am told); however, when it comes to this twin thing oy I have doubted. I have had enough doubt to fill a superbowl stadium over the last several years about my twinflame and who he is and if I am crazy. Many of you will think I am crazy and many of you do think I am crazy; however, it is what it is. As the Universe made loud and clear to me on my trip to Hawaii when I saw this sign staring me in my face....

So a remedy for this is to write about my twinflame and stay in the love, trust and faith of it and the love, trust and faith of him and his soul's journey as it is bringing him right to me. My guides said it is time now to stop doubting as we are manifesting what we think quite rapidly. So, I have made a commitment to myself that over the next 30-60 days I will honor the twinflame relationship that I have in some way. My goal is to share more about my twin relationship and experiences so that you can all witness my journey and help me to eliminate doubt from my vocabulary. It has been entirely too difficult to do it alone so I am recruiting you all to help me stay the path of allowing, trusting and having faith. I am told by my guides that each day I must blog something about twinflames, my twin relationship or something about love to boost up my faith quotient ...the time is now to hang on tight to my dreams they say as they are manifesting....and I am seeing glimpses which is more than I have seen in some time.

"So for those of you wondering...what is a twinflame: Twin Flames are the two people whose souls are really one. It's generally believed that both members of this couple must be spiritually evolved to finally meet and come together as a permanent couple." This is a quote from a website I do not know as I closed the page before I got the name so I apologize, but it is a great way to explain twinflames for now. There are more of my blog posts already entered that discuss twinflames. For now....I am in faith.

Inspirational Snippet: Forgiveness

2012-01-13T07:16:00.000-05:00

Good Morning Everyone,

I was sitting here in my apartment watching the sunrise over Guilford. It is truly quite amazing I have this beautiful picture window that my sofa faces and it is like having a giant television in my living room that lives and breathes. I get to watch the sunrise, the sunset, the clouds move all day long in the brillant blue sky, the moon rise with all its magic...I love it and I really don't want curtains, but I believe I probably should have them, but then again..do I have to? Probably not! That will be determined later anyway I digress.

I just had a brief meditation and Mary Magdalene came in with a message for me and all of you and I wanted to share.

The message is about forgiveness. Now is the time dear children to make a list of all the things that are holding you back. Look closely at this list and make a connection that person who you felt assisted in the process of hurting you and begin to forgive them. It is as simple as getting a piece of paper and writing a letter to them telling them how they hurt you, telling them how it made you feel and then allowing them to come through your writing as to why they did what they did (if you are open enough to allow that--do not let ego get in the way here --this part is from EstaRa) and then tell them you release them and forgive them. Dear children, you can change the very nature of that relationship by simply forgiveness. It does not mean that you will necessarily want them to be a core part of your life, but children you are them and they are you. It is the truth of who you are and forgiveness will open your blocks. Now is the time, now is the moment you can release and let go.

I wish you each of you the process of your journey of forgiveness to be one of love and peace.

In love,
EstaRa

Channel: Rediscovery of Your True Self

2012-01-12T18:25:00.001-05:00

Channeled through EstaRa in Guilford, CT on January 12, 2012.

Greetings Dear Ones,

It is time. It is time for you to step out of the boundaries of your mind and step into the openness of your hearts. It is time to make the magic that you so long have waited to make. You are just beginning to see the fruit of your work. The time is now for your soul to open wide and take over the very nature you have been living and transform your world to one of love, beauty and magic.

Today is a day like no other. The very magic of who you are can be tapped into and once tapped it will stay with you permanently. What do you wish to do with this bit of information? Do you wish to shy away from what is truly yours or do you wish to go fully forward into the dreams you have so cherished for so long? We say to you that you have a choice just as you do each and every day of your life to make the magic happen in your life that you have so wished. Now you are given that day to make what you will with it. Let today 1.12.12 be known as the beginning of the new you. It is the opportunity for you to step into what you must in order for you to go forward and see that beginning at the end of this month you will have more sure footing. Right now we ask you to choose that which you so desire. The energies are on your side for transformation and change. You have the opportunity for the greatest transformation in your life now. Contemplate it if you must, but make a choice to see your desires and dreams manifest.

Hibernate has been the message for EstaRa in the last weeks and she has obeyed somewhat. Although her human self has gotten in the way of her hibernation, but we give her great honor for she is taking the steps to hibernate so that at month’s end she can come out fully to who she is in her new space. Is it not interesting that the divine timing for EstaRa’s new entrance into her new place be at the time that humanity has the opportunity for a new entrance into self? EstaRa’s life is symbolically where the path of humanity lies. Hibernate we say hibernate, contemplate and activate yourselves for service in this world. Service we wish to tell you is not what humanity has long held as service rather it is love. Love is a service, did you not know? Love is everything and by stepping into your heart and being love you are stepping into your dreams and making love in this world. Love is the energy with which you must go forward. You serve greater humanity dear ones through your gift of love. Did you know how powerful love can be? Did you know love is by far the most high vibrational magic? Love of yourself expands out to love of one another and again expands out to love of humanity which in turn expands out to the love of Earth herself: that dear ones is how you change the world in which you live. Be not afraid of the next steps you must take for they are easier than you think. They are more cherished by us than you know those steps you take. They are more magnificent than you can imagine at this moment, but one day you will know we assure you that you will look back upon this time as the great rediscovery. Rediscovery of your heart and your capacity to love, it is the rediscovery of your true self. It is that simple dear ones it is that simple.

We often share with EstaRa that she must trust and have faith for the magic is within her; through her trust and faith she creates magic. The power for your world is no longer money nor ego, the power is love and with that; know that love is what will change your very world. The power of love comes from trust and faith in the infinite love that is granted to you by just simply being.
Many lightworkers have been through trying times and experiences; now dear ones is the time to step into that light you have been working so hard to shine in the dark places and know that you are gifted with everything you need within you. You are in the times of living the truth of who you are. You are where you are meant to be at this moment.
We love you dear children of the earth, we love to see how you grow and evolve. We respect your presence on earth for from here we see your light and we see how difficult it has been to stay the light in the darkened times upon earth. We honor the mission each of you has come to earth to experience and know that you are each doing what you came to do in divine and perfect order. You are the light of the world…you will change the very world that you live with your light and love. We ask you to step into this now moment with truth, courage, faith and love.

It is with love, honor and respect that we bring you this message today. We are the Masters of Light.

A New Year's Message from the Masters of Light

2012-01-02T13:20:00.000-05:00

A New Year's Message from the Masters of Light

Hello Everyone,

This is EstaRa. Thank you for your continued love and support throughout the year. I was prompted by my guides to send this message out universally for the new year. There are those of you who wish to receive my channelings, but are not on my list currently to receive channelings. If you wish to receive them, please do one of the following: go to my website to sing up for them or at the bottom of this email you can change your email preferences to include channeled messages. Thank you for taking the time to read and now onto the channel.
Love and light,
EstaRa

Channeled through EstaRa on 1/2/2012 in Guilford, CT.

Greetings Children of the Earth,

It is now the time of magic upon your earth. Your earth calendars now say that it is the month of January in 2012. We say to you …it is now. We wish to emphasize to you that the now moment is what you have been waiting for and we wish to say to you that it is now. We wish you to know that now is the only time that exists on your new earth. Not the tomorrow, not later not even earlier…the only time that truly exists is now that is the present moment. The present moment is what you have control over that is what you are given as a time for creating. You are a creator for that is how you will create what is coming your way . It is the time you must take to make all possible. It is now. We tell you this for the energy of 2012 will show you much and one of the things it shall show you is that if you grasp to the concept of time you will find you have none; however, if you stay in the now moment you will find that you complete and do everything that you have chosen to do in that time. As the concept of time shifts for the entire planet you will see how that will impact each individual. We are giving you this information so that you know what to do and be prepared for those around you. They may be the one who grasp to the concept of time for they will think that is the security blanket that they have been holding onto for so long; however, it is not and will not act as if. Instead it will create more of a shortage of time. However, if you stay within the moment you will have all that you need if you stay in the moment. So again we say to you…it is now.

This period of enlightenment you are in (EstaRa had us correct the word time as we were about to use that to explain the following, instead she suggested we use the world enlightenment) will extend throughout your calendars in your 2012 year and beyond; however, your greatest changes will begin to manifest in this calendar year that you call 2012. (We give you this information in time words as that is what you understand at this time.) The greatest opportunities are available for you now in this energy of change. It is upon you…what will you do with them? How do you wish to see things ? Will you be proactive in the changes of the earth and humanity? Or will you sit back watch wait for someone to come save you? Dear ones, you are the ones! You are the light, you are now awakened you have the power within you to change everything you have the magic..you are truly the ones you have been waiting for ….you have been waiting for the big reveal. The big reveal is that you are the magic, you are the light and you are the creators. Is that not a revelation to you? We think it is a big reveal; however, there are those of you who were perhaps expecting more of fireworks display and more of a musical entrance perhaps? Is that not so? Does it not seem like it is magic when you have your power? It is the truuuuuuuuuuuuuuth of it all. It is thhhhhhhhhe magic of it all. (My guides typed out truth and the in that way and was asked to leave it that way for this channel.)

With this knowledge and information we wish for you to go forth and teach, live and be in that moment. Know that you are the creators with every thought and emotion that you have. Yes, some of you get stuck and some of you are stuck…those of you that are stuck it is simply because you have chosen not to clear somethings that have been your blocks within you. It is time to clear the blocks within you within you. The work is less now, but it still requires your choice. We ask you to choose now to remove the old and truly step into who you are now. You are the creators of your world. How do you wish to create and what do you wish to create?

It is with love honor and respect that we bring you this message today. We are the Masters of Light. Namaste.

Channel: Arrival of the Love Train

2011-12-29T00:11:00.000-05:00

Arcturian Masters of Light channeled on 12/28/2011 through EstaRa in Guilford, CT.

Dear children of the Earth,

It is your time to rise up and stand for what it is you truly believe. We know some of you do not think you even know what it is that you believe any more as so much is and has changed. We wish to tell you that you are correct in wondering what it is that you believe. We tell you to look in your heart for your answers for your answers are not outside of yourself they are deep within the core of who you are. Your essence dear ones is pure divine love and we wish you to know that once you acknowledge that you will know what is and is not your truths. That is the place we wish for you to look for your beliefs and we say they may change upon looking more closely.

The universe has brought you many lessons over the last six years has it not? The universe has shown you who you are? Did you see? Were you able to be still enough to see? Were you able to be love enough to know? You are all that you experienced in the last six years, the good, the bad….we say it is all the same there is no judgment only humans make judgments as to what is good and bad. We say to the humans to look at your experiences as just that experiences. There is no good and bad. …each experience is simply a way for you to reach the next point in your life upon earth. Many of the experiences over the last six years were opportunities given to you to wake up prior to 11.11.11. Those of you who did not wake up prior to 11.11.11 we say to you get ready for a crash course into multidimensional living. Put your seatbelts on for your about to take a ride on the “love train”. The “love train” is the fast moving energy of love that sweeps you along with the rest of humanity who has awakened to love being the energy of the future. You will be swept into the future and find that you need to find your footing in this new energy because you have spent a large amount of time clinging or holding onto the old way of doing things. There is some energy that you will need to unlearn.

Those of you who did wake up prior to 11.11.11, how are you liking the love train are you seeing things more clearly ? Seeing things through the eyes of love? Is the energy of love bringing to you what you have waited for?

11.11.11 was the arrival of the love train and it has left the station and carrying on it a great deal of amazing changes some that can be perceived as good or as bad, but we again say to you have no judgments for they are simply changes. These changes will bring about a new consciousness for humanity one that you have been waiting and hoping for. It is now possible.

You will find the more you stay in the balance of the “NOW” moment that EstaRa talks about the easier it will be to access the energy of love. It is only when there are expectations that you leave the place of balance. (I, EstaRa told them that it is easier said than done) We do realize for you humans it is easier said than done, but it is possible. We caution each of you to not give up before you get started.

(Unfortunately, I was ready to channel all day, but my clients kept coming in for their appointments and I never finished this channel. I am hoping to continue again tomorrow, but in the meantime, I am told it is best to get this information out and not hold onto it. I hope that you receive the full beauty of this message as it is meant to be received.)

It is with love, honor and respect that we bring you this message today. We are the Masters of Light.

Namaste, Happy Hannukah & Merry Christmas

2011-12-25T09:38:00.000-05:00

Inspirational Snippet
Today's Message is about gratitude. Last evening I spent a holiday dinner with friends, it was wonderful and I felt so blessed to have shared a special time with my friend and her family. They were all so warm and welcoming it meant so much to me. It made for the perfect evening really. I walked out to the car and saw the sky--it was magnificent. The stars certainly put on a show for us last night--I couldn't stop looking so I didn't. As I drove home, I got the feeling that I needed to go to the beach (I live not even 5 minutes away). I drove to the beach and stargazed for about a half hour. Yes, it was cold out last night in the 20's to be exact, but who noticed? I was amongst the stars.

When I finished stargazing, I lit my menorah for the 5th night of Hannukah, with my Christmas Tree all aglow and sat down to write a list of all that I am grateful for specifically over the last year because in case you do not know, I have lots to be grateful for this year (including knowing each one of you). My writing lasted an hour or so it included letting some friends know how much they mean to me too. I wrote until I felt satisfied that everything I needed to put on the list was there then I went to sleep and had the most peaceful sleep. I woke up this morning thinking of all the things that I am grateful for and forgot to add to my list. (Looks like I may have some more writing to do today!) I am and feel so blessed this year; the beautiful thing is that the blessings do continue. I wish for each of you to feel that which I am feeling deep gratitude for your lives, experiences and relationships (good and bad as they teach us lessons we so wanted to learn before we came here). Know that in the vibration of gratitude everything is possible even the things you think seem unattainable becomes a vision that can be attained.

My suggestion to all of you is that before you can plan how you would like the new year to be, I say to you that you first need to see the beauty of the last year and find your gratitude for it for that is the vibration I wish for you to start with in the coming year. Blessings to you my soul friends. Namaste, Happy Hannukah & Merry Christmas.

In gratitude and love,
Esta Ra

11-11-11

2011-11-10T01:25:00.002-05:00

Greetings from Sedona, AZ.

It is a magical time…yes it is! As you know I am in Sedona, AZ to celebrate the portal of light known as 11-11-11. This conference is a gathering of all light workers around the globe to welcome in this portal of divine love and oneness. It is a magnificent event that everyone on this planet shall experience if they wish.

The 11-11-11 Portal is about opening and activating fully our divine hearts. It will not only open your awareness to a deeper love and understanding of who you are, your path, but also activate your ability to become fully multidimensional beings. What does that mean you ask? The following is a response I read on a blog by Aros Crystos: Are you separated from the divine heart or part of it? While the answer may seem obvious, remember we have been accepting that we are separated and that fear and lack is normal. If I accept that I am not separated from my divine heart or energy or consciousness, then I must also accept that I have the same qualities and divine powers and love as the divine being, and in that place fear and separation cannot exist. Can the darkness exist in sunlight? No. So in that acceptance, I am multidimensional, which means that I exist on all planes of consciousness simultaneously with no limitation, both outside and within time and space. I am and I am not. If I do not accept this then I live by my own limited mind and understanding and I am always at the mercy of other’s feelings and opinions of me, and birth and death are very real and all that comes with this limited understanding of who I am.

This stargate, portal of light known as a 11-11-11 is equipping you all with the ability to choose where you wish to place your energy. It raises your vibrational frequency to one of divine love. This energy will last all the way through to 12-12-2012. In essence, it will activate divine love within you in a way that your heart/divine love/your truth will shine from the inside out. What does that mean? That means you will shed light on all areas of your life that are in the dark or better put as those areas of your life that are no longer working/no longer in your truth. For some this may be a time of difficulty; but for many light workers it will be the NOW (The time they have been waiting for)….they will begin to see themselves stepping fully into the lives they have desired.

Many of you have asked how to experience this powerful gateway of energy on Friday on the day known as 11-11-11. While I am in Sedona celebrating with other members of the light tribe (that is all of us), it is not necessary for you to be in a gathering (although I would love if some of you do gather together) because it is an individual and collective experience. You will experience individually what the collective is experiencing. But here are some thoughts on how to experience the day.

1. Stay really grounded to Gaia. (My regular students you know who you are and you know what specifically that means for you.) It is important to ground your energy into Gaia—not only on the 11-11-11, but the days before and after to support you through the energetic alignments that will occur.
2. Spend time quietly in meditation connecting with the energy from above (through the cosmic star portal) to the energy below (through the earth star portal) while placing your attention on your solar plexus and heart chakras along with the Great Central Sun (the infinite source of light from above).
3. Use sound to assist you in bringing in this energy by way of toning or chanting.
4. Hold within your energy what you wish the future of the earth to look like. What do you desire to see? Hold onto that vision…you can write it, draw or breathe it. Simply do it.
5. Eat less meat, drink less caffeine to assist you in experiencing the energy that will be transmitted through you on this day.
6. The most important thing to do on this day is to seek within you what you wish to change and what you wish to find that joy that you so desire and deserve in this life. Find your joy, express and live it!

My final thought to you about this unprecedented event on earth on 11-11-11 is that it is a time for a heightened awareness of love. I have been seeing heart shaped everything over the last year …leading me to my “Spread Love Campaign”....allow this event to spread love all over you and the world too!

My guides wish me to tell you one last thing…many beautiful treasures await you on the other side of this gateway, welcome them in and know that you are safe, loved and protected always. All is as it should be.

See you all on the other side.
In love & light,
EstaRa

Channeled Message from Archangel Chamuel

2011-10-21T09:44:00.000-04:00

Archangel Chamuel on Healing

Preparing my message for the day for fans of my Soul Star Healing Page, I received a message from Archangel Chamuel about healing. I was prompted to not only share on Facebook (as I post a message each day there), but I was guided to share with you all too.

Archangel Chamuel's Message today is about healing. This time of transformation and change is providing healing opportunities to clear your chakras of past "debris" and it requires you to honor your body, mind and spirit in your own time and space. It doesn't matter what one person is doing in their life, it isn't a matter of learning all healing modalities as possible...it is about you and your ...healing. What are you doing today to heal you on this journey? A lot is going to change quickly dear ones in a short span of human time, are you prepared? Go within and know that preparation comes from you, you are in control, you are the captain of your ship, you are the one you have been waiting for. It is time to stop looking outside yourself for the answers, guidance is fine, but it is a must that you learn to rely on your own guidance in these times for that is where your truth is. Chamuel suggests healing and clearing of your chakras. Look within you and see what is not working and identify which chakra is carrying the weight and work from there.

Breakfast Appointment

2011-10-06T15:16:00.000-04:00

It's breakfast time! Just finished actually. At least there were some eggs and cheese and other stuff that became all too familiar for breakfast in Egypt like bread. ick!

It was another moment of saying goodbye so many people were leaving earlier than the New York group. We are all going home on the same flight tonight...that is DebRa, Solara, Crealo, Abbi and me. I don't think I am forgetting anyone.

DebRa asked if I wanted to do the Museum in Cairo. Some people have opted to go to the museum again, but I have my session with Crealo and that seems like the most appropriate choice for me to stay and work on me since my whole trip has been internally focused. I have cried so much on this trip...I have a feeling that I may be just about to cry again. DebRa just found out about a great little place to eat falafel really cheap; DebRa and I are going there for lunch. We are going to go to a grocery store across the way to buy some snacks for the plane trip home.

I told DebRa I should be back in an hour. Off to my session I go.

1.17.2011

Good bye to Ebron Ra

2011-10-06T14:54:00.000-04:00

Morning has woken and I am up it is only 4:30 a.m. Guess my angels wanted to make sure I didn't oversleep and now here I am awake and waiting before I can go upstairs to say good bye to Carole, Ebron Ra. I am sad to see her go. She has become such a part of me. I love her and she will always be a part of me even if I never see her again, but something tells me that I will.

Okay, back now, I went up to say goodbye and she left me with a little Egyptian change purse and a beautiful note of friendship. By the way, I am truly the only other soul awake at this hour besides Carole. hahaha It is a beautifully peaceful time to be awake, but oy! I am so grateful and I cry a little knowing that she is leaving; she has been my partner in crime so to speak on this trip. We bonded from the first day. I'm sad to see her go, but it is time and I will be leaving too at 11:30 tonight. I can't believe that it is time for our trip to end. I believe I am ready. I really miss my twin. I hope he is really missing me too. I wish to go to him when I arrive in NY, but not sure if that is appropriate because back in November(I may have mentioned or may not have) we said goodbye again. You know, in May it will have been 6 years that I have known him and we have said good bye to each other now: at least 12 times which if you divide it on average is twice per year, but the truth is goodbye could have been one week and two weeks later we talked and said goodbye two weeks later. He is responsible for the most goodbyes due to his freaking out. I have to admit that I am responsible for some too. Perhaps I will share the true story of my twin and me someday.

Anyway, I don't know where I stand with regard to him...I just know I love him and miss him deeply. Okay, I am going to go catch a few more z's before I have to officially get up to eat.
1.17.2011

Went back to bed for a little bit.

The Last Supper

2011-10-06T10:00:00.000-04:00

Tonight was our last dinner and gathering together as a group in the King's Hotel. And, yes you guessed it more tomato sauce and rice. I am so ready to go home for real food. I am going to buy gluten free bagels, donuts, etc. hahaha . Some of us are leaving really early in the morning so it really is our last dinner together. We celebrated the trip and laughed a little. I also broke down. Really broke down when dinner was rice and tomato sauce again for me. I need real food and I need to stop having so many acidic foods: tomatoes oranges everyday--OY VEY!!!

My mini meltdown was because my mouth had developed sores from all the food, but I think the meltdown is more than that. A lot of emotions have been whirling around me this entire trip. IT has been incredibly healing and I think that is why I am so reflective. I know there is much more healing to happen for me so I made an appointment for a session with Crealo Ra for tomorrow morning after breakfast. I feel I need to work with him on some of the emotions that I am feeling. Hopefully, this will jumpstart me to feel better when I get home.

We did our last gathering this evening too. We sat in circle for closing out our group. It was incredible that it has been such a short time together, but I really feel my family is here with these amazing souls who have done this journey with me. Ironically, I haven't been the April that I know or that many of you. I am sure you are saying, well of course, because you called yourself "Ra'chel. I believe the reason I needed to be called Ra'chel this entire trip was to emit the vibration of Ra'chel. Emitting that I have received the appropriate healing necessary for Ra'chel. I realize there will be more discoveries as I go on with my days, but for now, Ra'chel is healing.

As we went around the circle, I didn't know what name to call me. I wanted to say EstaRa since it was so clearly the name I heard in the temple yesterday, but boy this would confuse everyone--some know me as April, some know me as Ra'chel (actually most know me on this trip as Ra'chel so throwing in another name right now would not be a good thing to do.) I stayed with Ra'chel.

I am leaving tomorrow and I am going to bed early tonight because Ebron Ra, my dearest friend, Carol is leaving at 5 a.m. and I want to wake up to say good bye to her. Please Angels make sure I wake up ...she is such a very dear and loving soul.

1.16.2011

The Citadel

2011-10-06T09:59:00.000-04:00

Our final stop on the tour of the Old City of Cairo was the Citadel. It was really beautiful, but the truth is that after the Synagogue Experience I was still whirling around in my head with all kinds of emotion, not to mention still reeling from emotion over the last several days of the trip. The Citadel Complex was really quite beautiful and ornate.

In this picture if you look closely you will see the Tourism police standing at his station and yes ...gun on shoulder. Imagine that. If we had tourism police, would they have guns? It is really kind of scary. I guess we don't realize how free the US really is.

It was really quite beautiful and ornate.

When we walked into this courtyard of the complex, we had to remove our shoes so that we could walk into the mosque to see it. It was so large and I can only imagine how energetic this place would be with prayer happening. We were there at an off time, but just as we were getting ready to leave there was more that was to happen.

As we walked out of the mosque, there was a little market on the other side. Always ready to make some money even on the other side of a "holy building". Carole (Ebron Ra) and I looked at the scarves. I purchased an orange one and so did Carole. We figured if we bought the same one, we would never forget each other. It would be a great reminder that of our newly found friendship. This is me wrapped in my orange scarf.

I know I look mysterious...okay so some of my friends think I look really scary....I think I look mysterious...let's choose that...

1.16.2011

Hold Tight to Your Dreams

2011-10-05T10:39:00.000-04:00

This message was channeled live on Friday, Septemeber 30, 2011 through EstaRa.
Channeled Message: Live In Your Truth
Dearest Children of the Earth,

We ask you to hold tight to your dreams. There is one more wave of the roller coaster for you to ride out. But we ask you to honor yourself and get in touch with what it is you truly desire. We ask you to stay away from what others think you should be or do. We ask you to stay away from what you think is right or you what you think you should do or what is expected of you. We ask you to use this time to get in touch with the real you. The soul you--the part of you that you have allowed to lay dormant. The part of you that you have silenced along the way. We ask you to quiet your mind long enough each day to hear that part of you. If you listen you will know exactly what it is you are meant to do, how to live, and simply learn how to be.

EstaRa's new phrase of recent is "Get real with yourself". She is emphasizing get real with yourself by being truthfful to you--honest about you and your stuff. She is correct in emphasizing this with you. What is really no longer working? What has become or has been a struggle for you? Is it or has it only been working because you silenced a part of you or shut out what it is you truly desire? Now is the time to let it go and leave this baggage behind you. You have the magnificent potential to transform any and every aspect of your life, dear human. Nothing should or could hold you back from releasing the old--simply choose to embrace the new. It sounds easy, does it not? It is that simple, dear ones.

It is that simple--simply intend each day to live from your truth. The truth from your soul is one that is playful, honest, fun and by far, easier than any other way...that is how you know. Does that answer your question of how do I know it is from my soul? Dear ones, you bring us much joy and laughter for you remind us of us and our journey to the light--perhaps a different dimension (time and place for those of you humans who do not yet understand the multi-dimensional concept.) The truth is we underwent changes once upon a time too--that is why we are here guiding each of you now--we remember--you will too. Soon you will remember who you truly are.

It is with love, honor and respect that we bring you this message today. Namaste.

The Masters of Light.

Inspirational Snippet: Inner Knowing and Outer Vision

2011-10-05T10:37:00.000-04:00

Good Morning Everyone,

It is a bright, sunshiny Sunday morning in CT and I am loving it. I have been waking up the past two days with songs in my head and the word magic jumping out! Just a reminder to me and all of us that we are magical beings of light which brings me to this morning's snippet.

Emmanuel's Book II: "In meditation it's all so simple. Why does everything get so complex when I open my eyes? Because you have been taught to believe what your eyes see rather than what your inner eye knows. A switch of allegiance is needed."

I love this snippet!! I love it...I love it...I love it! It resonates so strongly with what I know inside of me and my morning music the last couple of days. It is a reminder that the true magic is inside of us. We do know the truth of things when we learn to trust what we "feel, see and know" inside of us. Unfortunately, as the quote says we have been taught to not trust ourselves. We learned that from even a young age when are parents would tell us how we feel. For example: I remember having "people" (spirits, beings) in my room at night and my parents turned the lights on and didn't see them and told me no one was there. This taught me to not believe what I knew to be true. Did my parents do that on purpose? No, of course not; they didn't "see" what I "saw" and it is that simple. And since we are children our small world includes our parents, other relatives and teachers as the authority and all knowing, I chose to shut off my knowledge and "fit in" to what my family believed. I believe that is when I began to distrust my inner knowings.

Unfortunately, this is one way we give away our power, but it is also a very important concept to see. Once we identify it in one area of our life we can identify it in another area. That is the first step to reclaiming our inner truth. It takes practice to quiet your mind enough at the beginning to allow the truth to come through. However, I promise you that if you start to listen to your inner truth it gets louder than the rest.

I admit that this is sometimes one of the hardest lessons because we are so programmed to look outside of ourselves not only for answers, but for validation to what we believe to be true. And often validation doesn't come, not because people do not want to validate our feelings or truths, but because they are so caught in trying to do the same for themselves. It is really hard sometimes to "see and know" something and yet the external appearance of things is anything, but what you "see and know" inside of you. ( I am sure many of you know of my twinflame experiences--great example of what I mean.) However, it is possible to strengthen that part of you. It is possible to hear your inside voice louder than your outside voice. It is simply the matter of practicing and learning to hear it. When I teach my students and work with my clients, I often say to them this is what I feel and know to be true; however, you need to go within you to discern if there is a resonance to your spirit. With any information you hear and receive, be sure it resonates with you before owning as your own.

Once you open to assistance from the other side they will assist you with listening to your heart. My biggest teacher of this has been Archangel Michael. He taught me many years ago to listen to what I knew to be true in my heart despite the words I was hearing and it made all the difference in the world to me. Open to your heart and I promise it will make all the difference in the world to you too.

In love and light,
EstaRa

Inspirational Snippet: True Alchemy

2011-10-05T10:35:00.002-04:00

Inspirational Snippet: True Alchemy

Happy Weekend Everyone,

I was reading again and saw this quote from the Emmanuel's Book II and wanted to share this with you:

"True Alchemy is the transformation of the energy of fear into the power of love."

I believe this quote captures the magic in life. We, each and every one of us, are the magicians in our life. If we can truly work on living in the moment as it comes then we can take every experience that we have and transform it from a fear base to a love base. It sounds easy as I type this, and I know for some of you you are thinking--simple, easy, piece of cake and for others you are thinking that is not always possible. I think you are both right; I just think you both may not fully grasp what that means. The simple process of choosing in the moment how to respond to a situation is key. Acknowledge the fear that you are feeling. For example, next time you do something to distract you from doing something that you know you "want to do" or "need to do", really check in with yourself to see what it is you are feeling. Flesh out that fear and acknowledge it. In that moment you have the opportuntiy to see the fear and then transform your reaction to one of love and overcome that fear. You may also forgo that distraction too! We, each and every one of us, are the magicians in our life. Using that method will truly change our life for the better. It takes practice to do that with everything in your life and it takes time to master that skill, but the more you do it the easier it will become. It is one of the necessary skills to mastering life upon earth. Blessings to each and every one of you. May the magic of your life be close at hand.

In love,
EstaRa
9.24.2011

Inspirational Snippet: Your Strength

2011-09-09T10:48:00.000-04:00

Good Morning World,

Today is another rainy day in Michigan and I am getting ready to pack up and move from Novi to Canton for the next couple of days before I go off to Hawaii. It has been busy this trip with readings, classes and healings. I began my morning making a cup of Yogi Tea and this is what it says:

Yogi Tea Bag Says: Live in your strength.

I love this message. Of all the work I do and readings I do, I notice that the most important thing that is necessary for people is just that: to live in their strength. But many do not know what their strength is. Often many people identify with other people's ideas of strengths and so they go about living their life trying to attain that particular strength as if it were their own. Each of you has different strength. Your strength is unique to you. For one person it may be their ability to speak their truth and for another it may be their ability to build a fence. Your strength comes in many shapes and sizes. There is no one way to be strong.

My guides have chosen to come through this morning:

Dear ones, your strength is individual to you. That is the beauty of being a human being. Each of you have come to the earth as a piece of the puzzle and each piece is necessary and different. Like a puzzle dear ones the pieces may look alike, seem to fit, but there is only one unique piece for that part of the puzzle. So too are you each--a unique piece to the puzzle. It is necessary for you to find your strength and live it for you are a necessary part of your human world. Your strength, light and being is needed now. We ask you to shine in that strength you have for it is needed particularly now in your earth time and space. The changes that your planet Earth is undergoing requires each of you to step into the truth of who you are. It may seem difficult at times to find it; that is simply because you are looking outside of yourselves, dear ones. Often you compare yourselves to others. We ask you to compare yourselves to who you discover yourselves to be. We suggest you take the time to look within you to discover the beauty of who you are for it will show you the way to your strength. When it is discovered, we ask you to be free to allow the process of living your strength to happen. It requires dedication to your soul's mission. Everyone has a mission and everyone's mission is slightly different even if they look the same, just as we mentioned a puzzle may look the same, but only the correct one fits. So dear ones, remember your piece of the puzzle will fit perfectly for you if you allow it to happen. EstaRa's message is timely for some of you. She has often felt that she is different since childhood, the beauty is that she is different and has learned to live her strength. Her strength is the beauty of who she is. Learn from EstaRa and dare to pave the road as you go rather than to find the one someone else has paved for you. It is with love, honor and respect that we bring you this message today. We are The Masters of Light.

My guides offer such beautiful words of wisdom. My wish is that you find within this message the empowerment needed to Live in Your Strength.

In love,
EstaRa

Been Here Before...Almost 600 Years Ago.

2011-09-08T15:42:00.000-04:00

We left the church and started heading down what looked like an alley, but no it wasn't dark and dreary like and old time movie. But it was old. And, the doors on the buildings were really interesting as we made our way down toward the Ben Ezra Synagogue. This one door just called to me so I had to take a picture of it.

(Even now as I type up this blog for you all to experience the trip with me the door still calls out to me. Can you feel it too?)
I lingered in front of the door for a little too long that I had to catch up with the rest of the group.

We were told that the religious population in Cairo is 90% Muslim, 10% Christian and 15 Jewish families...no I did not fail math class---that is 15 Jewish families. Amazing isn't it? For those of you who know me know that I have studied Judaism over the last few years and that I am called to go to Israel(another trip that hopefully the universe provides to me because I can't imagine how I would be going there.). I have reconnected with many of my past lives as many of you know and there were a few lifetimes that I was Jewish...often a Jewish male.

When I step foot in a Synagogue at home, I immediately take on a new energy--my energy seems to get bigger--I embrace the Hebrew as if it were a language I speak. I don't speak Hebrew at all except about 20 words or so that a guy that I dated a few years back taught me....I thank him immensely for the gift of teaching me. I am not one to do well learning on my own from books. I am someone who enjoys being in a school setting and learning form humans not computers or books---perhaps that has a lot to do with my guides. They don't teach me by reading they teach me by experiencing many things. (We won't go there for the sake of time and my hand would hurt writing the many dramatic at times experiences. But feel free to ask me sometime.) So I have many books on learning Hebrew, but I am not disciplined enough to learn it that way and quite honestly, I think I need to hear someone pronounce the sound of the words. Going back for a moment to the words I do know, apparently I speak them so well that I sound like I am Israeli. Now the first moment, I stepped into Synagogue I sang those prayers like I was an expert--I don't know where that came from other than my spirit channeled them right through me. Incredible experiences, but I digress! PS didn't think of blog my experiences with Hebrew, Judaism and Synagogues, but they too were amazing in and of themselves.

Anyway, we make our way to Ben Ezra and we are told we can't take pictures inside which is quite disappointing to me, but it is what it is. This is the entrance gate to get to the grounds of the Synagogue.

Oh ya, I failed to tell you that it started to rain when we left the Church. Yes, it rained in the desert in Cairo---I was surprised too!!

The security to get into the Synagogue was probably the best and most realistic security we went through the whole time we were there. As I mentioned in my earlier blogs, they didn't really look at our stuff in line, but just made us put our stuff up there like for appearances or something. This I felt secure in their checking things out. We walked into an area where we could sit while our tour guide, Setep en Ra started to talk about the history of the synagogue.

As I sat there trying to listen, my energy got pulled back in time. The voice of Setep en Ra began to fade out. I began to see everything change; the building in which I was sitting transformed to a Temple that was used and I was sitting in this temple as a member attending a Shabbat service. I saw people as they arrived in the building to pray and get prepared for Shabbat. I saw that I was a man and that I had a son who was there with me. There were no women in there; only men. It was incredible. I could hear the prayers being recited and I could see the men as they performed the Shabbat Service. This experience showed me one life that I lived as a Jewish male. I feel like I was one of the original founders of this Temple.

Then I started to hear our tour guide's voice again and he was telling something about Jewish tradition and I asked him if I could correct him based on the knowdledge that I had just experienced. He asked if I was Jewish and I said no, but that I had studied Judaism. He said that he had few friends that were Jewish and emphasized how the religions really got along here in Cairo. He asked me to share what I knew with the rest of the people there. I started to tell them what I saw, but also what the meaning of traditions were from my own knowledge.

Then as we were leaving, there was a place to purchase memorabilia from here and I really wanted to have something from here, but nothing resonated. I felt that I didn't need it the experience in the Temple was enough to help me to hold this memory. (Even as I type this to you now I am experiencing the sounds of the Temple and the visions of it too!)

A few days earlier, Sokehelia said that she felt there was something there at the synagogue for me. I felt it too. I couldn't wait to go there and now I know. Everything was so familiar and I felt like I could stay there for longer, but it was time to move on. So I left with a part of my energy (me) returned to me. Thank you Ben Ezra for still being there for my journey 600 years later.

1.16.2011

The Streets of Cairo

2011-09-08T14:05:00.000-04:00

The streets in Cairo are so busy and packed with vehicles---it is like a dusty NYC street. Here is a picture to show you just that.

This is a picture of the bus as we are about to board to go downtown to the Old City of Cairo.

The ride to the church was eventful. While we were driving in the bus, I looked out the window and really saw the chaos of the streets. There was really no lane. People and animals were on the local buses. It reminds me of the scene in the movie Romancing the Stone where Kathleen Turner boards the bus in Colombia. Not a bus I would want to travel on. Not because of the crammed in animals and humans, but because of the bus stops. There aren't any. I mean literally the bus stops in traffic; people board on and off in the middle of the road no real bus stops. The people boarding on and off must navigate through traffic because the traffic is not likely to stop for them. It was a scary sight I must say.

We are here. I took a picture of a sign across the way. I swear if I was here alone I would be totally.

Everything is written in Arabic. It really is quite the beatitful language though.

1.16.2011

Waiting in the King Hotel

2011-09-08T14:04:00.000-04:00

Here we are in the lobby of the King Hotel--waiting for the "Nasty Train" to arrive. And waiting. And waiting. The plane people look so refreshed and our group, the sleeper train people, don't look so bad either. The nasty train people, well you know we won't know for some time. It sounds like there is no ETA on their arrival.

The plan is that when they arrive, we will have one hour to get together and do our last scheduled optional tour of the Old Cairo and the Citadel. Unfortunately, I just found out some bad news that only two other people want to do Alexandria and we won't be going. I am so disappointed, but that tells me that I will be heading back to Egypt again. I have to say that I am really disappointed because now I would have gone on the hot air balloon ride. Oh well--I'm in Egypt...seriously, can I really be disappointed? hahaha

Being back in Cairo is so different than the rest of the places we went to. It is so metropolitan and crazy --don't like it so much.

Saw our room and just so you know the King Hotel is not the name I would have given it. It is not likely to house Kings--not so clean once again. But still better than that hotel in Aswan. We have our last group gathering tonight and not everyone is doing the city tour. I hope I make it to the group gathering since I haven't recently been to the last two.

They are here--the nasty train peeps arrived. They don't look so bad apparently the right people traveled on that train knowing they could still find some sleep. There trip took a lot longer because they had some train trouble and were stopped for some time.

Okay, got to run--well walk to the bus for our journey to the Coptic Church.

1.16.11

Inspirational Snippet: Yes

2011-09-08T14:03:00.001-04:00

Good Rainy day from Michigan,

Here I am sitting in Novi, MI being a little chilled by the rain and getting ready to go out and do some readings this evening. Nothing more exciting than getting a good cup of tea, reading a book and taking a nap. Nap-Check, Book-Check and Tea-Check Now onto the snippet.

This is a simple message for all of you thinkers out there. The ones who plan, plan, plan and then do and then think, think, think about what just transpired. It is for all of you who rehash life to try and understand why. Ever ask the question, WHY? I know I used do and sometimes I get caught up in the trap of WHY...of course now I just wish that was a word that they skipped over in school and I wouldn't have to ask that question again. Sound familiar? Ever satisfied with the answer? Even better, do you really ever get the answer?

From Emmanuel's Book II:
"Dare to believe the universe is simple. A loving YES is the doorway to infinite possibility. You were not meant to understand your life. You were meant to live it. "

This quote unlocks the key to what is not working in your life. Do not think, do not question, do not plan, simply allow. Realize that the universe provides you with numerous opportunities each day to heal, express yourself, fall in love, get caught up in the moment and just live. The things that happen, happen simply because they are what is supposed to. There really is no need to question--why me? Why did he do that? Why did she do that? Why is it this way not that way? It is not necessary to understand why or how some things happen. It is only necessary to experience it.

My wish for you is to take hold of life and truly say yes to the amazing opportunities that are coming your way even if they seem a bit scarey, ridiculous or unbelievable. It is time to say yes to life!

Hanging Church in Old Cairo

2011-09-08T13:29:00.001-04:00

The tour of the old city began at the Hanging Church in Cairo.

It is a magnificent church as are most old churches. It is called the Hanging Church because it is suspended above the gatehouse of a Babylon fortress.

I am not sure if you can even tell by the following pictures that it is, in fact, hanging. The first picture is the entrance to go up the steps to get to the church and the second picture is looking down.

I could feel the energy of this church, but no real experiences for me here. I almost wonder if I am just burnt out because it is the end of the trip. But here are some more pictures of the church. I love stained glass windows and this one is so deeply in color.

This piece is real ivory and wood. It is magnificent to look at. Everything is so ornate and detailed in this church. It is really quite beauiful.

1.16.2011

Morning Has Broken

2011-09-04T20:08:00.000-04:00

I see light shining out through my window. I am awake. I lie here in the bed and think to myself I slept on a train. It wasn't bad at all and honestly the movement was really comforting. I think I can travel across country by train or perhaps Europe? Anyway, back to my experience this morning. We've been traveling 10 hours now and ready to get off the train, but here comes breakfast delivered to us.

Oh goody--an orange! And, yep you guessed it--a box of bread again! There is the tiniest piece of cheese you ever did see. Imagine it--make a triangle with your thumb and pointer finger--that is about the size and actually that may even be a bit bigger--thank heavens for the chocolate bar. At least the nuts have some protein.

Our train just stopped, but it is not our stop at least I don't think. I hope someone remembers to tell us it is our stop, we don't have a guide with us. Truthfully, this could be the stop but who would know we don't speak Arabic. hahaha

I just looked out the window and look at this tree--not the best picture, but you can see monkey heads in it. If you look closely, you will see what I mean.

Isn't that interesting?

We got the sign that we are almost there. I have to admit taking the luggage I did was way too much. I think I need to learn to travel lighter or get comfortable in dirty clothes. It is too heavy and yet it isn't heavy at all (not compared to other trips I went on in my past when there wasn't a luggage weight limit!), but after lugging it on a train twice now it is just not something you want to carry with you. Maybe a backpack instead of a suitcase? hahaha Ya right, who am I kidding. If you know me that seems near impossible.

Okay we are deboarding and heading to our hotel in Cairo. Let's see if we really did beat the Nasty Train. My guess is that we did, but who knows our train took longer than they thought. I'll write more later.

1.16.2011

Planes, Trains and Automobiles ( I mean Sleeper Train, I mean Heaven )

2011-09-04T13:22:00.000-04:00

We just boarded the train. I am with a third of our group of Lightworkers. Our group did split up. A portion of our group took the plane back to Cairo and will be sleeping soundly in a hotel bed tonight. Another part of the group took the "nasty train"--yes some people did opt to go back the way they came. I don't want to think about it so I am going to suggest if you are not sure what the Nasty train is like, I would recommend going back in my blog for that entry. You will then be able to get the picture. I was still surprised that people went back on that train.

And here I am sitting on the sleeper train as we prepare to leave. I just did a shopping spree out on the platform---well no not really. I went grocery shopping so to speak that included 2 chocolate bars, potato chips and water. This is just in case I get a box of bread again for breakfast. I was so worried that the likelihood of me having food in the morning based on the past trip is grim. Bought a ton of water.

Ebron Ra and I are sharing this cabin. And it really is quite the cute cubby hole.

It is tremendously clean in comparison to the Nasty Train. This is more of what I think of as average in America--but it would be considered first class here, perhaps? They have pillows blankets and beds...haven't checked out the potty yet. Will keep you posted. If I could sleep for at least a few hours I will be grateful.

Okay, checked out the bathroom and it is still not what I would consider clean, but it is sooooo much better than the other train. At least when I lifted the toilet seat, it did not fall off and well there was running water. Oh and imagine this we have a sink in out cabin too!! I don't have any complaints really...just looking forward to hitting the pillow...will write you more in the morning.

1.15.11

Inspirational Snippet: What is Guilt?

2011-09-04T10:13:00.000-04:00

Another amazing quote from Emmanuel's Book II. The Choice for Love. As I read this quote, I felt that this is a must share.

"What is guilt? Guilt is second judgment. It is looking at oneself in hindsight and saying "I really ought not to have done that." "But, my dears, if you really ought not to have done that, you would not have. Know that at the moment of happening, it was all appropriate. If you have learned since that the act was not what you would choose now and you feel guilty, know that the act itself has brought you to this understanding. That was all it was meant to do."

There are many of us raised with the sense of guilt through our families and then reinforced by our religious backgrounds. I saw this quote and really thought I needed to share this with you so that you can breakfree from the pattern of guilt you or a loved one may have established throughout this life. I love the way Emmanuel explains "guilt". Do you realize that what Emmanuel is saying is that if you feel guilt about something it should be the lesson to feel the guilt and then release yourself from the guilt. The point is to hold onto guilt is to keep you stuck. To feel guilty is to remind you of the lesson you learned so that you do not remake that "mistake". It isn't supposed to make you afraid to live. As Emmanuel mentions if you were not supposed to do something then you wouldn't have. Every part of living is an experience to cherish even the "so called mistakes".

My only wish for you is that you remember that if guilt sneaks up on you...what is the reason? Is it to make you feel bad? Or is it simply to remind you of a lesson that you wish learn? It is all in how you choose to perceive it. My wish for you is to not put energy into guilt over the choices you have made. The choices were made because at the moment you made them that is simply what you chose. As Emmanuel says, if you didn't like the choice this will stop you from making it again, but no need to waste energy on feeling guilty. Spend your energy on loving you instead.

In love,
EstaRa

Official Good bye to Scarab Tours

2011-09-04T10:12:00.000-04:00

We just finished up our dinner and we are off to get to our train. We crammed our luggage in the center of the hotel lobby before going off to dinner. Not something we would feel comfortable doing in America, I mean we would be concerned that a our luggage may match someone else's and they may just have to take it home too! :) (okay so that was my poor attempt at a joke--I really mean to say someone may steal it!) We all met at the restaurant that we went to the day we arrived at Luxor. I was happy to be able to order from the menu because that meant no tomato sauce and rice. Woo hoo!!

It was such a pleasant gathering, but really sad at the same time. I know that most of us will see each other tomorrow, but it is sad to know that we are leaving Egypt and each other even though we are deeply connected at a Soul level. I love everyone that I have met so far and it is incredible to know that our connection happened so quickly over the last couple of weeks. I know that in my heart I will know them forever, but I also know that human life gets in the way and I certainly would hope not, but then again one never knows. We exchanged emails, phone numbers and addresses.

It was getting time to leave to catch up our bus to our transportation. I just found out that we do not have a tour guide that will travel with us. Oh my!! We don't? That freaks me out a bit no one speaks Arabic. Okay let's not get panicked. But, what if we miss our stop, who is going to come claim us? hahaha ...back to breathing I trust our guides (the etheric beings that have guided me along my way) to get us there--they have gotten us this far.

We had an opportunity to say good bye to Setep en ra and Wassim. It was really funny, I thanked them both. They really were tremendous light beings. They were helpful and so open to what we were doing. Who else would put themselves in the possibility of getting thrown into jail for their tour people? That alone should win them awards.

Funny story, when I went up to say good bye to Setep an Ra. I thanked him and gave him a hug. He told me that I was a beautiful soul and to realize that while all the men were trying to buy me with camels--that was real. (I had told him about my experience of the many offers to purchase me with camels since I entered the country.) He said when the Egyptian men are flirting with travelers they say beautiful eyes and flirt, but when they offer camels for you that is a serious offer. He said I should be honored. I laughed because inside of me I felt like I was horrified that they followed me everywhere, but I guess I am honored that some men want to buy me! hahaha

If we are doing the optional trips, we will see Scarab Tours again, but if not this was the last opportunity to say good bye.

I wish to tell my twinflame when I get back that even the men in Egypt find me to be a good catch. I wonder what he would think if he knew. I wonder if it would matter to him ? I wonder if he misses me. I can't help, but feel these questions inside of me. It is getting close to the end of the trip and I have to make a decision if I will call him. I want so badly to get off the plane and go directly to where he works and tell him that I love him and I miss him, but not sure if I should do that. I mean I know on an etheric level that he feels the same way, but 3D I don't know what he is thinking--we haven't spoken now in over two months.

Okay now, we got to go and catch the sleeper train..see you on there.

1.15.2011

Inspirational Snippet: The Human Costume

2011-08-31T13:08:00.002-04:00

I've been reading again. Always a good thing and thankfully, my flight to Michigan provided ample time. I found something I really wanted to share with you from Emmanuel's Book II: The Choice to Love. The following truly resonated with me:

"The sense of Self is distracted by what you have been taught are the necessities of human survival. You have worn these belief systems as part of your costume all your lives..... Your costume has become your identity. Every "mistake" you have been taught you made comes from the illusion that you should conform to your costume. YOU have never made a mistake."

I hope you hear this reminder. "YOU have never made a mistake." Each step a long your path truly is paved with opportunities for you to become more you. We are taught from the moment we are birthed how, what and who we are based on someone else's experiences. Our teachers being those within our immediate circle: being parents and extended family we interact with. Is it a bad thing? No, of course not. We chose our parents to experience just what they were ready to teach us (yes, even those of you who may not want to admit to it or own the responsibility for choosing the life you are living). They were to be our first teachers in this world. Some of you may be wondering why would I ever choose this? You chose this because the way they raised you good, bad or indifferent (depending on how you viewed it) was exactly what you needed to learn the things you came here to learn.

Those experiences paved ways for growth opportunities. You were not meant to hold those belief systems intact unless of course they fit you. If you are not "happy" living the life you are living, it is time to ask yourself: Am I conforming to what other people believe? Does this life that I am living fit my dreams and goals? Or do these dreams and goals belong to someone else? Each time you have judged yourself or someone else for the mistakes that you have made you are still trying to fit (conform) to those belief systems. For those mistakes that you call them are simply opportunities to break free from the costume you have been "donning" since childhood. Your job is to find that learning what you were taught is the fuel that empowers your need to discover yourself. We are meant to shine from whatever circumstances we have been given. The beauty of who you are is truly attainable.

Are you willing to shed your costume? Are you willing to empower yourself beyond where you are? Are you willling to shine your light? I promise you that if you do this--not only will you develop a new "costume", but your life will take turns toward what it is you desire!

With an open heart of love,
Estara

Inspirational Snippet: Ending of Relationships

2011-08-19T11:29:00.002-04:00

I was reading again and this book has been such a great read and great reminder of things. The book is called: Emmanuel's Book Compiled by Pat Rodegast and Judith Stanton. (By the way this book was written back in 1985) I highly recommend this to be a great read for you. Much of what you read will be stuff you already know and feel, but it is a helpful reminder to help you through these times of change and transition.

Over the last couple of years, I have noticed people waking up and making huge changes with their life. I also have noticed many people struggling and resisting what they are feeling especially in terms of their relationships. Our society teaches if you get married that you should stay together no matter what. I know I was raised to believe that once you get married, it is supposed to last forever; but a few years back I wrote (channeled an article called Relationships: Our Road Map on our Soul's Journey) and it put everything into perspective for me. If you want to read that article it is located at my blog: www.aprildamato.blogspot.com . I was reading a passage in the book that really resonated with me regarding relationships and the article I had written a few years ago. This information is simply a rediscovery of our soul knowledge. Recently, I have had many people coming in for guidance about their relationships and my guides suggest that now is the time to share this information again.

Now, I would like to preface this "excerpt" with the following: a divorce is not for everyone at this time; however, there are some of you trying to understand why you or your spouse may be filing for divorce or strongly contemplating it. Remember, we are not just physical beings we are spiritual beings with spiritual lessons to be learned on this physical plane. Emmanuel's Book Excerpt:

"Why are so many marriages ending in divorce? It is because people have accelerated their growth processes. Souls come together, not to remain together in physical contact, but to grow. When this has taken place the gifts have been given and the lessons have been learned. So don't you agree that it's time to move on? All things are in order, Do not be alarmed by change. Things are speeding up not to leap into the pit of destruction, but to come to that plateau of understanding that you are seeking."

"What can I do a concerning my deteriorating marriage? Let it deteriorate. Marriage is another word for relationship and when a relationship no longer serves, if you have scraped the bottom of the barrel to find the meaning, to find the lessons, to find the essence of why you have come together, and this has not brought forth what you are seeking, what more can you possibly do? If there is no true wedding it matters very little how you close it. Can you not let this go with your love and your blessings so the next time you meet this soul again there will be more compatibility, more compassion, more understanding? For you will meet again."

In love and light,
EstaRa

Inspirational Snippet: Choose Love

2011-08-14T10:00:00.002-04:00

I was reading again recently and ran across a question that the author of the "Emmanuel Book" had asked of Emmanuel and my guides shouted to me share this. I asked why? They said because this is what you have been saying, but sometimes humans need to hear it from more than one source for it to resonate with them. So here it is...

The question: Can you give me a mantra to use when I feel lost in my own depression and fear?

Emmanuel Responds: When, without even knowing the meaning of it, you say with every inhalation, "I choose love here. I choose love," You will see the light change and the darkness dispel. Your mind may say, "I don't understand what happened. All I did was sit here for fifteen minutes choosing love." Well, mind, that's all that is required.

Can you feel that? Even in the midst of chaos, emotional pain and physical discomfort, you can feel it. Try it now for just one breath and then another. How does that feel? Imagine 5 minutes of that a day? The magic would be yours to receive peace and love while quieting the lifelong drama of fear that one so often chooses. It feels really good I just tried it before I wrote this to you.

In love and light my dear soul friends,
EstaRa

Heading back to Luxor for Our Last Supper

2011-08-11T10:36:00.002-04:00

We are on the bus ride back toward the hotel. We just saw our last temple and that would finish our temple hopping—that is what I call this experience. It really was like we hopped from one temple to the next and the next. It was late in the day when we arrived and I was tired. Tired from the emotions, tired from the physical aches and tired from not sleeping well…I am just overall tired.

We are now heading back to the hotel for our last group dinner together in Luxor at the same restaurant we went to the afternoon we arrived in Luxor. Originally, we had additional time at the hotel to shower, relax and pack before we went to dinner, but surprise we don’t have that time. Well, it didn’t surprise me and honestly at some moments, I think it is best that we keep moving otherwise I may just get sucked into a crying jag and not overcome it. We have about 45 minutes to pack up, freshen up and meet at the restaurant for our last dinner together and officially we would separate into the three groups. Those of us on the sleeper train, those of us on the airplane and those of us on the “nasty train”. It turns out that we are divided evenly as a group for those three modes of transportation, but we are all to arrive at different times. Okay, off I go to pack my stuff…see you on the sleeper train.

1.15.2011

Eternal Quest for the Bathroom at Denderah

2011-08-11T10:35:00.002-04:00

It was late day on our way back from the Temple to the bus and a few of us really needed to use the bathroom. I have to admit that while on this trip I have established that the bathrooms here in Egypt are quite disgusting and my threshold to dirty has become relative to the place I am in which allowed me to pee in places that were lesser than I would ever consider in America. That being said, I really don’t like having to pee on transportation things like bus, train, etc. And, just a preview for tonight—we take the “sleeper train” back to Cairo. So , I thought here are Denderah there is a little extra time for me to find the potty that wasn’t moving. I made my way with a small group of Jeanne, Meg and Carole to find the bathroom. We walked through the little village that is established outside of the Temple building itself so it would be considered part of the “park” at one of our monuments in the US. And, there were shops that were closing and shops that were opened trying to get our business and public bathrooms. However, to use the public bathroom there was a man at the door trying to collect money. Really? I couldn’t believe it. We attempted to go to a few before we finally found one. They were really gross, but then we found one that was lesser than the others. We finally made our way into one that they were only charging if we wanted toilet paper and well me the tissue queen (thanks Angels for making me sick with the flu before I left for my trip because that is what prompted me to bring so many tissues!!) had enough in her bag for each person with me. Of course, one tissue each, but it worked and we didn’t have to pay—though the man followed us out the door trying to collect money from us for just using the potty. I have to admit I won’t miss this. I feel really dehydrated on this trip I surely do not drink as much I do when I am at home---but I warn you…it is a good thing!!

1.15.2011

Arriving at Denderah

2011-08-11T10:34:00.000-04:00

We arrived at the Temple at Denderah with barely enough time to see it. We had maybe an hour to visit the temple and do all that we needed to do here before it closed. This temple was built dedicated to Hathor and I could definitely feel the Hathor energy here at Denderah. It was so much lighter than Abydos and so much lighter than many of the other temples. As the Goddess of love, joy and music you could tell the difference in the feeling of this temple upon arrival at Denderah. Each step we took it was softer than any of the other temples that was the first thing I noticed here. It was quite a walk from the entrance gate to the temple itself and you could see it was becoming late afternoon at this point.

While I was still feeling really raw from the whole experience of this trip and the healings that were happening to me each night with past life memories, healing old wounds of this lifetime and many previous lifetimes, surprisingly because this energy was so light, I was able to hold back my tears for this whole time.

As we approached the entrance of this grand temple, there were six columns and an opening in the middle where it felt like there were these grand doors, but as you can see there is only this large opening to what felt like a courtyard. I feel like dancing or something took place here. We made our way through and to the back where there rooms were very tall and large and there was some amazing pictures etched into the stone that I was not able to capture because I didn’t take my camera out as it was getting dark.

We walked in groups up to the top of the temple which was like the roof with no roof on it. That is the only way I could describe it. Solara was looking for a place for us to come together in a circle where we wouldn’t get into trouble. The thing is we have been dodging guards at all these places because they do not like anyone coming together in a circle and it could cause our “Tour Guides” to get into some trouble not to mention us too. I didn’t even bother to take out my camera up here because it was getting dark and the lighting would affect what came out and truly we didn’t have the time.
To find our place to gather, we climbed many steps, but they were not steep like steps we know. They were flat and each step was like only a couple of inches high. When they created this they did like 12 steps and then it became a flat and then you turned a corner and up another set. I felt like in this temple there were more stairs than any other with the exception of the Great Pyramid. It was incredible how steps we climbed and on some levels we would see rooms off the side. I saw in one of the rooms we stopped to look in that the rocks had faces in them. It was really quite an amazing journey.

As we made our way up to this open top, it was like the top floor without a roof---It was all open to the sky with the exception of one room we made our way to. This room was enclosed and on the floor was a giant circle with the signs of the zodiac. It was definitely a magical room and we chose this to gather at first, but then the space was really not large enough for our group of 33 to fit around this room and the guards came and moved us. So we made our way out to this area that was almost like a room with a column on each of the four corners. There were no walls and no roof, but it seemed just perfect for our group even if just out in the open. So we gathered together in our last circle in a temple as a group on this trip. We held hands and called light into this time and space. As I stood there, I still felt quite raw from all that has been transpiring, but I was able to hold back the tears. It was interesting because as soon as we gathered here and called in the light, it was as if there was no one else around. I felt like we had become invisible into a new dimension. It was very incredible. I had still remained very much the quiet one on the trip which is by no means who many of you know me to be.

We were then left to visit the rest of the temple on our own for the next 20 minutes and then we were to make our way back out to the bus.

Love this little person so I had my picture taken with him, it made me feel tall considering these temples in size were huge. Okay so it really was a pillar that was broken and he was the top of the pillar, but right now he is on the ground so it made me look tall. hahaha

1.15.2011

The Call of the Crystal at Abydos

2011-08-11T10:29:00.000-04:00

We are now back on the bus. Lunch as usual was not very eventful or exciting; however, it was something to eat and there was some cool parts too!! Being Italian and loving tomato sauce am quite amazed how much I am disliking tomato sauce on rice. That is all I seem to be able to get here and oranges. How much acid can one endure in their diet? I know they have bread (you all know by now just how much bread they have there), but I can't eat it to help balance the acidic foods...I am gluten sensitive and believe me I do not want to do anything on this trip that would make me feel physically in pain and hence that is what gluten has done to me.

Tears have been coming and going still, but not the flood gates like yesterday; though I think you can tell if you look at my eyes that I had been crying enough tears to flood the Nile here.

So anyway, we have eaten, I have used the bus bathroom which is by far the cleanest bathroom I have encountered on this trip with the exception of the hotels we have been staying at. Yes, imagine that I have developed a new standard in bathrooms...look out America cause here I come and McDonald's will not be my only "pee stop" I am no longer afraid to brave the less than perfect bathrooms. I guess that is the lesson Egypt is teaching me that and not to drink so much water. hahaha

I digress, we are on our way to Denderah now. But I have to tell you the story of my crystal. When lunch was over, the restaurant people had placed a bunch of quartz crystals over on another table for us to purchase. The mountain at Abydos is made of Quartz Crystals. Everyone on this trip had brought with them large crystals and really I didn't bring too many. Just a few that I had carried in my pouch including the one I had gifted to Sekhmet. Right after lunch we all walked over to the table to look at the crystals to see if we wanted to purchase one from the mountain. I saw many on the table of all different sizes. I saw large crystals and I wanted a large ornate looking one that I could use when I channeled like Solara An Ra had. She held these amazing crystals and it helped her connection to her guides. I was thinking maybe the larger the crystal the more connection I would have. So I walked over to the table and picked up all these crystals and felt nothing.

Then, there was this one. I immediately felt a vibration in my hand. I put it down and I really felt like it called me. I picked it up again. It wasn't the pretty one, but it was one that could be held in my hand and it picked me really. It was the only crystal on the table of many that called out to me and that I felt a vibration with. It was truly amazing.

I am holding the crystal now and I can't wait to go to sleep with it tonight.

1.15.2011

Channel: Angelic League of Light in Council to Twinflames

2011-08-04T10:32:00.000-04:00

Angelic League of Light in Council to the Twinflames channeled through EstaRa in Rocky Hill, CT on Thursday, August 4th, 2011 at 9:30 a.m.

I asked if spirit had a message for me today and that is what I am sharing with you. (It is somewhat personal; but it is intended for a larger audience as stated in the message. It has specific guidance for twinflames.) By the way, I have never channeled this group before (I don't think) and I feel so honored to get this message today and it was so needed for me as a reminder.

Yes, dear one we do. We always have words of wisdom to impart to you. You are loved. You are loved beyond your human mind’s capability to grasp this love. You are exactly where you are meant to be. We say do not put energy into worrying about your move. We say do not put energy into fear of where the money is coming from. We say do not put energy into worrying about how Hawaii will happen. All will happen according to the divine plan. Your spirit self knows that which we speak of today.

Today, we ask you to focus only on divine love that you wish to experience. Your focus must be on what you wish to experience. You are not able to connect to your beloved or his life at this time due to the circumstances he is in. Dear one, he is safe and protected for he is to be with you –however, his world is colliding and collapsing in duality. He must be brought to you by way of divine love. He has tried in the human way as have you, dear one. Now it is time to trust in the divine and see what miracles will transpire. It is with love, honor and respect that we bring you this message today.

Dear one, your reunion with your beloved other half is imminent—all is in perfect divine order—for this is the year of the twinflame reunions—we ask you to see the signs for they are posted for all to see. If you stay in the divine knowing that love is the experience you wish to choose then you will see our message undoubtedly. You will see what is necessary for your path. Listen within your heart and trust in the love you know to be the truth. The twin love is necessary to bring this planet into the changes that are transpiring—you are not alone on this path—many are following—many are ready for reunification—it that is what you desire you must trust your heart. We say do not get caught in your mind for there it will unravel what you feel and know to be true. This message should be shared for the beloved ones need to prepare by only staying in the heart which is why you feel the need to be alone and way from many people who allow themselves to be trapped in 3D. We ask you to be selective of those you spend time with. Trust in this guidance as it will feel like a remembrance of truth for you and assist you in knowing how you spend your time. It is a joy to work with you beloved, Estara. It is a joy to see you grow into who you truly are—an Earth Star Angel---that is your name E star A. it is with light, love and honor we bring you this message. We are with you ALWAYS. Even in those moments you feel we are not there.

We are the Angelic League of Light in Council to the Twinflames.

Inspirational Snippet: Trust in the Divine Plan

2011-08-03T09:20:00.000-04:00

Good Morning. The sky is the most beautiful blue painted with whimsical white clouds that look like angels dancing in the wind. I had an appointment cancel last evening which worked out to my benefit because I got the opportunity to sit outside and read in the evening air. I loved it!! I don’t often get to do that so the first thing is that I am grateful for my cancellation. While I was sitting outside reading, I found a passage that really resonated with me and I wanted to share it with all of you.

The book is “Emmanuel’s Book”, the passage:

“How can we stop worrying about the ones we love? By trusting the absolute wisdom of each soul. Worry is distrust put into a slot that seems socially acceptable. If you say, “I am worried about my children,” everyone says, “Yes, of course,” and thinks you are a good parent. But if you should say, “I really don’t trust the Divine Plan,” what do you think the reaction would be?”

This passage really spoke to me because of what is happening on the earth at this time. My guides have been preparing us to stay in the balance and the love regardless of what is happening around us. As I read this, it was quite the reminder, but really hit home with the last part for me. I think for me this week, my new mantra will be: “I TRUST THE DIVINE PLAN”. That should cover about all of it.

This has been an important reminder for me with some recent events in my personal life too. I am grateful for the reminder—hope you are too. Trusting in the divine plan is by far one of the most beautiful gifts you can give yourself and the ones you love. It simply means you TRUST. I trust each of you to find your truth within you and I trust in the wisdom of your soul.

Be love,
EstaRa

Whisperings of EstaRa

2011-08-01T09:25:00.000-04:00

We are now sitting outside the Temple at Abydos waiting for the others to arrive. We are getting ready to have lunch at this little hut--yes that is what it looks like I have to say. It is an outdoor restaurant. We are sitting having some "boiled mint". No more mint tea here because we have found that mint tea is black tea with a few pieces of mint thrown in there so we have learned to ask for "boiled mint".

I am still in awe at the experience in the Temple. Our mission in this temple was to go where we felt we needed to be to bring light. We were told by the P's "Some may go in groups and some may go by themselves to different chambers to bring light." We were also guided to sing our name in the frequency there. Solara An Ra channeled that 22 of us had been in this Temple before and I feel like I was definitely one of them. Well, I know I was, but I wasn't there as April or as Ra'chel. BUT I was there as someone else.

About 6 months ago in July of 2010, I had done a meditation and spoke to my highest self and was given the star name of "EstaRa". It didn't resonate with me then, but today it did! We were asked to sing our name to activate our energy with the frequency of Abydos. I was walking through the temple, I was humming love, love, love and then I felt ready to sing my name. I started to sing "Ra'chel" and it didn't come out very well, but I kept hearing "EstaRa" in my head. Someone was calling out to me and they were calling me my name...I began to sing "EstaRa". My whole body began to tingle and cover with the energy. It enveloped my body. Oh my goodness. At this point, I was alone singing "EstaRa" it felt so right. What did not resonate with me last summer was somehow transforming my very being at the moment I was singing "EstaRa".

I haven't told anyone as of yet--it would be too confusing for me. I mean they are calling me Ra'chel and I am already April and to add a third name, really?? Oh my goodness. Anyway, there is a lot for me to digest today. I am EstaRa. I have to see how that feels and try it on at some point. It feels really good inside.

1.15.11

Inspirational Snippet: Gratitude

2011-07-21T21:00:00.000-04:00

I woke up this morning to this quote in my inbox this morning and it really resonated and makes me want to share it with you all.

"You simply will not be the same person two months from now after consciously giving thanks each day for the abundance that exists in your life. And you will have set in motion an ancient spiritual law: the more you have and are grateful for, the more will be given you."--Sarah Ban Breathnach

This quote really does speak for itself. It is that simple to live a life of abundance and experience. I also find that in my daily life when things may not be the way I would like them I can often get stuck in that energy, but if I remember to look around my life and see all that I am grateful for it quickly fixes my mood. If you are having one of those days and look around your home and can't access that feeling of gratitude, take a walk or a drive and begin to look at nature and feel the gratitude for what is seen in nature like; thank you for the sun shining, thank you for the bunny hopping in the backyard, thank you for the clear blue sky above, thank you for the waving of the trees in the wind. It really is that simple. And yes, it may not seem too comfortable at first, but I promise if you keep it up even when you feel icky it will really help you!

Be in love,
EstaRa

Abydos--the Cool Picture Part

2011-07-20T22:31:00.000-04:00

I don't know what else to label this entry as yet other than Abydos. Such a small name for such a big experience. Wow!! So when we get off the bus after a bit of a ride from Luxor, I see up ahead the entrance to the temple. And yes, if you guessed stairs again, you are correct? I am going to have a great butt and legs after this trip with all the climbing and walking. hahaha They sure ache at the end of the long day.

We had our mission to ground light from Core Crystal to Great Central Sun and then the opposite 3 times each.

We first were given the guided tour from Setep En Ra. He really has been a marvelous tour guide and so helpful to our group. Here are pictures depicted on the ceiling. Can you see the helicopter? Can you see the submarine?

It really is incredible when you think about it that these depictions are of things we can recognize? Amazing and so intact still too! This is a great pic from DebRa...if you look closely enough the ball of light(the sun coming in) looks like an angelic being...I see wings, do you??

This is the cool picture part, but stay tuned for the really cool part and a glimpse of EstaRa that is up next...

1.15.11

Magic Magic Are We The 33

2011-07-20T22:30:00.000-04:00

The Temple at Abydos is one of Solara An Ra's favorites. She talked to us about it and told us that depicted on the outside wall is the FLower of Life. She also told us that there are some great wall depictings. I have to say as we drive there on our way I am getting a little overcooked on temples. This is the second to the last one. I hope when this trip is over that I will remember what is what, but who knows after awhile sand and temple are beginning to look a lot alike.

Solara just channeled her guides and they let us know that we are not alone. Her guides informed us that not only are her guides with us, but our guides (each one of us) are with us. They said we are not just 33 on this trip, but we are 33 times more powerful than just one on this trip. It is interesting to think about us as this powerful, but each of us alone is extremely powerful and if you put us all together well you got it all then! The P's say we are 1000's of time more powerful...Magic--Magic--Magic.

Our mission is three-fold: 1. to ground light from the Great Central Sun to the Core crystal here three times and then three times up from the Core Crystal up to the Great Central Sun. 2: sing our name in this place (using sound as a mechanism to tap into our soul. 3. Well not really three--I just add it...get pictures of the depictions of a helicopter and submarine. These were created in ancient times, could they have known then? Was it a vision of the future? Or did they have them and humanity just lost that technology? hmmm

Did I tell you that I have since decided to take the sleeper train back to Cairo? hahaha Yes, of course I did! But just making sure you were paying attention. Besides I'm not worried about it, can you tell? hahaha Of course, I am worried, but all is as it should be as my guides so kindly, not so gently remind me from time to time.

1.15.11

Seed of Doubt

2011-07-20T22:29:00.000-04:00

I woke up early this morning because I had an early start to bed last night. I feel so much better having had some sleep. It is not as early of a day. I opted out of the hot air balloon ride because I really want to spend my money on the trip to Alexandria it is calling me.

Some people did go on the hot air balloon ride so we have a lil later start waiting until everyone arrives from the ride. I am going to go to breakfast and see if I can see the balloons from the breakfast window. DebRa went out on the hot air balloon ride.

Breakfast was nice. I sat with some different people today. I sat with Ezserial. ? Spelling? oh well, don't know how to spell her name, but it sounds like that. :) It was a nice breakfast. I was still teary eyed this morning and breakfast of course brought more tears to me. She asked about the tears and I told her that a lot of it had to do with everything in my life, but most importantly with my twin. She put a little damper on it and said that maybe he is just not ready and maybe this isn't the life that we are meant to come together. It put a seed of doubt in my mind. I am back in my room in tears. Why do I give my power away so easily?

As I sit here writing this, I realize I gave my power away so easily to someone else's view. (As I am editing this journal entry I realize that I did truly give my power away. I mean I so easily listened to what the person had to say and allowed it to impact my thinking and place that seed of doubt in my mind despite everything I know to be true inside of me.) Here I am negating the towel in the shape of a heart on my bed the night before (a sign) and the most important sign was the experience at the Temple of Edfu. How could I not listen to that? And, yet here I am crying and believing what this person is saying about how I shouldn't wait and perhaps I am wasting my time.

(The interesting thing is that as I am transferring this from journal to blogpost I am aware that I wrote the seed of doubt was in my mind not my heart. That is a valid point, but my mind does wonder how much longer this will have to take? Shouldn't the time be now? I mean I feel like everything should have happened by now which is probably why I allowed the seed of doubt in. )

I am going to start putting things away in the suitcase because we will have just enough time to get our luggage out into the common area before dinner and then we head off to the sleeper train. Oh dear God, please let the sleeper train be sleepable! hahaha You think I am kidding, but I'm not. I know my pictures of the last train did not give you any real hint as to how nasty it was, but I sure hope my writing did. :)

Off I go...I have two more temples to see today before the day is over...

1.15.11

Spread Love Campaign--I Need Your Help!

2011-07-14T11:48:00.000-04:00

The Mission: To Spread Love All Over the Earth This Summer

An idea popped into my head recently, won't you join me?

When I returned from Egypt, I came back with the knowing that my mission on earth was to teach love, be love, live love. A couple weeks ago, I was sitting on a park bench in New York (I'm in New York on Sundays and Mondays) thinking how do I reach the multitude of people that are so oblivious to life and even more closed off to love. As many of you are aware, I find hearts everywhere on my path practically everyday and it always brings joy to my heart and a smile to my face even in the wake of a bad day. As I sat on the bench, I reached down and grabbed a white rock, drew a heart near my foot and hoped it would bring a smile to anyone who saw it. So, I thought what if....

I Write Spread Love...

I Draw a Heart...

Dear Lightworkers,

You often ask what else can you do to bring love here on earth now....well here is the plan...WHAT IF...we all did this? What if all summer long each and everyone of you and all the people you know, bought a bucket of sidewalk chalk and started to spread love? What if we created Love Graffitti? What if we tapped into our inner child and created magic everywhere we step our feet? What if we each had a role this summer to spread love, light, peace and hope to everyone on the earth? What if this is how we begin to celebrate Independence Day here in the US? What if this is the Lightworker Love Revolution we have been waiting for?

What If You Want to Participate? How, you ask? Simple. Buy a box of chalk and have at it. Whereever you are walking down a road or on a sidewalk, carry a piece of chalk with you and get inspired to draw, write or create love using words or symbols. Be creative: Pink is for Love so draw hearts, write "Spread Love". Blue is for Peace so draw the peace sign, write "Be Peace". Green is for Hope and Yellow/White is for Light. Make Magic Happen Here on Earth. Spread the Word. Teach Your Kids. Who doesn't want a little love? The best part is..., it washes off in the rain so no one can really complain. So let's make this summer a LOVE REVOLUTION.

LIKE the facebook fan page: SPREAD THE LOVE CAMPAIGN. Here you can spread the word, share stories and pictures of your experiences... I can't wait to see this expand globally. Let's make it happen--I need your help I can't do it alone.

In deep love and gratitude, EstaRa

The earth needs you to be love. Won't you join the mission? The goal is to get everyone spreading love. Sign on to the facebook group through Soul Star Healing's Fan Page.

The Spread Love Campaign Code is Easy. Pink = Love, Blue = Peace, Green = Hope, Yellow/White = Light

Start spreading Love, Peace, Light and Hope Today. Get the mission out there! Share it with your friends, family and neighbors. Forward this email if you must.

Across the Nile to the Alabaster Store We Go

2011-07-14T11:47:00.000-04:00

I am back in the hotel room now hours later. So our journey to the boat, and yes it was a journey. We ended up walking down to the Nile from our hotel. (Mind you I have been so tired lately that the walk was a little bit of an effort.) We walked the shorter way to the Nile than we did the night before which was a good thing . However, we walked to one dock and the boat wasn't there so we walked to the next one. There was only about 8 of us going to the Alabaster Museum. We finally found the right dock and we had to walk down these really dangerous steps that weren't really steps more like a narrow, long vertical climb with skinny planks of wood made to look like steps. hahaha

As if that were not dangerous enough for a group of people on little sleep, we had to climb aboard one board to climb into another boat on the other side. Yes, in case you were wondering what that all meant: we used a boat as a walkway to the boat we were going to take. Talk about scary, this all happened in the dark of the night.

Then we sailed across the Nile at night in the beautiful evening air. It was quite magical after you get over the fact of how we got onto the boat. When we made it onto the other side we had to walk up that slightly angled vertical walk again to get to the top where there was a cab waiting to pick us up. It was a little bit of a drive to the store.

When we got there, we had a private appointment for us to look around. There were so many things to choose from. I knew immediately what I wanted to buy. A white alabaster pyramid and a statue of the Goddess Bastet.

However, like all of us, I had to be cautious of the amount of money I was spending there so it took some time in deciding what to buy. I mean there was so much that I would want it I could afford more, but the most important thing was to buy what I wanted to be used in my office.

I made my decision fairly quick which as most of you know that when I am purchasing something if I am meant to have it there is no question it happens quick and when I am not sure I need something it takes forever and I don't buy anything. So there I sat waiting for others to make up their mind. Meanwhile, the shopkeepers started to smoke and it made me sick. I can't believe how yucky I felt. The slight headache became even worse. I was starting to really feel sick. I couldn't wait to leave.

But I left there purchasing the alabaster pyramid. Here is a picture of one I found online

(This isn't the one I purchased as mine is white and sits in the middle of my office altar. If you want to see it, you just might have to come to my office.)

I also chose the Goddess Bastet statue.

This Goddess is Joy, Music, Health and Healing. The most important gift from this Goddess is protection. (My Bastet Statue greets you at the entrance to my office and protects the office especially while I am not there.)

Finally, we were able to leave the store and get away from the smoke. I don't think I have been around that kind of smoke in so long and I feel my immune system is a little low from not eating healthy and from crying all day. My headache has gotten worse now I am feeling nausea.

We made our way back to the boat. I took a small empty water bottle with me so we can capture some water from the Nile. The boat stopped in the middle of the Nile so I could scoop up water from the Nile to take home with me. I was able to get quite a bit of water and when I arrived back to the hotel I gave some to a few different people.

We made it back to the hotel with about a half hour before we had our group gathering. I came back to my room and thought I would take a 30 minute nap so that I could go to the meeting, but I missed it again. I just woke up a few minutes ago which is about an hour after the meeting started. I suppose I could technically go upstairs to the roof for the meeting, but I felt like I wanted to journal a little bit and my headache is still there, but much better.

Now, I am getting ready to go back to sleep. I am really missing my twin. I wish he were here with me. I feel so distant from him. I hope he is missing me too. In some ways, I can't wait to come back to Egypt with him. I always believed my trip to Egypt would be with him. Perhaps, someday it will be....

For now, I will dream of him tonight and go to sleep...it is time.

1.14.11

A Towel of Love

2011-07-14T11:26:00.001-04:00

It has been such a long day today. I really would love a nap, but there is still more to do. I want to go to the Alabaster Museum (which is really a place to shop). It is planned to go in about an hour. We are taking a boat to cross the Nile over to the Alabaster Museum because it truly is the quickest way to get across the River.

I have been crying so much today that I feel exhaustion is setting in. I have only had a few moments of no tears. My eyes feel tired, physically I feel tired. I have a slight headache. I just made it back to the room to freshen up a bit before heading out again and there on my bed is a beautiful heart shaped towel. Oh yes, more tears. But to see this is just what I needed. I see hearts when I need them in everything and now here it is on my bed.

My roommate had a swan on her bed that actually looked more like a snake coming out of the bed. I am so grateful that my bed was the heart because it spoke volumes to me. I feel like it is my soul (my twinsoul) giving me the message of love. It was so magical and it has given me enough steam to get going and meet everyone downstairs for our trip to the Alabaster Museum. I am so excited about this. I really want to get some statues to go home with me and this is probably my one and only opportunity since I didn't shop last night.

Thank you Universe for sending me love.

1.14.11

Channeled Message: Balance Must Come to the Earth

2011-07-01T06:11:00.000-04:00

Message from the Masters of Light, June 18, 2011 in Middletown, CT. This message came during a Reiki Level II Attunement.

Greetings, Dear Ones,

We gather here with you today on your day of attunement. EstaRa is preparing herself for the initiation for each of you. Each of you shall experience a personal healing today and a personal attunement. The healing will be to remove any blockages from receiving the divine light, dear ones. We wish to tell you that while you are here, there are things happening to the earth, dear ones. Your attunement will bring you closer in connection to the earth. You will experience the earth changes as well. Each of you is on a path of light and dear ones, as you move forward on this path, you will know in which way you must go. You will know in which direction to take your life for it will change for each of you. Do you feel the brightness of the light as it comes into this room at this moment, dear ones? That is intentional for you to feel the light surrounding you as we speak to you.

There are those of you that are feeling sadness and grief inside. It is okay, dear one. It is okay; for that is your releasing and it is necessary for you to feel all that you have been feeling so that you can make room for the energy that is coming to you today, dear one. EstaRa is not even aware of the attunement that she will be receiving today. Her body has been preparing all week for this attunement. She too, is to expect changes in her life, as well. It is imperative that each of you nurture your soul, for your soul knows that in which it desire in this time and space. This time and space upon your earth is filled with fear and chaos, dear ones, but you can be above the fear and chaos if you choose to be above the fear and
chaos. It is important that you make that choice, for going forward on your earth, much is going to happen that will unravel you if you allow it to. That is why, dear ones, EstaRa teaches balance and we remind her to teach balance, balance, balance in your lives.

It is time, dear ones, that balance come to the earth; it is time, dear ones, for you to step into your rightful role as lightworker, as a warrior of the light. We need you to help us bring the earth into ascension. The earth has been evolving into ascension for some time now, dear ones, but we need you lightworkers to
step into your roles of light and to let go of the chains of fear and the past that have bound you to the place you are in or have been in; the places you are trying to stand up and rise above. It is time, dear ones, for we need you. You are our ground crew. You are the ones you have been waiting for. We will support you and your journey. We are here to support you and your journey. You are not alone,
dear ones and there are many more of you than you can imagine. And you will find each other soon. Soon, the voice of light will get louder and soon, you will see the changes that occur that are necessary for ascension.

The time is now, dear ones. The time is now. Trust in your path and heal all that is in the way. Release all that keeps you chained and locked in to 3D. Release those chains upon you, for when you release them and when you heal them, they can no longer come back. You may be wondering why it is things keep coming back; we know EstaRa wonders at times, as well. They keep coming back because they have not been permanently released from your auric field and your karma. Now is the time you can release all that you need to. If you so choose, dear ones, that means seriously looking at your lives: what is no longer working for each of you? Take a look at it and change it to fit what your soul desires inside of you. You do know that which we speak. We feel you know that which we speak of, including EstaRa.

You have been gifted with this message today for it more than just an attunement; it is a healing that you will be receiving today. It is love, honor, and respect that we bring this message of light.

We are the Masters of Light.
Namaste.

Channeled Message: Behind The Curtain

2011-06-19T12:33:00.001-04:00

Channeled Live in Rocky Hill, CT June 19th, 2011 at 10:30 a.m.

Greetings Dear One,

We do have a message for you. We are so proud of you. We love you and we bring you a message of light today. So much dear one is happening "Behind the curtain" in life to manifest and orchestrate that which you desire personally and yet the same thing is happening globally as well. The right time and right space is now. It is the time now only to live empowered lives but to live your truth: you are who you know yourself to be. You are the magic and if you pull back the curtain--you will not find the Wizard of Oz--you will find you. For a long time now in your home, we have asked you all to be conscious of your thoughts for they create your reality. Let us explain this a little more. Your belief systems for many of you are not your own and yet they are. What does that mean, asks EstaRa? It simply means that these belief systems that ride the frequency of the planet are changing. (EstaRa cannot write as fast as the transmission is coming to her; therefore, this channel may be all "over the place"--she did not take her recorder outside on this day so she is handwriting in her journal this message to you. )

Beliefs upon your planet have been orchestrated by only a few, but unfortunately for the human, they have been adopted by the humans as if they are their own. Religions on earth have taught you to have "blind faith" but we tell you that is a distorted truth. Religions wish you to have blind faith and acceptance of their words as truth rather than have you intuit that which is your truth--the real truth. We say that you should have blind faith only when you your spirit self has come to this conclusion not when it has been adapted as your own without true validation from your higher self.

You are creators and you create from your truth. You are members of the family of light and light is your truth. For in that truth you shall see what your truth is and what your beilefs are. Believe us dear ones--as you grow in light your truths/beliefs shall change to a more appropriate adjustment reflecting your true self--your spirit.

Blind faith in this instance is of what you feel and know to be true in your spirit--the human 3D may not reflect it right away; however, you sense it--that is blind faith.

Now religion is not the only source of your false beliefs--your governments and societies are as well. Again these entities were established by a few who created much of what humans believe as a mass whole population. The governments are challenged by the light for as you all know where there is darkness, light will be shed upon it. Much of what humans believes have come from government and societal structure. Just as religions shows an aspect of truth so too does your government and society. Their mission is to organize you, protect you for the whole of society and the greater good. However, that is not what has happened. The system of power and greed has distorted that concept and that proper motivation for the greater good is no longer activated within you (unless you have awakened and began to intuit your truth and shall we say see beyond the curtain) and you allow sources outside of yourself to determine what is for the greatest good and do not listen to the truth within you. When you truly awaken you see, sense and know the truth of the greater good--it doesn't always look the way you have been taught. Dear ones, it is tinme to look at your truths and re-evaluate your beliefs for you are no longer controlled if you choose not to be.

EstaRa often says to not watch television; however, she herself can understand how many can be caught up in it for the frequency of the television is a frequency put our by your "leaders" in your human world. We will discuss frequency more at a later date.

For today your lesson is that of beliefs. Begin to question the beliefs that you have chosen to accept in this life as "blind faith" for your truth is always trying to find its way to you through feelings, knowings and spiritual guidance. You dear ones are responsible for creating life upon earth that is why we said you are responsible for your beliefs as well. You must know that which you believe in because you "bought" into what was given to you outside of yourself.

Empower yourself from within! Your answers area always within. Question the beliefs that you carry and if they do not resonate with your inner knowing then you need to re-evaluate those beliefs because they are what is creating your reality. You are magnificent beings who simply need to be reminded of your power and light. Once you wake up to this knowledge fully you will help to be the catalyst to heal Gaia and its inhabitants.

It is with love, honor and respect that we bring you this message today.

We are the Masters of Light.

Portal at Karnack

2011-06-19T11:48:00.000-04:00

We are now given time to walk around the temple for about an hour. This temple was truly amazing as has been the whole trip thus far. Here I am walking around the temple to different areas. I took pictures of the columns to give you and idea of height. Really, there is no way that humans alone were able to construct such a magnificent piece of art.

I was walking around with Carole and Sopdet Ra. I really loved what I was seeing. I could feel the immense energy from each place within this temple. (Mind you though, I had to pee like I often have to do. It is kind of driving me a little crazy not having a real bathroom---I am going to go home and truly appreciate a clean toilet seat...I think I now know why people call the toilet a "porcelain God". hahaha Okay so I may be getting a bit carried away, but nonetheless appreciate American bathrooms--even dirty ones--believe me they are still many steps above an Egyptian bathroom.)

Here is a wall relief of some kind of healing cleansing taking place at Karnack.

It was amazing to see this depiction on the wall.

This temple had amazing obelisks in them. They were so powerful to look at. And just looking at them you can feel the energy.

Just beyond the obelisks, I found myself being drawn to this opening that felt like a doorway to me. I unfortunately did not take a picture of it. I kept getting pulled to it. It was at the complete other end of the Karnack complex. The tourist entrance was at the other end of which seemed like miles away. As we walked closer, I connected with the stones that were right near this doorway. I distinctly felt that this was the entrance and I could see how it was portal. As I connected a little more I saw that when people entered the complex here, once they passed through this doorway it acted as a portal into a different dimension. Once "members" passed through it they were able to access multiple dimensions at this place. It was incredibly powerful. While I was able to connect with this energy, the way we "humans" have established the complex here at the temple, the main gateway to multidimensionality is not easily accessible by people arriving at Karnack because the entrance is at the opposite end of the complex.

1.14.11

Channeled Message: Weeds

2011-06-05T15:30:00.000-04:00

Channeled Live through EstaRa (April D'Amato) on Sunday, June 5, 2011 at 11:45 a.m. in Rocky Hill, CT.

Greetings Dear Ones,

We wish to talk to you today about weeds. As you look outside on this beautiful day upon your earth time and space you see the multitudes of flowers and weeds living together as you look upon your gardens, do you know that which we speak of ? You may carefully prune your gardens and flower beds of all the weeds, but yet if you notice they all come back persistently in all the places you do not want them. You fear that they make your world less perfect dear ones. However, we ask you to try a new view for the weeds in your life. (I asked my guides if they were talking about literal weeds or the things in our life that we consider to be "weeds".) Yes, EstaRa, dear one, we are talking about those things in your life that you do not like. Today, we wish to give you a new perspective with which to view those weeds. That is, we would like to show you a few new ways to view the weeds in your life.

You can view them as troublesome, irritating or just unsightly aspects of the earth. (of yourself). Yes, that is a view.

Or you can view them as the old stuff that you keep trying to run away from in your life, but no matter how much you prune and rip the weeds out they keep coming back. Quite literally dear ones, do you see how you pull up the weeds and they eventually do come right back to that place. Perhaps, equate them this moment to your old earthly patterns or behaviors, or even your old thoughts, dear ones. They become persistent no matter how hard you try to rid yourself of them. They will continue to plague you because until you get to the "root" of the "weed" they will keep coming back. Often "weeds" get pulled from the surface leaving the real root in the ground to come back again. Back to your life dear ones, if you only deal with issues from the surface then you have not removed the source of the "weed".

Or you can view your weeds as a natural part of your garden, another beautiful aspect of nature by incorporating those weeds into your life. Seeing these weeds popping up and acknowledging them as part of the natural landscape is embracing nature in a different way. The "weeds" in your human life often appear as your "shadow self" the parts of you that you do not wish to acknowledge, but it is a part of you--you are everything dear ones. So your "weeds" depending on your perspective can be a beautiful part of your world where you create a place for them and allow them to be a reminder of your growth.

Yes, dear EstaRa this information is from your simple recognition of the weed on the ground in front of you. You live in a pace where everything seems to be "perfect" so that a simple weed can make you stand out and look different, but dearest EstaRa, the unique expression of humans is what gives each human such beauty--each beautiful being on your planet is truly interconnected with another that creates a beautiful bouquet of flowers. After all, the same flowers all the time, same color and flower would get boring, would they not? And a flower arrangement filled with a variety always catches the human eye?

We tell you dearest ones, you are a magnificent flower in your life. We ask you dear ones are you going to rip out the weeds? Ignore the weeds or include them as part of your beautiful life?

It is with love honor and respect that we bring you this message today.

We are the Masters of Light.
Namaste

You are the Miracle

2011-05-20T08:27:00.000-04:00

Hello Everyone,

I was talking to one of my friend’s yesterday who apparently heard about this thing called “Judgment Day” that is supposed to happen on May 21, 2011—that is tomorrow. Apparently, there is a Christian organization that is spreading that information out. Claiming it is Biblically based.

Rather than joining in with the spreading of fear or even opposing the spreading of fear, I’d like to share a quote I saw yesterday….

People usually consider walking on water or in thin air a miracle. But I think the real miracle is not to walk either on water or in /thin air, but to walk on earth. Every day we are engaged in a miracle which we don't even recognize: a blue sky, white clouds, green leaves, the black, curious eyes of a child -- our own two eyes. All is a miracle.- Thich Nhat Hanh

This quote so resonates with me. The true miracle is when we as beautiful spirits come to this earth and pretend that we are only human, and forget we are spirit. Forget the power we have simply within ourselves. With this lack of remembrance, we have to learn to make our way upon the earth with little help remembering who we are. “Earth School” is not easy so to say; however, it is where we have chosen to learn in this universe this time around.

And, then when we begin to remember who we truly are that is when the true miracle occurs. Living upon earth with our eyes wide open, our hearts expanded and learning that we create our reality every step of the way, well that dear ones is just one part of the miracle. The other is balancing between knowing you are living simultaneously in two worlds: the one your spirit longs for and the one your human self has created. Is it possible to have the two become one? Yes, dear ones of course it is…that is called ascension….that is the miracle and the magic upon your human earth that you have. Trust us when we say you can have it all dear ones…you can have it all. It simply is how you choose to perceive life upon earth. We say listen to EstaRa when she says you are the miracle upon earth and “Waking Up” to the fact that you create your experience is what will take you further than ever trying to find the answers to the question “why”. So rather than ask the question of why is my reality this way, trying saying I know my reality is this way, but now I would like my reality to be that way. It will make more sense as you practice.

Dearest EstaRa knows internally that which we speak of, but she too succumbs sometimes to the overwhelming energy that you are all persuaded by. We honor, love and respect each of you. We love dearest EstaRa as her mission has been not so easy, but it certainly has been a grand adventure, has it not? We ask you dear ones, has it not been a grand adventure for you as well?

We are the Masters of Light.

Right Now is the Right Time

2011-05-20T07:59:00.000-04:00

Happy Friday World!

I came across this quote this morning and thought I need to share this with you all…

"There are many fine things which you mean to do some day, under what you think will be more favorable circumstances. But the only time that is yours is the present." Grenville Kleiser

I hope this resonates with you as it so resonates with me. It is truly important that we live now in this moment and not wait for some perfect circumstance. Please make an awareness in this moment…human life is going by fast and furious and that this particularly lifetime upon earth is too short as you already know...stop waiting and hoping that the right time will come because right now is the right time. When you think of doing something, now is the time to do it. What are you hoping to achieve by putting off what it is you truly desire? Is it because you think you are undeserving? You are if you think you are. What we believe and think is what we create.

Just for today, I ask you to look at one thing in your life that you keep putting off and running away from.
Ask yourself, what is the reason I keep doing this? (if it has to do with money—remember that you will never have enough money accumulated to do it—just do it! Otherwise, you will continue to live in deprivation mode.)

Then, next ask yourself what am I afraid of? (Is it a realistic fear? Is it irrational? Is it even your fear or someone else’s?)

Then, ask yourself, what do I have to lose? (Nothing! You have nothing to lose, but everything to gain.)

Then, spend the rest of the day doing that one thing that you keep putting off. Or at least set up the plan to make it happen. (Especially if it is something bigger than can be accomplished in one day.)

A word of caution, if you do this and begin to look at life in this way, you just may be in danger of enjoying each moment of every day.

Gifted with Will Power, Courage & Determination

2011-05-16T20:39:00.000-04:00

Here we are in Karnack. This is a magnificent looking Temple. It looks like a very well maintained temple. The sphinxes are very much intact. This is the place if you remember that Sekhmet told us that when we visit Karnack near her statue, we could leave something for her in the sands surrounding the area. When we returned home, we can connect with the thing we left behind and access Sekhmet's powers of courage, willpower or determination any time we needed it. That day at the Sphinx, I knew immediately what I would gift her.

So here, I was walking through yet another temple. The entrance was massive:
I have to be honest here, by this point I am getting a little tired of the temples because they all are beginning to meld together and our journey has been non-stop. Will I remember what they look like when I get back home? Hmmm I wonder... I never realized how much work lightwork was because while it is fun it is and has been emotionally, mentally draining for me. (Just for the record since I am transcribing my journal now here in May 2011--Yes I do remember each experience. Imagine that!) Anyway, I digress. It is later in the day so we hurry to find the location that we are trying to get to and we find that the area is under construction so the Sekhmet statue is closed off to tourists.

Our tour Guides are amazing and do magic once again; of course with our energetic help and a little financial donation to the security guards we are able to get access to the areas we wished with a little privacy for a short time, but nonetheless still able to access the areas. So we all cram into this little room where there is a headless statue housed. (Yes, it is headless!)
And well, no not all 33 people fit into this room I would say about 17 people crammed in at a time. Now the fact is that, as we went in this area the security guards were very much after us about being quick. So we had to quickly perform. I kept remembering and hearing over and over in my head to leave my gift so while we waited for Solara An Ra to channel and begin the initiations, I told the people next to me that I was going to bury my garnet stone and lock of hair. So a bunch of us started to dig into the sand with our feet. I had taken my shoes off to feel the sand of this place...it was cool to my feet, but somehow very comforting like wrapping my feet in a silk blanket. So I quickly buried my garnet--and if you remember from my earlier blog way back: garnets are the stone associated with January (how apropo) and the healing properties of this crystal are life force, compassion, protection, past lives, purity and truth. It is very powerful and could be used for all the gifts that Sekhmet is willing to bless us with. What better way to trust and allow life to unfold magically than to give a very meaningful gift to Sekhmet.

Each of us lined up one by one to begin our initiation. We find out the statue that we are to connect with is enclosed in a room that is closed off and behind a wall. Solara channeled that we will still be able to connect with the energy of this statue by way of touching the wall with our third eye and receiving an activation that way. Each of us gathered as Sopdet Ra placed an oil on our third eye to help open it.
Then each of us leaned against the wall with our third eye to connect with Sekhmet who was ready and willing to connect with us. Ezeriel channeled sound into each of us as we made our connection to help us lock in the activation. We were to stay until we felt the connection to Sekhmet and ask her for her gifts. She would then acknowledge us, activate us and grant us the gifts. I felt the connection to Sekhmet in my heart chakra and in my palms...my third was buzzing as well.

Unfortunately, we had to move through quickly as the guards were coming back asking us to hurry on of there. Okay, so I am being nice when I say they asked us...it was more they showed up machine gun armed as all police, security, tourism police and even some laypeople were in Egypt. When people come to you that way and they are speaking a language you do not know, you pretty much want to do as they "ask"--in otherwords you feel inclined to honor their request--kind of like the Godfather Movies--an offer you cannot refuse. hahaha Well--it really wasn't that bad, but at times it felt like that.

So as we were initiated we were moved on out of the statue area. So many people were not able to leave their items in that room because the time was so shortened. I am so glad that I placed my garnet down and my lock of hair. (As I am typing this and thinking editing it for this post, I realize that the last few weeks have been trying for me and many of us---I should call on Sekhmet...I will call on the Goddess tomorrow during my meditation--could use to tap into her gifts now.)

We had just enough time to do all that we needed to do. Who says the helpers on the other side don't help? They are always orchestrating for us what we need at the time we need it. As I type this I too am reminded of what I am saying. I left the room a little light headed. I made my way back through the area towards a place where I could sit, but then I chose to sit on piece of the temple that was on the ground and boy did that throw me off...the energy was flooding through me. There is so much magic in these temples, it is hard not to feel high as a kite on the energy. I have to say after this initiation I truly felt gifted with these things. I felt a bit of confidence come over me that I hadn't felt earlier in the trip especially with the emotions and tears coming all around me. While I may be getting tired of the temples, I am so grateful and feel deeply blessed on this day. And not to mention, we coulnd't have had a more beautiful weather day.

1.14.11

Even One Small Light

2011-05-11T23:35:00.000-04:00

Inspirational Snippet: Even One Small Light

Happy Day, my friends!

Here is a quote I came across today and wanted to share it with you….

“There is not enough darkness in all the world to put out the light
of even one small candle” Robert Alden

This inspired me to want to write particularly about our experiences
with our families and lo and behold my guides came through with a
powerful message for each of you….this is from them below…

This is to you all my dear souls of light, even in those moments
that you felt that it nearly impossible to be the light in your
families you are the light. It doesn’t matter that there is just
you---you are the light of the world and you must be the light.
In a world that seems so dark, we tell you to turn off your
televisions, turn off your radios and tune into your own frequency
for in that frequency you will find light, love and empowerment.
It is far easier to tune in than it is to turn off that which
distracts you, but we say that you can do it. We also say that
you can easily transform your life if you give the pure intention
to do so. It is the time now to step into the grace and beauty
that is truly you. No, dear ones we do not think you should be
fearful of what is to come. Instead we ask you to be expectant
of what is to come for you are the creator Gods of your journey.
What do you wish to create next? Where do you wish to create next?
You can be that one candle wherever you are. You do not need to
be a healer, a teacher or an intuitive to shine your light…you
need only to shine and be that candle wherever you are because
as the quote says with even a small candle glowing it is not darkness.
EstaRa loves the quotes she finds…only she fails to remember
sometimes much of what she finds is just another way of saying
what she already knows, feels and teaches. She is ready to take
you all upon your path of light. Be willing to hear her and listen
for her wisdom grows and knows no bounds. It is with love, honor
and respect that we bring you this message today.

We are the Masters of Light.

Channeled Message: Standing Together in Light

2011-05-11T21:34:00.000-04:00

Channeled Live May 6, 2011 in Middletown, CT.

Greetings, dear ones.
We hear all your messages this evening and all your worries and all your thoughts, dear ones. (QUESTION: What are we to do? Do we as lightworkers stand alone underground or gather together?)
In answer to your question, it is your choice, dear ones, do you wish to stand alone
underground or do you wish to stand in unison with others if you wish to. It is your job to shine your light. That is why coming together as groups as EstaRa would like to have happen in different places. That is why she is guided to go many places to carry her light and to spark the energy of the places she attends to. Each of you have that mission, as well, dear Ones. It is not just solely for EstaRa to gather you altogether, dear Ones, each of you can gather many together. It is as simple as having a mission to bring love to the surface. It is very simple, dear Ones, to make your message that of love and acceptance of all that is and the oneness that you all are each of you. We are behind you all the way; we watch from above and we send you much reinforcements at this time, dear Ones. Your children of the planet are awake. The children we speak of are the little ones, dear Ones. They are acting out. They are being the responsible warriors of light that they came to be. They are speaking out by way of having all these different behavioral and mental ailments that you call illnesses or you use as labels to give them medications, dear ones, that is stopping them from being who they are. It
is your job to speak out at all the things that you find uncomfortable or not working any longer. It is necessary for you each to stand in your role as a lightworker and know you have support. If you stand, you will have many standing with you. You will not be alone. Look around the room in which you are sitting, dear ones. See your members of light. Gather together. Together, you carry a stronger light and in that light, you bring to this planet more than you can even imagine at this time. We hope that helps you, dear Ones.
Namaste.

The Masters of Light

Next Stop Karnack

2011-04-22T10:04:00.001-04:00

We are back on the bus and on our drive over to the Temple of Karnack. We had a good and full lunch. I was a bit bummed because they had a great dessert at the restaurant and I couldn't eat it because I found that eating gluten (wheat) is not a good thing for my body. Anyway, I digress with my stories of food. Karnak was dedicated to the God AMUN-RA & his consort MUT. This temple was once connected to the Luxor Temple with an avenue of sphinxes about two miles long. That you can still see some remnants from both the entrance to the temple of Karnack and in Luxor. In this picture, it is from downtown Luxor where you see remanants if you look closely. Okay not the best picture, perhaps, but it is a good example of the tons of orbs they have in Luxor.

Solara An Ra is preparing us for our private entrance into the tiny temple which houses the famous statue of Sekhmet - the Goddess of transformation who activates within you the power and courage to be your true self. Now while Karnack is dedicated to Amun Ra, it is important to note that the reason for our traveling to this place is so that we can see the Sekhmet statue and become initiated by Sekhmet. If you remember, way back in my early blogging I spoke about Sekhmet? Sekmet, a powerful goddess in Egypt, is depicted with the a lion head and female body. She had come out during our trip to the Sphinx. She suggested if we gift her then she would gift us something. Yes, yes now you remember the garnet story?

Well, someone I am not sure who...perhaps Janna suggested leaving a lock of her hair because it holds her DNA which meant a piece of her would be left with Sekhmet. So here we are on the bus all cutting a lock of our hair to leave at the Sekhmet Statue in Karnack. I am thinking to myself, I really don't want to leave my hair--I have been losing my hair for months now and it has gotten so thin. I ran my fingers through and none came out which for me is a first because the last several months I would usually get a half dozen out at least when running my fingers through my hair and believe me if I was back at the hotel, I would have plenty to choose from. So I gave up for a little while and pondered a little more and wrote this out and we are just about there so I am going to go.

Here is a better picture of the trail of sphinxes from Karnack to Luxor...

Oh wait, I just ran my fingers through my hair one last time and lo and behold out came some strands of DNA--I mean hair. :) Off the bus and on to my initiation...

1.14.11

Lemon Mint , Lunch in Luxor

2011-04-20T10:45:00.001-04:00

We took the bus to our restaurant that was not far away. We all agreed that doing the Valley of the Kings so close to the energetic work of Hatshepsut was too much. We needed to recover. It was really odd to me that today was such a beautiful weather day and yet I feel such sadness and tears.

We got to the restaurant. A lot of the restaurants are on the top floors of the buildings probably because of the amazing views of Luxor. I mean the pictures in this blog are amazing, but they do not capture the true essence of how beautiful it is. By the way, that is the Nile River, just in case you did not know...she is beautiful, isn't she? I am so grateful to say that I was there.

We gathered around this restaurant to be served a homestyle type of meal and yes the first thing they brought out was bread! I was so excited to have a bathroom that was not moving and one that had a door, running water and toilet paper and it was clean! Thus far, bathroom highlight. I even joked about taking a picture of it because I was so impressed, but I figured I would save you all from having to see a bathroom picture. Realy, it was amazing, but then again you would have to be on the trip to understand the amazement of this bathroom.

I ordered my new favorite drink, lemon mint. It is really an incredible find, I wonder if I can manifest that back at home. Let me tell you I am definitely going to try this summer...anyone have mint growing in their garden? If so, please, please, please send some my way and I will make you a special drink of lemon and mint. Quite refreshing and delicious. Anyway, the food was fabulous at this restaurant. It was not just a rice dish with tomato sauce over it. There was some delicious chicken, of course rice, but the meal had other things like a potato casserole which I couldn't get enough of. It was finally a meal that I could eat and enjoy. There was, of course, the good ole standby of bread, rice and tomato sauce.

All in all, it was delish! (a word that my twinflame often uses--it comes in handy--thank you, dear soul!)

We finished lunch and then we are making our way back to the hotel in Luxor, but by way of the hotel we are stopping in Karnack to visit the Sekmet Temple and do an initiation with Sekmet. Talk about a jam packed day and filled day...

And, yes this is the temple I am leaving my garnet in....wish me luck...

1.14.11

Channeled Message: Valentine's Day 2011

2011-04-20T09:58:00.000-04:00

Channeled Live in Milford, CT on February 13, 2011. This was transcribed by a friend and my guides have "filled in the blanks" so to speak as my friend was worried she didn't catch it all.
Greetings dear ones,

On the eve on your human day of love we come to you with a message of love. EstaRa doesn't always trust, but we are quieting her mind. You humans put much into material things on this plane, please know that it is not necessary any longer. This day of love should be that---a day of love. Your self love--each of you knows exactly what that love is---it is always with you---within you.

You may be wondering how do I invoke this love within me when I am alone or feeling alone? Be love and share love with everyone you meet and everyone in your presence. It is that simple and that complicated. Love is the energy on the planet that has been activated. It is within your grasp at every moment possible. In sharing love with everyone, everywhere activates that love in your heart and opens your heart wider. We say it is complicated because to access that love is to put aside your fears and let your walls come down. Now, is the optimum time to let down your walls for when you put out love you will find love.

Remember, dear ones, your work is love. Your life is love, your happiness is love, your tears are love. Everything is love. Remember dear ones, the time is now all is possible, anything you dream is possible. You can make it happen through love. Be in love, feel that love. You are all the love you need.

(My guides led everyone that night into connecting with their heart center and I saw as spirals of light began going into their crowns. Light poured into their heart center and out. At the end of this meditation, my guides said the following:) Feel the energy of love in your heart center, spreading out to the remaining parts of your body... Let that be your beacon to go forth.

It is with love, honor and respect that we bring you this message.

We are the Masters of Light.

Valley of the Kings

2011-04-19T19:16:00.000-04:00

Just finished the Temple of Hatshepsut and we are making our way to the Valley of the Kings. I have to admit that I am so non-plused about going to this place after crying a great deal at Hatshepsut. It is really going to be a short ride to get there. (The only picture I got was looking out the window of the bus on my way to the Valley. It is desert---it really is desert!)

The Valley of the Kings is located in Luxor and contains many of the tombs of pharoahs including King Tut, the most familiar one of all. On a different day and with different circumstances I would be excited, but oh well it is what it is. We are here...will write more later.

Okay, I am back and that was quick. I am not kidding it really was. When we got there we received passes to go into three tombs that we chose to go into. In order to go into the King Tut's tomb we would have to pay extra and our Guide suggested that we go see the items of King Tut in the traveling exhibits because this tomb would be nearly emptied of everything. I didn't really have a desire to go in there so it wasn't a tough decision.

I am sitting right now at the cafeteria catching a few moments of quiet, but not really we are all gathered around here many people opted not to continue into the tombs. We are all hungry and honestly it was just too much for me. I really needed a little more time in between Hatshepsut and the next place to see. It really is incredible viewing the land here because it looks like mountains and you see a little walkway and entrance on the side of a mountain which is the entrance into a tomb. This land was all tombs built underground and into the mountain. I went into one of the tombs and you walk down this long narrow path and it is warm because it is mostly enclosed except for the entrance. We were not allowed to take pictures inside the tombs because they are trying to preserve the paintings. It was like walking into someone's home. The tombs contained the story of the person who was buried along the walls. It had "rooms" inside with many items. When we got to the sarcophagus, and yes; we did. We saw it and felt the energy of the mummy. You could look inside and see a mummy buried there. When we made our way out, I made the decision that seeing one tomb is like seeing them all. It was just of no interest. I am just sitting here waiting to head out to lunch at a restaurant on our way back to Karnack. I am really missing my twinflame and I am really wishing he were with me. I imagine that if he were here, it would be more magical or would it be? Would I be able to do all this releasing with him here? Would I be able to focus on my spirit and my spiritual journey here in Egypt if he were here? Would I be too captivated with him that I would miss out on some of this incredible stuff? Would I not be able to be me fully? I guess the answer is that right now this is where I am meant to be and he and I will just come back here another time together to carry out our mission of love.

I think I shall just close my eyes while I sit here and connect with the energy of love--something more than the tears I keep feeling filling my eyes. I must say I am looking forward to lunch, but I have to say I did buy an ice cream on a stick dipped in a chocolate shell--okay so not something I would ever eat back at home, but definitely something that was a bit of comfort food for me. Lunch, oh lunch, let me guess the menu...for starters, bread? hahaha

1.14.11

The Temple of Hatshepsut

2011-04-19T19:09:00.000-04:00

We are here. I stop crying long enough to get out of the buss. After we entered through the main entrance we had to make our way out to the temple which you can tell by the picture was very far away.

After we entered through the main entrance where you hand in your tickets, we were led over to a "tram" which was like a much larger version of a golf cart and there were three "cars" attached to take us closer to the Temple. We made our way over to the Temple. It was probably one of the hottest days we experienced so far, but it could be because we are in a desert? hahaha

I kept getting pulled to look up at the rocks--it was like they were calling to me. Look at the mountain of rocks in this picture just above the temple--amazing what you can see. If you look closely, you can see many faces in these rocks. I feel like the faces represent the many "visitors" who have come to Hatshepsut's Temple.

We gathered around down in front of the Temple as Solara channeled information about the energy of the Temple.

While this Temple is called the Temple of Hatshepsut, Solara's guides channeled that this place is all about balance. The balance of the light and dark energies that are here. Hathor being on the left hand side when you are facing the temple up close you see that the left side represents the Hathors the light and the right side represents Anubis the dark. The "mission" on this visit is to connect with the Hathor energy and the Anubis energy and to balance with both. "The Hathors have been considered to be about fertility and abundance and love, and therefore their energy is like the experience of Christ consciousness."--Solara An Ra.

As Solara channeled, I started to cry and really cry again. There were a few of us that stood there and cried as she spoke. It was not so much what she was saying--for me it was all the feelings that I had been feeling from the bus ride over. It was as if the energy of this place was allowing me to feel all that I needed to feel since the beginning of this trip. Another portion of her message from the Pleiadians was, "Allow all feelings while in the place of the Hathors to emerge within you – any thoughts and beliefs about lack – any fears about lack, insecurity and what will happen on the Earth plane – allow them to emerge, and then sound the sound of the Hathors in order to transmute them into your knowing and experience of abundance. This is a healing, and you will receive gifts from this connection with this particular frequency of Light and Dark which are holding the sides of this temple space. You must relax, you must relax in this place. You must relax and integrate. You must relax." One of my light family members, Soquehilea (okay not sure I can spell the name), but she was wonderful and really helpful to me at this particular time. Everyone on this trip has been incredibly loving and giving. I am so grateful that these beautiful beings are on this trip with me. Ya know, when I signed up for this trip, I really hadn't any idea what I had in store for me. I hadn't expected the journey I have had thus far and the best part is I didn't expect the beautiful connections I am making.

When Solara finished channeling, we headed up the steps over to the Hathor side first.

We started off as a group up the steps and then each of us one by one separated to wherever we felt pulled. I was extremely emotional at this Temple. It felt like the energy of this temple opened the flood gates for me to release. I really resonated with the side of the Hathors. I came to Egypt thinking that I would connect with Isis and yes, I felt good with Isis, but Hathor is who really is beginning to resonate with me since my visit to Edfu. I went to the Hathor side first. The Hathor side had really amazing energy. The view was amazing, the sun was shining bright and it just felt like a wonderful day. So why was I crying? At this point, I wasn't even sure anymore. I just knew the tears were coming.

The Hathors were amazing. There is no way humans like us were able to create such amazing structures.

I walked over to the other side of the temple to Anubis is the God associated with mummification and the funerary practices in Egypt. He was a jackal headed God. I didn't feel the same energy as the Hathor side--it was a little heavier and a little unnerving. It really was just different energy so I don't think it was heavier.

The wall reliefs, paintings and structures of this temple were well preserved.

The experience here at this temple has been extremely different for me than the others. I just couldn't stop being emotional. This temple was about balance and Solara An Ra encouraged us to spend time on both sides of the temple. I really didn't want to go to the Anubis side at all, but then I felt like I should go there. I spent very little time there at first. Then, I went and sat down on the wall along the steps. The wall there provided good seating for me. I just sat and cried. I connected with the energy of the place and did what the Pleiadians suggested and thought about what fears I had and let them go. I cried some more. I just sat in the long hot sun by myself and cried. A lot of the time I cried I wasn't even sure what I was crying for. I made my way down to my group and we sat on the wall waiting for the "golf carts" to come get us. Even thought this morning has been extremely emotional it felt refreshing to know that so many people cared and loved me on this trip--not because of what I do or did, but because of who I am...another member of the light family.

We sat on this wall for a little while in the warm sun--I was actually hot--go figure--most of the time I have been freezing.

Just when we were about to board the "tram" back, I saw the refreshment stand. I walked over to see what they had for food and boy was I the happiest I had been yet. I saw containers with almonds and bought two of them and a bag of chips. I know, I know chips not really healthy food, but it was non-bread food! hahaha I bought another water too and piled my backpack with the booty that I bought. I am so excited to have this stuff to take back with me on my travels--just in case I encounter more bread and need food.

1.14.2011

Channeled Message: All is As It Should Be (Twinflames)

2011-04-08T12:53:00.000-04:00

This is a channel that I channeled live with my friend Victoria, when I was doing a healing session with her. It was directed to us, but it is meant to be shared with all twins. My guides are very much present with me as I write this email and they wish you to know that love is by your side and love is the pervasive emotion on our planet now--we are surpassing the fear that has preceded, but know dear ones--the side of fear is much louder which means we need to get much louder with our mission to share and be love. It is with love that they tell us things are as they should be and they are emphasizing shortly we will see....

Live Channel on 4.2.11 through EstaRa in Middletown, CT.

Greetings Dear Ones,

It is time dear ones for the reunification of each separate entity that you call your twins and your other halves. It is necessary for it to be rooted into the earth at this time. The reunification will bring about the earth change that is needed going forward. Dear ones, many are wishing that the end is here for they are in difficulty and pain. It is time to see what the future holds dear ones. If you look within you at this time you shall see an earth in a way that earth has not seen. It is appropriate the music in your background for the sound of birds is a happy sound, is it not dear ones? That is the sound that you shall hear on your earth in short time--short human time, dear ones.

It is now for all to witness the light in each individual life upon the earth. It is time dear ones. It is now that humanity has come together to have a collective decision to go forward with this earth experiment. Long before you have come to this earth you had made a decision to be part of the process of carrying the earth into a new dimension. As a twinflame, it was your journey to carry forward your mission of light separately to come back together again. And when you come back together again you reunite for eternity at least that is the word we can give you for understanding. At that point you will go home and carry your mission out in another place, another space and time dear ones. IT is the mission of the twinflames to bring love fully on your planet. Only the reunification of the twins will bring that love to this planet. It is the separation now that has created much chaos and fear. For when you first separated the memories were clear that you would return together again and that you went off on your journey separately to experience that which each of you desired, each part of you desired something different and each time you played your role as a human you each played it in a way that you desired to experience being human. In the timing of your human earth it is in many lifetimes that you have been on this planet experiencing each other separately. However, it is not the only lifetimes that you have lived you have lived in other places in your space and time. You will remember. You will see inside of you your home. As you played your earth games each time you came here, each time your separation from your twin has grown stronger and stronger; therefore making this reunification not as easy as you would like in human terms.

The memory has been giving to both of you. It has been planted in both of you; however, one half of you has chosen to be the awakened one this time around for the other half is still in darkness at times and needs help and assistance from the light and we tell you that we have them covered dear ones. We are working with your other half day and night to clear up any blocks and obstacles. These blocks and obstacles are not easy for them in human times. Know dear ones, that the memory has not entirely reached their minds in human times. They do know; however, in their awakened consciousness that there is something more for them. As fear begins to leave the planet, so too shall fear leave for each individual that has been awakened. When we say fear leaving the planet, we say it is about the mass exits, those awakened that cannot hold the light that is required to go forward on this earth shall leave the planet. The darker energies we speak of are fear.

We wish you to know that it is time to go forth and trust. For ALL IS AS IT SHOULD BE. All is happening on your planet now. ALL IS AS IT SHOULD BE, DEAR ONES. We ask you to trust in us and have faith that you will have all that which you desire. It is here now. EstaRa is asking if this human year is the year that will bring all together. And we tell you yes dear ones. Yes, it is necessary for the changes to occur in this human earth year you will see much happening that is out of everyone’s control however if you are in your center and balanced you will have your control of you and your life. It is now dear ones. IT IS NOW. It is with love, honor and respect that we bring you this message today. We wish to remind you that your journey is bigger than what you believe it to be. It is not simply being a spirit in human body it is the being an awakened soul that changes the evolution of the earth; changes the evolution of the earth human’s consciousness. We are so very proud of each of you for we know it is a difficult mission for you. But we know that you each can do this. You have chosen to come here to carry out this mission and you are not alone. We support you; we love you and are here for you. And you shall see, dear ones. You shall see the beauty and creativity that your souls will bring to this earth. You are dearly loved, dear ones. You are dearly loved.

We are the Masters of Light. We are your Arcturian brothers and sisters. Namaste.

Channeled Message: Time & Messages

2011-04-05T14:59:00.000-04:00

Channeled Live through EstaRa at the Energy Empowerment Group on Friday, March 18th at 9:20 p.m.

Greetings Dear Ones,

We come to you this evening with a message for you. EstaRa has asked us to be brief this evening. EstaRa has been asking for peace and for quiet moments because the days have seemed to move faster. Dear ones, time is moving faster. Time will continue to move faster. We tell you this so that you can prepare to know time does move much more quickly now. It will only begin to move faster so finding your balance and space within you that you have those quiet moments is how you will manage your time here upon the earth. It is very easy for you human beings to get caught up in the pace of your human lives but it is imperative that you stay in your center always.

We ask you to trust in the messages that you are receiving for each of you every day. We are here to help you all. Each of you know that which we are speaking of this evening, the messages are coming to you every day in every way. For they are here to help you on your path of light. It is time dear ones to stay on your path and step fully into who you are for now is when the earth needs you. Now is when you need you. No longer is it necessary to rely on other beings all the time. No longer is it necessary to look without all the time. Yes, there will be times you look for guidance and help and you will find your light family here to help you always here on earth and above your earth, if you will. But the lesson is to look within always for that is where it all is for you all your truth all your answers all of who you are is within you. Each and every one of you has a gift of light. That light is to carry you forward in this time and space for your earth is going through tremendous changes; not only earth but humanity as well. We tell you this so that you can prepare.

At this moment feel in your heart centers. What are you feeling right now ? We are sending out light from EstaRa-- we are sending out light from her to you. As she speaks to you, you shall be feeling this in your heart center . However, some of you may feel it in your crown chakra or your brow chakra it depends on where you are opened most at this time, dear ones. And if you are not feeling it--know that you are still receiving it this evening.

Questions, questions, questions dear ones. We hear your thoughts and we hear your wonder. There will be a time for questions and answers for tonight we just wanted to impart a little love from us to you. We are working with EstaRa to be comfortable with all that she is doing. For she does not always know her power and how much power she carries within her wherever she goes. She is a good teacher; however, she needs to remember for herself that she is a being of pure light and love, for each of you knows that which we speak of. You feel that within you when you are in her presence.

We ask you to remain in peace within you for that is what will help you through what is happening on earth. In many ways she is your mother. She nourishes you with her food, she brings you water for you to drink and she supports you always. It is with love, honor and respect that we bring you this message, we love you dear ones. We send you love continuously even when you do not feel it, know that it is there. It is always your choice to feel it or not. Know it is there in your heart center; that love is always being sent forward to you from us. We honor you. We are the Masters of Light,. Namaste.

Channeled Message: Anticipation

2011-04-04T15:58:00.000-04:00

Channeled Live Friday, April 1, 2011 at Soul Star Healing in Middletown, CT through EstaRa.

Greetings Dear Ones,

We have asked EstaRa to hold you here for a few moments to impart some wisdom to you this evening. Many of you have a great deal of fear we fear we feel that beneath all that is going on in your human time. We feel the fear underlying this evening dear ones. We feel you and we love you. Be not afraid we ask you to change your fear into anticipation. An emotion that many of you have forgotten. Many of you have been raised in believing in Santa Claus, have you not dear one? And, If you recall the memories of your earth childhood where you waited for Santa Claus, do you not recall this sense of anticipation, dear ones? We think you do we believe you do if you allow yourself to tap into the moments inside of you. At this moment in time, it is necessary for you to remember the sense of anticipation for in your lives each and every one of you know that the earth changes can be overcome through the sense of anticipation versus the sense of fear. Fear will stop you in your tracks and prevent you from moving forward therefore bringing more havoc in your lifetime dear ones. However, when you have a sense of anticipation is it not more of a feeling of surprise and glory and happiness because anticipation of that which you want to occur will come and bring you more than you ever dreamed could happen upon your earth time and space.

We wish to tell you that the chaos, dear ones, is already here upon your planet. And in moments you choose to follow the chaos of those around you and the drama of those around you. We ask you to stay centered within yourselves. EstaRa teaches this, does she not? She speaks these words daily. She imparts this wisdom quite often to each of you when she sees you. It is a lesson she has learned and continues to learn upon her path of light. However, she has chosen this path of enlightenment she has chosen to become enlightened prior to this time so that she can be a way shower to each and every one of you. She understands the path that is ahead and she knows more than she can even comprehend in human 3D. EstaRa is part of our council of elders she is part of all of humanity’s consciousness. She has chosen to come back in this life to teach. Listen to her words for her words are our words as well.

We are here to help you on your journey. We ask you to remain in your balance and in your inside peace for inside you dear ones is where you will always find your peace while the storm brews around you. You will find your peace inside of you. We know, dear ones, how difficult your path has been, but we wish to tell you that if you choose a path of light it will be much easier and the path of light is simply following your heart and your inner truth for your inner truth is always the way in which to go, dear ones. Always listen to your inner truth. For it is what will lead you to what you desire. Do not worry what everyone else thinks in your life or around you. Many of you will make decisions in your current life that will surprise those around you. Sometimes it is a difficult path if you look at it that way , dear ones.

Estara knows for she has chosen that path many times with the people she surrounds herself with. It changes many times. But she also knows this is where her heart has led her. And her heart is bringing her what she desires. For you too dear ones. You shall have that which you desire. We caution you to know that which you desire. If you are unsure refocus your thoughts to what you wish to bring. For what you think and feel will create your reality in this human 3D that is now being compressed with the 5D beliefs and realities of humanity that has been created and is being brought down to this earth. This is your journey dear ones you have choices. We wish you to choose well. We bring you this message with light and love. We honor and respect you.

We are the Masters of Light.

Channeled Message: Be Present

2011-04-02T08:29:00.002-04:00

Channeled through EstaRa on Saturday, April 2, 2011.

A message from my guides:

If you are feeling sad or unhappy, what are you thinking about? Are you in the past ? Are you worrying about the future? Be present dear ones, it is important to stay in your center. When we say stay in your center we mean be present in this moment now. We mean come back to balance dear ones. Balance simply is knowing how to come back to your center when you feel off balance. Many people miss interpret balance to mean they have to juggle it all, but dear ones it simply means that you know how to come back to your center. The center for you dear ones is knowing that you are in the moment and living in the present. Far too many of you think you do this already, but if you pay attention to the thoughts you allow into your human mind, you will see dear ones you will see that you are not as present as you think. It can become a constant struggle for you to stay present or it can become a natural state of being. It is your choice—it is always your choice in how you view what is happening around you.

It is with honor, love and respect that we bring you this message today.

We are the Masters of Light.

Early Breakfast and On the Road Again...

2011-04-01T03:07:00.000-04:00

It's morning and we had breakfast on the roof. Yep, you guessed it--more bread! But this time, we get eggs and tomatoes and hot tea which seems so hard to come by at times here. The tea is extremely black--I swear it almost looks like coffee in the cup...very strong tea. The breakfast room is one floor down from the roof and the view from up here is amazing. As we ate breakfast, we could see the hot air balloons over the city of Luxor. This is the opportunity I have to go on a hot air balloon. I am opting not to do it for two reasons---way too early in the morning for me with the little sleep we have had here I don't want to get up and leave earlier than necessary and I want to save the money for the trip to Alexandria, but I have to admit this morning looking out the window and see the sunrise and the hot air balloon makes me almost regret saying no to the hot air balloons.

Now, we are on our drive this morning to The Temple of Hatshepsut. Hatshepsut was an Egyptian Pharoah, but the real reason we are heading out to the temple is for the Energy Frequency of Hathor. I am beginning to think there is more to Hathor than I knew---by the way, before coming here...I knew little about Hathor. :)

Solara just spoke to our group on the bus about relationships and the role that they will play in the future--during the Golden Age. By the way, the "Golden Age" is when we make it through this earth storm that is happening right now to the other side of the shifting of earth's energies and priorities. She has been receiving a lot of information from her guides about love relationships and how they will be different in the future. She gave us a lot of different information to think about. As I listened to her talk, I started to feel my twinflame's love. I felt so much happening inside of me from all the signs from the day before, last night's past life recollection and just hearing about relationships. Solara opened the floor for people to go up and share on the bus something they felt they wanted to share. Some people went up to speak. So much emotion is coming over me, I am just sitting quietly to myself. Tears are welling up and well I am not sure why I was crying, but the tears are just streaming down my face. I notice there are other people crying too. I don't feel so alone knowing this, but yet I feel alone. I feel lost without my beloved other half. I feel a longing for him. I wonder if he misses me. I wonder if he ever thinks of me and longs for me as I do him? I wonder if he feels that I am away? I wonder so many things and wish just one he would share with me what he is feeling. I do believe that sometimes when he says he doesn't know...he truly doesn't know because it isn't easy to access feelings that you have been so accustomed to shutting off. I just look forward to the day that he finally lets down his guard to let the flood gates of feelings, thoughts and dreams open.

We are here....time to get off the bus again. I will be back to write more later...It is another gorgeous day here and thankfully still much warmer than Cairo was.

Wow, that looks like a long walk to Hatsheupsut.

1.14.11

Past Life as an Egyptian Woman

2011-03-23T09:08:00.001-04:00

Just woke up. The group circle hasn't ended yet--DebRa is not back in our room. I am wide awake now, I wonder what time it is. I reach over the clock and only 40 minutes has passed from the time I laid down in my bed and fell asleep. I feel like I slept for hours it was marvelous.

Now as I sit up in my bed, I feel so many feelings. So much has happened in this day...well this whole trip really. Tonight, I kept feeling my lifetime in Egypt. The lifetime I spent a lot of time healing last spring. It was one of my lifetimes as an Egyptian Woman. I think it must have been here in Luxor or not far from here. The vibe here makes me feel it more.

Last spring, this life came to me in full focus. I think I need to preface this post with the fact that I never used to believe in past lives until I started to experience them several years ago now. This particular life came to me in a flash of about 13 different lives I had had when I asked a question about my twin. (I was more doubtful back then---but after Egypt there is no longer any doubt left. By the way, I am saying this for you all as well as for me.) To this day, I wasn't sure why the 13, but now as I type this I am feeling that those particular 13 were the ones that were most similar to the life I am experiencing today. I know that my twin and I have always been in lifetimes together, but not always in the same capacity. So, if you are one that is a little skeptical about past lives don't worry it is understandable as I was a skeptic at first. And, the truth is that a few years ago I only had a glimpse of that life and didn't really know much about it until last year and tonight I keep seeing images of it.

So the life goes a little like this, I was an Egyptian woman of a pretty high family status. I was single and free to walk around the village and the markets. There was a man that I was in love with. He was a Hebrew Slave. He worked very hard in the hot sun alongside many other "slaves". They were digging something from what I could see in the vision/memory. As an Egyptian woman, my attitude was very self assured and I was pretty independent and it appeared could do what I wanted. I was known for sure by all the people in the markets and village. I definitely had status as I was dressed quite well. I was in the market and I saw my love. (We had secret meetings and met several times secretly. I don't know how that happened, but it appeared that way based on what I did see.) On this particular day, I walked over to where he was working. He was a very dark skinned man from working in the hot sun. He stopped what he was doing and looked up at me. We conversed and as if he forgot himself, he reached his hand up to touch my face as a gesture of love. (His eyes were the same eyes of my twin in this lifetime. I knew instantly it was him.) At that moment, an overseer of the slaves' work came over and used some sort of weapon that was like a staff with a knife on the end and killed him. This is all I had until last year and then last year, I started to get even more information. (I was devastated at the thought of him dying because of loving me, perhaps that is his fear in this life...if he loves me openly he will die? I know that is a very simplified version of what I am saying, but it makes sense, don't ya think?)

All that happened, but what I didn't realize was that I was not only of high status, but I was to marry someone to bring our families together. He was killed for loving me. I also discovered that I was pregnant with our baby and we were planning to escape together and my meeting him in the village was to confirm that that night we would run. When the guard killed my beloved, I was taken back to my palace where I was sent away. I had not only embarrassed my family, but caused more strife because I was not "pure" for this "Holy Union" that was set up for me with the other family. I was sent away during my pregnancy and then when the baby was born, I was not allowed to keep it. They took my baby from me as I could not have a slave's baby especially when I was to marry someone of my class. Oh how I cried at the thought of not only having lost my beloved, but our beautiful creation as well. It explains a lot to me about my life today. I am feeling a lot of sadness and tears. I hear the group coming back from the circle so I must get back to sleep--no time to cry now even though that is truly what I would like to do at this point.

1.13.2011

Channeled Message: Rainbow of Light

2011-03-14T19:53:00.002-04:00

Channeled live at The Shekinah Temple on Sunday, March 13, 2011

Greetings, Dear Ones.

On this evening of light, we bring you a message. EstaRa mentioned the rainbow of energy that we have brought to you this evening. (I saw a rainbow of energy coming down over the group during meditation being swirled down into the crowns of each person present.) We ask you to surround yourself in the rainbow. The rainbow is meant to protect you as a blanket. The red represents security and stability. The orange represents creativity and nurturing. The yellow represents courage and strength. The green light is truth and healing. The sky blue is the color of expression and your voice dear ones. Your voice must be heard in this time. The indigo light is your wisdom and knowledge that you each can tap into whenever you desire. The violet light is your connection to us and your highest self. That is (your higher self) is gradually becoming a part of you every day. Dear ones we are with you always. We protect you always. We wish to let you know we are here with you. When you go outside this evening look up to the star we are there…we are your brothers and sisters of light. We bring you this message this evening with love honor and respect. We are the Masters of light.

Channeled Message: Balance

2011-03-14T19:48:00.001-04:00

Channeled in Middletown, CT on Friday, March 4, 2011 through EstaRa (April D’Amato) and transcribed on this day.

Greetings Dear Ones,

We have a message for you. EstaRa has given you many messages this evening from us. We had to tell her that it is important to tell you to stay balanced. Balance is key in this lifetime of yours. Your 3D is changing rapidly much will be crazy in your terms. However it need not be for you. If you choose it will be light and love that is a path you must choose if you wish. However you may choose chaos and fear that is a path you may choose if you wish to as well. That would be okay we love you still. Many of you are tired. Many of you are tired from your journey it has been a difficult one dear ones. But you would not have been chosen for this journey had you not been warriors of the light before you came to this earth time and space. We tell you this to remind you to activate your light. Activate your light every day and carry it wherever you will go. It is simple to do… calling light into your time and space wherever you go it will follow you and bring to you what you need to prevail in the places that are dark. Many places you travel are dark , dark we tell you is simply lack of light. It is not fearful and is not to be feared. It is just lack of light and you dear ones will bring your light. Do not be afraid dear ones. We know dear ones that many times you are afraid of your own light.

WE will give you a sense at this moment of peace. We ask you to close your eyes and feel within you a peaceful space connect within. We are sending out to you from the heart center of EstaRa, we are sending out to you LOVE. Feel it within your hearts dear one, LOVE. Imagine if you wish a sailboat on the water. The water is rough and restless. But the sailboat goes with the flow of the water. That can be you the sailboat gliding on the ocean of waves that move back and forth rushing but you dear ones will be the peaceful sailboat on the oceans of life. See that at this moment, see you as the sailboat and know inside what that feels like for you. If you allow yourself to feel this at this moment then you will discover that you have all that you need to ride out the storm that we call the final wave of awakening. We call it the storm because it will bring much with it ..it will be quick and it could be destructive but it does not have to be. For some it may be if a solid foundation is not what you have in your life then it can be destructive for it will take away all that is not built upon a solid foundation. It is important that you find within you a solid foundation. It is the key in this storm. The tools you have been learning are all for you to build upon so that you have that solid foundation—again we tell you it is the key in this storm.

You are warriors of light and you will withstand this storm. Your journey is just beginning. Your work has already begun you have the tools within you to withstand any storm that comes upon this earth. There is no need to fear. You are not alone we are with you always. We are watching over your earth we are watching all beings on earth. We are making sure that you are safe and protected. Lightworkers you are loved and are needed now. The earth beings need you now. The earth needs you now. We activate light within each and every one of you. The key word for you this evening is trust in your journey and have faith in all that you are doing. Trust. Too much doubting happens upon your earth look within your answer are there . The doubt only comes from fear. Stay in love==love is balance. Love is light ==Love is what you are. Love is the essence of you.

It is with great love, honor and respect that we bring you this message. We love you dear ones.

We are the Masters of Light.

Channeled Message about Preparation and What is to come.

2011-03-14T19:16:00.002-04:00

Channeled Message in Middletown, CT on March 6, 2011 through EstaRa (April D’Amato).

Greetings Dear Ones,

We come to you with a message for your earth day, your day here upon earth. Much is changing in your world. Much will be different much will change. The truth of who you are shall be revealed to each individual upon your planet will discover who they truly are. The discovery will bring much chaos and light. Both qualities will be brought forward. Light dear one is where all wishes to be. Not all knows how to attain the light within themselves.

There is a divine spark in each and every one of you on this planet earth. The dawning of this new age will bring that spark to the surface to be lit from within but to shine without. Each individual’s power comes from within there is no other way to attain it in this life on your earth. Each individual has an ancient divine spark of power. Each individual has a right to this power it seems highly coveted in your lifetime upon earth however it is there, it is for you to grasp . It is for one and all to achieve.

It is necessary in this lifetime for all to receive this light at this time. In five earth days, light will have reached this planet to a high that is not easily achieved it will create a ripple effect that will go outward from each individual lightworker. The time is now lightworkers we need you to remain in balance. Remain Neutral—step away from the emotions. WE know as humans the emotions are your gift but they are also a difficulty for each of you to maintain in balance. The time is speeding up on your earth we tell you that the next year and half in your earth of time will be as if it were a blink of your human eye. It will be at the time and space that we know of. Realize that much will be done and much can be undone. Great changes will come to your planet that no one has been able to predict. The earth evolution has begun. The final stages are being laid out for you.

EstaRa is asking about preparation. She hears the word preparation quite often…you have prepared all your earth lifetime for this moment. This spark on the earth each and every one of you are required to take notice of where you are and step into your power. Step fully into your light now. We tell you to ask for you to ask for light to light your space and bring it wherever you go and call in the light wherever you go. It will require much work for each of you to remain in balance during these next several months of your earth time. Much will be provided that will pull you off balance. Now is the time to be the warrior that you are. The warrior of light is not in battle it is shining when all else is not. It is your job to stay aligned with light even when emotions will pull you off and when your earth 3D will pull you off balance. Much will happen to created your new reality.

EstaRa is asking about the 5th dimension. The 5th dimension is collapsing upon your 3rd dimension as that begins to happen things will change more rapidly and pressures will be on for all you 3D beings to change and evolve beyond where you have been. No longer will the old ways of living exist comfortably much needs to change and much has changed dear ones. Much has changed . Much has changed making way for the 5D reality to become 3D reality. Your reality and truth is within you. Where do you choose to put your energy.

We area overlighting the planet every human earth day. WE have been here right alongside each and every one of you. Be prepared dear ones, by staying in light and love while the rest of the world will be in chaos because they choose to hold onto their human 3D fears. Many will opt out of the planet at this time. There will be an increase for mass exits. There will be an increase for mass entry as well.

Sacred Couples will be coming together to create a new world bringing in new beings to this earth space and time. (EstaRa no need to put energy into worry. For you will have that which you desire.) You will be amazed dear ones, amazed at what can happen on your earth. You will be amazed at what beauty you will be bring to this earth and you will be surprised at how soon that will transpire on your earth. Stay present in the moment for that is what will bring you what you wish for. Your light is needed but if you are in emotion you can not shine as brightly as you do when you are balanced and present in your moment. There is nothing you need to do to make it happen…all is happening. All has been happening since august of 2010. Energies that came to the planet in August prepared the way and it culminated on 10-10-10 your portal of time and space.

Your dreams are safe dear ones take in the feeling of peace and know it from within you for that is what you must cling to. Maintain your peace for you for your beloved other half will feel that peace and stay in that peace in spirit. That peace is what will make them come and make you whole again. In the 5th dimension each of you knows your role each of you understands where to go what is happening and what to do. The time is now in your 3D human times and mind the knowledge is beginning to trickle in. It has been a slow process but dear ones in 5 days from now that process will increase. Your earth manifestations will increase at a much quicker space. We just bid you peace and love. You are guided and loved. We are the Pleiadian Emissaries of Light. We bid you a fond day and farewell.

In Search of the Nile...Orbs, Orbs, Orbs

2011-03-09T09:07:00.000-05:00

Luxor this city pulls at my heart. Is it because of the time at Edfu or is it because this place feels oddly familiar? I don't know yet. There is now five of us walking through Luxor in search of the Nile. Now you must get the image of this to really understand this blog post and to find the humor that I did (and do now that I am back in the US). There are four Americans and one Roman walking around in a town where the only language really spoken here is Arabic and none of the five people speak Arabic. We are trying to find our way without a map. We changed our plans from shopping at the market where we were going to try our hand at haggling. At first, I was a little disappointed, but as the night went on--I realized what a good idea it was for us not to haggle that evening. I mean we are such spiritual beings, but after all the initiations and experiences we have opened so much more that we were high as a kite on the energy of this place. Haggling would require us to really think and convert money in our mind not to mention knowing the language would be helpful. The conversion to Egyptian pounds is crazy to me: something could be a 450 Egyptian Pounds and really only be about $77 US so you can imagine the confusion with a right brained individual in trying to figure it out. It is times like these that I miss my left brain. hahaha

We are trying to find the Nile. Yes, we know it is the longest river in the world, but it doesn't mean it is the easiest to find. :) So we start walking in one direction and it doesn't feel right.

So we start walking in another direction and it doesn't feel right. So we see a bunch of police sitting around in one area near the Luxor Temple and ask them how to get to the Nile. They nod like they heard us, but then they sent us to the admissions area for the Luxor Temple. They look at us like they know what we asked, but at closer examination they are just smiling at us and haven't a clue as to what we said. We did circle the area for a few minutes before we decided we might as well just walk around Luxor and enjoy the city. I still had some time before my session with Armunkara.

We start walking and find our way to the Nile. It was really a short walk, but because we didn't know where we were going we walked all over the place and it seemed like it took forever...now I can imagine what it must have been like to be wandering in the desert in search of the Nile River in ancient times. Finally you reach it, what an incredible sight. I couldn't capture what it looked like because you would have to be there for the breathtaking feeling. The Nile is so alive you can feel it. This is a picture of the Nile at night and you can see the orbs. Luxor is all Orbs everywhere you look.

Our walk gave us a glimpse of the people of Luxor. The children were so beautiful. As people walked they seemed to be on a mission, they hardly seem to notice us (the tourists) walking by. Is it because they are disconnected and don't notice us or is it because you see one tourist you see them all? I wonder if it is a little of both.

On our way back from the Nile to our hotel, I took more pictures of the city. I was in aww of the orbs that presented themselves there. The interesting thing is that the camera was not necessarily needed to see the orbs--you could see some of them with your own eyes. This is a church we were passing by on our way back to the hotel.

When I got back to the hotel I went up to Armunkara's room for my cranio-sacral session. This was amazing not only did I get incredible back relief, but I got visions of the desert. Here is the vision: I was in the desert alone and just looked up and saw sand in the distance. It was sunny, but I wasn't hot. It looked like the sun was about to set. Then, as I look up a man is coming over the sand mountain on a horse riding to me. He was dressed in really cool clothes and a turban. His clothes were more like Indiana Jones than a Middle Eastern Man. This man did not look Middle Eastern. He just looked right at me and was coming to rescue me. Then, my session ended and the vision was over. Hmmm...what do you make of it? (I am now back from Egypt and still don't know what it means...if anyone picks up on it--let me know.)

Now, I am back in my room just wanting to relax and absorb this beautiful energy from Armunkara.

I am staying in the hotel room while everyone gathers for the group circle. I just feel like I need to be laying down in a clean room, comfy bed and peaceful space. Nighty night...sweet dreams Luxor.

1.13.2011

Downtown Luxor & Visit to a Mosque

2011-03-02T13:36:00.001-05:00

Back now, did you miss me? Betcha didn't even know I was gone...wow...what a night. I am in my room by myself everyone is now gathering for our group circle up on the roof of the hotel. Every hotel except our first one we gathered on the rooftops for our circle gatherings. The roofs of the hotels here are great locations--they have bars, swimming pools and lounging areas. So right now everyone is up there and I am in my room relaxing. I opted out of our group meeting tonight because I had the most amazing session with Armunkara and I just feel like javascript:void(0)I need to be in my bed to allow it to integrate and boy it is the first time my back feels some relief since falling a few days earlier.

So let me take you back a bit to my trek through downtown Luxor at sunset.

About seven of us decided to go for a walk and get money from an ATM and then shop. We started out and right away someone offered camels for me. Jeanne was my rescuer and felt bad for me right away because this had now become a regular occurrence for me everywhere I went. Sitting here in my bed now and writing this makes me think I finally realize why I am so "attractive" to the men of Egypt. I feel like my Egyptian vibe is on. I mean I am being called Ra'chel Ra which is my name from many past lifetimes and quite a few of them had been in this part of the world. So there is no wonder that I am being "recognized" if you will. I must be appearing to them as Egyptian Ra'chel and not Italian, Polish and Ukranian April.

So as we were walking there were six women and one man walking with us. The one guy, Jeff was walking next to me and laughing at the several offers of camels. I pulled him aside after the last time he laughed and said to him. "I realize you have a girlfriend on this trip, but while you are walking next to me and men are offering camels for me you are my husband and you do not want to sell me!" We all laughed, but believe me I truly meant what I said.

So we found the ATM finally after walking a few blocks because the first one we came to didn't work. We still needed to exchange this money for American Dollars, but nothing was open because at sundown, Muslims stop working for the sabbath just as in Judaism. It is amazing how similar Judaism and Islam are in their beliefs and customs. I knew it but seeing the shops and banks closing down as they get ready to pray just reminded me.

So, we stood on the city plaza at least that is what it looked like to me which is where the pictures were taken. As you looked around you could see people walking and talking as children played. It was really a busy little area.

We walked up to the steps of a Mosque as Jeff started speaking with a holy man. He invited us in to see what it was like. Most of our group stayed outside and chose not to go in; only Jeff and I entered. I had never been inside a Mosque before and my curiosity always gets me wanting to check things out. Time seemed limited because people seemed to be making their way into the house of worship to begin prayers. The Imam, Prayer leader (kind of like a rabbi or priest) was the one who greeted us. We removed our shoes before entering. It was very simple inside and beautiful at the same time. You could feel the energy of prayers as you walked through. There was no seating only carpets for people to kneel or sit on to pray. The Imam showed us around and explained that there is one God and we all have different ways to pray including Jews and Christians. He made it very clear that he was open minded and didn't think anyway was wrong. He said it was just a way in which to pray to God. He accepted all. I really liked that he said that and felt comfortable with his explanation. It was a quick tour because as I said they were getting ready to pray.

As we made our way out to the other side of the Mosque, the Imam asked for a donation to an orphanage. Always asking for money for doing such things. Some people were offended, but I was okay in giving them money for the orphanage. It is a little intimidating and awkward to have a "holy man" ask you for money, but it is what it is. This is the view of the downtown plaza at Luxor. Look at the amount of orbs that are present.

After we finished our little tour, we decided to continue walking and opted not to go shopping. Two of our group separated and opted to shop while five of us decided we would try and find the Nile. The search is on to find the Nile...

1.13.2011

Lemon Mint Tea and A Clean Room Equal Happy Moments

2011-03-02T13:03:00.000-05:00

We finally get to the hotel and we are all hungry. We drop off our luggage quite literally, the bus empties our luggage into the hotel and we have plans to go eat at a restaurant for our lunch which is later than lunchtime for us. So we head on out through another market to get to our restaurant. There is something oddly familiar about this Luxor place. It feels amazing.

We drop our bags off and walk down the street through a market place to our lunch. You know after awhile, I feel like a lemming following along. It is hard being in a country where you don't know the language and you have two maybe three people who speak the language and there is a large group of 33 people following along. It is an odd feeling and while I had a sense of comfort with such a large group of beautiful, spiritual beings, it still made for some weird energy going round.
We made our way up to this restaurant which was on a second floor. It looked like we were entering a house at first, but when we got to the second floor you could see the tables set up like a restaurant. Again, a lot of bread! However, the food choices were pretty good considering I was starving at this point.

We are all feeling a little haggard at this point. Well, at least, I was. Luxor has a different energy to me than anywhere else we had been thus far. This place I do feel like I have been before; perhaps not so far back in human history though at this moment, I am not feeling like it was ancient roots. We gather in this restaurant which was waiting for us and they had a menu planned for us. The food was very good there. I had my first drink of lemon mint which was like a fresh lemonade with fresh dried mint on top. It was awesome! And, here you thought I wasn't going to say anything good about the food. :)

We finished up our late lunch and some of us decided that we would try to traverse through the markets of Luxor on our own. We have the rest of the day for ourselves until 8:30 when we are to gather in our group circle. I had to go to an ATM for more money to cover the sleeping train cost and the trip to Alexandria.

I am still achy--oy vey and there are so many stairs to go up--normally wouldn't mind so much, but really?? Tiny elevators with long waits makes you want to do stairs. Booked a session with Armunkara at lunch for a cranial sacral session after we come back from the market.

I am in my room now which is heavenly compared to the last place we stayed at. It is clean!! Oh my I love it here. The room is so clean and we are here for two nights--woohoo!! DebRa just put her suitcase on a wall attached suitcase stand and it just pulled it out of the wall. Oy vey!! Well thank goodness it wasn't me--that is so typically what would have happened to me in the past, but I guess I am well taken care of with the achy back. :) So, I am off to get some money, water and shopping done...

1.13.2011

Bus Trip to Luxor

2011-02-25T08:41:00.000-05:00

When we leave the Temple of Edfu, I was reeling in emotion from my experience. I suppose you could say walking on cloud nine. We still had a little bit of a ride to get to the hotel in Luxor and a ways to go before we get to lunch because that is in Luxor as well.

By the way, the bathroom was not so bad on the bus as a matter of fact, I think I found a whole new level of comfort using the bathroom on the bus. Imagine that? Who would think I would put the word comfort in the same sentence as a moving bathroom? And yet, I did? hahaha Okay the truth is: my bladder was happy that I would no longer hold it and my body was happy because it can go back to drinking water at its regularly scheduled program.

Our Scarab Travel Tour Guides passed out some important information on two things: how to get to Cairo and then the optional trips for us when we arrived in Cairo. The last technical day of our group adventure was a free day and then I had another full day on the Monday I left because we technically ended after breakfast and the flight out was not until 11:25 p.m. So the tour group was excited about putting together some optional trips for us. With this, I had a lot to ponder. First, I had to make a decision on how to travel back to Cairo--plane, sleeper train or nasty train? Now the first two options would be additional money to what I had already paid for my travel expenses, but if you have been following along then you well know that I could not possibly choose the "nasty train". So my options were to fly or travel on the luxurious sleeper train. Such decisions to me made. At first, I thought I wanted to fly, but that was a lot more money to fly and well the optional trips we were being offered had a fee as well. Such a dilemma.

So next, I look over the optional trips for the free days in Cairo. Immediately, I see a trip to Alexandria and I want to go there. Now, of course, it is the most expensive trip that is on the list and the furthest away in travel time too. So I sat with this on the ride because there were other trips that I wanted to take as well--if I had extra time--I would have done them all!! But, I had to be cognizant of money unfortunately so I decided that I would not do the hot air balloon ride. I always wanted to do one and what better place than in Luxor, Egypt, right? Well, that wasn't going to happen because I really want to go to Alexandria and the price was the same as the hot air balloon ride. Now, mind you all the prices presented to us were in US dollars never in Egyptian pounds--they preferred American money.

So after careful consideration, I signed up for Alexandria, the Cairo tour of the Citadel, Coptic Church and Ben Ezra Synagogue and decided against hot air balloon ride.

After long deliberation, I chose the sleeper train to head back to Cairo on. For my comfort, I thought at least I could lie down as you know my back is still aching at this point as I haven't really slept well in days and haven't honored my back. Ironically, the group had 33 people and it split up into 3 groups for the travel back--some continued on the "nasty train", some continued on the "sleeper train" and some on the plane. Another reason to not take the plane was the additional hotel room night we'd have to pay for.

On the bus ride back from Temple of Edfu to Luxor, I sat next to Armunkara (amazing earth angel) and we talked about her doing a Cranio-Sacral Session on me when I got back to the hotel that night. Wow--finally, I thought some relief for my aching back and boy I love cranio-sacral work. We were going to lunch when we got to the hotel and then we would have free time before our group gathering at 8:00 p.m. (I have to say that lunch was at like 2:30 so much for lunch time being at a reasonable hour since I have been up since 6 and had basically eaten an orange and banana for my meals.)

We are nearly there...so far Luxor is looking like a little city. We have been driving through countryside all this time so it is really neat to see this city. I already like the feel...it feels and seems somewhat familiar. Now just some side notes about the drive through the country side. All the guards have machine guns, all the police have machine guns...so too do the farmers. Amazing! And each township we entered there was a "security checkpoint" that we had to stop at. Our tour company had a photocopy of each and every one of our passports so that they could provide it to security if need be.

1.13.11

Signs, Signs, Everywhere There's Signs

2011-02-23T11:40:00.000-05:00

Still at the Temple of Edfu, I had finished my work with walking the light lines of sacred geometry. I carried light with each step and love with each sound out of my mouth. Now, it was as if time slowed down and I have the opportunity to do additional work that was not part of the P's plan. It was work that I came to Egypt to personally do. As I may have mentioned, (and yes, I know I did)this is the Temple of Divine Marriage. The marriage of Hathor and Horus. Here is a wall painting of the two of them seated.

Hathor is the Goddess that has something on her head. (I have to say that it is only now that I realize, she too, has come to visit me in a meditation. I want to say that she is the one who visited me right before I discovered that the love I felt with this man was a twinflame love, but I was really in denial at that time--no not the river...yes a lame joke I know. I didn't hear her speak to me because it was several years ago now, but when I think back right this moment, I feel as though she came to bless me and prepare me for my twinflame reunion. hmmm having said that...there is a lot more that is making sense to me now which will develop as time goes on and you will know because I am likely to share it with you.)

So, as I walked back out to the courtyard, I asked for permission from Hathor and Horus to ground the energies of twinflame love (my soul group specifically). As I felt permission, I grounded all of us (our twin group) into the light of this temple of divine marriage. I called each and every one of them and their twins by name to this place (including me and my twin) and placed the reunions in this high frequency (the highest frequency of love that there was in Egypt). It was so powerful I felt it through me.)

I got up and walked away (leaving behind my shawl not realizing I had and it was cold so I needed it, but I didn't feel anything. And Izabel was trying to get my attention and shouted my name, but I didn't hear her which I found out later because I was so deep in the energy that I was unaware of what was happening humanly around me.)

Then, I walked over to the other side of this courtyard and sat at another column. This time, I asked Goddess Hathor to help me to clarify if who I believe is my twinflame is really my twin.. .(Okay, the reason I asked is like many "twins" I still am human and doubt because in the human 3D we are not together, yet! . By the way, twins in this capacity means twinflames not biological people who have a twin of themselves and were born on this earthly plane together at the same time from the same parent. I still doubted because I wanted to make sure I am not delusional. hahaha It is nearly 6 years since I met him in the physical (and one tell I will tell you how, but it may be in a book and you will have to buy it! hahaha) and some days it feels like an eternity and others it feels just like yesterday.) Anyway, I digress again. I felt very compelled to use this energy of the divine feminine and masculine to clarify my truth. I figured I helped the temple frequency ground and activate so I felt they could help me too. If there was ever a place in Egypt where I would get this clarity and truth it would be here and now. I was prepared for whatever truth should come forward. I have to admit I was a little scared because what if I was delusional? hahaha Now, I would know and I wouldn't be able to doubt it.

So, I closed my eyes and connected with the high frequency of Hathor and asked for a clear message that this person is my beloved twin flame. I specified a visible message not just anything. I opened my eyes and there was the most perfect feather you can imagine right in front of me. Now there was all kinds of muddied stuff around my feet and nothing like that there until I opened my eyes like a fresh feather floated in to greet me. (This is the feather; however, it is a little battered now from my travels and almost thought I lost it, but found it when I arrived home. When I first got home, I thought maybe I didn't see this feather, but I did because here it is as I had found it unpacking my stuff.)

I being me said, "Really? A feather? I can get those at home!" But, I did pick it up as you can see. I wasn't sure that this was in fact the sign. I mean it was a sign, but the sign? So I decided to finish being a tourist, I decided to walk outside to find a bathroom (wishing I would have such luck as to find a clean bathroom) and ran into Izabel with my shawl telling me she was trying to find me. Then I saw Carole who was willing to search for the potty with me. We asked someone to show us and they told us where to walk to. I felt extremely hesitant because it was behind the temple and the guards had machine guns as I am sure I mentioned previously. If I haven't that was the regular thing. So, we decide we would walk on the outside of the Temple of Edfu as Solara An Ra said she would do. As we started to walk, there were numerous stones all around kind of like when someone has a garden and they place rocks in it to keep out the weeds or just to make it look pretty? That is how the outside back of the temple was, minus the garden. hahaha
As I walked around there were a ton of rocks and stones all around the outside of the building and thinking maybe I should take one home. I mean it is the Temple of Divine Marriage afterall (I love rocks and collect them but really? I may go over the weight on my luggage so I say to myself if you are meant to have one it will jump out at you.) I'm doing my final walk around the outside of the building and I notice a rock in the pile that jumps out at me. I reached for it and find that it is a perfect half of a stone.

I feel that is half of the whole and I am one half and "he", my twin, is the other half. This represents twinflames that broke off at creation to experience things differently. (short version of twins!). I took the rock as you can tell and it is mostly quartz. I find comfort and a little smile as I walk back to the bus. I develop one of those grins that "my twin" has when he can't contain that he is so excited. It is one of the cutest looks he has and makes. I just love it--one of the many things I adore about him.

Anyway, I make my way back to the bus and the crazy market doesn't even seem to bother me and I hardly notice it as I am walking high as a kite on this feeling of confirmation. Beginning to believe my guides and the energies of this place think I am a tough case asking over and over again if he is, in fact, the one I think he is and they always come through with numerous signs and messages. (By the way, the over and over again has been over the last several years so this was kind of the big final for me!) And, they did again...as if that were enough...

I made my way back onto the bus and go to reach into my backpack to grab my bottle of water and look for my kleenex back for tissue to go to the bathroom. And, I heard something coming from my bag...I found that my i-phone was playing a song. (I find that my i-phone randomly plays songs without my doing. I mean it could be sitting on my desk at work and all of a sudden it will start playing. It is often a way the universe gives me a message, my angels, my guides, my family and even my twin use it to bring me a message.) The song playing was "How Deep Is Your Love" by the BeeGee's (don't laugh too hard, that it is the BeeGee's, well you can laugh, but it is something special for me and my twin). I mean a couple of summer's ago I heard this song and really "heard" the words and I just started singing it to his energy all the time. And, I would wake up in the middle of the night hearing the song in my room (no music on, no tv or radio just his energy bringing it to me). It was at the part of "we belong to you and me...I believe in you..." Oh here is the song and lyrics. I started to cry tears of happiness. I couldn't believe it. I really got my answer from this magical place. I got three very clear signs. I couldn't believe it! I will never question again if he is or is not my twinflame...I know he is for sure now. It was an amazing experience and day...and hey the day is not over yet....

1.13.11

Walking the Lines of Sacred Geometry

2011-02-23T10:23:00.000-05:00

At this temple, our job is to walk the light lines and activate the energies at this temple with the energies we were carrying over from Kom Ombo. We are encoded with light and by going to a place our very being activates the energies as does just being in our presence. That was even more heightened by the activation from Kom Ombo and light codes that poured in when we were there.

As I mentioned, when I enter through the gate to the other side looking toward the entrance of the temple, immediately my body was covered in goosebumps. It was so powerful because there was a long walk from the gate to the "portal doorway into the temple" which is this beautiful grand entrance.

As I crossed through this doorway, I knew exactly where I needed to walk and where I specifically needed to go. I walked in this doorway then I walked through the left side (near each column straight into the temple) all the way to the back of the building and then I walked all the way back through the right side (through the right side of the temple and near each column). Then I walked to a column on the left and brought light there and then crossed over to one on the right to do the same thing. Then I walked up the middle to the back where the altar room was and back out. It was like I was in a sacred geometry.

I drew a picture on paper showing what the pattern that I walked because I feel like it has some meaning, but then again. (I am not sure even as I am back I feel there is something to it, but I just don't know what the meaning may be.) This is the pattern. If anyone has thoughts, feelings or intuition about this, I'd love to hear.

All the while, I was singing "love, love, love all you need is love, love, love, love". It was amazing the words just came out of my mouth. I saw the others as I walked around, but we just looked at each other with knowing smiles. Then I walked through the main entrance to the temple passed the courtyard in the picture above. It was actually quite amazing..the energy of this place cannot be comprehended unless you were there--those goosebumps I felt walking in stayed with me the whole time. I did see all these orbs without the camera.

I heard as I walked toward the back again where the altar was, I heard very clearly, "Your work is done."

Now I had some time to relax as I felt what I had done already was the mission and I really felt like it was compulsory. I had no choice and now I could take more pictures and actually be a "tourist". But, then I found a group in the back of the building in a side room in the back left off to the side. Cre had paid off the guards to let us "pray". We performed a group meditation with Cre, Carole, Jean and a few others. We called light in and grounded our love and light energy into this time and space. How powerful! I felt like we went somewhere else, but it was only a mere few minutes that we had because then the guards came back to shoo us out of there.

So I went off on my own again, feeling the need to not be with anyone else, I left the group behind and had a little more time to wander around. It was like time had slowed down to give me the time I needed to explore this temple and grounds.

So as I walked, I felt Hathor and Horus so present and the energies of the masculine and feminine were so clearly in Edfu. No wonder they call this place the Temple of Divine Marriage. The union of the male and female, the union of the twinflames male Horus and female Hathor. The divine love runs throughout this place.

These are the ultimate twinflames I thought to myself...if anyone can help me on my journey with my twin and providing clarity it would be here at this place. So, again my work began, AGAIN...

Arriving at the Temple of Edfu

2011-02-22T21:46:00.000-05:00

Here we are. We arrive at Edfu and look at that we have to walk through yet another market. I have to admit that having to walk through markets to places is a bit annoying. It wouldn't be bad if at each market, people didn't offer camels for me or say I have beautiful eyes or ask if I wanted an Egyptian husband. Really? I mean if I wanted an Egyptian husband I'd show some interest and if the people on the tour wanted to sell me for camels they would probably put up a sign and it would be 25 not 10 or 20. hahaha

Anyway, here I am at Edfu. We walked through the marketplace and then we entered some building and had to walk through there for security. Which again was just someone saying open your bags and place them on the table and walk through a scanner type thingy that beeped every time you walked through--shouldn't it only beep when you walk through and have a weapon or something? Also, shouldn't the bags be viewed? It was just kind of funny and weird.

So as we exit the other side of this building...I could feel it immediately the highest frequency vibration I have felt yet. Solara An Ra and her guides told us that the frequency was alive and well with Hathor and Horus here. It was truly incredible and I could feel it.

As we walked toward the entrance of the Temple, Solara An Ra had us stop and not gather in a circle. Instead, she was going to make it look like she was a tour guide. She is really funny--I love her personality. She channeled a message to all of us about what we were to do while we were there. The P's named off 12 of the people on our trip that have definitely been there to this place before which meant they had some healing and work to do there specifically for their mission. I didn't feel I was there before, but I did feel that I needed to be there. Our mission was to sing love into this place and walk the "light lines" that ran through this place. Our mission as the light tribe of 33 was to spread our light by walking the sacred geometry through this place. We were told it would be easy to tap into if we just followed the light lines we were drawn to. It was another individual/group effort there. Solara An Ra was so drawn to the energy she couldn't wait to get going and walk outside the temple that is where she was drawn immeditately. I just couldn't wait to walk inside so I did...I felt like I need to be alone to do my work so I made my way in ahead of the people I was with. I just felt pulled to go.

And so, my work began....
1.13.11

Divine Marriage: Illusion or Reality?

2011-02-21T11:17:00.000-05:00

So on my way to the Temple of Edfu, we had quite a drive ahead so I did a lot of thinking about my twin. I couldn't help it. I mean we are going to the Temple of Divine Marriage. Now, I haven't thought too much about him as you know I have been pretty busy. Okay, Okay, so I have thought of him, but I haven't been conscious of it in the sense of thinking just certain experiences have brought him front and center in my heart, but I have not let the focus be on him. But this place we are going is to The Temple of Divine Marriage...the temple of twinflames Hathor and Horus.

As I sit here looking out the window, I am pulled to last September and image of one particular day began flashing in front of the window. I mean flashing, I didn't even notice the landscape half the time. I teach all the time as you all know that is one of my favorite parts of my business. I was teaching a class on Reiki Level II to my students on Saturday, September 17, 2010. I will never forget this day. It was an ordinary day and I had a class of about four students. I had just finished attuning each of them to the Reiki Two Symbols and attunement. I always give my students time to write or draw their experiences to keep in their journals so while they did that I sat down in my favorite chair and said to myself, "Okay, Angels attune me now." I closed my eyes and saw myself in my meditation garden--the garden I go to when I used to meditate over the summer. It was beautiful with vivid colors for the flowers. I opened my eyes to check on my students and they were still writing. I closed my eyes and was back there again. My guide met me and I said where are we going. We kept walking through my garden and then I saw up ahead a large door ( I mean it had to be 50 feet tall and wide). I said to myself, "Wow. That is a big door not sure if I can open it." My guide said follow me and reached out his hand for me to take hold of. (I swear my guides must think how difficult I am, but I bet they get a good laugh at me from time to time too!) I didn't want to leave the fifth dimension (that is where I was), but I had a class to teach so I opened my eyes and asked my students if they wanted to share their experiences. And not one did! IT was the weirdest things most people want to share their experiences and not one did. It was kind of crazy, but I said okay...let's go get grounded with some lunch. We left the office to walk down the street to the restaurant we all decided on and as we walked down the street, I saw with my eyes wide open (can't walk with closed eyes, well you can but you will crash into things too much!) my garden and the door were there. I was still walking with my guide and we were getting closer to the door and as I approached the door, it opened out toward me and behind the door was this tremendous amount of light coming out. We were being seated in the restaurant in 3D, as I was led by my guide in 5D to the doorway and he helped me to the door as an angelic being placed a crown of light upon my head. It was so beautiful and powerfully moving. I cried on the inside tears of happiness and immense love and gratitude I couldn't show it to my students because I don't think they would understand and also it was their time to enjoy their attunement experiences it was their day really. As if that wasn't enough...

As I made my way through the door, another being of light brought me along forward and I asked, "where are you taking me?" And the reply was so matter a fact like I should know, "to your beloved." And right there before my eyes stood my beloved twin waiting for me--it was HIM! No disputing who he was it was the human looking him. He reached out his hands to me like he was waiting for me and I placed my hands in his. We stood there together, my right hand over his left and his right hand over my left. We telepathically exchanged wedding vows. Yes, we were married in that moment. It was the most incredible moving experience I had ever had. This was all in my garden in 5D with my eyes wide open in 3D. How powerful that is to be able to see the multidimensional reality at the same time. That was the beginning of so many changes that occurred and not one person at the table knew what was happening to me...and to be honest I don't think I really knew it either. It was about 3 days later that I realized what had happened because when I spoke with my Twin in the 3D on the telephone I felt like he knew in some way...and as I have mentioned before he is really human and not too open to the whole intuitive thing let alone the 5D thing.

Since that day, things have been different as I feel his stuff within me. I have always felt his stuff, but I knew it was his. Now, it takes me some time to identify if this is his or mine when I am feeling stuff. I feel like that was our divine union to become one. It has happened in 5D and now needs to trickle down into 3D. I believe it will, but here it is January 2011 and this happened in September 2010 and it hasn't happened as of yet, will it? Am I right? Or am I crazy? All these thoughts are running through my head. How can I tell people about this? It sounds crazy, but then again it was all real--I felt it like he was really standing in front of me holding my hands. Since that day I felt him beside me always differently than before...

We are arriving at Edfu. Will be back with more later. I always wanted to be married on September 17th...and maybe just maybe my wish has been my command...

1.13.2011

Back down to Reality for the moment...

2011-02-21T10:28:00.000-05:00

After this completely amazing experience at the Temple of the Crocodiles, I realized before we walk back to the bus that I needed to go to the bathroom. We walked down the sidewalk past the beautiful Nile. It is so much more incredible to see in person, but for lack of a better way to show you the Nile...here is a glimpse of the Nile outside the Temple of Kom Ombo.

So I felt really high on the energy again and well the bathroom experience brought me back to reality which was probably not a bad thing as the last time I left a temple experience feeling all high on the energy--I slipped down the last three steps of the Great Pyramid and hurt my back. (by the way, still is a little achy.) After waiting in line for many of us to use the bathroom, I get in there and there is no toilet paper. (mental note--make sure to bring your own toilet tissue when traveling through Egypt) And, as if that was the worse, the bathroom again was disgusting. So, I tried, but couldn't go--okay perhaps too much information for you, but it was a real problem for me. My bladder was like no way are you going here so I opted to wait till I got back to the bus (opted is really not the correct term, my body wouldn't allow me to go is more the truth!). Meanwhile, in my head saying prayers to the Gods to please let the bathroom on the bus reflect much much more cleanliness than the one at the temple. The bus bathroom wasn't so bad when it wasn't moving. (as you well know if you have been following along in the blogs there is something to be said about the driving that happens here.)

Now I am on the bus, sitting with my journal and writing my experience. It was truly an incredible experience. I am so excited about the rest of our journey. It still feels like quite a reflective time for me. I still feel quiet not like the April I know back at home in the US--not like the April many of you know back in the US. So many feelings are swirling around me like mad. The energy here is so fast and so furious that there is hardly any time to process or digest it so it keeps me going on full swing ahead, but wondering when and if I will have a moment to just allow it to filter through me...or the question is when?

We are on our drive to the Temple of Edfu. This is the temple I have been so excited about going to since I saw it on the Itinerary when I booked my trip. Temple at Edfu is dedicated to Horus, the embodiment of resurrection. In Egyptian mythology Horus was married to Hathor - every year the priests travelled with statues of the God and Goddess between Edfu & Denderah, celebrating their 'Divine Marriage.' So this temple is also know as the Temple of Divine Marriage.

If I am to receive anything about my twin this would be the energy in which I would receive it, right? That is what I was thinking. I couldn't wait. I was in anticipation and excitement. I couldn't wait for us to arrive there.

So did I see what I really saw in September 2010? That is the question...my next blog will tell of my divine marriage with my beloved twin.

1.13.2011

Kundalini Rising

2011-02-21T09:15:00.000-05:00

After the vision of the priests and priestesses in Kom Ombo, I continued into my meditation. I sat for a second wondering if that was real, but I didn't have time to stay and question because then I felt my energy get pulled a little deeper.

As I got pulled a little deeper into the energy I realized it was the kundalini activation that Solara An Ra and the P's talked about. They had mentioned that we would experience a kundalini activation (kundalini rising from the base of our spine up and out the third eye). This temple and its energies have been known to activate kundalini as depicted by this wall display of a cobra.

This would be experienced by us seeing a snake rise up or feeling a snake rise up within us. (Okay so, when we talked about this on the bus before arriving to Kom Ombo I have to admit that I felt really uncomfortable with that thought. I mean I know in spirituality that a snake symbolizes kundalini and spiritual wisdom; however, in my personal dreams a snake is symbolic of something sneaky and sly occurring around me or something harmful. So needless to say I have always been fearful of snakes.) And here I am, feeling this energy beginning to come up from the base of my spine and I felt completely calm and okay and not worried about what will happen. It continues up my spine and I begin breathing in colors--mostly purple and then I see my third eye as clear as day looking right at me. Then, the energy began to calm down as I brought myself back to the present. I started to feel the cool breeze and I open my eyes to see a bunch of people from our group in the same area. It was so incredible and nothing to fear.

I was a little "high" on the energy, but the reality is that on this trip I was always "high" on the energy not really noticing it as being different like I do when I am home and feeling "high on the energy". After this experience, it was soon time to walk back to meet up with the group, but first I took a few more pictures of the things I wanted to capture. This picture is of two men cleansing the one man in the middle as if in preparation for the rituals to take place.

Who would think that these wall carvings would be so well preserved, but they are. It was truly incredible. Here is another wall carving depicting surgeon's tools.

Historians say that this shows a skill in the field of medicine even back in ancient times. Is that the case? Or is it that these tools were used for ritual? I wonder...I mean a lot of information that historians have put out there is a bit inaccurate. I am sure there are some accuracies, but I am also sure that they don't have the whole truth as they were not "seeking the truth withihn", now were they?

We then made our way down the Nile back to where we met the rest of the group. Not before stopping to enjoy the view of the Nile before meeting the group.

1.13.2011

Temple of the Crocodiles Rituals

2011-02-21T08:43:00.000-05:00

WOW!!!

The Temple at Kom Ombo--the Temple of the Crocodiles. What an amazing experience! This is the entrance into the temple. The sky was so beautifully bright blue and the clouds were amazing and wispy; yet I was cold again! (Layer your clothes when you travel to Egypt...you will appreciate this knowledge for later.)

So what I learned is that this temple was erected for the God Sobek--a man depicted with a crocodile head. This temple is so well preserved. Here is a picture of the God Sobek

Our tour guides took us around to see some of the amazing preserved parts of this temple along with some amazing depictions that I will talk about a little later, but first I need to tell you my experience.

So when we were "set free" to roam about the temple, we had about 35-40 minutes to explore on our own and to do a connection. Our mission was to find a place that we felt pulled to sit and connect with energy. I was walking through this one area that I didn't want to leave, but I have to say that it was a strong pull for me to stand and lean up against the temple pictures, but the truth be known I was cold. I opted to keep searching for another spot trusting I will be able to connect somewhere else. So I kept walking for a few minutes until I felt pulled to another area and thankfully it was right in the sun. It apparently pulled a few of us over to it because after I finished my connection there were at least 4 -5 other people from our group around there.

I was pulled to sit down on a stone and leaned up against it so it looked like I was resting. (Not meditating because remember people are no longer allowed to meditate at the temples--it was a new law that was put into place.)

I found it quite comfortable to sit there while the sun poured down over me. It seemed as if the wind stopped blowing just for the time I was in meditation. I closed my eyes as I sat there; allowing myself to breathe and brought my focus inward. Then all of a sudden, I connected with the energy of Kom Ombo and a movie began to play in my head. I mean it was like I was really watching a movie of what used to occur at Kom Ombo during ancient times. The next thing I knew was that I am watching as Priests and Priestesses beginning to arrive by raft along the bank of the Nile. They didn't stop to "dock" at the bank; instead they continued onward toward land. There was an opening under the temple a sort of passageway that they rafted into. (By the way, humanly now there is nothing physically at this temple resembling anything that looks like an opening for them to raft into.) As they rafted in it was night time. The moon was full in the sky and the only they had was the moon light and stakes with fire on the ends. Under the temple, the priests and priestesses gathered around for it is an initiation ceremony. The new members are required to partake in a ritual to overcome their fear and earn respect and protection from the Gods. Where they gathered there were three chambers with crocodiles swimming in them. As part of the initiation, the initiate had to to reach down and scoop up water from the chamber where the crocodile swam. They had to drink from the water of the crocodiles. Then it was gone--the vision disappeared. It came so quickly and then left...was it real? Was this my imagination? Truthfully, it felt like it was a scene from an old Sherlock Holmes movies I had seen years ago.

Bus Ride to Kom Ombo

2011-02-20T21:28:00.000-05:00

So we got up early this morning and had to have our luggage outside the door by 6:30 and it was 5:50 and they were already looking for our luggage. OY! We managed to get out of the room by 6:15 to go and have breakfast--and by now you must know that breakfast's main component is bread. There were also hard boiled eggs and salad type things. Oh yummy! Not!

Anyway, on a half empty tummy, I made my way to the bus. I decided to sit by myself so I could write in my journal. This is an exciting day...we are going to two temples on our way to the hotel in Luxor. I am looking forward to the trip to the second temple, but this first temple I am not sure what to expect. All I know is that people call this Temple at Kom Ombo, the Temple of the Crocodiles. Travel books say that it is called such because in ancient times sacred crocodiles basked in the sun on the river bank overlooking the Nile.

Solara An Ra channeled the P's (also known as Pleaidians--it is a long word to write so going forward if I remember I will simply write P's.) and they told us that we need to discover for ourselves what this temple was all about. Because of the attention we attracted at the Temple of Isis, we were not going to stay in a group as it would cause too much attention.

Our job is to do two things while we are at this temple. The first is to find a place within the temple that we are drawn to and connect with the energies there to ascertain what we sense about this temple. The second mission is to activate our kundalini. Now, I have done that before, but not on command so I am guessing the energies will have something to do with us activating...it will happen. I trust...I trust...

Oh and I also trust that if there are any real crocodiles lurking around that I will be okay, too!
1.13.11

Last Night in Aswan

2011-02-16T23:32:00.001-05:00

We bid farewell to Aswan tonight. I called home and found out that there was this massive snowstorm...a Noreaster occurring. They sounded so cold and stuck inside that I was so grateful to be in this hotel that I thought was icky.

When we got back from the Papyrus Museum, a few of us decided to have a cup of tea. Yes, you guessed it...boiled mint--it was definitely my favorite Egyptian food..yes I know it is a beverage, but by now you must know that the food choices for me were really slim to none. Even if I wasn't gluten sensitive the amount of bread they served us was way over the top. We sat outside overlooking the beautiful Nile at Sunset. Here is the view that we saw sitting down having our tea.

It was beautiful and yes a cool night again. We gathered up in a circle to share our experiences of the day. I still felt quiet again this night. I did share in circle, but I feel emotions building up within me like there is more happening to me energetically than I know. My back was a little achy still from the fall today and tonight as I sat in circle I had a little difficulty in focusing because my legs kept getting restless. Now, I am sitting in my room trying to figure out how to upload some blogs to post, but oh well not sure that will happen. The interesting thing is that since the train ride I think we finally opened up a little and bonded with one another more. In the circle, we all seemed to share a little more. It is beginning to feel like I am really with my soul family. I love them. I have been looking for a soul family for sometime and I think I have found them.

Okay, DebRa is back in the room and she is tired and wants to go to sleep too. We are waking up early again--Big Surprise (I know, not April's schedule of wake up whenever and go from there. hahaha) No instead early day and our luggage has to be outside the door by 6:00 a.m. to get taken down to the bus. We are off to our new location in Luxor by way of the Temple of the Crocodiles and the Temple of Edfu (I am soooo looking forward to the Temple of Edfu--it is also known as the temple of divine marriages and we all know what that means--twinflames. Twinflames!!) Okay enough excitement for tonight, my eyes are watering and no I am not crying it is from being way too sleepy. Good night world...off to la la land...see ya there
1.12.11

Arcturian Pendant

2011-02-16T11:56:00.000-05:00

After the Papyrus store, there was a jewelry store for us to go into. I thought I would take a peek and see what they had. Everyone was looking for a cartouche which is your name written in Egyptian Hieroglyphs. I just wasn't pulled to that. So I walked around and saw this pendant that pulled me to it. I mean really pulled me there. It is the only piece of jewelry of its kind. I mean the whole design was not Egyptian. I asked how much it was and they told me and I thought no way. I walked away. Then Carole and I walked around the store. I showed her the pendant and she said, "Ra'chel you need to buy it. You will go on the whole journey wishing that you had. Go ahead and buy it." With that, I gave myself permission--it is not like I will be back here again. This is the picture of it...

Now I will skip ahead for the moment to the last day of my trip when I channeled my Arcturian Brothers and Sisters. They channeled to me that this pendant was there just for me. They asked me to recall the case and remember what was in it. There was nothing slightly resembling this. It was waiting there for me to pick up. It was something that as time goes on I will connect as symbolic of my Arcturian lineage. How cool is that? I wear this pendant almost constantly and I am loving it. Amazing energy and loving the star shape which is what I am thinking they want me to pay attention to.
1.12.2011

Papyrus, Isis & Osiris

2011-02-16T11:26:00.000-05:00

After Solara finished giving messages to us from her guides, we had the rest of the day free to relax. (Now mind you, we have been going and going and going so having that free time was necessary and awesome!) We had lunch and then there was an opportunity to visit a Papyrus Museum (another state store). Not everyone wanted to go so only some of us went. I was kind of waffling on whether to go or whether to get more rest (because I certainly could have used the rest), but when I heard that papyrus may be a lost art in the near future due to the building of the Aswan Dam, I decided I was in. The Aswan Dam was built to control flooding along the Nile and saved the region from flooding; however, unfortunately, it is preventing Papyrus Reeds from growing abundantly and has impacted this industry tremendously.

The Papyrus Museum was another amazing looking building (it was a state sanctioned store so it is much nicer than most buildings we drove by in Aswan even the hotels) they did this really interesting presentation about papyrus. It was a great presentation on how they make the papyrus. Did you ever hear about it? I totally loved it. I think I will remember that for a long time so if you want to know...ask me...I can tell you. Papyrus is the paper made from papyrus reeds and then they handpaint beautiful designs and images anywhere from scenery to Egyptian Mythology. They explained how you can tell it is an authentic Papyrus and how it is not. (Of course, there is no way that I could go there an not buy Egyptian Art, I mean I am in Egypt, right?) After the presentation, we were given the opportunity to walk around this fabulous place. The building that housed the papyrus museum was large and beautiful and there were hundreds of different pictures to choose from. One was displayed on the wall with a number and then in the back they have the one you would buy.

At first, I wasn't sure what I wanted. I did love the Goddess Nut Papyrus. (Just so you know how to pronounce it--it is Noot not nut! hahaha) It was extremely beautiful because it depicted a blue sky with stars on it--amazing! Then, I knew exactly which Papyrus I was looking for.

I was searching for a papyrus to tell the story of Isis and Osiris. Their love was epic and her faith was unwavering. It made me think of my love with my twin and how unwavering it is...no matter what, I have faith in our love. As I walked around, I couldn't find the one I was looking for with Isis and Osiris. I asked for assistance to find the picture I was looking for. The story that the perfume guy told me from the night before and having just visited the Temple of Isis was fresh in my mind. I thought it was funny that they only had this one. It is a picture of Isis and Osiris entering Paradise. And I saw it and heard the name of it and I knew immediately that is the one. Isn't that what it is with twinflames, paradise? Well, honest answer is no, it hasn't been and it isn't yet; however, that is what it is when both twins remember and come together fully.

See, often in twinflame relationships one remembers and the other does not. In my experience with my twin, I really believed he remembered before me. I mean I felt something immediately, but I kind of ran away because it wasn't what it was supposed to be at least not what I conceived in my mind for it to be; but he remembered right away. His spirit spoke through his human mouth the following, "I know I am supposed to love you, marry you and have children with you in this life." (yes, in this life is what he said.) And then long story short--he forgot again. The story of me and my twin will one day be written. Before, I go too far off on the tangent into the twinflame oddysey, I will remember for the moment I am writing about my experiences in Egypt.

This picture to me is an ultimate representation of twinflames. Isis represented the twin who remembered who her other half was even when Osiris was killed and hidden from her. Her undying love, the search for her husband and the belief that she could breathe life back into him. If you look closely, this depicts Osiris as he may have looked pieced back together. (If you remember the story, he was chopped up into pieces by his brother Set and Isis searched and searched for him not letting it go knowing one day she would find her beloved. When she found him she pieced him back together(except one important male part--interesting...hmmm)and breathed life back into him. This is why she is represented with the key of life, the Ankh, as she is also known as the Goddess of Life. The connection for twinflames in this picture is more than just the unwavering love and faith Isis had for Osiris, her twin; it was also the "piecing together" of Osiris. Before coming together, twinflames piece together their past lives, heal them and are prepared to help their twin to come to them more fully. The pieces they are putting back together are the many "lifetimes" they lived apart since their creation and all that needs to occur for their full reunion.

(Several years ago, I was out hiking with a friend. After the hike, I sat and did a meditation and a friend was there with me. I was describing to him all that I had seen. It was this beautiful woman coming my way as she approached closer she asked me to open my hands. I put my hands our with palms up reaching. She placed something within it. It looked like a funny looking key. After, I came out of the meditation, my friend laughed at me and said you need to brush up on your goddesses. That was Isis and she just gave you the key of life, the Ankh. Wow...and boy did she because after that I felt the power to make my life more beautiful.)

I did purchase a few other papyrus items. Here is one that I plan to have framed and placed in my office. Nature always speaks to me especially birds, rocks and trees. This particular picture stood out to me because it had lots of color (which I love) and the birds in a tree.

My shopping trip turned out to be happy...I am grateful for the experience.

1.12.2011

Not Pleiadian or Sirian...but Arcturian?

2011-02-11T10:01:00.001-05:00

When we arrived back at the hotel, we all gathered in circle which is a little different than the other circle times--this is mid-afternoon with a beautiful sun shining above us. We gather in circle outside overlooking the Nile River.

It is a beautiful sun filled day and appeared much like I imagined Egypt to be. There was a chill being out by the Nile (boy is is a beautiful river), but boy that sun was so hot! I mean hot as it was beating down on us as we waited for meditation to begin. I even wore a scarf on my head....I looked something like this sporting the Egyptian look. (but this is a picture of me back from Egypt with a scarf I bought in Egypt)

We made sure this wasn't going to last long because of the hot sun; but I must say I was rather enjoying it since in Cairo I was freezing, did I tell you that? hahaha Armunkara Angel led us again into a guided meditation which once again was so powerful. Her voice and channel is so magical that it moves us through space. It was a powerful integration of the energies of Isis. She is so talented with her gift of channel that what appears to be a simple meditation in actuality packs such a wallop and punch that you can't help, but to integrate to realign your spirit! I felt high as a kite after. Then Solara channeled a message from her guides about our experiences at the Temple of Isis. DebRa channeled a message as well about how to remain balanced during our times at these temples because the energy is so powerful that it is easy to get out of balance. Thank you DebRa...great technique. It was an incredible day of receiving channeling information.

Then we did some basic housekeeping stuff with Solara An Ra about our trip back to Cairo. The original plan was to go back on the "nasty train", I mean the first class train (well you all know what I mean if you have been reading along!), but since we were all so resistant to that idea we were given options. To change from the "first class train", would cost us more and I am thinking I would pay more just for the cleaner options. :) The options were the nasty train or take the sleeper train or an airplane. The difference was $100 to $200 US Dollars so it was definitely something to think about. As it was this trip was magical to be able to go to, but one must think about money, but in this instance I felt like money should not be an object-I will ponder I thought...

At the Temple of Isis after the initiation, Solara offered to take pictures with people after the initiation. However, because our time at The Temple of Isis was so rushed and limited many of our group did not have pictures with Solara at the Temple. After our circle, Solara offered to do pictures with the Nile River as a backdrop. The rest of the day was free time so we could do whatever it is we liked. My friend Carole's camera was no longer working so I had offered to take pictures for her.

As Solara stood with each individual, it was like she was initiating them again because her guides came through with a message channeled for each individual. That was awesome to see and I totally loved hearing other people's messages. Very powerful and moving. (I was a little disappointed that I had already had my picture taken back on the Isle of Philae.) Then, as if Solara An Ra read my mind, she offered to channel a message to those of us who had already had their picture taken. I was so excited--doing mini cartwheels inside. I really wanted a message! I mean I am always giving messages to my friends, clients, students and well I want one for me from someone else. :)

Side note, so far on this trip, I haven't really been myself. I mean I am quiet ( I know those of you who know me can't even imagine that, but try...really try.) I felt really reflective and inside myself....almost feeling lost in emotion and stuck, but not really? If that makes any sense. I felt like I just wanted to experience the trip and not think. I was so emotional on my way, that I feel part of me was afraid to feel everything else so I got quiet and stepped into the background...if it were not for the people I interacted with I don't know that anyone would have known I was there. (hmmm...the worthiness thing perhaps? Am I worthy to be here on this trip that truly on paper I cannot afford? Am I worthy to be this kind of light? All these thoughts pervaded my mind from time to time. Was I really this powerful Goddess when I lived in Egypt in other lifetimes? Now this is something I hope to explore later, but just in case...what I learned was that my lifetimes in Egypt have not always been good for me...I mean I have had much pain and trauma in those lifes and I believe once I stepped foot on the sand--those old energetic memories pervaded my life there.)

Back to my message. Now, while she was channeling a message for everyone else...we could each hear it. I heard one person receive the message you have to love yourself more--okay that wasn't the message, but it was the gist of it. So I am standing there thinking...I better not hear that as I have been doing the work to love me. I do love me I really, really do as all or most of you are aware that it is TRUE. Rest assured, that was not my message.

It was my time to received a message from Solara and I was excited, nervous and anticipatory.

She first channeled a sound into me. It was a beautiful sound that didn't sound human. It was very powerful. Then she channeled a message into me which I wish I wrote it down (by the way this is another one of those times that I tell you all to write things down that you think you will remember and then lo and behold, you don't write them down and you don't remember. It is okay--I do that too!) I don't remember the exacting wording that she said, but I do remember most of it. Her guides channeled through her the following information: "You are an Arcturian starseed. Your mission on earth is love. The life you have chosen to live is, in fact, carrying out your mission. It hasn't always been easy, but it is exactly what it is meant to be. You will have a much easier time of it." Okay that is what I remember and I asked from support from my guides to help me with the clarity of it.

In case you are all wondering what is Arcturian? Arcturus is a planet full of light beings. You may have heard of the Pleiadians and the Sirians...well Arcturians is another member of the Galactic Federation. I always knew that I was something--hahaha I often wondered if I was Pleiadian, but now I have received my clarity which is something I have been searching for. So, we will talk more about them in the future...keep your eyes open to Arcturian information..(I'd love whatever you have gathered over time...as I have very little information about then at this point other than what I personally am channeling.)

So, Solara comes out of her channel and says, I don't know anything about the Arcturians and I think, really? Just my luck--I am a being from another mother and no one can help me. No one else on our tour was "seeded" as Arcuturian...(the other people she gave information about "seeding" were either Pleiadian or Sirian)yet again I am different, but I am liking it this time around, I must say. Just disappointed that she didn't have any information or has not worked with Arcturians before me. Someday I will have to ask Solara to ask her guides to channel information about the Arcturians for me.

Onward, we still have the rest of the day...hey I am Arcturian, what are you? Just trying it on for size. :)

1.12.11

The Island of Philae Part Two: The Escape

2011-02-10T23:10:00.000-05:00

So here we are trying to tour the Temple of Isis so we can "feel" the energy and take pictures of this magnificent place. Still being closely followed by this man,the tourism police or just an annoying man following me, one never knows, but he was still following me. So we thought that maybe if we take his picture that would be enough for him to leave. (Of course, we tipped him for that--it was like saying hey thanks for following me around...here is your tip. NOT!)

Ironic, he was standing on the other side of the gate in this area where we walked to that was enclosed, so it looked like he was in jail...hmmmm such humor the Gods have!

Finally, we were able to get into the building of the Temple (able to get away from that man for a few minutes--I mean it was like he was looking for me when I disappeared he kept looking). In the back of the Temple, there was a room that looked like a place where rituals were performed. It had a stone altar and if you touch that altar, the magical energy that flowed into you was incredible. Everyone felt something there until a guard came and told us not to touch it. So, I let go of the altar table. Stepping away, I moved over into a corner in this room, and asked for help from Isis because I had my emotional meltdown just a few minutes earlier(you know the crying bout I had because of all the male attention I had experienced in the last couple of days--it was just so overwhelming just a few minutes earlier). I asked my guides and Isis to help me to put up an invisible shield around me. (By the way, I had been asking for that invisible shield earlier, but it was not working.) Then all of a sudden like magic , I saw a wrapping of gold light come around me from head to toe. I could feel it like almost a suit of armor was wrapped around me. It was like I stepped out of time. Before, I knew it--my friends said it was time to go and leave the room. It was a small room so we needed to leave it and allow others to come in. I walked out and that guy that was looking for me...walked right by me as if I was not there...Jean and Carole noticed it too. It worked...OMG it worked!! I was so grateful and felt so much better.

Now, it was time to gather back near the beginning where we started...so much for getting the opportunity to enjoy the temple. I finally get a sense of comfort and it is time to go.

We were watched very carefully by all security there. I feel like security was on high alert that day from us all being there. I mean how could they not feel the intensity of 33 lightworkers? Our presence was known if not consciously on different level it was clearly known. I wonder if wearing white had more to do with the color of white. I know that Muslims wear white when they are on a pilgrimage and wonder if that had something to do with us drawing so much attention.

The whole experience while magical at moments was a bit unnerving for me. I certainly did feel the presence of Isis there. Was just glad to leave the Island. The boat took us back to the port where our bus was waiting for us....not that the walk through the market was uneventful because again we were getting slammed with a market and offerings of camels, etc. What can I say? All in a day's work?

1.12.2011